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#it's so funny bc the fact that i didn't never bothered me until like. literally 11 months ago
honeybittersweet · 17 days
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My brother broke up with her girlfriend and says it's my fault bc I didn't say hi to her nicely enough all the time + I didn't make her feel welcome by putting on a good face when she was around. Girlie, I'm sorry to tell you this, but in my house, I'm not gonna put on a nice face, I've been doing it all day and I'm not gonna do it in my own home just bc you're gonna cry if I don't.
#for context she is a very sensitive person. has anxiety and depression.#and i may be an asshole. but i'm not gonna change my whole demeanor just bc of that. i'm not gonna treat you like a delicate flower#which was how my brother was acting. he even say it so. that he watches the things he says or does as not to make her have a break down#which makes sense if your partner is like that but what the hell do i have to do with that?#listen. i've been in love and friends with people who have both anxiety and depression. and it was exhausting.#i will never put myself in that situation again. no matter with who. idc#also. funny how it was me the principal factor and not the fact that my brother literally told her he didn't have life plans with her#a bit more of context: me and him have never gotten along and we've been living together without parents since 2021#and he has annoying attitudes#he takes like a week to do the dishes and pots. he leaves his towel wet on a wood furniture. invites ppl over. treats me badly#he also tends to insult me. we fight a lot.#and on top of that he was inviting her over all the time#i'm someone who likes to be home alone. i love it. my brother leaves work at 8pm. she gets out at 7pm. i get home at 7pm and she's there#up until last year she would eat the food my mom would buy especifically for me and stopped bc i literally had to hid the food in my room#also both of them were like !!! but gf locks herself in (my bro)'s room!! so she doesn't ''bother me''#and it's like. honey. idc where tf you are. i'm still not home alone. i don't get the same freedom#+ when i'm truly home alone i spend time in the kitchen. go around semi naked. sing out loud. do you really expect me to do those things#when somebody else who doesn't even live here is staying over?
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kamig4mes · 19 days
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We need friendship headcannons with kisski and hanma it can be seperated or as an trio,you can make one platonic and one as an love interest i dont really care!!!
I'm still excited that you made this request, anon bc this duo has been making eyes at me these days. I thought about kisakixhanmaxfem!reader. I'm so sorry for the wait!! I hope u like it, nd enjoy it!
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#pov: friendship headcanons with Kisaki and Hanma (platonic/love interest)
★ warnings: fem!reader, realistic hc, fluff, funny, friendship, love interest, established relationship, platonic facts, school mention
→ a/n: H&K = Hanma and Kisaki
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—friendship (+ platonic facts)!
The three go and return together wherever they go, both boys coming to pick you up at the entrance of your house and leaving you at the same even when classes are over! This pair makes sure you're in one piece by the end of the day.
The races to determine the unnecessary speed between you are never lacking. A few meters to enter the school, Hanma challenges them to a race to see who gets there first and you accept, and as always you do the countdown.
"Alright! in your marks, read-.. HUH?!
And before you know it Hanma took the dirty lead by shooting out first, taking the lead and leaving you biting the dust
"STOP, STUPID CHEATER!"
You run in search of him screaming complaints between laughs trying to reach him while Kisaki just keeps walking at his pace like the normal person he is, catching up with them minutes later.
At least three times a month they attend karaoke together. They try to use all the power of friendship possible to convince Kisaki to go together, trying not to upset him with his nonsense the previous days. After two attempts, the blonde accepts, renting the most minimal time rate they have to stop listening to the stormy concerts that you and Hanma give it.
It's natural for Hanma to bother you every day, almost as if that's his mission in this life. Sometimes it makes you very angry, is Kisaki who intervenes asking to stop. But once both stoics made you cry out of pure rage so you stopped talking to them for a whole week. They both spent that time following you around in silence and apologizing by buying your favorite sweets.
Hanma accompanies you to almost any nonsense you can think of, until it puts the three of them in a bad position. The bicolor loves the adrenaline rush, but if he feels that his asses can end up in difficult problems to handle he absolutely aborts the mission.
H&K are your protectors. Whether with intimidating looks/postures or verbal threats, both guys make it clear to everyone that you are their best friend and they can't try any moves on you. Yes, that's the way they are.
