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orangesand-lemons-234 · 2 months

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So while I'm working on the Derry Girls fic, my brain started turning with ideas so uhm...here we go!

Modern-AU Ralbert hurt/comfort, yippee!!

Albert lay on their bed, staring at the ceiling. The gallery was holding a special event today and he gave away more conversation spoons than he had available, and his head was spinning with overwhelm.

He wanted to put his brain on silent, just for a few hours. His head was spinning with a killer migraine that felt like a fist was slamming against his brain every second.

Don't get him wrong, he loves his job. The gallery was fantastic and he enjoyed being able to show off the city's best pieces of art to the local people.

But sometimes people did not recognise the sunflower lanyard always around his neck and the numerous pins attached to it stating that he struggles with speech and unwelcome touches + loud noises, and push him to his limits anyways.

People will yell, shout, question non-stop, repeatedly tap his shoulder and more. For a gallery, people do not know their etiquette.

Then when his shift ends, he finishes up with this. Just laying there while his brain fights himself.

He'd been there for a bit, maybe forty minutes when Race walked in, gently closing the door behind him.

“Heya Albert, you doing okay?” He asked quietly, taking his shoes off as he spoke.

Albert shook his head from where he was laying, curling up a little more and yanking his hair slightly as he did.

Race fell onto the bed beside him and slowly pulled a blanket up over their legs. “Can I have a bit more information?”

Albert pulled out his phone and started to type it out on his phone.

“Fuckers at the gallery don't understand personal bubbles.”

Race sighed and grabbed his hand. “That happens man, people are awful. It's like because they won't see us tomorrow, they start treating us like we have no boundaries, y'know?”

Albert nodded, now turning to face him.

“You wanna be touched?” Race inquired, pointing at the phone, indicating he needed some sorta answer.

“please”

Race quickly wrapped his arms around Albert, pulling him in for a tight hug and squeezing him in a way of comfort, but not hard enough to hurt him.

And that's where they stayed for a while. Albert just laying there in Race's arms while Racer rambled about his day at the sheepshead races, taking pictures for the paper.

That's how it stayed for a bit, until Albert shushed Race and pulled his notes app out again and began typing.

"Jeez, you have a question 'bout what Wiesel was saying? Cause I wasn't paying attention to all the details, I don't think I can answer 'em.” Race joked, gaining a smile from Albert, who shook his head and handed Race the phone.

“am i too much? too much as in, am i too loud or too blunt? or do i have too many needs to be dealing with?”

Race pulled Albert in tighter with one arm and grabbed his hands with the other.

“Albert, you are definitely too much.” Race smiled, pushing his forehead against his own. “But you're my too much. I love you so much for being you. Your loud voice, your honesty, your needs? That's just what makes you you, which is why I love you so much.”

“Honest?” Albert asked quietly.

“Honest.”

#AUTISTIC ALBERT DASILVA #anyways #ralbert #yknow?#you know.#they mean a lot to me #do they interact like twice in the whole show?#yes but idrc.#its very important to me #okay #newsies #uksies #newsies headcanons #newsies fanfic #albert dasilva #racetrack higgins #racetrack x albert

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everlasting-evocation · 10 months

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Fear and Hunger Thoughts - Ending A - SPOILERS Ahead

I've been having a lot of thoughts lately about ending A and it's significance within the lore as a whole, especially it's impact during the Termina timeline. As dark and violent as this game is, I truly believe that the core theme it's trying to convey is the idea that it is necessary to cling to hope, even through pain and despair. Fear and Hunger are core experiences of not only humanity but every single living being, as ancient and painful as life itself. The dungeons were created by The God of The Depths specifically to destroy the minds of all who entered, destroying them and trapping them in the inescapable darkness. The Gods, both old and new hold many varying and distinctly different ideas and ambitions when it comes to their influence and legacy, with Nilvan believing in the boundless potential of humanity and it's ability to grow and progress. The idea of hope being born from suffering is such a naïve concept for Nilvan to believe, but it is also so painfully human to long for a positive outcome despite the circumstances, even when, logically, it is impossible. Sometimes blind hope in the midst of suffering will not conquer evil, and I appreciate how the lore acknowledges that the birth of the Ancient Soul, forced to endure a life of constant torment, would not bring about the peace that Nilvan had so desperately aspired to create as a continuation of her legacy.

