#just feeling a bit soft okay?

[inklessletter]

Thinking about Eddie using an old trick his father taught him when he was eleven years old to sneak in any big place by just carrying a ladder and looking like a worker, to get Steve in a concert that had been sold out for weeks.

Thinking about Steve complaining all the way there, calling Eddie irresponsible, reminding him that he followed the rules, that he's a good guy, telling him that they were going to be caught, that it was stupid and wasn't going to work.

Thinking about how hard Steve rolls his eyes when it actually works and Eddie is just one breath away from his "I told you so," but it never comes.

They actually get to see for free that show of Tears for Fears and Steve expects Eddie to complain about shitty music, or how lame Steve taste was, or even Steve's lack of faith in his poor soul.

And again, it never comes.

Everything in Eddie's behavior is so nice that something must be awfully wrong, and Steve spends the whole concert trying to get a reaction out of him, spiraling, thinking that maybe he'd been ungrateful by spending all that time complaining and that he very much earned that silent treatment (not really a silent treatment, more like a not 'in your fucking face, Harrington' treatment), so immersed in his own thoughts he barely enjoys the concert.

Thinking about a comfortable silence in Eddie's end, when they're driving back to Hawkins, and Steve breaking it by finally muttering a soft "I'm sorry."

Thinking about Eddie puzzled about whre that apology came from and asking why he's sorry, and pulling over when he just glances at Steve's troubled face when he can't actually answer.

Thinking about the heaviness of Eddie's voice when he asks a second time, looking Steve in the eye, why is he apologizing, and Steve breathing that he doesn't exactly know, for whatever he did that Eddie's mad, he guesses.

Thinking about Eddie pulling every bit of knowledge about Steve Harrington together, and finally, finally realizing where Steve's coming from.

Thinking about Steve's face when Eddie tells him softly "I just wanted to do something nice for you. Just wanted to make you happy."

Thinking about the ten seconds of full silence, ten seconds both of them staring at each other, the air feeling heavy, Steve's shallow and fast breathing, and his whispered "but why?"

"Because you deserve to be happy. You really, really do, Steve."

Thinking about every fiber in Steve's body yelling "that's a lie", and Steve having no energy to actually discuss Eddie's estatement. Steve looking down, then away, then swallowing around nothing. Steve just saying "uh, okay," in a shaky, whispered voice.

Thinking of Eddie finally hitting the road again, with his eyes ahead, his heart in the passenger seat, and his head replaying the chorus of Head over heels in repeat (and he's shocked to his core that he's actually liking it.)

#inklessletter #ficlet #stranger things #st fic #steddie #steve x eddie #steve harrington #eddie munson #just feeling a bit soft okay? #just leave me be

[cold-neon-ocean]

Another VashMeryl wip I’ve had in my pocket :)

#Vash the Stampede #Meryl Stryfe #VashMeryl #Trigun Stampede #Trigun #Vash x Meryl #Takamatsu's Art #[ ouououuouooouuuuuughhghghghhghghhhghhghgh they make me feel so soft #I was just craving drawing them really happy okay aklsjdf #this is just a crop bc I've been stuck on this for a bit sobs #hence why a lot of lines are more refined than others I've just been poking at this between commissions #I just love the two of them a lot okay :( #Meryl and her scarecrow boyfriend that she can lift with ease #please note the hand size difference I'm deceasing ]

[pollenallergie]

“do the hardest task first”

no. just… no.

hot take: this doesn’t work for people with adhd (in my experience/from what i’ve heard from other people with adhd in my life). i recommend doing the easy/moderately difficult stuff first, that way you can convince yourself that it’s all going to be this easy and undemanding. then hyper-focus will kick in because your brain is like, “yeah, we can do this, we’ve got this.” then, before you know it, you’ve completed both the easy tasks and the hard tasks while hyperfocusing.

like, on a serious note, it’s always been easier for me to convince myself to get the most difficult tasks done when i’m already working/in the working frame of mind, not when i’m laying in bed or sitting on the couch, mindlessly scrolling through stuff on my phone, and struggling to start at all.

if the choice comes down to you not starting at all or starting with the easiest task first (which, for me, it often does), always, always pick starting with the easiest task first. sometimes you need a small victory, a little bit of an accomplishment, to give you the courage to take on bigger challenges.

