#left the library where I’d been studying for only ten minutes bc otherwise i wouldn’t see her.

[queenangella]

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#putting this in the tags bc I need to get this out but also feel kinda guilty about it so I don’t wanna scream it in a post #but I feel soo irrationally pissed at my friend #bc she’s one of my best friends and I love her but I haven’t heard from her all summer except for the like four times she answered my #messages only to immediately ask me something in return #it took her two weeks to reply to a meme I send her only to immediately follow up with ‘het remember how you said your parents wanted to #hire my band’ #‘ahaha summer is so busy I’ve read all my books anyway you told me I could borrow this one book?’ #last was ‘heyy sorry for not replying haha anyway im bored next week wanna go on a trip’ #to which I replied ‘yeah I would love to but I have my internship starting next week remember’ #and its like I don’t mind that she doesn’t answer my texts like god knows I hate texting #but its really starting to feel like our relationship is fully based on her needing me for something #which I have felt before but I kinda dismissed it as me thinking it was always me who had to take initiative which was disproved when she #asked me to meet up a few times but thinking back it was always like ‘hey let’s meet up for coffee’ and then when I arrive having literally #left the library where I’d been studying for only ten minutes bc otherwise i wouldn’t see her. #she’s like ‘oh I don’t want coffee anymore but I need to go to the supermarket wanna join me?’ #which I always did bc I wanna spend time together and it’s cheaper for me than getting overpriced coffee but!!!! #anyway I’m feeling this now bc while she hadn’t answered my ‘sorry can’t go on a trip’ text I did just see that she’s currently in portugal #with another friend #which is like??? so she just found someone else to relieve her of her boredom and so she didn’t need me anymore so why answer me right?? #anyway it’s probably not that bad and I will talk to her about it when I see her again which will probably be in a month I guess but for now #I don’t wanna ruin her trip