#its no wonder varric likes eliel hes like if hawke was more open with his emotions and less covered in a layer of constant bullshittery

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thinking about. the orion hawke eliel lavellan parallels. but also how theyre both so incredibly different. orion who was the eldest, had to lead and be a good example for his siblings, regardless of his own fears and anxieties. meeting eliel, who was the youngest, had to be led and protected, and shies away from power while orion fills the gaps with bluster and jokes.

I think a lot about them meeting and orion all at once seeing bits of himself from when he first got to kirkwall. He sees all his own fears plain as day when after meeting eliel just. "does it ever get easier?" and he just has to reply "no. it doesn't." because its been 10 years and still he thinks about how he could have done things better and how he should have looked out for carver more and how he should have told his mom he loved her and-

#this is mostly word vomit but i just. god. #its no wonder varric likes eliel hes like if hawke was more open with his emotions and less covered in a layer of constant bullshittery #both of them lose their families. have to put the world back togther. have to do it all with a smile on their face. god #i go back and forth on a lot of things with orion. like his relationship with anders and his reactions to act 3 and if he can ever even- #commit to that relationship when he watched vengeance kill ella. but the one thing im stable on is that he and eliel are SO similar #similar but just. different in a few key ways. like looking in a younger mirror if you were born in a different place #anyway #eliel lavellan #orion hawke #dragon age #anyway haha if you made it this far ask me about them please heart emoji