#ive known this for a while

[kilibaggins]

/ vent. again. death of family member talk

#so my grandmother is getting worse. #ive known this for a while #like i've known shes sick and getting worse and dying but now it feels so much more real because the nurse told my dad that we arent sure #how long she has #either a day. two days. a week. we dont know #and my dad told me today and i just... #i never called her enough. i never talked to her enough. i never took that time to talk to her like i should have and now it's too late. if #i call her and my aunt my grandma wont be able to respond to me. i took too long to finally call her and now it's too late and i lost my ch #chance to have a conversation with her again #the last time i called her was CHRISTMAS. #over two months ago. #well i probably talked to her between then but not much #and it just hurts because i regret not talking to her enough #but shes not actively in my life and wast before that either and i dont have like any memories with her #and idk its just. its so hard because i feel bad for not talking to her. #i wish i talked to her more #gosh i wish i just CALLED HER when i had the chance. my dad TOLD ME TO so many times ! my aunt practically begged me to call them! my mom t #told me i should! people were telling me to and i was so focused on my own life that now its too ate #im so tired of being sad all the time why is my life so. #i just wish it was easier. #gosh why cant lfe be easier

[greenieflor]

I need to get a cane

#lav rambles #ive known this for a while #but god yesterday solidified it

[punkitt-is-here]

One of the developers of Omori recently shared their experiences in this thread about the treatment they had to go through during the development of the game. They're going through a rough patch at the moment. If you liked Omori, I think you should help Melon Kid out if you can!!

It's disheartening to hear that someone on a team was mistreated. Games are a beautiful medium, but the people who make those games come first. We've all got to work hard to ensure better environments for devs, and that starts with making sure they can get back on their feet!

#my posts #omori #i've known about this for a while but this is the first time ive seen them make a public discussion of it that wasn't taken down #please support melon kid!!!!

[bamsara]

So is the reason for Tyren getting more unhinged the side effects of the devotion necklace, or was this a downward spiral he would have gone done regardless of the necklace? I remember you talking about how the necklaces have consequences, and I'm curious if this is one of them.

Yeah!

Tyren would have been an already overly-doting and even jealous character on his own without the loyalty necklace, (and had been due to his crush on the Lamb even before recieving it, and what happens when you reject followers in-game) but his spiral into a unhealthy obsession and idolization was aided by the loyalty necklace.

If it was given to perhaps a regular, less devoted follower, the effects maybe wouldn't have had such severity. But Lamb got the materials/necklace from the mystic seller and isn't fully aware of the effects it might have on their followers yet.

So, dog is unhinged a bit on his own, but amplified by the necklace. He's originally friendly, caring and sweet. But you take good traits, too much of a good thing, and they can turn bad

#I want to talk about Tyren in stream again or go on a ramble #he's a character i want readers to like but also i dont want them to LIKE LIKE him #i want to write him in a way that makes you wonder if he did not go down this path he would actaully be someone you'd want to be friends wi #what ifs and what not #also in some reality there would people rooting for tyren in his corner because in his point of view #hes known the lamb for a long time and has been their friend and confidant #and has cared about them and even had a crush on them for quite a while #then suddenly this cat appears and everything feels wrong #dont get me wrong tyren is meant to be a good friend turned bad guy #but i was also never meant to get attatched to and develop the side characters as i have been doing slkdghsld #okay ive rambled enough #tyren oc #trod au

[kjthetalekeeper]

nostalgia

#my art #rwby #ruby rose #it has been a while huh #but i want it to be known that some of my fondest memories are tied to this silly little tumblr account #i completed my bachelors degree some days ago and ive been reminiscing #i started this blog at 15 and im almost 22 now #crazy

[ever-go-on]

seeing traces of what might be another child part

#my posts #actually did #actually dissociative #i chalked them up to being an existing child having a unique trauma response but... hm. might not be #just like the last kid i identified this month ive known about their trauma responses and symptoms for a while just didnt think it might be+ #+a separate part. even though actually that does make sense #welcome to my brain we have many developed children and even more child fragments

[crescentfool]

the persona 3 protagonist 25th anniversary nui in food appliances!

