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duchessofdongs · 7 years

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Little Things to Think About (Final Fantasy XV Scenarios)

Noctis getting so mad at this one fish like he’s spent hours sitting at a dock, he’s already lost three lures to this thing and he’s getting progressively more and more pissed off until the point where when Ignis comes to check up on him Noct has already abandoned his pole and is currently wrestling with that fish in the water he’s gonna get it Iggy just watch

The guys actually being mistaken for a boy band like maybe Prompto hears some factory workers in Lestallum talking about them at a cafe and they’re wondering about what kind of band they were and the workers ultimately decide, with Noct obviously being the lead singer, they were probably a punk-pop indie band

Prompto wants to be offended (onlyalittle) but he can’t argue with the logic once he realizes they’re basically a boy band holy shit we can make gil off this can noct sing??

no wait imagine prompto being the one to intercept in altissia when the guy asks why they’re there like just as ignis is about to say his excuse prompto just fuckin blurts out ‘we’re a boyband performing at the arena come see us live tonight at 8 pm sharp’ and ignis just rolls with it

The boys actually getting kinda uncomfortable with Gladio just not buttoning up his jacket not because they don’t like the view (theylikeitalot) it’s just that they don’t understand he has shirts they’ve seen him with a tanktop on he just never buttons up that jacket why why is this

Ignis just gets pissed off cuz he’s the one applying bandages and potions to the only incredibly vulnerable spot on Gladio’s body it’s bad enough Noctis can’t even keep the godsdamned buttons on his HIS jacket

Noctis gets hit with some serious confusion ailments during a hunt and he’s not delirious enough to take out a sword and start swinging at Gladio because he thinks he’s an Iron Giant (has happened more than once) but just enough that he starts seeing Carbuncle and starts talking to him in a slurred, confused voice and the guys just let him go on and on talking to his imaginary fox friend with a horn made out of ruby yeah sure Noct

No but the guys actually think that Carbuncle is just some imaginary friend that Noct sometimes mentions until one day, under some magical circumstance, they’re all sitting around the campfire at camp and Carbuncle kinda struts out behind a bush and Noct just casually picks him up and puts him on his lap to pet him (he loves them ear rubs) and EVERYONE JUST LOOKS AT HIM LIKE HE’S INSANE ARE YOU KIDDING HE’S REAL THIS WHOLE TIME YOUR ‘IMAGINARY FRIEND’ HAS BEEN REAL THIS WHOLE TIME

One time Noct got recognized as the prince in a really small town/village and he got swarmed by a group of fangirls and of course Ignis has to go into Bodyguard!Ignis mode and it’s just like back in Insomnia when the paparazzi would gather in the lobby of Noct’s apartment before an event and Ignis has to carve his way through with the Prince behind him straight to the Regalia

Noct actually falling off the back of the Regalia when Ignis has to either brake or make a sharp turn and it’s because he was sitting up there again Noct how many times has Ignis warned you about that

Noctis and Ignis having a real fight like a really serious argument maybe about Noct not taking his royal duties seriously enough when he needs to and Noct yelling that Ignis doesn’t understand the kind of pressure he’s under and they both have to separate to cool down for a while

Gladio and Prompto witness the whole thing and then proceed to be mediators; Gladio talks to Ignis while Iggy does angry stress baking and Prompto cheers up Noct with a little impromptu fishing trip in the lake by the motel they’re staying at

The moment after Noct has a mini-breakdown after the Marilith is dead in the Brotherhood series and he’s crying by the ocean and the boys just comfort him until he gets tired and apologizes for yelling at them earlier but they totally get it it was rough man

Somebody actually ACKNOWLEDGES the fact that since Regis is dead then Clarus must be dead too I just why didn’t we have that scene in game like Gladio HAS to know his dad’s dead but he never grieves Iris never talks about it no one ever brings up Clarus I DON’T THINK CLARUS IS EVEN MENTIONED IN THE GAME

Iris would definitely take it hard but big brother Gladdy is there to help her out. He’s grieving too but he feels stupid for doing it because his father was always there to remind him that since he was the King’s Shield there was always a chance that one day he won’t come home