Despite everything, the Ancient Soul is a benevolent God, at least to some degree. It has festered within the tortured soul of a child locked within the dungeons for as long as it has lived, knowing only suffering for the entire duration of it's short life, yet in spite of this it does not cause pain without reason. It understands what the player character has endured throughout the dungeon and knows that even if they were to return to the surface there would be no way to overcome the trauma they experienced. The dungeon itself (or your character's inner voice) comments multiple times that you have delved too deep, marking The Gauntlet as your final resting place from the moment you entered the mouth of The God of the Depths. There is no way out, and the God of Fear and Hunger clearly has the power to impose a torturous death upon the character if it wanted to. The character is in it's domain and defeated it in a battle, it can be argued that the newborn God even had many reasons to want to hurt the player. Instead, it offers a gentle death without further suffering for someone who has already endured so much for a mission that was doomed from the beginning.

The gameplay itself is all about starting over and hoping for a better outcome even though you know you're probably going to fail again. Whether you're interested in the lore, have grown attached to the characters, or even feel like you have something to prove by 'beating' the game, the dungeons of Fear and Hunger inspire perseverance and show the strength of the human spirit even in the face of what seems to be impossible.

Every aspect of this game is focused on suffering, even down to it's name and yet the community surrounding Fear and Hunger is so upbeat and full of joy.

During my spring semester of college this past year I was having probably the worst week of my entire life and, as a result of this, I ended up writing the final essay for my Philosophy class about the futility of existence. Essentially it boiled down to nihilistic ramblings about the hopelessness of life and how humans clearly were not created to serve a higher purpose and how life was full of nothing but suffering so "why even try?" In the moment, everything I had written made perfect sense, but looking back on it I realize that life does have purpose, and that purpose can only be found through hope. Only in pushing past the obstacles that oppose us can the human spirit find the will and strength to move forward, and this is something I believe wholeheartedly. It's true that in many situations there is nothing to be gained from suffering, sometimes it just hurts. It does not teach you anything, it does not make you stronger. But sometimes the pain we face is a lesson, instead offering new insight and experience to learn from. It is reasonable to fear the unknown, but unless this fear is confronted, it will consume us. Yes the world is cruel, yes it is unforgiving and heartless (oftentimes without reason). Pain and suffering are unavoidable truths of life, but they are also not impossible to overcome.

None of the endings in Fear and Hunger are particularly positive, even if the characters are able to complete the task they set out to achieve. The dungeon has changed them, forcing them to live with the memories forged within the depths. But life goes on. Despite the odds the human will to survive can find ways to surpass even the most impossible challenges, with the existence of Termina being evidence of this. The Cruel Age was not the end, but instead acted as a stepping stone for immense progress, cementing the The God of Fear and Hunger as an Ascended God who continues to be worshipped throughout the present timeline. The God of Fear and Hunger's birth and subsequent reign throughout the Cruel Age spurred movement and widespread progress despite the initial pain that it created. It is loved for the suffering it created, inspiring humanity through hardships and pushing them towards a new and brighter future.

#fear and hunger #f&h #this game has helped me in ways I cant even describe #its very important to me #sorry for the funger rambles more art coming soon #eventually I'm going to analyze the specific significance of it's different transformations but that's a thought for another day

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zayniners · 1 year

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you know the scene where liam and hayden are kissing (i think for the first time? or maybe the second one) and then the shot changes to theo's eyes on the rearview mirror? while he's looking at them?

yeah

WHY THE HECK WOULD YOU WRITE THAT SCENE IF YOU'RE NOT MAKING IT ROMANTIC

i want to make an actual analysis out of it but genuinely the only thing i can think of is WHY DID THEY DO THAT

#like its so crazy to me #cause you take that out of context and #ITS JUST PURE JEALOUSY #like theo looking at them like this -_-#i find it very sad too #like damn #u wish that were u Huh #its very important to me #teen wolf #thiam #theo raeken #liam dunbar #teen wolf movie

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onejellyfishplease · 5 months

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If you get to be the donnie guy can I be the bug turtle guy

but of course!

...but can i still have domain over beetle turtles?

#its very important to me #asks #tinker-the-dragon #rottmnt #rottmnt donnie #i love my mutuals

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finchfvkingcortes · 1 year

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need Damons Davey more than I need air cause like if his finch is one loud noise away from a panic attack 90% of the show imagine how anxious his Davey is it would kill me I’m desperate to see it

#newsies uk #uksies #newsies finch #finch cortez #davey jacobs #damon gould #newsies #its very important to me #as if I’m ever gonna see the show again #audio of seize the day 🙏

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lavenoon · 1 year

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Luce. Luce. Luce.