#lizzy speaks #persona 3 #minato arisato #makoto yuki #guys friendly reminder that this is what adulthood is about dont listen to anyone who calls you cringe #hence why im putting these in the main tags. i mean they're not incorrect for what the photos are about. lmao #anyway this was a very fun birthday!!! i feel very loved and supported by so many people and i got to do very fun things (like this)... #i think... birthday is like thanksgiving to me. in the gratitude respect. #a reminder of all the lovely people that i have gotten a chance to meet and how i've learned from them #it makes me very happy to have been born... i think every day is a great day to celebrate life's grandeur + brilliance + magnificence #it's just a very poignant and strong feeling that i have that i'm happy to have met so many wonderful people #and while there are some people i've only known for brief periods of time or people who i havent really been good at keeping in contact wit #i do cherish it! im so grateful. so happy that there are people who cheer my silly shenanigans on #while there are ways in which aging makes me go “oh hmm” i think overall i'm happy that i get to keep on living and learning #i have so much fondness for humanity and people... like even if i dont get to talk to ppl directly i just get very emotional yknow #like wow.. you exist.. thats so fucking awesome... i hope you have an awesome day... im glad our paths could cross #if you have read up to this point of my tags.. thank you for reading and being part of my life #i will keep on being the silliest guy ive ever known! cheers to more shenyanigans and self-discovery :3

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

do you think that what the doctor usually feels for companions, rather than romantic or sexual attraction, might just be idolisation?

#just thinknig abt how 13 calls river 'on eof the best people ive ever known' #which might just be her echoing yazs words bc that seems to be the only way she knows how to communicate #but it's also like the most open i can think of the doctor ever being wrt how they feel abt river #and thinking of 10 in the satan pit going i dont believe in god i believe in rose instead #and how much of an influence rose had on the doctor #maybe its less the companion does a doctor arc and more the doctor and the companion will inevitably grow toward each other #clara and the doctor matched in specific ways that just like maybe amplified them #they didnt like balance out they become More Them #did everything the way the other wouldve done who wouldve done it the way they wouldve done #feedback loop #13 mightve worried for the same with yaz honestly #they wouldve become something very different to 12 and clara i think but no less powerful #terrifying in different ways #maybe less 'i'll kill the world to get you back' and more 'i'll kill myself to get you back' #more inward-focused in that part of it while more outward focused in the like adventure parts #Helping People rather than 12claras adrenaline junkie adventure seeking #not that thasmin arent also adrenaline junkie adventure seeking and 12clara dont want to help #just like a slightly shifted focus #i think thasmin want to feel....important. useful. helpful. more than 12clara. i think 12clara are just looking for a good time in each oth #rs company more #but idk #anyway do you think the doctor idolised yaz back as much as yaz idolised her? #DO you think yaz idolised her? #i have a really hard time getting int he doctors head abt companions. like how they feel abt them Really #but like. idolisation would be a really fun one to add into 13s head i think #what if she wants to impress yaz just as much as yaz wants to impress her oh my god #('tell me youre impressed')

[majunju]

what do you think of tears of themis if you've played it? i started playing for marius ngl

HAHAH omg i haven’t played it in a long time, but xiayanrosa my loves….. they have such a special place in my heart. childhood friends to lovers + (redacted) is my favourite trope PLUS kaji yuki???? craziness

#asks #i used to be known as That xia yan artist a while back but ig it’s been a long time since ive done any tot art LOL

[spaciebabie]

it never occurred ta me that the "you're going 2 brazil" meme was a reference ta something i just thought we all collectively sat down as humans and thought, "what would be the the funniest place ta haul some poor fuck ta" and all looked and pointed at brazil and said, "yes, that one"

#I THOUGHT IT WAS JUST. #THE INTERNET BEING RANDOM #JUST CHOOSING SOME RANDOM COUNTRY TA RIFF ON FOR NO REASON AKJSDKAJSDKAJDAKSJD #ITS A REFERENCE??? I HAVE NEVER BEEN THE SAME SINCE IVE KNOWN THIS INFORMATION #spacie spoinks #ive been thinking abt making this post for weeks and keep forgetting skdjfskjdfsdfj #in the meeting room like ''you're going 2 zimbabwe? no no that doesnt sound funny enough...'' #''ireland? no...nigeria? no....italy?? no no no...none of these fit right....'' #i mean. ta the memes credit i laugh like a lunatic whenever someone says ''YOU'RE GOING 2 BRAZIL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!'' so #i laughed while i was typing that sjkdjskksdks #im very easily humored. we all know this. #you could jingle keys in my face and id probably laugh abt it #fellow giggle fucks rise up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[lotuslate]

