#its a cycle truly

[sp0o0kylights]

New WIP I'm cruelly abandoning: Steve tells Eddie he has a tattoo.

Yes he got it while drunk.

No Eddie cannot see it.

Yes it is in fact on his ass, great deduction skills, did Dustin help?

No, Steve isn't telling Eddie what it is either.

Yes, Eddie's reactions are funny, actually though Steve refuses to admit his are "unnecessarily cruel"

And finally

"You wanna find out what it is so badly, Munson, you can come take my pants off yourself."

#all this and its a < #as in the cone part of an ice cream cone #bc he chickened out halfway throug #so now its just #< #eddie plans on teasing steve relentlessly about it but cant as Steve was using this whole thing as a sex ploy #and everytime Eddie starts #steve goes “oh this tattoo?” #and flashes his ass #its a cycle truly #steddie

[macchitea]

turned my sona into a slugged cat :D

behold, a beast

#rain world #sona #it uses it/its pronouns :) #whenever this thing is observed it becomes the most cringefail pathetic creature known to slugkind #fails a jump and sobs on the floor #tries to eat a fruit too fast and throws up #stands still and stares into space 50% of the time when the rain comes #gets lost in a region its stayed at for 109432 cycles #still somehow manages to survive and navigate an iterator's can #an overseer swears its seen this thing kill a vulture before #truly an iterator's most complex riddle #maybe even moreso than the Great Problem itself #macchiart

[moonssugar]

underrated raven cycle relationship is blue and maura. ‘Then she lay down behind Blue, mother and daughter like spoons in a drawer’ do you know how much i love this. do you know how much. and “you could at least say sorry…pretend like I have some power over you.” and maura talking with calla and persephone about being angry at blue instead of just immediately reacting, blue telling maura if she grounds her she’ll just sneak out the window with a bedsheet rope. theyre just so openly honest with each other like ‘at least blue could still be certain that her mother would never lie to her’ who is doing it like them

#interesting mom-daughter relationships where the mom isnt projecting everything onto the daughter #and where theyre treated as equals is amazing to me. its a breath of fresh air #usually the mom in literature is the bad guy and the daughter wants to escape tyranny but not here #mom that treats her daughter like a human being is truly shocking to me and GOOD. do more of that #trc #the raven cycle #maura sargent #blue sargent #mom and daughter relationships where one isnt trying to exert full control over another shouldnt be this rare

[gaygollum]

these three scenes …… the holy trinity. to me.

#its about the following as a love language #the court room scene is so truly one of the best in the entire series. cry #mine #the raven cycle #ALSO ganseys ‘i would take all of you anywhere with me’ from trb. oughhhfhsjfjjdg

[nyacromancey]

i have yet to find another author on this planet that does dialogue like maggie stiefvater in trc and tdt

#its truly unmatched #these characters are just so real #trc #tdt #the raven cycle #the dreamer trilogy

[fluxydrawings]

hi. made a thing. enjoy :)

#Clownpierce #branzy #branzycraft #clownzy #branzypierce #lifesteal smp #llsmp #amv #haiiii i put WAYYYY too much effort inta this #this is a historical recreation i put Research inta this #this amv took Many hours and 7 american dollars #im nofin if not commited ta the bit #i cant tell if this is funny anymore cause ive stared at it too long hope yall enjoy #movie maker 6 is the program of all time i think. hue cycles entire color spectrum is my best friend #also special shout out ta Ultrafish my beloved animal jam red n black hamster i bought while recordin the aj part w/ kish #only guy that matters truly #makin this vid was a constant battle of 'i want the timing ta be perfect' and 'its gotta be kinda shit its supposeda be a 2008 amv made by a #12 y/o energy #big fan of how it came out tho akjerkjkjawerkjkawje

[sendmyresignation]

one of the things about where are your boys tonight i really appreciated and, to me, seemed like the most significant thrust of the book (but never garnered much attention, imo), was the focus on the business side of things and particularly the way the many bands never saw long term success or stability or the way a lot of very young people were taken advantage of even after making their labels and handlers metric butt-tones of money and this really culminated with the discussion about paramores record deal and the inherently coercive nature of making a 14 year old sign a record deal (not even really mentioning that record deal was 20 fucking years lmao) and yet i still see people argue she was an industry plant or whatever. sorry ig one of my fatal flaws is i give child stars the benefit of the doubt considering the fundamental exploitation necessary for that position to exist or whatever