#adhd #audhd #in my experience… ‘study tips’ or ‘time management tips’ from neurotypical people will almost never work for us #they don’t conceptualize time the same way we do #they don’t look at challenges the same way we do #it’s okay to take bits and pieces of their advice #ya know… whatever parts of it work for you #but don’t think that you have to use all the strategies and programs that they do to be successful #because you don’t #all that fake business soft skills/mental health guru/grind mindset stuff is total bullshit #pick strategies that speak to/work for you #it’s okay to fail at things and to have to try again #it’s okay to make mistakes and not get shit done sometimes #sometimes you need a fucking break #it’s okay to start with the easy stuff first and just ease your way into being productive #it’s okay to hyperfocus and work for hours on end sometimes #if it’s hard for you to take breaks when you’re studying and you feel like you learn better if you stay in that hyperfocused zone #than just go until the hyperfocus wears off #then take a break… eat… nourish your body… take care of yourself… and come back later #maybe later is later on that day #maybe later is tomorrow #either way is completely fine #do what works best for you #work with your neurodivergent brain… no against it #pol’s diary <3

[sysig]

The most cherubic little golden-haired baby boy (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #Max Vyer #I am already so weak to Max why do I do this to myself #He's so cute!! Ah!! #Tiny child who deserves the world <3 <3 I love him #He Must have been the absolute cutest kid spoiling him is just - it's the Correct Choice! What other choice is there!! #If he's androgynous as an adult he definitely would've been mistaken for a girl as a kid tho lol #I feel like he'd look a lot like baby!Liquid Snake and I've always loved how soft and fluffy he looks in Les Enfants hehe <3 <3 #Perfectly downy towhead what a delicate child! And then he opens his mouth lol #Loud and brash and impulsive and opinionated ♪ #And definitely not me continuing to project I just look okay- #Maybe just a little lol #I have my own childhood hair-related experiences that if I happen to give them away it's fine lol #I love his vanity <3 #Stubbornly rooted in childhood indignation! I just think it's a charming idea haha #Unbiased of course ahem lol #Can you tell I like children of rich parents being talked down to and getting mad about it lol - this felt so Kaylie Ann while I was drawing #A bit younger and less manipulative but just as angry! Max a bit more honest hehe <3 #Maybe if he was dressed in more masculine kid's clothes lol that collar suits his adorability but ♪ #Baby Max in a tiny tux ;; The cutest party clothes! #Plus the idea of Max and Dex wearing matching suits <3 <3 More clothes! More cuteness! Get it all in under the line hehehe

[lesbiangiratina]

Ive seen it mentioned in like 3 places now that testament’s xx korean dub voice was not well received and thats. Funny but like awwww come on. Shin hae-chul was a music man not a voice actor… i think he did okay…

They are kind of cute to me to be honest... but maybe its just really hard to make testament not be cute to me…

#very flat but um it feels mostly on purpose. ? maybe. #i saw someone point out that their tone doesnt change much in situations where they should be more expressive like talking to dizzy #but like… talking to dizzy their voice gets so soft like. almost a whisper. not more expressive just gentler. and thats so cute to me. okay #and i like the filter. it mixes with the super low tone in a cool way. kinda growly. so cute to me. #he does struggle a bit with yelling though. the flatness doesnt work as much when theyre pissed to the point of yelling. that is true. #but idk their jp va has some awkward reads too. on account of also just presumably being some guy that worked at arcsys lol. #would be cool. if he didnt use pseudonyms. but its ok. #the kat goes meow #video #gg

[koishua]

small discussion but in the atla universe, which element would the enha boys be able to bend??

