#izzy speaks but i really shouldnt

[morgynemberisagenderfluiddaddy]

Did you have to dislocate your shoulder to pat yourselves on the back like that?

It's an "incredible platform of creativity" BECAUSE THE COMMUNITY MADE IT ONE!! Y'all gave us roofed hot tubs, shut up.

#im becoming increasingly violent as i read this #sims summit #ts4 #sims 4 #the sims 4 #sims #sims4 #simblr #izzy speaks but i really shouldnt

[morgynenby]

Heya! My name's Izzy I'm the artist behind @morgynemberisagenderfluiddaddy !

Welcome to my second blog where you can find ALL of my art and none of my bullshit! (Follow my original blog for all the bullshit)

Or you can follow me on Instagram @.izzydjentzz & @.gentzelpretzel for art & music stuff, or for writing & book stuff!

#izzy speaks but i really shouldnt

[catboyzilla]

its night and im missing him, i keep trying to thug it out and convince myself i hate him because i KNOW he hates me and we arent going to get back together cause he fucking HATES ME because i was too clingy. i feel so hopeless bro. i hope someday i meet someone who loves me the way I am, someone who fucking actually keeps their promise to love me always, one person who doesnt just use me for my body and then leave. im so fucking mad at him i never want to talk to him again.

just one part of me is holding onto the hope theres a chance. but he hates me, so why do i hope for a person that can switch up so fast and go from loving them to immediately hating them. i hope when hes older, he realizes that this was fucked up. i hope he actually takes responsibility instead of acting the victim and blaming everything on the other person. i wasnt fucking perfect but at least i loved you. maybe all he wanted was my body. he always tried to tell me he wasnt and i believed him, but ive gotten used for my body so many times. i dont give a shit if this annoys him or izzie or anyone else. i should be allowed to express myself. i should be allowed to share my thoughts, it isnt my fault that they read this. i should be able to say what i want on here because this is where i journal. this is where i speak, vent, rant. i know im impulsive, thats why i come here to speak. thats why i didnt fucking go off on you when you broke up with me. i had a good fucking coping strategy and it helped me stop being toxic. OH AND BY THE FUCKING WAY, i wasnt going to relapse because u couldnt fucking call me, i was going to relapse because my fucking family is horrible to me. thought u would at least understand the pain of ur family hating u would be. that fucking post was me appreciating you. i appreciated you so much. it doesnt look like you did though. i never fucking cared that you would call your friends, i never cared when you couldnt call me, i never cared if i couldnt go over to your house, i never fucking CARED if you couldnt talk to me. i just cared that you were happy. i cared that you wouldnt leave me because i was too much. i never tried to put anyrhing on you. you hurt me so mcuh. i put on an act of being sad that you couldnt come over, i put on acts of missing you because i wanted you to feel wanted. like i always wanted to feel. it hurts that you could just hate me after everything . i dont hate you. i never hated you. id understand if you disliked me but how could u hate me. how could u hate me after holding my face and staring me and telling me how much you loved me and how beautiful i was. how could you hate me after giving me something that you cared about because you wanted to be with me forever. how could you hate me after i held you and let you lay on my chest because it made you feel safe. i dont think you really hate me. i think you are just saying that because you are emotionally distant. you dont like being sad. you dont like being alone. you dont like not having anyone to love. i know all your secrets. you know mine. i dont want my stuff back. i just want my secrets back. i want to give u ur secrets back cause now i know everything about you. everything. and it fucking HIRTS. because i still love you. i cant move on that fast. i admit it, i shouldn't love you, i shouldnt miss you. but i do, and that fucking hurts that i do. cause i wish i didnt. i wish i had the confidence to tell everyone how much i hated you. but i dont, because i dont. i loved you. this is only going to ADD stress onto you. now, you have so many people against you. now, you have no one to support you besides your friends. thats not ever going to be enough for you though. when your up late at night, you will think of me. you will think of the ways things couldve been. you will think of the way you felt when we were together. you will. and when you do, im not going to be there to help you. im not going to be there to comfort you and tell you its all going to be alright. im not going to be there to tell you that you didnt hurt me; that you didnt do anything wrong. you will just sit there, and think of every way things could have been better. the way i feel now, you will feel it. even if its not now, you will. i wont be there. you wont have izzie, you wont have lola, you wont have me. you did this to yourself. no matter how much your dad defends you, it wont be enough to make izzie love you again. she hates you. lola does too. i was trying to help them to get to not hate you anymore, i was convincing them to like you again.

