#its draining yknow

[sentientstump]

look at the clock, its (unintentionally blurred) oc time

#i lost my drawing juice even though i have the will to draw yknow i tried to regain it again #i guess i cant truly draw the fully detailed faces yet so i just threw that stage out of the window and mindlessly tried to add-on things #its my usual style >:] #i think i caught the juices by the tail but whom knows. life stuff can be battery draining #we'll see if september gonna be fruitful- probs not as much but who knows!!! #who knows who knows #artstump #ocstump

[watzuu-lmk]

Has there been a shadowpeach fic where like, wukong decides to stay in ffm and lived out their forever but the doomed narrative keeps dooming anyway?

#Like like I want them to do domestic stuff thats just domestic and not overly fluffy yknow #But then it just gradually shifts like it's going down the drain but like subtly. I want that to be shown and not tell #And i dont want them to break off with them fighting and macaque getting a scar no no no sir #I want them to yell. I want them to howl. To just want them to wish to tear the other motherfucker apart but cant because by god do they- #Love each other and it fucking hurts #Again show not tell #Is this a happy ending wazz? Probably not!!! I want it to be bittersweet!!!!!! As Fuck!!!!!!!!! #I WANT THEM TO BREAK THE FUCK UP!!!!!!!!!!! BUT I WANT THEM TO HURT EACH OTHER EMOTIONALLY NOT PHYSICALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!! #DO YOU SEE MY VISION!!!!!!!!?!?!!?!!? #SHAKES YOUSHAKESYOURATTLESMYCAGERRAAAUUUGHGHGG #Like like like its like a slow decent. Like like slow burn but with breaking up yknow #YKNOW?!?!?? #God if god gave me the ability to write it wouldve been OVER for you all #IM INSANEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[technicolorxsn]

ohhhhhh I think I see where hello charlotte took inspiration now

#the frei/freya (idr the plural its been a while) were trying to drain the ocean.. except ofc not all of them wanted that hence the uhhhh #shit its been too long #the resistance yknow #non assimilationists or whatever they were called #havent finished the book yet im just going off of rashaverak's explanation to george #the whole peoples conciousnesses are islands thing #edit: pythia and individualists #and the ones wanting to drain the ocean were globalists #i should play ch 1 again it was my fav iirc

[waywardsalt]

ive spent like 20 minutes trying to world this eloquently but i give up; im a big fan of linebeck just. not being capable of watching over kids not the person to be the guardian of a group of young people he struggles to take care of himself at times and has so much shit going on that it takes about one conversation with oshus for the old man to realize that this guy is. not doing great

#this was gonna be like. a jokey post at first juxtaposing oshus’ expectations vs reality with linebeck but im too emotionally drained #so real linebeck talk in the tags bc idk if ive actually talked much abt like. the specific as on why. iwrite and see him the way i do #likr. off the bat i put him at like 19 in ph and im too fucking tired and just. done rn to justify that like whatever kill me if you wish. #like. hes. been throught a lit hes been abused neglected used ignored hurt ridiculed violated deceived hes so fucking tired #hes worn down over the course of ph it causes him to finally like. express his anguish over what hes been theough its cathartic #hes getting pushed but talking to oshus and being around link loosens him up and he fucking. cries properly yknow #he cries about everything and the last bit of ph hes kind of an emotional wreck but hes finally letting himself feel all that shit #he cries he struggles to articulate himself he has a violent public meltdown as he becomes fed up with his reputation #and it all culminates in bellumbeck just. being a really raw examination of what hes been through and how he feels and what to do now #he hates people he has people he wants to kill people he wanted to kill but after bellumbeck its just. hes tired. hes processed everythjng #and then he needs the post ph crew and everyone they meet along the way to just. be a fucking support system for the first time ever #like post ph hes rhe captain he runs the ship he keeps everyone in line he can do that. but hes softer more vulnerable more self doubting #hes kinder and more hesitant but trying new things and being more openly passionate abt his interests #and he keeps working through his trauma he finds out what else it causes problems for and everyone. supports him #hes not capable of like. being any kind of parental figure to link in ph his perspective on like. how to handle kids is fucked #because his perspective on what a normal childhood should look like is kind of a mess #his perspective on relationships is murky on love on adventure on self expression but post ph hes just. free. tired but free #he manages to take naps the group helps him eat properly he learns his physical boundaries and actually does what he loves #idk. im just. man idk. its still measy but like. my version of linebeck is. i really hate the idea that its so out of character its not him #like. idfk what to even say abt that. idfk what ‘in character’ looks like when you hc a character to be masking in canon #when you hc them to be lying and covering things up and just. subdued bc theyre working on stuff #that they lie and exaggerate their own traits on purpose but let the truth through some cracks like what rhe fuck then #i hate it bc i dont see anyone else think of linebeck anything like this so im scared im fucking wrong somehow #im tired. i recently learned that one of my cats has been burrowing under and chilling under a blanket we cover a couch with #its very cute