Your Eclipse is precious beyond compare and I love him so much

Ahhh, ok, ok, just the start of the chapter makes me really soft, because we as the readers now Robin's high anxiety from witnessing it across the chapters, but it occurs to me that Sun and Moon have only really gotten to see it when it was pretty bad until recently, now that they are a thing.

But now it's easier for them to see the true anxiousness manifesting itself on something not life threatening or ground shaking as was the reveal. So Sun trying to be reassuring even if a little amused that they would be so nervous about meeting Eclipse (because he knows him) just makes me melt a little.

And kfjdhkgjh of course Eclipse was scheming since before they arrived XD In a way being so much taller would probably make him a tad more intimidating than expected haha, but I can only imagine the whiplash between the yanking, the suspicious locking of the door, and then the very serious business tone of asking help with a prank kfjhdgjfhd

(Sidenote: Sun being all worried because of y/n clearly was so nervous and Eclipse just pulling something unexpected when he was probably planning a more mellow introduction IS pretty sweet, and the fact that he calmed down when he heard them laughing haha)

oh, did I detect some hint of that brotherly tension that first moment when Sun entered the room? A mood that Robin understandably would miss because really XD Though I feel that them calling Sun out on forgetting the key lightened the mood immediately from whatever tension that might had appeared.

Ahhh, it must have been very interesting for Eclipse to see that dynamic between Sun and y/n! It's always been them and outsiders that they would mostly be polite to, so seeing how they interact with this obviously important person in their lives must have him very curious, because until now he has only had what they told him about Robin.

Hehe, the "don't enable each other too much" X3 Sun really did know how well they would get along huh? Similar chaotic energies

The whole duck deal had me cackling

Just y/n so eager to get in on it, happy with the relief, and promising to continue the prank even at home XD New bestie unlocked kdfjghsñk

Ahhh, but definitely what got to me the most was them admitting that they were so unsure about the meeting. Eclipse asking if he's too much (something that he must have heard before and that Robin has definitely heard before, especially at their job, and can relate to) just had me griping my heart for this boy. And then after y/n reassures him that they were afraid of not being nearly enough in his eyes, and Eclipse probably had so much that he wanted to say about his own worries, but rather than doing that and going a mile a minute it's much more straightforward to just show them, and just the fact that he researched what they would need for traveling, even though that would mostly fall on his brothers to handle, and then what "normal" people would do in this occassion?

AND the fact that the online advice must not have included anything of what he did do, which means he ended choosing that genuine approach instead of just following what might have been the "safe" route! Just auuugh, he's so cute, but also so genuine and I'm so glad he chose to be himself so that Robin could see him as he is. There's been enough not saying stuff in their life, so this upfront approach was definitely what they all needed.

I enjoyed this chapter, so so much, Luce! I can see those two walking away from that visit very happy that they met the other!

Very chef kiss! Great chapter as always! ^_^

Ah yes, time to dig in!

And yeah, it was fun to explore this new dynamic post confession (and already more than a few dates in, but just saying post confession is easier)! We had a couple heart to hearts post reveal, but all of those worries and anxieties were between the three of them, and mostly they understood/ related because of either matching or similar anxieties.

This is something where Sun and Moon know there's nothing to fear, so while they still sympathize and want Y/N to feel reassured, they can't help but think it's a bit funny. Even Y/N realizes it's ridiculous, but they also can't help the feeling! So we get some soft smiles and reassurance, and it doesn't fix everything, but they still feel better!

Y/N: Oh god what if he hates me Eclipse: God I hope I have a moment to talk to them in private before everything for the ultimate duck prank

Sun at least is pretty sure Eclipse's place hasn't been compromised, so it's not too serious of an issue - but he just hears a squeak, turns to find no beloved partner and a locked door, still has to grab the bags first because neither would want someone else to call the elevator and perhaps rifling through them, and then he just hears quiet murmuring as he tries to get the door open. The plan was the proper thing - introduce them to each other, exchange a few pleasantries, and carry on with the evening. The yanking changed those up a little, but at least the laughter reassures him that Y/N isn't currently breaking down or clamming up, and grants him enough awareness to remember that he owns a key to the door in his way.