i literally did everything i could behind the scenes to make your life a little better.

why couldnt you just stay in my life? that was the only part that made mine a little better. that i had a boyfriend. maybe i js miss the way i felt in love. maybe i dont miss YOU, but the feeling. but i doubt. i do miss you, i miss your smile. no one smiles like that. i miss your laugh, it was soothing and it made me happy. i miss the fact you liked my body. i miss the fact that you had gentle eyes. i cant imagine how you look with hate in them. like you hate me now. i need to tell myself you hate me. even if i dont want to believe it. i need to get over you. even it i dont want to, you already are over me. idk how thats possible. its been 3 days? but yk. yeah. whatever. im not a victim, neither are you. accept it.

[irregodless]

ive just been thinking about that guys antifeminism speech for a while

so in case you havent heard, which you havent because this is only something that happened to me basically, in my class this guy in front of me was talking about how he had to give a speech in his next class too (incidentally so did i, but i stopped thinking about it and reading the book required by class to listen)

everything in quotes is paraphrased so keep that in mind, but it captures the essence

he starts by talking about the class and the speech. some friends ask what its about and hes like “its against feminism” and you can hear the “:/” in their silence

the group is a boy a girl and this guy who later in class confessed to eating horse shit. multiple times.

they clearly dont care much about feminism i dont think but theyre like “thats kind of a controversial topic isnt it! you think its going to go well since youre a man?” and shitmallet is all like “see THATS stereotyping and THATS bad.”

except its not because not only have men talking about feminism (particularly why its not good) proven to be awful, but also, they were justified because he was also awful

and like, i know that feminism can be hurtful to trans ladies and woc, but also, this is real life at community college and nobody even realizes these are even things let alone problems. but just hearing someone say “feminism is shit” immediately triggers a response in me like “I Don’t Trust Like That” to think theres a valid reason. its a black and white way of thinking but its telling when someone flat out says its bad, like, entirely. let alone this guy.

anyway he gives a good like two minute talk about how you should imagine a person in your life, a mother, sister, daughter, whatever, who you want to protect. it sounds like the justification people try to use to try and beg men to care about rape by appealing to their sense of family

and he goes “these are all people we want to protect. and im going to tell you all why you should protect them from....... Feminism” and i nearly fuckin DIED i had to hold back laughter

so this is where his argument starts to fall to pieces. understand im only addressing his argument and its lack of merit here. i think it goes without saying its just kind of generally shit

all like

protect yer womenfolk from catchin’ the Thinkin’ Disease, lads

or

yer womens will know endless untold agony and grief if they learn how shit theyre being treated...

like. as a man. you really dont have a right to be saying “no, honey, im protecting you FROM feminism.” thats kind of like going to pride, telling everyone why pride is bad because it does some things some times and being like “as a straight man i know whats best for gay people”

okay so moving on, he makes the only decent statement he says the whole while which is basically he doesnt like how it furthers the gap between men and women and it turns women into nothing but victims. like. hes got lots of shit missing but hes STARTING to get the point i guess. like. to stop women from being victims. but hes trying to do that by....... silencing the women

i guess women cant be victims if? nobody knows they are???

but heres where we get some fuckin good ol logical fallacies n shit

“its the mens jobs to look after the women” okay so: reinforcing gender roles. putting a gender role on yourself that youll just complain about for being expected to take care of women. you think women shouldnt be treated like helpless victims and should be able to (kind of) think and speak for themselves, and yet, you think that they HAVE to have men there to take care of them.

