#levi ackerman xy/n

[killerskillercaptain]

Levi Ackerman x reader : You'll be loved

This was requested by anon

Pairing : Levi Ackerman x reader

Synopsis : You and Levi are expecting a second child, you are both excited to introduce the new little one to your older son. Unfortunately, during the delivery you realize your child is stillborn, Levi is there to hold you together.

Themes : stillborn baby after delivery, hurt/comfort, reader is devastated, Levi tries his best to comfort both of you.

Warnings : mentions of stillbirth, overall hurt and sadness

wc : 623

You felt engulfed by an unknown feeling, an invisible hole threatened to swallow you. Holding the smaller hand in your larger one, you contemplated inevitable loss.

Not a single cry was heard when you delivered your infant. He was silent, like the world around you. Even though you were still in the midst of the numbness that usually comes after delivery, you were still cognizant enough to understand why your baby was this silent. Why there was no rushing of medical crew, and why whispers and sad eyes ogled you from each corner of the room.

Your baby was stillborn.

"We're sorry Ma'am"

No tear came out, you just looked at the small delicate fingers you were holding and stayed silent Levi was there, he was in such a rush minutes ago, and now he doesn't know how to react. You could feel his heavy, cautious eyes on you. You felt as if he was waiting for you to shatter right in front of him.

You felt nothing, nothing besides the bottomless void inside of you, as big as the hole that ate you up since you understood your baby was never going to be part of your life.

You could feel Levi's gaze as if it was a heavy lump pressed onto your neck. You could almost sense him, he was aching for you maybe more than your lost child.

The truth is, you didn't know what to think of it, how to react or what to feel. You just let that truth embrace you uncomfortably, until maybe you'd snap out of whatever fog you were stuck in right now.

You felt so numb, you couldn't stop thinking about your little son who's going to be so crushed by this ill-fated news. The excitement he showed for the arrival of a new family member had gotten him overjoyed. Now, all of the felicity that had consumed you was slowly being drained out of your being, just like that small life got taken right out of your body, right out of your soul.

You thought you and Levi had your fair share of misery and pain in this life, you had forgotten how awful and bitter loss tasted.

You felt warm pearls on your hand and on your inanimate baby's, only to realize it was your tears. You were finally crying after almost an hour of staring at your stillborn. It was as if you were watching yourself from outside your body. You didn't realize you had left out one of the most heart-wrenching cries until you felt Levi's arms flying up to collect you. You could turn into dust right there, in between his trembling fingers.

"I'm here" tried Levi. Even though you were drowning in the finally acknowledged pain right now, you knew he was trying to hold both of you. You wept uncontrollably, you weren't sobbing for your loss only, you were shedding tears for all of this. For this small being that you'll never get to see growing up, for the sad news you'll have to give to your son, for Levi, who had already known too many losses in his life. You felt miserable for adding another one, even though you knew he wouldn't think of it this way.

Extirpating yourself from your sorrow, you painfully took one last look at your lost child. You clasped and brought him up to you and whispered sweet nothings to his deaf ears while you nuzzled your face in his lumpy body.

"You will be loved"

Levi was drawing circles on your knuckles, nuzzling his face in your hair, trying to make sense of all this pain again that felt too familiar.

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