I thought that I was dreamin’ when you said you loved me

#mdzs #mdzs fanart #wei wuxian #wei ying #yiling laozu #mo dao zu shi #grandmaster of demonic cultivation #jessbye #egg #hey yall have u ever listened to ivy by frank ocean? cause i have <3 #repeatedly . like 47828484 times just toda #i mean ive known abt it for a long time but its just recently im figuring out the wangxian implications in it lol #anyway this is supposed to take place after lwj got his ass beat and got dragged back to his sect #maybe in those last moments wwx found a bit of clarity while gazing of whats left of that ribbon #but maybe it was just a dream

[spoopy-nevermore-dump]

Hey pssst hey. Have you ever considered: Montada?

I hate it, and it nearly killed my hyperfixation

But I understand my opinion on this may affect others, and many may be hurting from this episode soooooooooo

Art requests open

#nevermore webtoon #i debated on posting this response when you sent it because 1) spoilers but 2) i swear i neededa fucking warning for this shit #“jessie and james vibes” my ass #monty has been giving off major r@pist vibes since his introduction #and while this makes sense as a good angsty plot point for ada. i dint think it should be endgame for a plethora of reasons #the past month ive known about this ive been waiting for the community divide that will probably occur ocer this #and i dont want people to fight #nevermore has been there for me for well over a year. helping me through the days since 11th grade. when i was 16. and im graduated now. 18 #the community has been an absolute blast. even if im not as active on maincord anymore. with life getting busy and just too much to backrea #and im scared of losing that #but hey i got some art coming up in the next few days and I'm about to go to a wedding and you bet your ass im bringing my sketchbook #pls give me requests ive been in idea art block #and i dont think you guys want me making a bunch or horror movie aus cause that may end up in me drawing slight gore eventually #sorry to the other patrons for lying how i felt about this ship #i did truly feel neutral when i first saw it but now it just leaves a bad taste in my mouth #it makes me feel sick #a good part of my feelings towards it is due to how it got talked about in the Patreon streams and how uncomfortable it made me and others

[liquidstar]

and now for something stupid

#but really i also just wanted to play around w this sort of coloring style bc its been FOREVER since ive used it #and i think i can make it look better now #AND i think i can make more sillay stuff like this and not have it take as long w cleaning up lines #anyway now you all understand the terrible dynamic between these three #phobo's infodump text is just copypasted from the wikipedia page for knives. #julliet ALSO uses knives is the thing so hes actually mansplaining < JOKE #he just wants to share. even if it gives her a headache. but he wouldnt mansplain he doesnt have it in him. hes ok with felonies tho #but julis life hasnt known peace since she was told to take care of the newbies #and shes ALSO a newbie (just slightly less so) so really this is probably just tartarus hazing her #theyd take one look at the two disorganized unserious overeager newbies and think ''you know what would be fucking hilarious'' #and pass them onto the neurotic slightly-less-newbie who takes everything as seriously as possible. disaster combination. #i cannot stress enough that this is a group of bandits and murderers theyre NOT above hazing. #deimos actually is doing the best job at it since he is stealing as we speak #i mean hes not supposed to do it to his teammates but still. on the right track #as for the dynamic between deimos and phobos themselves its like. theyre just bros. theyre both pretty similar in personality #except deimos is kinda more mean and cynical while phobos can be kinda. dense and naive despite literally where hes at in life #but most of the time theyre basically beavis and butthead #i would also like to stress that juli is not being homophobic she just already cannot stand these guys and cant believe the audacity #but. complete misunderstanding. karma for stealing wallets ig #this will never be cleared up by anyone ever #but again thats not their dynamic they are just beavis and butthead. and i guess that makes juli daria LOL #finn's ocs #finn's art