#tp #i think jungwon has avatar potential also hee #obviously jay is a firebender #hoon gives waterbender vibes not just bc of his figure skating bg #sunoo also gives off airbender vibes bc of his personality and tendencies #can't put a finger as to what jake and niki would do.... maybe earthbender jake and also firebender riki #okay firebending would make sense for riki bc of the dragon dance and bc of the way firebenders move their body like i think that style of #martial arts would suit riki. plus he has sharp looks that fit fire nation #back to sunoo for a bit bc of his peaceful nature and soft looks like most air nomads!! non confrontational too ig kind of #can't really decide jake tho.... i mean i feel like he is very grounded and idk idk does he have the earthbender mindset?? #i feel like he gives off major piandao vibes #hoon i think has waterbender vibes bc of his fluidity and adaptability but also so does sunoo but sunoo's personality is more airbender #but im not sure..... #does anyone from this group give off earthbender???? #i chose jungwon as avatar bc he somehow is the most well-balanced. adaptable but also rigid but also peace-seeking but also passionate #jungwon being an avatar makes so much sense but what would his origin be??? i feel like he'd start off earthbending #earthbenders are very direct and headstrong and i feel like heeseung's dance style is very similar to the movements of an earthbender #like his stance is more often than not very wide and stable and idk omg #and he'd push through an issue instead of avoiding it or going around it #anyways jay is a solid firebender that im 100% sure of and have always been ever since i-land #he has this explosiveness to him that's very attractive and SOOOOO fire nation #enhypen #AHHDHDHDHHDFH I IMAGINED HEE AS BUMI HRLP ME IM CACKLINGGGG remember him during that taekwondo en oclock ep ??

[jedibongrip]

painful au where obikin are extremely unhappy coparents to luke and leia because they couldnt get their shit together to have a healthy relationship and just be PARENTS so now they have to do extremely bitchy and heartache-filled child drop offs in public parking lots

#hmm perhaps the classic stewjoni biology take where obi wan can carry #and he and anakin are... just starting to shift their relationship from platonic to sexual/romantic (idk what their dynamic was before) #but they havent defined their relationship yet and obiwan is kinda hesitant to go further and anakin is just so needy and so ready #to jump in head first into the deep end #like they arent even officially together yet and anakin is already talking about KIDS and MARRIAGE (irony) and it freaks obi wan out a bit #soooo many he suggests... they take things slow... real slow... in fact how about they take a break to reassess and think about things #and anakin takes that as rejection (which... it kinda is. a very soft and driven by insecurity rejection but still) so he kinda #fucks up. big time. goes off and fucks around with other people #and obi wan learns about this and is hurt because A. UHH THATS THE GUY HE MAYBE LOVES IF HE CAN FIGURE OUT HIS FEELINGS and #b. it makes him think 'oh. anakin just is intense with everyone. all those big feelings he had werent really about me. okay.' #(cuz even though it freaked him out... it was nice to be wanted so much) #and THEN... baby time >:) anger time >B) UNRESOLVED EMOTION TIME >:3C #and then eventually happiness time :) <3 #WHY DID THIS NEVER POST #m

[troubadour-malin]

aough

#so' speaks #someone looked at me with genuine concern and care in their eyes this morning and I'm still not over it #that guy was asking me something and saw that I wasn't doing great. he asked if I was okay and istg the way he looked at me #with his soft big blue eyes #wow #I think i know what they mean in books now #When a character looks into another's eyes and can just read their emotions there? yeah #it was purely platonic (on his part at least bcs I think i have a bit of a crush on him if i'm being honest) #but oh wow. it feels good to know that people care about you ya know? #that's tmi but who cares

[vampirebutterflies]

tagged by darling @gremlin-soup for my top five songs Right Now !!

✿ Here with Me by d4vd

❀ Sea of Love by Cat Power

✿ Hardlight by Spacey Jane

❀ Blood cover by Gang of Youths

✿ Running Up That Hill cover by The Wombats

taggin @not-nervous-jester @chupacactus @blackbeardskneebrace @blakbonnet @nofeelingisfinall @eye-scream-girls @couriander @skysofrey @smoothedsmoothie @enbiosaur @turtles-on-turts (won’t let me tag u I hope u see this 🥺) and @creepycute-puppy-gf if y’all wanna play because I am Full Of Love and interaction is!!! scary but fun!!!!