Noct and Gladio kinda grieve together since both of their dads are dead but they got each other to rely on now and they share a short moment together when Noct gets him to open up about the issue

Cindy becomes a temporary fifth member to the group when an issue needs her attention on the road (idk what im not clever enough to come up with one) and of course the guys are worried about keeping her safe but they get ambushed by sabertusks and stay close to Cindy during battle but a stray sabertusk tries to corner her and Cindy straight up punches it into the ground

She learned how to take care of herself with her and Paw-Paw living around so many demon spots and not only is she good with her fists, she also did a little self defense with a gun

Prompto lets her borrow one of his guns while she’s with them the boy is absolutely smitten with her she’s so amazing

They boys meet Ravus again during a ‘bust-a-base’ quest and he comes with a small troop of soldiers... which Ravus himself destroys when they least expect it. Turns out Ravus, reluctantly, wants to ally himself with Noctis because Niflheim is starting to get out of control and Noctis needs to fix things now

Ravus becomes a double-agent for the royal retinue, feeding them little bits and pieces of information when he knows the empire can’t hear him and helping them make their way to Altissia by getting Commodore Aranea to cross paths with the prince because he knows she’s becoming more and more hesitant to help the Empire

Things become slightly better between Ravus and Noctis because they talk more and Ravus realizes that his anger towards Noctis was supposed to be towards the empire but he’s far too proud to ever properly apologize

Which makes it hurt even more when Ravus is tricked by Ardyn in Gralea and Gladio and Ignis have to tell Noctis and Prompto that Ravus is dead

And Ravus is brought back as a demon-corpse hybrid and he’s trying so hard to not hurt them but he can’t control his body anymore he can’t control Ardyn’s magic in his body he can only beg them to kill him so he can’t hurt anyone anymore

The boys coming to their own conclusion when they see that Noct has disappeared and Ardyn is too cryptic for them they can’t understand so they wait for hours, days maybe just waiting for any sign that Noct is alive in there

They eventually have to leave because the demons are still there but they can’t take the crystal and they don’t know what to do without Noctis so they just... leave

They leave and make contact with Aranea, using the number Prompto still remembers on his phone. She asks them where the prince is and they have to tell her that they have no idea where he’s gone

It’s a long trip back to Lucis and it’s mostly filled with silence and grief

Everyone looked so excited to see them back, but their faces fall once they realize the prince, their King, isn’t with them and the guilt and shame is so clear on their faces

Talcott wakes up one night to talking and he recognizes some of those voices so he gets out of bed to go greet the prince and ask him about all his cool adventures, did he meet lady Lunafreya, did they get married, did Leviathan look cool, did you find the Crystal

“Prince Noctis?”

A month passes and everyone panics when they wake up one morning and the sun hadn’t risen; the world is completely dark and devoid of any light and Noctis is still gone

The guys stay together for at least the first year of the Long Night but then Gladio has to take a hunt in Tenebrae because Iris is going and she can’t be talked out of it so he has to go with her. Prompto and Ignis understand and they stay together to continue their own research into demons and Ardyn and waiting for Noctis to come back because he will come back

But then Cor asks Prompto to come with him to Altissia because they need one more hunter on their trip and the demons crawling there are too dangerous for inexperienced hunters. Ignis understands and he’s the one who has to talk Prompto into taking it because Ignis can’t hunt but he can read braille and take notes and Prompto needs to be out there helping.

The three of them don’t see each other a lot after that

Ignis gets so tired of being cast to the side and treated differently because he can’t see anymore and this motivates him to teach himself how to fight again because he will not allow himself to be useless when people are in danger

He dedicates nearly all of his time training to use daggers again, setting up the training dummies himself and teaching himself to rely on sound and smell to find out where his enemies are. He always does it alone; he knows that if someone were with him, they would try to stop him and he cannot allow that

Talcott watches him quietly from a high-up balcony from where Ignis has set everything up. He found him training one day when he came over to bring more books from the Lestallum library and he couldn’t help but watch. He knows Ignis’ training schedule and he always shows up just to make sure Ignis doesn’t hurt himself. He admires Ignis’ will and strength and Ignis becomes Talcott’s motivation to become a hunter because if a blind man can do it, then so can he.