[adamalade]

Every day is punch a Nazi day if you try hard enough

#🤜🤜🤜 #fuck nazis #I don’t even know how to tag this #what do I say. #anti hitler #I don’t even know #punch a nazi #its what cap america AND magneto would do #ergo #I am 1947393739% justified in punching a nazi #or yknow. turning into a vampire and draining so much of their blood that they have to be hospitalized for blood loss #anyway #PUNCH NAZIS

[mechawolfie]

I'm so used to talking only to my immediate, also painfully isolated family members; I have no fucking clue how to talk, with my voice, to normal people. this would be easier if more people were like light-sensitive cave ghouls

#smudgy.txt #talking in general is draining but trying to do so with ppl i havent been forced to live w my whole life is moreso #bc i tend to strain myself to mirror out of habit so its like.. AUUUGHHHHHH. yknow?? #i love talking. i am so so bad at it #especially over call. unless i have a script #so making like doc appointment phone calls is relatively easy (as easy as it can be anyway -_-) #bc i have. well its a very clumsy script but its Something

[gayspock]

#inanebullshit today i walked to the other gym near me to check if i have access to it yet and i dont but they were like "ohh<3 come in tomorrow anyway we'll give yo u a free 3 day pass<3" despite the fact ive USED ONE for the other place and bro i needed a rest day tomorrow but they were so lovely i cant not now....

#Egg.txt #i dont think it'll be v suitable to get there anyyyyway bc i'll get there way later than i get to my usual spot #and i realised the walk is literallyyy the same 😭... maybe longer.... #i might just hope they forget me LOL #but ughh yeah its like i dont mind walking at all its just idk if i can get to places on tiiimeeeee #i wanted to try and get a later start yknow bc i feel like im really drained lately and im wondering if thats iy but ugh idk idk

[butchyena]

day 3 of the cone diaries: prince elliot spends 97% of his time tacitly ignoring me and the other 3% doing this (he is on my stomach)

#sorry my bedroom has a hatman hallway #prince elliot #and yes thats blood inside his cone #part of his ear was left open because the damaged tissue will keep trying to form another hematoma #so it had to drain whole the cartilage fixes itself #so when he shakes his head its all yknow #also lmk if you need this tagged cause you can see his sutures

[mchi22]

worlds handsomest boy spotted getting sleepy with it

#he had an abscess (we think from an animal bite) and he hates the antibiotics we have to give him #but it drained and its healing well #also we did get him a rabies booster shot just in case since it mightve been caused by a bite yknow #original post tag

[oscill4te]

i have high hopes for myself in 2024. I don't know why, but i just do. Neuroplasticity is so great. I have learnt so much these past few months.

#My nervous system is more regulated now and that does wonders yknow #Dont get me wrong im terrified as shit at the things I want to do in 2024. But now it doesnt feel so life or death #I just have this newfound idgaf energy about everything. Only problem now is my energy levels. But its okay #Again...not being in a flight/fight state does free up a lot of energy.. that shit was so draining. #Goals? New job. New look. Read more and introduce myself to new media. And maybe.. even new places and people. #Txt

[labratboygirl]

going on a camping trip with yr grandparents really makes ya think about how unbearable life actually is at home

#casually spills guts #<- not reallyyyy but yknow #i wish i could stay here #i hate hearing my parents argue all the time #i hate my little sister hurting me all the time #i hate having to burrow in my room just to feel safe #but here #it just feels easier. #to live. and like. breathe. #no ones constantly on my ass #i can actually leave my room without feeling drained or exposed #its nice. #anyone out here get what im saying

[oflgtfol]

my new job not only pays more per hour but is also just so much more low stress than michaels its crazy like im actually kinda dreading working 7 hours at mike today because its like. Gah