#bonus mention to groceries by mallrat It’s Fun It’s Cute It’s The Vibe it’s been stuck in my head on and off for hours #okay I’m gonna ramble abt my choices here bc I love oversharing #they’re in no particular order of Priority #here with me. god. GODDDDDD. ugh. the sounds are gorgeous the best and the tones and the vibes are immaculate I can’t help but move and flow #it’s seeping and saturated with love it’s dozey it’s dazey it’s thick with heady sunlight and it tastes sweet and citrusy and it feels like #sharing a melting ice lolly with someone you love and holding hands and watching the sunset and leaning against each other and wandering #hands and lazy kisses and ughhghghhhhh #like when your skins a lil pink and prickly from being out in the sun too long and your lips are a lil dry and tender but kissing still just #feels so soft and thick and heavy and sweet and safe #and feeling the textures of skin and clothes and warm sun and cooler breeze and the smell of each other after being out in the day together #just. together together together here with me #the suns setting and we’re heading home a little achey but it’ll be okay #I don’t care how long it takes. ​as long as I’m with you I’ve got a smile on my face #sea of love. ugh. it’s sweet. it’s cute. it’s a lil rough round the edges like holding hands with soft but slightly calloused skin. its Love #it feels. real. how it is. like snuggling up together and just dozing in the comfort of having each other #I love her voice I love how it’s a bit rough and imperfect it’s like singing something just for each other #and the tinny twangs and the different layers of sound and underlying sultry indulgence #it feels like being smug and in love and knowing how good you’ve got it even if it’s not your usual superficial visually Perfect #it feels like having you and Living and the quiet confident comfort #hardlight. need I say more #it’s upbeat but it’s fuckin heartbreaking #can you see the weight I’m wearing on my shoulders? each ones worse and stays a little longer #fucked it up again— I’m looking alive and I’m feeling fine #and I love I’m gonna start a fight— give me a reason; give me something to bite #blood? the building crescendo and the layers and the twinkling and the hhhhhh #and there is nothing you can do about it now. and the RAWNESS the EMOTION the STUBBORNNESS #do not let your fucking spirit wane. fuck. #I’ve run out of tags HELP I have so much to say!! wombats cover best cover I’ll ramble sometime if anyone asks OKAY BYE #tag game #mercury moments

[thatwitchrevan]

Currently thinking about when Anya's attendant tells Dimitri to bow to the duchess, how she insists 'oh, that's not-' (because she never wanted him or anyone to bow to her, because she wanted to be friends, because she has feelings for him and despite their misunderstanding and her wanting him to go away it still feels wrong to be so formal, because she doesn't want his false, forced respect, because she doesn't want him to be uncomfortable on her behalf, because she never wanted to be royalty she just wanted to have a family and maybe get to know this man who brought her home-)

And how he also insists, 'no, please,' and bows (because he DOES respect her, because the difference and the distance between them has been a stark reality for him ever since she told the story of the boy opening the wall in Sofie's living room, because he knows he can't see her again and this feels like the right goodbye, because she's been through so much to get here, because he's a little bitter that she ran from him and doesn't care to hear him explain, because he misses her already, because he's almost grateful to be reminded why he's leaving, because it's what's right and natural, to bow to her, because this has always been how it was, her a princess and him a kitchen boy, and he can do nothing to change that-)

And how not at all long after Dimitri changes his mind at the train station and Anya changes her mind at the ball and instead of watching this gulf open up between them anymore they give all of the propriety and the pretense up and run to each other. They were never much for propriety, anyway.

#Anastasia #m: anastasia #continues niche shitposting #they're so soft #this bit of the movie chews my heart up every single time #he's literally like 'this (leaving) is the one thing I'm doing right' #he leaves her because he wants her to be happy and he thinks she's better without him better with all the status better in her old life #and anya stays not because she wants to but because she feels like she has to because she has to choose between her family and her friend #like if she wants to have her home again she can never leave #and she's waiting for Dimitri to tell her it's okay and give her an out #to tell her he loves her back #but he doesn't because he wants her to be happy #and in being selfless he's doing the opposite #aka they should just fucking talk to each other #the fact that Dimitri lets her think he took the money so she will still want him to go. #that all it takes is her grandmother telling her he didn't take it #listen i have more feelings about this movie than i can contain

[redhotarsenic]

I think on and off about cutting my hair short someday. Like an undercut or something. But like. Would I even look good with short hair?? You know??