That's why Valentine's Days were really sad for you because, for some alien reason, you didn't receive any gifts or letters that day. Much less declarations of love or anonymous confessions. NOTHING. And the reason is that in reality, H&K were furtively responsible for eliminating (not literally) anyone who tried to make any move on you regarding the date, the two allying themselves to scare away and intimidate.
"I'm sorry, brat" explains the bicolor blocking the way to the classroom to the boy one grade below you "this girl is already busy"
"B-but I-"
"And don't try anything behind our backs, or you won't want to regret it later," Kisaki muttered, making the poor trembling boy pass out loud saliva when he clattered his knuckles noisily.
This is how your two best friends were always there to comfort you and fill that void of the day with walks or gifts only from them.
The three of them would run away from classes, but only when they are extremely bored of listening to the teacher.
H&K care a lot about your health, even if it doesn't seem like it. They offer you water or some nutritious drink, buy you breakfast and even make sure that you don't consume a lot of fried foods or sweets.
Their jobs are close to each other, so it's easy for the three of them to meet at a specific place and then stop by for a drink or just walk home.
—(+) platonic facts!
The first time H&K saw you wearing a swimsuit for a beach meet-up that you organized with your friends, they gasped. Kisaki felt that her face would explode because of how good your body looked while Hanma quickly glanced at you every time you passed by him.
H&K are the kind of guy in love who contemplates you at every opportunity he can. Kisaki by his observant and discreet nature manages to spy without being seen by anyone while Hanma does it blatantly without caring if it's very obvious or not. You actually caught him once seeing you, and his reaction was to let out a little giggle and look away when he realized that you caught him. You could notice the soft blush on his cheeks.
They enjoy taking pictures of you doing random things. Especially Hanma (he has a whole album of you and kisaki on his phone), and only occasionally Kisaki warns for a good take.
"Take out your phone, Shuji"
"Huh? And for what the hell-?"
"Look over there, is y/n"
Kisaki points at you covertly, and the two-tone nods, catching his friend's intention as he quickly pulled out his phone. Seconds later the flash does its job. They both smile seeing you captured on the screen.
"Good angle" celebrates the blonde "very cute.."
"Yea' she looks fcking beautiful"
Yes, whether it's taking you or going to pick you up, taking a walk to the park for a while and things like that, at first H&K keep track of which one of the two has to share time with you. That's why it's not uncommon for you to feel that they take turns.
Kisaki would leave you a lot of small gifts throughout the week anonymously because he is embarrassed to deliver them to you in person. At first you thought it could be a stalker with ninja skills because you couldn't catch him in the act, but soon (and in the dumbest way) you found out it was the blond one (I have a little pov for this hc, I'll upload it after this!)
—love interest!
Hanma calls you "baby" most of the time, and would use adorable nicknames like "babydoll" or "fcking princess" just to annoy you. I'm not sure with Kisaki, I think "honey" might work for him. But both of them, without a doubt, call you "darling" a lot of the time.
Hanma, unlike Kisaki, is more concerned about your feminine needs. I feel like he has a sharper sense for that kind of thing. On the other hand, you can safely entrust the financial part to Kisaki because that man will cover all your whims.
Maximum princess treatment with some moments of rough love (the latter courtesy of Shuji Hanma). They like to pamper and pamper you a lot, just allow yourself to enjoy it.
On dates YES OR YES the three of you go together. And the one who is usually planning spontaneous outings is Hanma. For more important events that require more planning (such as special dates) Kisaki takes care of, for the rest of the outings/appointments he just gets carried away by the rhythm of you two.
Their plans for an intimate afternoon is to warm up the three of them together between sheets and sweets while watching eternal marathons of movies or documentaries (hanma falls asleep after two films and you always wake him up before the marathon ends so that Kisaki doesn't notice).
Their first date as official couples was at an amusement park by your decision. It was quite an exhausting day for the three of them but they would be able to repeat it a thousand more times if with that they manage to see the exact definition of happiness in each other's smiles again.
When you and Hanma start a tickle fight, you run away in the direction of Kisaki's private studio hiding behind him because he never allows Hanma to enter that place. And you know it very well. That place is your safe zone. But once you take one foot out of there your immunity ends, and Hanma makes sure to get revenge by cornering you between the sofa and him with no escape option. Kisaki gives a soft smile when he hears them laughing in the distance.
At the same time, you and Hanma are good partners, teaming up as an unconscious act to make fun of anything Kisaki says or does.