#brot posts #so much less physically demanding #and theres still a customer service aspect but its not nearly as crazy as michaels customer service #very straight forward and very little opportunity to have an upset customer #no fucking STUPID REWARDS and CREDIT CARDS that you have to push and get penalized for not having good enough signups/applications #and we’re not fucking understaffed #and the supervisor is way less stressful because theres no like actual managers #we kinda just manage ourselves #any sort of ‘i need help’ situation you just ask one of the people who’ve been there longer #idk. idk. just enjoying it a lot. such a great atmosphere #and like theres just so much fucking drama at michaels legit to the point of involving a lawyer its just off the walls #ive only been barely involved in a little bit of drama and the vast majority of it has just been other people telling me about it #but its still like christ things are crazy like its draining having everyone be frustrated and complaining all the time #complaining for good reason yknow but its still like this is so negative. this is such a negative atmosphere #if you’re unhappy and everyone else is unhappy then it just kinda gets to you yknow #but at my new job everyone loves working here theyre so glad to hear that im enjoying it

[moonsnqil]

oh to be a bug on the wall during andrew's therapy sessions with bee

#i imagine theres so really intense stuff obviously but sometimes its just andrew talking straight shit about people #bee is mildly horrified but she still loves him and sometimes shes very interested on any gossip he might share #she cant show that tho bc gotta be professional yknow #also think theres several times andrew just sits there barely saying a word because those are bad days and its too draining to do anything #aftg #the foxhole court #all for the game

[rosymorns]

i have work tomorrow. i need to shower before work. the shower in my bathroom is clogged. it has been slow for months. i have snaked it as best I can and that has not fixed it. i usually resort to dumping a bottle of draino down it but im out. i informed my father last time it happened and he threw a Pattented Man Tantrum where he yelled and threw shit around and acted like it was the end of the world. in order to shower tomorrow morning, i would have to use my parents' shower. which. would involve waking my mom up at 6am. and probably explaining to them that yes the upstairs shower drain hasn't magically fixed itself since the last time they ignored it. and all of this. is making me so anxious that im sick to my stomach. and i cannot sleep.

#i will order some draino tomorrow. but that doesnt fix my problem tomorrow morning. #and id say ill just call a plumber but what if its a huge problem? what if hed have to rip up pipes and stuff? #its not my house and thats now my call to make yknow #uuuuuuuugh also the drain is shaped in such a way that you CANT get a big snake down there. i can only do the plastic 2 foot ones. #and the whole bathroom needs cleaned but i get this dysfunction every time i go in there because i cant clean the tub #so i cant clean ANYTHING. bc the tub doesnt drain. in fact theres nasty scum on it thats just. old soap. i couldnt rinse it off. #bc the tub wouldnt drain #im really about to have a panic attack over this and i can SEE how silly it is but like. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #carly.txt

[toh-infodumping]

your blog makes me want to write analyses, too and it's fun but tiring! do you have any tips?

Take it in strives. I break my analyses down so that it's not overwhelming. Here's my process and it may help you discover one that works for you!

1) My drafts are filled with concepts; "Eclipse Lake manipulation" and "Body language seen in Hunter." Those kind of things, so I won't forget them and I am able to go back and see which ones I need to do.

2) I write first. I pick the topic I most want to ramble about and I ramble away as I struggle more with words. You're also only allowed 10 pictures and so I'll put picture/gif placement notes between my writing as place marks. Such as:

"In Hunting Palismen, Hunter says

"Pic 1 (helps kep track of how many pictures you want to use as there's a limit) - Hunter saying he's a powerless witch (what you want to use)

"And this proves-"

3) Go through all your picture placements you wrote down- the pic 1, pic 2, gif 3 sort of thing, and note in which episode they come from so you're not bouncing from like Hunting Palismen to Eclipse Lake to oops! Back to Hunting Palismen.

4) I make my own gifs and pictures. There is one time I didn't and I put that in the tags. I do it on my phone but I am aware people aren't always able to do things and so if you use other people's gifs, just say so.

5) Reread with the pictures and gifs now in! Make sure they fit the post and the post makes sense! Then you're done!

Sometimes I collect the photos first, especially the body language ones and then write my post around them but this is how I typically do it. I hope this helps.

#asks #avianhasnodignity #there's also no issue with you taking days to write one post #thats why drafts is such a good thing #you can write your concept and come back 3 hours later abd work on it only to stop for the night and finish tomorrow #i have a post already written out yesterday but today is my gathering pictures and gifs day #break it down to easier chunks #if you view the whole picture then of course itll get draining and running #break it down to concept then writing and then supporting pictures and suddenly its a little easier #also have fun #if youre not having fun and if youre not excited then its not a good topic #dont make this like a school assignment yknow?

[gromky]

how long at a relatively new workplace is long enough to know it’s time to leave

#ive never worked somewhere where i just do not click with a single coworker lmao #thats not even why i want out i just think its weird #i hate feeling myself fall back into that Ugh work cycle like that shit drains me to a suicidal degree #but like theres also a certain amount that just needs to be pushed through yknow