#kinda wanna do it a little like mr the stampede. my hair’s fluffy enough I think. but at the same time. #feel like my face is a bit too round to pull that off #and then I think about wearing my hair down #because I do think I look okay like that #but then I think about going outside that way and the wind and everything #and because you know. 4c hair. people touching it without consent because #you know. teehee it’s sooooo fluffy like a cloud it looks sooooo soft I’m just gonna touch the head of a complete stranger teehee #and plus I’m not used to having it down at all because I’ve been wearing it in a ponytail for years #hurgh #argh

[arklay]

oh. just thought about how shit it would feel for diana every time [redacted] is tender with her after she told him she loved him and he hadn't said it back. big oof

#like i have said right like it didn't matter to her if he said it back right? and that she just wanted to tell him cause that's how she #feels and she wanted him to know. and that's all true like if he never says it back then so be it like she will deal with it and move on #(aka her denying she really wants this and just rationalising her emotions rip in pieces) but that doesn't change the fact that her stomach #drops every time whenever he is soft with her because she's still so confused. she doesn't know if he feels anything back for her but then #why would he be so tender with her? she hates that she let herself have feelings for him. hates that she's in love with a man who might not #be able to give that back to her. because for as much as she says she doesn't care for romance or that she doesn't need it deep down she #has always wanted such a connection with someone and she has that with him. they get each other. she's never felt so *known* before but #then why doesn't he love her back? and it's like diana pleaaase he does!! he does so so much!! he just doesn't want to admit it to himself! #like them both just having these overwhelming emotions for each other which they haven't really felt before and both don't know how to deal #with it oughghg and diana just like knowing okay yeah we are friends and he's shown he cares for her but does he love her? and she just #doesn't know. she's so confused. so him being soft always makes her tense up a little bit after she tells him she loves him and he just #stayed quiet. it didn't feel like a slap in the face at a time but after all this time oh boy it sure does now... like arhghghgggh idk if i #am wording what i'm trying to get across properly but i am having so many emotions about them tonight send help #and yeah this was about the somft spicy thought i had like literally okay so beforehand like not even very soft moments but she was #standing in the doorway while he was just relaxing in bed and he reached a hand out and she got so like eeeee right but then sitting on the #edge of the bed and tentatively taking his hand cause her stomach just feels so tight and she's so oughg bye i am passing away #pair: ewskers #leah.txt

[yeagerprogram]

Okay now I need Hob to introduce Morpheus to the wonder that is the weighted blanket. I know he doesn’t need to sleep but he can rest tho!

#the sandman #‘Okay you weren’t too amazed by human inventions in the past but! You have to check this out!’ #Hob returns to him with a bundle of heavy black fabric in his arms. #‘A blanket?’ #‘Not just any blanket! A weighted blanket!’ #Hob deposits the blanket into Morpheus’s lap and adjusts it to cover him up. #Morpheus blinks at the sudden weight thrown at him. #After being covered in the blanket slowly his eyes start to droop. #He can feel his worries over his responsibilities depleting. #In a soft almost sleepy sounding voice he says ‘Hob.. what.. how..’ #‘Shhh. You may not need to sleep but I bet you can rest your eyes for a little bit tho.’ #With one final blink Morpheus’s body went completely limp. #He couldn’t remember ever feeling this at peace. #An hour or two of rest would be fine. The Dreaming would be okay. #It had Lucienne watching over things and Matthew would come to warn him if anything were truly wrong. #Yes. Some rest would do him good. Here in Hob’s home. He felt safe.

[rosicheeks]

You are possibly the softest, most gentle angel on this app 🥺 All your tags, how overwhelmed with romance you get, it’s so utterly delightful and makes my heart burst 🥺 Even through a screen, you give the immense feeling of being home, even to an anon like me 💜

If this is what it feels like to know you from a distance, I can’t even begin to imagine the unfathomable euphoria of knowing you up close Rosie 🥺 You are exquisite, in every sense of the word 🥺🥺🥺

