#its ok. mass now. then practice for tmrw. then pf tonight

[soldier-poet-king]

Once again had a massive anxiety meltdown after my final tattoo session yesterday. Not nearly as bad as last time, and no tattoo flu this time either, but it's like the 'oh god what have I done/it didn't turn out how I wanted/the composition is off/it's too dark and crowded/etc'

I think I just have commitment issues and am a control freak perfectionist and my natural response to choosing things is panic and regret and fear, esp things I know my family (& certain parts of society) disapprove of

Anyone else with this ink I'd be like damn they look great I'm envious, but on ME??? Its the 'this rule applies to everyone except me' mentality BC I am bad and yucky and have no confidence

ALAS

#im just. stupid ..maybe #the duality of fran #it looks better than it did now that its complete #but there are definitely elements i wouldve liked to be different #thems the breaks of having a style that is partially freehand #and not being good at explaining to ur artist + language barrier #i feel a little stupid and embarassed #its not even ugly its nice its just not perfect #which is stupid!!! nothing i n life is!!! #im just. bad brain insaneperson #plus ive been stressing abt so much other stuff #its ok. mass now. then practice for tmrw. then pf tonight