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ber-bonfamille-lyons · 7 years

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A NOTP with your Muse in it (if you have any).

Mel: Uhhhh tbh i ship mel with almost everyone she has ever rped. She had insane chemistry with so many ppl. No notps

Ber: Hades lol. be a disaster. um Tinker???? they r brotp ahah

Kiara: Kella, though also I ship Kella like the problematic bitch i am

Hades: Sephades?

Milo: uhhhhhh um. Belle bc it would be so boring they’d never do anything but read

Nala: SIMALA NOTP

Kiki: uh no notps

Anita: at this point louita i guess lmao

Prince: no notps

Paul: uh nope

Andrina: nope

Merida: nope

Mowgli: nope

♦: Relationship with your Muse.

i dont rly get this question either i reject the voices in your head theory so im gonna do what mk did:

mel came to me because i was really into the idea of rping a dragon and using it as a metaphor for female empowerment. i suppose if we have a relationship she is the ego buried somewhere deep inside me lmao

ber came to me because hsi skeleton had this amazing disconnect of “loves being alone in a crowd of people” basically and his anxiety is pretty personal so i saw a way to explore that with him. also i loooove music so yeah. also that hew as a middle kid i mean-- really he was so immediate, just a real person, right away, my honey.

kiara came to me because i wanted to invert the romeo/juliet structure and make it Gay AF and she was always one of my fave disney characters.

hades came to me because i created thsi thing called the ‘ambassador’ and i also wanted to play an anti-hero hades and play with the whole ‘destiny’ trope. i intended to make him more unlikable than he is now tho maybe some would disagree and say he’s p unlikeable lmao

milo came to me bc i really love toying with the media of RP like we have these blogs right and those blogs can function as ic-blogs and so mostly i wanted milo to be a source for worldbuilding. In a way i wanted him to function almost like the audience reaching in and interacting with the world. the best way to describe it is the voice of cecil baldwin reporting on the events of nightvale tho he isnt the center player (originally at least idk im not far into nightvale.) i planned all these like interviews and blog posts and diary entries etc. i didnt do a lot of these things lol and he’s much more of a character-character now but i still like those aspects of him

nala came 2 me bc once AGAIN i really wanted to play a diff dynamic in terms of simala and i wanted someone involved with the whole InterPride scandal tbh. i drew from my experience working with nonprofits to inform a lot of her character

kiki came 2 me bc i was like wow what does a witch apprentice look like and what does a familiar look like. thsoe were the two questions that i wanted to explore with her and she’s like the exact opposite of mel

anita came 2 me bc i could not give up the opportunity to play opposite AUNT CRUELLA and i like dthe idea of doing a rags 2 riches kind of deal and also she was so diff from the females i had-- soft where everyone else was sort of hard, girly while everyone else was more....masculine? so she filled that void for me

Prince came 2 me with a question bc they always do: what would the guardian of the forest look like? what’s his story. how does that work. what mythology can i dive into. he was SO different than aNYone i had ever done and that kind of challenge excites me like-- noTHING else

Paul: once again it was the fact that i had never rped anyone like paul that made me want to rp paul lmao. i wrote his skeleton originally as a teenage dad (he started off as a rugby star in my head) and was liek WANT and then it took me like nine months to get him or something. and i love him bc parenthood, and masculinity, and poverty and all these other things, he’s just once again filling in holes i had that i hadnt previously explored (that wasn’t a real sentence. i apologize).

Andrina: oNCE again i was like i need a mermaid because what does atlantis lake look like? how can i sculpt it what can i build out of that? and i liked the idea andrina was experimenting with magic and maybe going places she shouldn’t go. and then when the adhd thread came in i was like this si ALSO something ive never done and will open up new opportunities for me. sold.

Merida: UGH the story was too good to pass up. once again-- notice a pattern-- i was like: i can expand on this order of the prince thing i created and do it while twisting it on its head. i was halfway inspired by the disreputable history of frankie landeau-banks whicih is basically about like a ya feminist awakening. plus all the DRAMA she could cause. who else would turn merida into a villain??? me. i am the answer.

Mowgli: UGH again lol i just was super intrigued about mowgli’s history and how his identity has been shaped by magic-- magic he doesnt have and magic that he does have after all. also i just knew his voice was going to be beautiful and i loved writing raj for his culture and i love writing mowgli for his.

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lovesafebox · 5 years

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maybe its time to Face the Facts nd realise she def doesnt like like me so :-) its whatever god im having such conflicting thoughts on whether to feel or opress everything because if i feel bad i really feel shitty like torrential downpour u know but sometimes i hate repressing its so draining and painful

i really am a sotong

a recent pasttime of mine has been looking through old texts bc haha i like to feel pain ! and like. that shit sucks like i suck im terrible at dealing with emotions and im so so bad at trying to talk to other people about emotions So I Just Ignore Them see this is why i can never form an emotional connection with anyone i fuck it up all the time by now feeling enough or by not responding i suck ! there were so many opportunitues for me to express myself but its only retrospecrively that i understand what i feel abd that sucks !

during my whatsapp deep diving i look at the old gc texts of people feeling sad and i realised that i never responded to any of those texts but i honestly dont know why and i feel guilty and like such a bad friend if i can even call myself that but shit man i hate myself for my interactions with others because in the end. its others perception of me that will truly last right? god im so annoyinf but in that way that its not because i talk too much which is abother problem in of itself but sometimes i dont talk at all and that shit really sucks and i hate myself and i hate myself and

i realised that. ive never had a relationship in which a friend will talk to me about their feelings and i try to help em like bitch i had to get like. news and drama from jenna ow of all people during our internship like ! do u not trust me? is this a trust thing? or is it entirely my fault for not engaging anyone in deep conversation im so put of the loop from my friends lol friends as if i have more than melly but thats the thing! i dont even know about mellys friendship circle bc they meet at like 8am and by the time the holidays roll around like. all the dogs are put into doggy hotels and not even my dog loves me so theres that no one will ever truly love me

it sucks to feel jealous all the time like fuck man with aliyyah i wasnt the only one ! and bitch i will never be the only one! i will always be in second place ! ive never felt so invalidated in my life the first time i realised that i wasnt my best friends best friend in like p2 abd man that spiraled into terrible terrible things in p4 and p5&6 like. people will never take My Word for things i am defenseless of course i could defend myself but i have no one to back me up and that shit hurts

what is true romantic love anyway. lol is it even possible for that to exist ? my father cheated on my mum, and then my mum got cheated on again and actually got physically abused and what i was so goddamn clueless about it i was 6 and had no idea what was happening

i realised that for the first few years of conciousness that ate was my biggest motherly figure in my life and that i never really appreciated the fact but now i do and yet i dont show it and i sucm so much and what the hell is this useless whining about myswlf about i dont matter everything doesnt matter why am i acting like this is the end of the world when its so obvipusly not tjis is some pretrntious teen ranting about her usess problems uselessly like what good does writing anything down do huh u piece of shit

fuck i used to have thoughts like these evvery night when i was 11 how did i mangae how did i cope but at 15 i sti cant and it fuckin sucks and im not free of anything no its trying to bring me down but why is it that bad should i be crying about this why am i crying

i guess im writing this down jn hopes that future sophie can read it nd learn fro. it hut i dont tjink so

ive achieved nothing this year . no growth. not abh smarter and not any wiser fuck im always usessly chasing people away from me

i feel like a negative pole in a world full of positive poles because im so repulsive lol : -)

ok goodnight im done crying i hope

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