Talcott actually approaches Ignis on cooking lessons. Ignis is flattered but he politely declines since he can’t see, let alone teach. But Talcott doesn’t want Ignis to teach him; he wants to teach Ignis.

Talcott helps Ignis become reacquainted with the kitchen and Ignis is happy to help Talcott train as a hunter

They’re both so proud of how the other has come

When Gladio, Prompto, and Ignis are together again during a hunt to take down a Starscourge-infected Behemoth after at least a year of not even talking to each other. Gladio and Prompto are surprised to see Ignis there and they give not to subtle hints that maybe this is too dangerous for him but Ignis merely brushes them off and leads the way with a confident walk

They come across the Behemoth chowing down and what looks like a mangled Anak corpse but they aren’t sure. Ignis, ever the strategist, comes up with the plan while the two of them are still trying to get him to tap out cuz this is going to be a big hunt and they don’t want to see him get hurt

Cut immediately to Ignis throwing his daggers at the Behemoth’s eyes to blind it, throw a Blizzara spell at the beast’s feet to knock it down and disorient it and then proceeding to slice it’s stomach open and claim the kill

Gladio and Prompto are beyond impressed and Ignis decides to take a tooth as both a trophy and a souvenir for Talcott

There are times where they come to believe that maybe Noctis won’t ever come back and they’re going to be stuck in the darkness forever

Regardless, they still get together every year for birthdays, especially Noct’s

Because no matter what, they need to rely on each other to bring even a sliver of light into days filled with never ending darkness

There was one particular encounter that instilled hope in all of them:

Year eight of the Night

Ignis, Prompto, and Gladio were reunited once more to deal with the startling appearance of a Marilith down by the Vesperpool that had been killing all the hunters sent to take her down. Given their experience of having already killed one as a team, they figured they could do it again

They can’t

This Marilith is even bigger than the one they fought eight years prior and she’s attacking them ruthlessly

Ignis is about to pull the plug on the operation and tell them to retreat when suddenly the ground starts to shake and he can feel cold splashes of water on his face.

Something bursts out of the Vesperpool and Ignis can’t see her but he can picture her when Prompto suddenly cries out

“L--Leviathan?!”

The goddess is smaller compared to her appearance in Altissia but the Marilith is still dwarfed by her size. When the demon tries to flee, Leviathan grabs her by the tail and proceeds to shred her into pieces. All while the boys watch, too stunned to move.

The goddess turns her attention to the boys and they think she’s gonna attack them but she just stares at them. And they realize that she doesn’t looked like the goddess they saw across the seas.

Her body looks like it was made of water and shimmering glass, looking crystalline in appearance. Little shards of glass float in the air surrounding her and spirals of water surround the boys in a protective bubble.

The moment lasts only a moment and Leviathan roars once and then disappears, shattering and scattering the glass pieces into the air until they can’t see them anymore

They can’t really explain it but they all knows what it means

Noctis is still with them

Their King will come back

OKAY THIS GOT WAY LONGER AND WAY SADDER THAN I ANTICIPATED BUT WELP WHATCHU GONNA DO might add more idk let me guys know what you think

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argaliaofficial · 6 years

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i started typing this earlier but then had to go to work so now im just gonna finish it so i get it off my chest

back when i was with my first ex, meg, we went to this private christian school i prolly made a post about this on here before but its topical right now i didnt sleep at all and im tired enough to spill my fucking guts out some more

so anyway we went to this private christian school and thats when it happened. ive honestly repressed a lot of my time there i was not doing great but what i do remember just makes me feel sick. like, meg aside, the school just sucked.

for context the way it was set up was that we had “placement tests” to see where we were in subjects like math and english, and however we did made us get placed in PACEs according to our skill level. in theory this is fine i suppose, but the thing was that there were no alternatives to the PACEs.

