#katsu.log

[luvhrs]

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#trying to get some writing done but the m3nt4l 1lln3ss is quite strong today babes #feeling overwhelmed with the many things i wanna do again. switching from one app to another #putting on my music to distract myself tho it's helping a little #katsu.log

[luvhrs]

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#i wish i were a better friend. #i wish i had the energy to rmbr people the way they deserve and the way they rmbr me (idt i'm deserving) #i love them dearly and i wish i could make them understand. how do i not feel paralyzed all the time #katsu.log

[luvhrs]

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#rambling bcs i'm 0/800 words through a paper due tmrw #but GOD am i excited to finish my canon dragon age runthrough #i'm watching clips of my lavellan and i'm getting emo again #i'm excited to be even more emo after finishing dao and da2 #i love these games #probably not gonna sleep but gn anw #katsu.log

[luvhrs]

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#jfc is it a fucking requirement for u to be condescending when telling me i made a mistake #and it's always the first thing to come out of ur mouth too when ur stressed #we all have bad days. i get it but like. come on what does that say abt what u rly think of me :// #i am so TIRED #negativity tw #katsu.log

[luvhrs]

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#once again i am: bombarded with things i want and have to do #that i only have sufficient brain capacity left for mindless media consumption #and aimlessly switching from one app to the other #i personally describe this as sensory overload but i might be using the term wrong??? #i'm sorry if so pls tell me the right one if u know hnggg #katsu.log

[luvhrs]

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#might not get an interview schedule for the degree program i applied to shift into yet again :// #will this be another year of rejection? or will it just turn out to be redirection? #i want to know and i'm still manifesting success for my other applications but it's just tiring sometimes #katsu.log

[luvhrs]

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#feeling so inadequate. and unlucky. and burnt out. #feeling like stressing myself out over the worst possible scenario when it hasn't even happened yet. as per usual #like moving twt accs and feeling left out anyway 🤡 #and ignoring my task in the project i'm burnt out with to play instead (starting orzammar so at least that's kinda holding me back lmao) #jesus christ it's 8am i'm sorry to anyone seeing this 😭😭😭 #katsu.log

[luvhrs]

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#burnout has been making me oversleep and starve myself for a few days now #it is what it is nothing new but doesn't stop me from feeling worse for ghosting my friends and bf #ig this is me needing a whole month of recuperating after a whole month of being active and ideally it's right but i kinda hate it 😭 #just letting this out anw gn maybe #dunno if i should fix my sleep sched (if it even will) or play the sadness away. i'm at the urn rn in dao anw but again... idk #tl;dr i feel meh and burnt out at everything 💀 #katsu.log

[luvhrs]

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#currently awake at 5am with the realization that my love for stories and people probably came from my parents and i'm grateful #i wish i could do the same for my future children too one day #another reason to start writing down my thoughts more and stashing old notebooks uwu #good night maybe??? idk i'm sleepy but not sleepy ahsjdhsjd #katsu.log

[luvhrs]

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#i finally finished organizing my tags for this blog after putting it off for so long jskdjsjd #now i can post again lmao #i'll also try to get to the peeps in my inbox and notifs ahhhh i'm sorry for being so bad at replying mutuals ;A; #but also ofc my one-task-at-a-time brain said nope so i didn't get any other work done today 💀 #meh gn at least i got one thing done!! #katsu.log

[luvhrs]

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#feel so alive whenever i'm surrounded by art and music #like i'm happy the whole day #then night falls and i rmbr i have to do work in a degree program i dislike #and i just :( #art fulfills me and makes me happy and lately i always feel like i'm losing time for it bcs of school #and i hate it #this is just a rant bcs i was supposed to do work hours ago but my brain just stopped anw gn #katsu.log

[luvhrs]

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#had a rough weekend but i finished some schoolwork today despite it so woo #gonna be super busy for the next 2 weeks so i'll probably let the queue run until then #hopefully i can still post/write/game in between tho :( hate that i'm gonna spend my bday writing shitty papers ugh #gn anyways!! #katsu.log

[luvhrs]

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#i'm still sleeping super late today but!! i had a productive day!!!!! #submitted an okay activity around 2hrs before the deadline #AND wrote a lot of lines of dialogue for a wip that's been sitting in my docs for way too long!!! #i think i'm gonna sleep happily tonight #gn <3 #katsu.log

[luvhrs]

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#i tried to continue da:o today but sadly couldn't get in the mood :( #sometimes i get too preoccupied with making things perfect that i just end up scrapping everything in the end ugh #i'll try again tmrw tho #what i did do is add a few more sentences to a wip!! #small wins <3 #gn #katsu.log

[luvhrs]

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#you ever just wanna switch up your ~*~aesthetic~*~ (i see that as a fancy name for personality now that i think abt it...) #that's been me for the past few months #not that i ever knew my specific aesthetic/personality before lmao #i see this as a good thing bcs i notice i've been more consistent in acting on it through small things #but i'm also still very... confused on where to start and what else to do #and what the aesthetic/personality's actually gonna be #this is just a thought dump it probably doesn't make sense sjdjdjd #i haven't studied for my quiz tmrw rip me 🥲 #katsu.log

[luvhrs]

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#been thinking a lot abt my dream course lately which is behavioral sciences #my fear of the future is seeping into the present and i'm rly not into it #i'm convinced that my death will come through a career that i don't want #but what do i even want? what have i been put in this world to do? #idk anymore gn #katsu.log