#I’m NOT OKAY OMG #jdnsksnkxnfksnsmdndks I just?????? this is so fucking sweet I can’t handle it 😭😭😭😭😭😭 #with everything that’s been going on lately I definitely needed this 🥺 thank you so fucking much #^^ this is me ((sobbing and petting my bursting heart 🥺🥰)) #first of all…. you think I’m an angel 🥺🥺🥺 #broooooo I’m happy you like how overwhelmed (obsessed) I am with romance cause to me?!? I would like my heart to calm the fuck down #I didn’t ASK to be a hopeless romantic!! whoever made me accidentally spilled too much in and now I’m stuck like this 😂😂😂😂 #I think the part that actually made me start crying was the ‘home’ bit….. like that is so intimate and sweet 😭 #my goal is to find someone who makes me feel like home and I can make them feel like home…. no matter where we are or what’s going on - #all that matters is that we have each other…. I’ve been rewatching once upon a time while I paint and boy oh BOY that does things to me #I want to find my Prince Charming 😭😭😭 #but seriously I’m going to be thinking about that compliment for years!! ‘give the immense feeling of being home’ hold on while I SOB #I still think about an anon who said I reminded them of autumn cause that hit a soft spot inside me and this home shit DEFINITELY DID #just…. thank you 🥺🥺🥺 #honestly that last paragraph? I can’t believe someone could feel that way towards ME #like are you sure you have the right person?????? and then I read rosie and I’m like 👀 that’s me tho #I think exquisite is such an underrated word #I don’t even know what to say anymore dude… I think I said it all but then I read the ask again and I’m like 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 #and I feel like my tags aren’t good enough but I’m wayyyyyy too lazy to redo them so hopefully they’re good enough #I just don’t think you understand how much these asks mean to me #lately I’ve been in a little bit of a hole (and I haven’t been good at replying so I’m so sorry to anyone who has tried to snap/message me) #idk if hole is the right word maybe funk??? #but either way these asks never fail to put a smile on my face and remind myself that there is still good in the world #there are still amazing people I have yet to meet and wonderful places I have yet to see idk these asks help me get out of my depression #and I seriously can’t thank you enough I feel like I’ve said it a billion times but thank you thank you thank you #I’m not positive but I’m pretty sure words of affirmation is one of my highest love languages #words mean so much to me (obviously actions speak louder than words and blah blah blah) but I’ll be thinking about sweet words for YEARS #ok I’m probably running out of space so I should shut up….. but I’m going to end it on this - #thank you so much for sending me this 💖 thank you for taking the time out of your day to send me such sweet words #ask

[getougender]

what would okaeri have meant though? like welcome back to gojo? sorry im just kind of confused on what gojo would be welcoming geto back to 😅

it’s okay!

i just woke up and my brain is super scrambled, so i have to lay this out in bullet points for it to make any sense, sorry hfngkskfgk:

when gojou finally confronts getou one-on-one, the fighting is over, and they’re back where they started: jujutsu tech, where their relationship began and where they spent the most time together. it was a home for three years.

in welcoming getou back, gojou is dropping their enemy status. it’s not forgiveness, but it affirms that, yes, he still trusts him and considers him a friend and someone important to him despite everything, even after getou said himself he didn’t know gojou still felt anything like that towards him. it’s also a way of saying getou had had a place here (as the strongest, as a sorcerer instead of a curse user, at the school—take your pick, any works) if he’d chosen to come back, which i like to think is an interesting way of expressing regrets.

also? this is the first real interaction they’ve had in a decade. they’re not on equal ground (obviously), but for once, they have a little bit of time to get some things straight. getou can’t exactly run away and gojou has to kill him one way or the other, and they both know it.

so it’s an acknowledgment of their relationship, their history, and how important they still are to each other, wrapped up in a closure joke.