PACEs were part of the learning curriculum of our school which was ACE- Accelerated Christian Learning. they were basically little study pamphlets that went over instructions on how to learn certain subjects and whatnot, while also having a christian perspective on things. scripture verses were abundent in them, and they had like a continuous series of comics going in there about their character Ace Virtuson and friends.

Along with the PACEs, the classrooms were set up like an “office” of sorts with cubicles that you sat in. For me honestly that was one of the many hells because it was so cramping and clinical and I just do not learn well in that sort of environment. so you’d sit quietly for like 8 hours a day with occassional breaks with nothing but your PACE pamphlets to work on. you couldnt speak to any body, and if you needed help, there was a flag system in place where you’d put a flag up and have to sit around and wait for a teacher to come assist you, and usually their assistance only lasted briefly because theres countless OTHER students to get to, and nepotism is a thing and if they dont like you or think of you as a problem kid, you’re less likely to get the aid you need.

i was one of those problem kids.

early on, i could manage that set up when my work was easier, but when i hit “high school age” and got into more advance work i began to suffer horribly. it didnt help that at this time, i got with meg, but less about her right now and more about how this school system fucking failed me and others tbh

i do not learn by reading information. at least, i dont retain it. i need to discuss with people, with my peers and professors. i need one on one sometimes, especially with math- my biggest struggle. but how the school was set up made that sort of learning almost impossible. your peers were all at different levels, so group discussion was rare. their were attempts, but they never lasted long, and the extent of the help basically surmounted to the teachers just reading what the PACEs already said and vaguely explaining more, and that blew.

so, me, being a hands on group learner who has to talk and listen to even retain information and needs to be allowed to move around often instead of being cramped up, started to fall behind in my studies. badly. and of course, instead of the teachers trying to asses WHY it was you were falling behind, you got written up and had to have your parents sign a slip. you could get written up for a few things and these were always detentions of sorts. usually they were lunch but if you were bad enough you’d get an after school one. i accumulated these almost once a day and after a while i got tired of having my parents sign them EVERY SINGLE day and just forged their signatures. i got away with that like 75% of the time lol

like they were just for the same shit ‘oh ur kid didnt do their homework blah blah ur kids out of dress code blah blah” and so i was just “whatever” because like... nothing seemed to change i was just being perpetually punished for being unable to keep up in my studies. my parents tried to get a math tutor for me but halfway thru i think freshman year she moved and that was that

i got so fucking sick of just being behind while my other peers seemed to be moving forward that i started bullshitting my work just to get thru. ofc that didnt do anything because i wasnt learning the work, and because i lied about my answers and cheated i got punished again. and i was just like “whatever”

i cried all the time. parent teacher conferences were hell. i always cried. it felt like i couldnt convey to them why i was such a fuckup. like i wasnt making sense, or i was being overemotional. instead of trying to make changes they just talked about how i had to work harder. least i think. i’ll be honest i always just disassociated during those meetings before going into meltdown mode.

on top of that, i was in a “gay” relationship with a classmate, and lots of bad stuff happened. ive always had an overactive imagination. great for being a wannabe artist. not so great when youre already an easily manipulated undiagnosed autistic child. me, her, and my current gf actually had our own little world! thinking back on this now, for me at least it was escapism to try and just cope with how miserable i was at school

i dont know how soon in the “relationship” it was before things got sexual. my concept of time during those years at foursquare is so scattered. according to posts ive seen on dA me and her were together or at least “friends” for 2 years? so actually i think my saying “freshman year in high school” is inaccurate and things got bad the tail end of middle school and continued until i was a sophomore before switching schools.