like can we just think on that for a minute

women shouldnt be treated like they cant take care of themselves. and we should accomplish that by not letting women take care of themselves

like just?????? how do you NOT see the contradiction. i wish i was his teacher. i dont think you can give him a bad grade for having a differing opinion but you can DEF tear him about for not having his shit together

which might nto be fair considering you might not focus on that if it was something you agreed with. but also, consider the following: fuck this guy

but like then he goes on about how “yeah i dont want to like remove womens right to vote or anything, but feminism is garbage now. feminism started off with good reasons [though i wonder if hed been born at that time if he wouldnt say “dont you miss it when women and children were seen and not heard?”] and its this third and fourth wave feminism thats shit.” and then he says, now get this, “i dont like all this nonsense with not wearing shirts and” pause for dramatic effect. “dyeing their hair green and shit.”

LIKE BOOOOOOOOOOOOOYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

i like it when women do things as long as its things i like like being guilted into sleeping with me and throwing their lives away and making me breakfast

i dont like it when women do things i dont personally approve of >:(((((

like i genuinely wonder if he thinks that the hairdye is directly related to it, or if hes just saying like. its something that tends to happen around this generation of feminism

but GOD i hope he thinks women are dyeing their hair to personally spite him i can only fucking HOPE

anyway he closes it and the man with a copy of dbz on his backpack and the woman with a uninteresting voice are like “wow i was worried at first but you made good points.......................”

and im just writing half of it down and messaging izzy and justin about it because i cannot BELIEVE

like im just. so lost and dumbfounded at how shit that argument was. and also that hes apparently so offended by women not wearing shirts.

i just. im just. i wish i was in a debate class with him so i could tear him down

but im too lame of an ally to talk out about people in real life because im scared and dont have a chance to prepare which will lead to me either shouting crying or both and not having ANY of my facts together (not that it matters apparently considering you can just say whatever you want apparently)

also he says "men have problems too" and i almost rocketed into the sun

this speech was written by one of the founders of the republic of gilead i swear

#rape mention but like only in name #antifeminist sentiments but you should be able to get that much out of the first sentence #what im going to be discussing #but the sentiments arent from me.

[ketzwrites]

sfjessii respondeu a sua postagem “Okay, so the Lightwood name comes from Robert. Maryse is latina… ...”

it confuses the hell out of me because people have said maryse isn't meant to be latina on the show so izzy isn't and none are really but why do they then speak spanish at all and????? i just dont get it at all and i shouldnt even think about it *eeee*

Yeah, I 100% disregard whatever the crew and cast say about that. My HC is that despite the fact all shadowhunters believe in the Angel Raziel, the ones who don’t live in Alicante share the mundane’s cultures from where they live. So yup, Maryse is latina and the Lightwood children would be regarded as mixed race by American mundanes, with the boy being more white passing than Izzy. 

For fuck’s sake, they live in the 21st century NYC. If one take a look into the Institute, they’ll see all shapes and colors inside. The thing is that shadowhunters have their own culture among themselves, but they are not completely divorced from the places where they live. There can be both a divine culture and the day-to-day culture, they are not mutually exclusive.

#sfjessii #shadowhunters meta #I have so many thoughts about this

[izystan-archive]

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#im about to do something i really hate doing #complain #why the fuck is it so hard to get notes? #i get that i was gone for 3 years but when you put your heart soul mind and body into making good edits with the best possible coloring and #the best possible quality #only for my shit to get like less than 10 notes????? #its fucking infuriating #i absolutely hate it #im gonna lose a lot of followers for saying this but idgas anymore #i shouldnt need to be afraid to speak my mind on my PERSONAL blog ffs #okay im done #shit izzy says

[morgynemberisagenderfluiddaddy]

If you or a loved one have been personal victimized by having to search for male cc, you may be entitled to compensation

#ts4 #sims 4 #the sims 4 #sims #sims4 #simblr #sims 4 cc #cc #custom content #izzy speaks but i really shouldnt

[morgynemberisagenderfluiddaddy]

Just logging in to share with you guys my mom's super hot take on trans rights;

"Frogs and fish change gender all the time but when a person does people lose their shit! Who cares! The frogs don't!"