#sorry was thinking about this bc I saw some truly horrible and dismissive posts on twitter about hayleys contract #but i also think it dovetails into the general malaise that existed in the third wave that a lot of places are quick to dismiss #idk. i keep thinking about how so many ppl were taken advantage of (in the sense of predatory contracts or not getting paid victory style) #and how many are stuck in an endless loop of diminishing returns in order to be career musicians who can actually support themselves #and fundamentally this is the key linchpin in the emo nostalgia- some of the btier andlower bands Need stuff like #emo nites or wwwy to actually make a living (no matter how much you make up front a altrock hit single cannot sustain someone as livelihood) #and since touring is the only reliable way to make money. well why put significant expenses into ur new album #none of your fans care about anyway? its a pre-existing cycle. very thrash metal. but its almost worse #when you factor in shit like the fan perception of the used the canyon.... #idk ive been thinking about it a lot and i dont find nostalgia circuits reprehensible bc of the fundamental indignities #of the recording industry and all its issues #but its hard to see people shit talk the third wave for being full of impressionable kids hoping to survive of their passion #like you do realize they dont sound like assholes in that circumstance for crashing and burning? right? #(esp when you add mental health and addiction into the mix- these bands were full of sick people being denied care bc it would interfere w/ #the 'rawness' or authenticity or whatever the fuck. these bands were having their sadness wrung out of them for money) #anyway i think hayley williams should be allowed to hunt any and all current or former atlantic higherups for sport #my posts

[brighter-side-of-the-coin]

and like the cycle of the year, we begin again:

me, reading it for the twelfth time:

#its the yearning and softness of it all 😔 #fic stuff #and like the cycle of the year we begin again #merthur #this fic is truly a masterpiece

[galpalaven]

should i invest time into writing a book? i had an idea for one that i really enjoyed, but i know how long publishing takes, so it feels like a waste of time

there's also a collaborative dnd story i wanted to write with my dm friend (hiiii @whynotsableye) that i still want to write but idk if anybody would be interested in reading it or even how that would work. do people read just? like? serial short stories?? would that be something people would be into? i can't draw and neither can she so it would just be us writing....

idk. im still jobless and getting no responses and i just. yeah. everything sucks

#my birthday is in like 4 days and i feel like shit lol #like...truly i got my degree!! and now i cant find a job #so it feels a lot like what was the point of that #and it makes writing anything hard because i end up in a cycle of hatred for wasting my own time #and its hard ot write words when youre busy hating urself #however. i did write a bit tonight and actually enjoy it #and then i decided to catch up on A Tale of Crowns which was lovely #but now im thinking about the art trades i just flaked on and im hating myself again #i will do them... my writers block is being chipped away at once i can get the words flowing like they were back in like march i will be #able to do things again ;n;

[jirai-kei-freak]

why does it have to be this way

#Why #I was doing so good this past year #There were times I was literally crying tears of joy because I haven’t felt as happy as I was in years #Now shit’s coming back and I don’t like it #Every fucking time man #“Well life is supposed to have its ups and downs” HAVE YOUVE WENT THROUGH WHAT I WENT THROUGH #summer through all the way to the end of 2023 was one of two of the most miserable times I ever went through #I was almost never happy #Had cheap laughs for like 20 minutes then back to misery #There wasn’t a single day were I didn’t wish i was dead #Literally I would wake up and i immediately wanted to start crying #Thats how bad things were #You could see it in my face how lonely and miserable i was #I hadnt felt that empty for like a good few years since then #It was to the point where I thought there was never going to be light in my life ever again #I went through some fucked up shit and now im traumatized 10x more then i was before #The first day of school was a weak after some extremely traumatic stuff happened man #Then the new year started and everything was starting to get better #I started taking medication #I was much more happier #My self esteem boosted up #I started working on myself and became a better person #I dont think i ever had a period of my life where i felt THAT BETTER #Like I said i was crying because I had felt a massive weight lifted off my shoulders #It literally felt like i saw the light #I legitimately thought things were getting truly getting better #It’s just gonna be the same damn cycle over and over again huh? #For several months I feel depressed as shit #Then for a few months things start to clear up #Then suddenly and abruptly things go back to the shit

[shitty-eyepocalypse-domains]

Vast domain: at the end of your street is a stand of trees, and one day you duck beneath them for shade. The trees go on further than you thought, and you have a few minutes to kill, so you step closer, looking at the bark and the branches. It’s beautiful, so you stroll further into the trees, and the trunks grow wider, and the trees grow taller. You wonder at the difference in the light, before realizing there is no direct sunlight. You turn around to walk out, but there are still so many trees. It’s getting later and you’re beginning to be worried, so you climb one tree, hoping to see your street, your house. You finally find sunlight, but looking around you, all you see is a sea of leaves, rustling in the pale autumn wind. Climbing down the tree takes so much longer than climbing up, and as you drop to the fallen leaves beneath you, you feel the age of the forest on every side. It has lived so much longer than you have. It spreads further than you can walk. You can pick any direction you like, but it won’t matter. Leaving is no longer an option. The forest is endless. Are you?

Ohh damn I love the idea of the Vast as an endless forest. Y'all are so good at this I love your actually well written mini statements they fucking rock.

