i really do feel genuine queerness radiating from the narrative in Cherry Magic Thailand in a way that it might not have in other people's hands. the thing that truly roped me in from the beginning was how Karan's love for Achi, beyond the inherent goodness of it, also created a vast spectrum of negative emotion for Karan that most queer people could immediately recognize and sympathize with. specifically, how uniquely queer it is to have your love and attraction to someone be so closely married to terror at the thought of disgusting them that the concept and feeling of love is tainted for you in ways that it isn't for straight people.
i was hooked by episode 2 when Karan recognized that putting himself out there in even the smallest ways was causing Achi discomfort, and he resolved to just...settle. i can settle, i can settle, i don't need more than what we have right now. i won't make him any more uncomfortable than I already have. i'm being selfish, i need to retreat and keep a distance so he doesn't have to think about me when he doesn't want to, so he doesn't have to dwell on bad things.
he is so concerned with the thoughts and feelings of others that he constantly allows it to branch into self-denigration in relation to his queerness. like after he and Achi were forced to have physical contact by the party game, he's so preoccupied with Achi's fear and discomfort that one of the first things he says to him is "they shouldn't have made us play that game. what guy would be okay with kissing another guy?" and its like...Karan, you would! you would love to kiss the guy right next you and thats okay! to me it seemed like he was giving Achi a pass in case he was disgusted, like 'its okay if [my] queerness grossed you out just now.'
and as @poetry-protest-pornography pointed out here, Karan's confession of love is weighed down by so much negative emotion. right out of the gate, Karan is apologizing for having these types of thoughts and feelings about Achi, taking Achi's willingness over the past few weeks to get to know and be known by Karan as an act of charity, and apologizing for betraying his trust by wanting more. like, you gave me a good thing and i perverted it and made it bad. i'm so sorry.
this resonates with me so much because his internal dialogue was so similar to mine when i came out, but in the context of my relationship with my mother. in the months after i came out to her, every time i saw her i was looking for clues in her body language that confirmed my agonizing suspicion that she was disgusted by me. every time i saw her, my first thought would be 'she's thinking about it and she's disgusted with me, i'm gross to her.' and when i saw her minutely reacting to parts of my own body language that were too butch and masculine (that i hadn't really spent a lot of time thinking about prior to coming out), i vowed to start being more conscious of how i spoke and presented so that i wouldn't make her uncomfortable because i felt so, so bad about forcing her to associate me, her child, with something perverted and gross. Karan's instinct to be ashamed, apologetic, and remorseful for being himself and feeling his feelings makes this show so, so gay for me.
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Cherry Magic Episode 10 🍒❤️
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pit babe, last twilight, the sign, cherry magic th, dead friend forever, cooking crush...
that's definitely one of the best bl's era
proud to be living it
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Horny on Main Round 1: King (Bed Friend) vs Karan (Cherry Magic TH)
[Submitted Reasons Under Cut]
King: "call my man shredded lettuce the way he is a sub topping. he’s literally vibrating with want every time he sees uea."
Karan: no propaganda submitted
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Man, with karan, tenprem and mhok gmmtv really do be feeding us green flags this december
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Achi, internally: you know, I think I've started to be at ease around Karan
Karan, internally: married life suits us I think
Achi, internally: ...scratch that
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“Do you regret losing your powers”
“I’d regret not loving you”
OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDD CRYINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
THEY ARE SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
I CANNNNTTTTTTTTTTT
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Rock lifted Karan, as if he weighted nothing, to get him to a strange destination without not knowing the details. He literally grabbed and ran with him.
He was helping him get his man, without even knowing it. This show is amazing. 😂
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Cherry Magic Thai
Is this the sweetest softest BL series ever?
I don't know, but it is certainly the softest one I've seen recently.
The finale was cute and tied up all the various storylines, going further than any other version of Cherry Magic that I have seen, to be sure that the two main characters have a happy ending.
The writers did such an amazing job adapting the story, keeping the elements that make Cherry Magic so special and modifying or adding new ones to make the Thai version unique.
The actors were terrific and had electrifying chemistry.
Everything was done well in my opinion, all of it contributing to the creation of an endearing story.
I have greatly enjoyed tuning into this series week after week for a hefty dose of serotonin.
🍒🪄
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What are you doing? 🍒
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People from BL that make me want them carnally (always)
i was not tagged by anyone, however, was very inspired by the list of @respectthepetty @neuroticbookworm @lurkingshan @waitmyturtles and @bengiyo - and all others whose list had been on my feed. I have a very similar list but I just wanna give appreciation and adoration to a lot of these gays that have been on my mind. always.
note: you'll see a pattern. this list can't be numbered
Tan-Bun from Manner of Death
need i even say anything?
Kinn-Porsche from KinnPorsche
the main man-boobies and small waist appreciation
Pete from KinnPorsche
one gif can't sum him up (a trend following all my blorbos)
Win from Between Us
do i want him or want to be him? *cries in bisexual*
Sand from Only Friends
I want to do this exact scene above even though i imagine it would be absolutely disgusting irl (since i don't like cigarette smoke)
Ray from Only Friends
i mean can you even resist him? I see you Sand (and Boston), i see you
Jae Young from Semantic Error
see bad boys in greener flags is a weakness - i am sorry but it is what it is (ALSO HOW CAN ANYONE FORGET THE LIP RING)
Choi Yuna from Semantic Error
something something about this woman just makes me GAAAH
Molly from The Warp Effect
the one queer fat representation i wanted in media and it made me go weak on the knees every fucking time
Jean from The Warp Effect
maam, i'll be a better boyfriend than any cishet men you encounter
(not a BL) Giwi from The Player
NAMTAN TIPNAREE I REQUEST YOU TO JUST STEP ON ME
Wang from 180 Degree Longitude Passes Through Us
i mean you see it. i don't have to explain further.
Ayan from The Eclipse
is any of even surprised at this point? (you should not be)
SPECIAL MENTIONs
Jim, Wen, Alan and Gaipa from Moonlight Chicken
these thread of men don't need to be explained lord help me
Pete from Dark Blue Kiss
his one shot in the pool and fashion sense literally had me crawling
Karan from Cherry Magic Thailand
i am a sucker for Tay Tawan atp pls
also, also, also not necessarily from shows but general existence of this man (Jeff Satur [if anyone doesn't know]) makes me want to steal his gender every fucking time
tagging @gunsatthaphan @laowen @reptileofdoom @slayerkitty and anyone who wants to go about it
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Horny on Main Loser Bracket Round 2: Fiat (Don't Say No) vs Karan (Cherry Magic TH)
[Submitted Reasons Under Cut]
Fiat: no propaganda submitted
Karan: no propaganda submitted
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CHERRY MAGIC THAILAND EP 6
SQUEALING, KICKING MY FEET, GIGGLING, SLIDING DOWN THE WALL, HOLDING MY HEART, BUTTERFLIES FLUTTERING AT THE LATEST EPISODE.
All the couples have no business being this cute 🥹
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Ese es Karan. Si quieres elegir a alguien de la oficina como modelo a seguir... debería ser él.
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