Frogs don't care about your TERF ideology, get fucked. -my mom 2022

#things my mom says #terfs dni #eat shit and die #izzy speaks but i really shouldnt #trans rights

[morgynemberisagenderfluiddaddy]

Looking for more simblr/art friends!!

Hi I'm izzy everyone's gone all deactivated on me and I miss annoying people so if you wanna be mutuals and annoy each other... reblog??

I'm an artist, I like to edit sims into art pieces, sometimes i do look books and gameplay. But it's mostly art stuff.

I love music (its not easy at all to guess my favorite band lol), talking shit about comicbooks, and going absolutely feral over my OCs (seriously, ask at your own risk)

#boosts are also greatly appreciated 💖 #izzy speaks but i really shouldnt #mutuals #art mutuals #simblr muruals #artumblr #simblr #artists on tumblr #simstagram #friends #sims 4 #sims #sims 3 #artists #artistic #looking for friends #looking for mutuals

[morgynemberisagenderfluiddaddy]

Do you guys want to hear about my book????? 👉🏽🥺👈🏽

#if this gets no notes but looked at for half a second i will know and i will info dump on the fucking spot #pls interact #izzy speaks but i really shouldnt

[morgynemberisagenderfluiddaddy]

I want to talk so much shit about the new "grunge kit" but I know if I wasn't such a crusty ass bitch I would've bought it by now 😤

#IF I WASNT BOYCOTTING IT WOULD BE SO OVER FOR YOU BITCHES #😤😤😤 #fuck you ea #sims 4 #grunge kit #izzy speaks but i really shouldnt

[morgynemberisagenderfluiddaddy]

Random fact #4

My vampires are FUCKED UP. They've got a little bit of a zombie, rotting corpse vibe. The idea was that vampirism is a symptom of an infection (kinda like 28 days later in a way)

Fact #4.5

I made up and wrote the virus long before the covid pandemic, and when the pandemic hit, I genuinely considered changing it, and was close to starting a second draft before I was STRONGLY advised not to.

#the pandemic was fun wasnt it? #izzy speaks but i really shouldnt #writing stuff #book stuff #tw pandemic

[morgynemberisagenderfluiddaddy]

Me, thinking I could make a six photo edit in under 3 hours:

#i shouldve just slept in like i planned 😒 #rip me i died dead #lol dumbass #izzy speaks but i really shouldnt #uwu artist life ✌🏽😎✌🏽

[morgynemberisagenderfluiddaddy]

Random fact #2

This novel started out as a short story I was using as a writing exercise while I was working on a VERY different story. I ended up falling in love with Holy Water Hurts and scraped the other project to work on this one full-time

Fact 2.5

The other project I was working on started out as an extra credit assignment for my English class

#hwh whats also meant as an exploration into writing less PG stuff and giving voices and personalities to the awful stuff in life! #if that makes sense lol #izzy speaks but i really shouldnt #book stuff #writing stuff #random facts #nonsims

[morgynemberisagenderfluiddaddy]

I'm trying a new pronoun set and uh do i give a he/they vibe???

#“a new pronoun set” #later on my youtube channel i will be doing an unboxing of the new pronoun set #dw #izzy speaks but i really shouldnt #gif warning

[morgynemberisagenderfluiddaddy]

Don Lothario is a CHAD and I WILL DIE ON THIS HILL

#don what did they do to you!!!!!! #also why are the calientes still white?? #im pleading ea just let them be brown pls #like its okay people are brown!!! #im a brown person and I'm just fineeeee #izzy speaks but i really shouldnt #the sims 4