ANYWAY, so yeah, along with all this school nonsense, i was in a gay relationship, one that was abusive in many aspects. ofc at the time i didnt know that i was being abused! i just thought yknow her forcing herself into me sexually was kinda par the course and i was already kinda a sexually curious kid growing up so like.. i was looking for that i guess? it hurting cuz she went in dry is just to be expected, yadda yadda. pretty sure i cried? and i know for a fact that i still sleep in the room where she raped me like that and its sometimes just “yea i was literally right in that spot when i was raped lol”

and she would constantly want me to touch her sexually too, and when i said “no” and pulled my hand away that she had been trying to force down her pants because i wasnt personally ready to do that she’d always complain and make me feel bad cuz i wasnt comfortable touching her. “i always get you off but you never get me off!”

and at the time i didnt just tell her to fuck off cuz i didnt know any better. i didnt know that it was ok for me to not be ready to do that. i thought i was a bad person for not being ready to pleasure my partner, even tho its not my fault if shes ok w/ pleasuring me, and im ok with being pleasured (even tho tbh it was hit or miss sometimes she just did it lol), but im not ready to touch her, i guess? and like i tried to communicate with her and im pretty sure i told her that if she didnt wanna jerk me off cuz i couldnt do it to her yet that was fine but whatever

on the fourth of july she started groping me out in public while we watched the fireworks and i remember trying to get her to stop cuz i wasnt comfy with doing this in public cuz a) this was years ago and homophobia was a lot more common especially in this boonies town and b) i dont like seeing other couples being handsy in public so i dont want to be handsy in public either

and i remember while shes groping my chest and im trying to get her to stop theres this group of older kids in front of us and they see. and they start snickering. they started snickering at the sight. and i was so mortified and wanted to die.

looking back those kids should get hit by a fucking bus for laughing at someone getting molested and being obviously uncomfortable with it but i guess its funny cuz “lesbians! haha look at that pervy lesbo touching that other lesbian!”

and thats the story of why every fourth of july i want to kill myself

things kept progressing, ofc. i remember one night, while we were camping, i finally caved and fingered her. i forced myself to think “yeah ok i can do this” and i just thought the crippling anxiety i felt was cuz i was nervous to be intimate with my girlfriend for the first time like this, but really i was probably scared she was gonna hurt me since by that point she had. she had made herself perfectly clear in her mannerisms and tone of voice that she was stronger and bigger than me and could hurt me.

and a few occasions she did. one time she started choking me so badly that i honestly thought “oh my god, shes going to kill me here at school”. i still sometimes feel her nails digging into my throat, and i dont think ive ever been as terrified in my life as i was in that moment. i dont think she would have stopped had a teacher not intervened.

there was only one time i ever hit her, and that was before school started, and i had finally lost my shit over how much she kept fucking with me. all i remember was i came to school angry at her. over what i dont remember. she was always toying with my emotions, and i think that it had built up over the time that i finally snapped walked into class before school started, walked over to where she and alyss were talking, and a slapped her across the face before i walked over to my desk

i dont think i got in trouble for that cuz no one snitched? idk i mightve, but i didnt care. i was angry at her, angry at the school, and suicidal.

i remember one time during a break i was crying. a teacher from another class came up to me and asked what was wrong. i told her i wanted to die. she just looked at me all uncomfortable. i think she mightve said something before walking off?

nothing came of that.

i was more worried that i would get in trouble for being in a gay relationship than as apposed to thinking that these teachers- people who are supposed to protect their students- would help me. i gave up on them even recognizing the signs of me being abused. i feel like they wouldnt have even taken it as seriously as we were both “girls”, and this was back before talk of how women can be abusive was more common place. abuse was still strictly seen as male on female violence. and to some people, gay violence was comedic.

eventually, one night, it all came to light. at least, that she and i were sexually involved. that week was a blur. she was taken out of school. it was brushed under the rug. everyone trying to save face i guess and keep other kids from finding out, but somehow i always felt like they knew. they knew that she was taken out of school because of me. because we were gay

i tried to move on, but my studies never got better. i just grew more jaded. i never did any work. i mouthed off to the teachers, continued getting detentions and just plainly stopped caring. no one could get me to do anything. i would play hooky.

and that was just.... my life. perpetual anger at a system that failed me spectacularly. to this day i still hate that place. i cant be there. i was groped and molested and it was treated like nothing

so yeah

thanks for listening to my ted talks

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