#jjk spoilers #getou suguru #gojou satoru #riko.txt #asks #something something the poem ends soft as it began i loved my friend #i don’t think gojou actually got a lot of closure from that bc of his tendency to ignore his feelings tho #i also don’t think gojou ever forgave him and i do think there was quite a bit of resentment there for. (gestures at everything) #but even still he loved him (once again you can take your pick on the kind) because that’s complicated relationships babey!!!! #i think i said months back in the first ask i answered about this that this moment is probably the clearest getou’s been in a while #like he’s lost to yuuta and knows he’s lost badly but he’s not. angry about it? or about seeing gojou there waiting for him? #he’s just kinda like ‘hehe i’ll get you next time—oh. oh okay’ #and i think it’s interesting that when faced with death while he’s definitely still pretty far gone he acts closer to who he was before #there’s no performance or deflection and he actually laughs #idk. i want to study him in a petri dish

[tvrningout-archived]

Chiyo hasn't been feeling too well recently; she doesn't say it, but Atsumu can feel it. Maybe it's the struggles of a first year college student, the torments of living on her own for the first time - as usual, she stubbornly refuses to burden him (or anyone, for that matter) with her troubles… so Atsumu decides, for once, to not press her and instead to clown around: seeing her focused on her sketchpad, he flops on her bed… and strikes a pose. "Draw me like one of yer French girls." He demands in his most velvety voice (accompanied by his heaviest kansai accent - a guaranteed effect, surely).

@pridewon | unprompted | accepting!

     she underestimated how difficult this would be. moving hours away from her parents and grandmother, living alone, and just college itself -- god, chiyo really thought she’d be right as rain, perfectly suited for an independent lifestyle, but it’s been one of the hardest things she’s ever done. maybe the hardest, actually. she didn’t realize how much she would miss complaining to her mother about her classes, or watching anime with her dad after school, or visiting her grandmother on the weekends. she didn’t realize how much lonelier it would feel to start all over on her own, either, and chiyo certainly couldn’t have guessed that she might struggle with the workload her classes would give her.

     actually, she should have seen that last one coming. she’s always been a chronic procrastinator, and growing a little older hasn’t changed that one bit.

     a sigh bubbles inside chiyo until it’s pushing past her lips, deflating her frame; her shoulders droop as she studies the rough sketch of what will eventually be a kitsune ( and yes, she may be influenced by the mascot of a certain school that a certain set of twins attend ). art has been hard, too, like all of the creativity she once possessed left her the minute she stepped foot out of miyagi. that’s particularly hurt because drawing has always been an outlet, a way to get out of her head, and now... well, she feels a little stuck. she feels a lot stuck.

     she also feels like crying ( and immediately squashes that urge, of course! ), but then atsumu plops down on her bed, posing there with his head propped up on one elbow and with a smile that already has her grinning back when---

     “ draw me like one of yer french girls. ”

     he says it in such a sultry tone and in what has to be the thickest kansai accent he’s ever used, and it shouldn’t be so funny, but it is. it’s silly and unexpected and replaces the heaviness in chiyo’s chest with laughter that brings tears to her eyes, has her forgetting all about the kitsune and school and being homesick. even if just for a few moments, chiyo feels completely at ease again. “ you’re such a dork! ” she snorts, like really snorts in the middle of laughing, and that just starts her right back up. 

     though the transition has been hard as hell, chiyo can’t deny the silver linings that have made it all bearable -- grandma miya, osamu, and atsumu. it’s moments like these that remind her all of this is worth it because right now, things are rough. she’s happy and unhappy and just as sure as she is unsure of what she’s doing, but it won’t be this way forever. if she could go almost her entire childhood seeing the miya’s only during vacations, then she can go just a few years seeing her parents only during vacations; if she could befriend two competitive boys who hadn’t entirely wanted her friendship at first, then she can befriend a couple of strangers who are in the same boat as her; and if she somehow made it into this college, then she can certainly get a handle on these classes.

     in the meantime, while chiyo struggles and stumbles, she’ll have one blonde goofball to remind her to laugh, and she really couldn’t be more thankful. 

     “ how about--- ” a giggle tries to slip out again, but chiyo takes a breath and just grins wide as can be at her boyfriend. “ how about you try to draw me, tsumu? i could use another laugh. ”

#pridewon #the minute i read this i had to answer cha AHHHH #i'm so soft and amused :' )))) i love that atsumu decided to make her laugh vs. trying to press the issue #this whole thing just has me so!!!! AHHHHHH bc i LOVE THEM TO BITS!!!!! #after writing all of that i can no longer articulate my feelings but LOVE okay and lots of it uvu #thank you so much for the ask cha <3 #interactions | chiyoko #a chain reaction in your heart | adulthood | chiyoko