i know i say that atsushi likes to spend his extra cash on kyouka but i also dont think kyouka lives there for "free" like she could, atsushi wouldn't mind, but i feel like it makes more sense for her to contribute since its not like atsushi's rolling in cash
maybe atsushi wouald be hesitant at a 50-50 thing becuz she's so little and he cares so much about her but i dont believe its 0-100 ya know?
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It's so wild to me to think that most people are just able to have jobs. Like, even if they don't like it, they're fully able to look for jobs, do interviews, and then actually do the job for years. How is that possible. I want to throw up even thinking about having a job. I imagine myself going to an interview and just, puking. Passing out, crying, possibly just not going at all. I don't know if that's even possible for me, I don't think my body and mind could handle that. It scares me so much. I don't want to live with my mom all my life. But I don't see myself ever having a job. I genuinely, 100% believe it would kill me in one way or another
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Well glad to know I'm not the only one not feeling the Christmas season this year. Mom isnt either
Now we dont know why, but here are my guesses. Feel free to place your bets.
Is it:
Bc our aunt/great-aunt died and essentially dissolved the family
|_> Bc of this we've faced so much bullshit from the surviving family we have left.
Bc the only remaining family we have are major assholes aside from like 4 people.
Long covid?
Work stress/ working under a tyrant piece of shit.
Bc I'm an adult now so the *magic* is gone?
All of the above??
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one day, im gonna sit down and write a poem about how after adopting a dog who spends 80% of his time sat in my lap, ive come to appreciate how difficult it is to do things without jostling him and how id never appreciated the gentleness of the stranger who had picked me up, held me and carried me home when i tore a chunk of flesh out of my leg at age 9 when i ran into barbed wire playing hide and seek tag, and how a man i didnt know had done everything he could not to jostle me as i clung to him, and just how difficult it must have been for him not to jostle me, and how he didnt need to be that gentle or to help me at all but when he was the first adult a different child could find and ask help from, he didnt hesitate to do everything he could, and how every time im trying to do anything without jostling archie, i think of him, and how anytime some piece of media tries to tell me that computers have figured out humans can only destroy, i cant take it seriously because with nothing to gain from it, he did everything he could to help a child who was hurting.
i just dont know how the fuck to put all of those feelings into coherent words because theres just so much feeling and emotion that goes into it, and because im always more critical of my work when its more optimistic or positive and how that definitely says something all by itself, but i still dont know how to word any of it.
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don't mind me, I'm just gonna barf from the anxiety of spending Lots of money lmao
got our car taken care of and turns out my headlight went out this morning so got that replaced too
they found a small amount of oil leaking from somewhere but it's gonna cost extra to get it checked out. which I absolutely am going to, booked an appointment for next Wednesday. plus our car is almost at 125k miles so it's time to get the spark plug and pvc pipe replaced. and like ... I could hold off on it but I'm trying to take care of this car so it lasts a long, long time. I don't wanna wait until those two things are broken and damaging the engine ya know?
anyways, with those tune ups & diagnosis it's gonna be like $750 wirifjwiwaaaa I've been saving all year knowing I'd have to get stuff replaced around 120k miles. and my vehicle is pretty cheap when it comes to general maintenance. like, I can acknowledge that I'm doing a Good thing by spending this money, but my brain is sending me into an anxiety spiral and I wanna throw up about it
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Hard floors are a curse. They are never clean. The sweeping and mopping never ends. I can sweep every inch and by the time I put the broom away there will be more debris on the floor. I can ignore it a little if I wear socks so the grit doesn't touch my feet and drive me up a wall but then I get hot. I could do so much more with my life if the floors didn't constantly need to be swept
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jyp will stop making physical albums.. i wonder how this will play out esp since this is how companies/idols make the most money out of music 👁
wait fr????? they're probably still gonna charge full album prices lmao. tbh i'm of two minds on it bc yea jype groups have a problem with excess album buying, but also i think it's important that you are able to own hard copies of media? and kpop albums are often good art objects, so it is nice to be able to have physical copies of them? it also means that they're probably going to heavily downsize their design departments, bc they're no longer going to need as many ppl who do commercial design. which is disappointing.
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