#jonathan sims #the magnus archives #tma #the archivist #tma podcast #the eye #the eyepocalypse #shitty eyepocalypse domains #shitty eyepocalypse domain submission #the vast #the falling titan #mike crew #simon fairchild #to extend: you see a clearing off in the distance #a tantalising glimmer of sunlight that never seems to get closer despite have far you have traveled #and it is so far. farther than you thought possible. walking until day turns to night turns to day in an endless cycle #and all you know is more. as far as the eye can see and beyond. more space. more trees. #the trees connect underground. a vast network of roots. is this forest truly just space? #or is it in itself a creature. breathing with a hundred whistling leaves. #you an insignificant fleck on its mossy skin. where were you even going in the first place? does it matter?

[sixftmp3]

less than 24 hours until we get the first idkhow single in two years, and the first BRAND NEW, UNHEARD idkhow music in three!!!

#me.txt #i dont think its truly hit me yet that theres going to be new idkhow #like. a song we have never ever EVER heard before #going into this new album cycle theres no like. songs that only have live performances. theres nothing we've already heard #and are just waiting for a studio version of #like mx sinister and lights go down and door were cases of that #but this album cycle doesnt have any loose ends so to speak #GOD ITS SO EXCITING

[hellhoundlair]

okay but sam after dean dies really can NEVER go home :(

#thinking abt post finale sam being fucked up after everything that happened and him going thru with having an apple pie life and whatever #but he can never truly get over it and everyone can tell #and it becomes a whole thing. the most innocuous things will make him stop and think of dean and mourn again #and when he names his son dean jr everyone who knows is like ... 😬 are you sure about that name #and he project onto that kid SOOO MUCH and hes a good dad and hes patient and caring with him #but he also relies on him so much emotionally without realising it #he pulls a lot of ''its you and me against the world'' and ''youre the only person i can trust with this information'' type shit #without fully realising what hes doing. like thats his dean Reborn Baby doll and thats what he was like with dean so whats the problem #i also just like the idea of sam just being a. a good dad who doesnt do that. but i think the long con of thinking sams going to be the #normal one who breaks the cycle and ends up repeating it in such a specacular and emotionally manipulative fashion is also fun

[wickershells]

txt

#i am actually the worst person alive every now and then the weight of all the guilt and grief and humiliation really hits me #i am not liked at all and i keep eroding all of my remaining relationships and i have fucked up my life beyond repair and i am #truly never getting out of this cycle no matter what meds i take at what dosage or if i talk out my feelings or if i keep them inside #or if i get therapy or if i dont if i have friends if i dont if my family likes me if they dont if my dog is alive or if hes dead its just #me theres something broken in me no matter how hard i believe and try and hope and pray i just wont get better i always end up here #i have consistently been the worst most absent friend i have ruined everything ive touched i feel contagious im contagious #i cant expect people to keep loving me and i definitely cant expect them to keep saying it over and over when it isnt true and they dont #want to and people dont even ask if im alright anymore they already know im not and just dont care because how could they #i dont get better it would just weigh on them all the time and how fair is that really i wish no one had ever met me i wish i wish #i betray all my promises to myself and others and im so stupid im so dumb and i just. theres nothing at all in here #i cant stand the loneliness anymore but i dont deserve anything else. do you see #and its my fault people no longer care its all my fault im so alone. i feel so alone. no one can know me and love me and they will all #be fine they have everyone they need they have everyone they want. i am no one at all not even to myself #theres an abyss where my personhood should be #i have to leave i have to get out of here

[ineverknewawolfcouldcry]

why every interaction with my mother has to feel like pulling my own fucking teeth?

#like i get it i get why she is the way she is #i'm not sure i love her but i don't hate her. i can't truly hate her. because i understand #she had a fucked up childhood and her mother - my grandmother - had a fucked up childhood ableit in a different way. cycles were cycling #and i feel so sorry for her. for how it warped her view of girlhood womanhood & motherhood #how her beliefs of what is appropriate way of live and what is not are result of multigenerational trauma & abuse & neglect #it all got calcified in her mind and she won't/can't ever change. even though she thinks she did. #but understanding doesn't help one bit because she can't even acknowledge that she has that kind of problems & it affects our relationship #and as a result every time we talk i want to fucking kill myself #we're doing somewhat okay only if i never ever disagree with her. arguing #is a deadly sin. fighting for my personal space and limits being respected is unforgivable. she only tolerates me when i bite my tongue #and nod along. and even that in its core is a feeble illusion of truce not a real peace between us. #i think sometimes that it's impossible for us to actually get along #and if it's the truth... i don't know what to do about it

[charulein]

I love watching nature documentaries, but so many about reptiles of any kind tend to be... trite and wrong. Imagine if documentaries would talk about mammals the way they talk about reptiles.

#Despite having a brain the size of a lime #The monkey seems to be aware of what's its doing. #Or at least this could be interpreted into this behaviour #however unlike corvids there is no conclusive evidence that monkeys truly understand tool use #as the older mammals never teach their offspring #being thus stuck in a primitive cycle of learning the same basic principles with each generation #etc #crocodiles aren't lizards #crocodiles aren't relics of the past #mammals are not more advanced #and dinosaurs are still all around us (birds)(crocodiles aren't dinosaurs either)