[pangyham]

been thinking about the liyue gang and how id draw their physical builds so here are some thoughts i had for xy cy and gm in particular

- xingqiu, unsurprisingly, would be quite lanky. i like to think he has broad-ish shoulders, like a thin athlete's build? hes a long boy to me haha, long face, neck, limbs, fingers etc, so naturally hes stands (comparatively) tall at 5'6" or 5'7"

i like to think hes most physically attractive one and has that handsome princely and boyish charm to him because it adds a lot to his fuckass duality LOL

- chongyun is a lot like xiao imo! short stature but with muscular arms. he seems nimble and flexible because of his normal attack animations (which bears a lot of similarities to xiao's actually! this + the fact that chongyun's normal attacks create gusts of wind further reinforces my hc that xiao trains him). sometimes i watch high energy choreography vids on youtube and some dancers look incredibly light on their feet, almost like their body is inherently bouncy? and i imagine chongyun to have that agility to him. chongyun has a delicate face and aura and i let that bleed into my hcs for his fighting style and physical capabilities hahaha. hes kind of like a cat who's deceptively strong. as for height.. just a few inches taller than xiao, so perceptibly short at 5'4"

- ga ming my new beloved. pretty much similar to chongyun but more muscular and stronger just because he wields his claymore with ease. theres a noticeable weight different between cy and his claymore the way he lugs it up after he swings (or even other claymore users like razor who, on his last hit, bounces from impact). meanwhile ga ming literally slams his to the ground LOL. i love his movements though hes very swift and expressive and radiant.. if cy has delicate movements then ga ming's is fierce and (charmingly!) assertive

ga ming is wonderfully charismatic though, i know hes not well known in liyue harbor yet, but he seems like the type to gain a reputation from his friendliness. how could no one adore him hahaha. 5'5" for height! just between xy and xq

#tangy talks genshin #chongyun gets analyzed most my bad #this was super fun though #while thoughtful ; genshin chara designs will always look distinctly gacha and flashy so a lot of the designs kinda blur together in my hea #this is why i really like looking into their animations particuarly their normal attacks #i think it conveys their personalities really well! it's always something to look forward to when new characters release #i gravitate towards swords polearms and claymores most though because i like the act of swinging and slashing hah. it also requires a lot o #body movement and reflects a lot of irl martial arts fencing and other combat techniques #sword users are always really fun to watch because theyre inherently graceful hahah. i will admit it gets kinda repetitive #i think my favorite NA animation has to be albedo's.. very simple clean and refined. he stands elegantly and puts his arm behind his back o #his 2nd attack which ive been transfixed by since be first came out in 2020 LOL. i love albebo #wow these tags are long as hell #but anyway i actually have more thoughts on xq's physical appearance but its just me rambling about how i think hes funny as fuck #im a proponent of dashingly pretty princely xingqiu not necessarily because i want to bestow upon him desirable traits #but because i think its funny knowing hes just a bit of a loser under all that #hes well known (mr worldwide one might say) and the heir to a prestigious guild and chivalrous talented and prolific #but he writes self insert novels hates carrots had bad handwriting sings really bad #hes just a teenage boy #as always i will 100% have more to say about chongyun but ill save that for another post #ga ming on the other hand.. i dont have anything substantial to say but hes super fun to think about #hes such a likable character #wow these tags are LONG as fuck ill stop now.

[pansyfemme]

my fave art supply store is closing throwing up and crying but i still took advatage of the closing sale

#they dont officially close til march but OUUUUGH #ive known for a little while but they only #announced it publically/started the sale today :(

[frostedpuffs]

not being able to perceive social cues fuckin SUCKS but it’s also very hilarious because someone could be making fun of me and i just Genuinely Don’t Know. and they always get so confused bc im always so clueless and nice. like that shit backfires all the time it’s great

#in a way it kind of works in my favor but also it doesnt bc #it's 11pm and im sitting here for some reason feeling like every person ive ever known actually Doesnt Like Me #but i just actually have No Idea because i dont understand social cues #i just wrote 2000 words while sick af so i Think my Brain is a Bit Fried #like a scrambled egg #text post