There is some tension - but it's a bit of a mixed bag. Sun and Moon have already started being more open with Eclipse, and have been in steady contact for a couple months now. Four, five months, maybe a bit more. So there's mostly the old sting of "Eclipse forgot, because we haven't visited him in so long" and also "I forgot, too, because we haven't visited him in so long." Y/N picks up on that hint of embarrassment, and calls him out on it, which ends up being the ideal direction to take this conversation. It dodges the "but why did we forget" line of thinking, and focuses on the fun of it all

Eclipse was very much aware of how biased his brothers are, and what sort of soft spot they have for Y/N. Otherwise he wouldn't have planned the prank like that - but seeing Y/N too, seeing that dynamic in action, that's different. He hasn't seen his brothers in so long, and he not only gets to meet them and dodge the awkwardness they used to have thanks to the new person in the mix, but also realizes they are (part of/ indirectly) the reason his brothers changed so much. There's who motivated Sun and Moon to reach out more, and it's very easy to say how they managed to do that.

Sun, eternally suffering, drags out the bag grabbing just so the switch happens and it's Moon who has to deal with it. Moon meanwhile doesn't even need a lot of context - just a "... Eclipse grabbed our love for some private talking" and Moon already knows that something is coming. Doesn't know what, but something.

And the ducks yeah! I'm not a prank person, I went through soo many lists of pranks but some were either something Eclipse wouldn't need help with and it would be hard to find even a suitable pretense, or something food related which obviously wouldn't work, or just straight up mean. But I remembered the plastic babies around school post, and a couple similar pranks, so I went with that! and thus the duck theme for the chapter was born fhjds

Y/N of course is a menace and already thinking of leaving little ducks in Sun and Moon's work office, too. Moon starts hiding them back at some point, while Sun just collects them all and tries to hide them where Y/N can't find. They always do <3

And yeah, the bit of genuine heart to heart! It was still very very necessary to address, and Eclipse felt safer asking them in a private moment. Something Y/N does get - Sun and Moon would immediately reassure them both, but it's not the same! They need to hear it from the person they're worried about! They both try very hard, because Sun and Moon are so important to them both, and thus they want to impress the other.

Eclipse in particular knows that while he means well, he often just. Doesn't leave a good impression. People think he's too direct, or too oblivious, think he's childish for it, all while being seen as too much. He tries to prepare as well as he can - he wants to prepare everything to be as comfortable as possible, he makes sure there's all sorts of things that Y/N may not have thought to bring because they may not need them, and he wants to have a few back up plans in case he has no idea what to say.

And the thing is. He doesn't disregard any of it! Those plans are still there, he still has read them all! But he thought to prank his brothers, and then realized how much funnier it would be if he enlisted Y/N's help, and without even thinking that this is exactly what he thinks other people might interpret as "too much", he decides to do that! And then has to realize that "Y/N who is nervous to meet me" and "Y/N the potential prank accomplice" are in fact one and the same person. He can't help being genuine, he's not used to masking (good for him!) and it's a constant effort to remember to try, and he slips!

Y/N knows a bit about him from Sun and Moon, and they had their own issues with not being accepted for who they are, even if their crumbs of neurodivergency are different from Eclipse's. They get it, and they definitely get the anxiety of not measuring up to expectations, so it's easy to reassure him. They don't even need to say it, neither of them - they just admit to their own anxieties, and realize that it was a mutual fear, and that's already instant reassurance. Because if they're the same in the anxiety department, they're also the same in the "after the anxiety, I'm so looking forward to knowing this person" department.

Y/N in particular had a whole year of secrecy and not being able to just say things directly, and has very much enough of that. They know the effects it can have, and while being open is still new, they try, and it's perfect timing because that what works best for Eclipse, too.

It was a lot of fun to write this, and have them officially meet - we had the tease of it coming up in "As The Crow Flies (They Stall)", but I read through early Eclipse lore again and just. had to write the actual meeting, so I'm very happy it's fun for everyone!

#answer let luce #chaotikanvas #accidentally undercover #I love Eclipse I love writing him and I love him being a menace of a younger sibling #I love them finally becoming a whole family #because yes romance is fun and fine but your romantic partner(s) should not be your only support system #this one is still small #(tho ig Glamrock lore I still need to get to will make it bigger too)#but yeah they feel better with Eclipse in the mix and he's integral to their happy ending #its very important to me

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