Broadly speaking Kisaki in a refined, calculating, thoughtful, more elegant and formal type than any ordinary person. In this way he manages to keep his surroundings (and his inner world) under control and at peace. But unfortunately Kisaki can not go against the hyperstimulated souls of their partners. So when a situation in which his presence is completely protagonist and necessary gets stressed. Specifically because the ideas you and Hanma come up with can become terrifyingly exhausting for him. Going to fairs, concerts, parties, birthdays and similar events these are some examples.
Kisaki harbors a buttery side that melts faster when she's resting in your arms, whether you're stroking her hair or listening to her thoughts out loud. Not with this he says that he loves you more than Hanma, only you transmit to him a greater warmth and security compared to the noisy and annoying immature actions of the languid boy. Hanma, in turn, gets cheesier when she's alone with you. He feels that he can release his more cloying cuteness with you because he knows that you tolerate that kind of treatment more, and that you are not going to reject him or get irritated like it happens when he tries to be the same way with Kisaki. Still, none of you have preferences, all three of you love each other equally.
Hanma shows them how much he loves them and how important they are to him by spending quality time together: walks in the fresh air, outings to eat, watching movies at the cinema or at home, playing with board games/video games, etc. Anything that allows him to share his time with the two of you he will put into practice. Kisaki, on the other hand, applies physical contact: hands on the waist, caressing sessions, linked fingers, kisses on random areas of the body, massages, etc. In these ways Kisaki tries to convey to both of you all the love and appreciation he feels for you two, showing you a side that he doesn't have with anyone else.
Of course, this pair is a dangerous bombshell of jealousy and possession. Oh yeah, anyone who tries to step out of the line or even flirt with you won't have any functional organ or limb left to tell about it.
They also don't like to share you with others, no matter if it's your family or friends. Hanma is the most impatient and impulsive of the three, he won't even spend two hours when he's already holding your hand to take you with him and get you out of wherever you are without letting you properly excuse yourself. Kisaki is more patient and serene, entertaining his mind with other things until he can't stand it anymore and demands that you return by means of a call or he just goes to look for you. You better not ignore this couple when jealousy gets the better of them, or you're not going to have a great time afterwards.
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©2024 / ENJOY ♡ — aaaand I was finally able to finish it, I was too busy with classes 🥲🥲 I'll keep writing more about this trio eventually. Thank u for all your love and patience 🙌🏻 tkm
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sc0rpi0sys · 1 year
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some things we did throughout our life that should've clued us into the fact that we have various mental conditions, but didn't bc we didn't have proper education on mental health!
including but not limited to:
literally talking in our head like there is a number of people there with different opinions and different things they want to do (osdd)
eating ultimately three things throughout our whole childhood (autism)
having very specific headcanons on certain fandoms and characters. seeing some other headcanons, saying "oh, i like that!" but never putting them in our personal works/rps/etc for unknown reasons, even though i wanted to (osdd, introjects)
hating shopping until i was able to shop by my rules. it's either quick, with minimum try-ons, clothes a few sizes bigger than it fits, or we're unhappy, getting cranky super fast and hurry to leave cus it's boring/uncomfortable (autism)
ditching our best friend since kindergarten up to primary school in primary school cus she started being friends with another person and i felt ignored (bpd)
being borderline romantic with another best friend all throughout middle school, but never having actual romantic feelings for her. being jealous of her other friendship (bpd)
terrible, terrible, AWFUL memory. we still have a running joke with a friend of how my memory cuts out around her 12th birthday, she doesn't know we're a system (osdd)
only being able to wear specific clothes. wearing the same hoodie for weeks in middle school cus it was the only safe choice (autism)
starting to "date" a boy in middle school i didn't even like in a try to fit in with our best friend who had a crush on that boy (autism) (funny thing is, she didnt have a crush on him. she was mimicking me while i was mimicking her. yes, she's trying for RAS atm)
never being able to have a conclusive opinion on anything except sensory stuff. felt like our opinions switched sometimes daily (osdd)
feeling like i never knew how it is to like something. instead of just liking something it felt like we just chose to like something one day (all three, i account it to all three. its a mess)
just so many sensory problems (autism)
buying clothes i Loved in the shops and ending up not wearing them once or wearing them Onlg once bc they didnt seem so good later, to the point sometimes we would cringe at some stuff we bought (osdd)
not being able to cry, but at the same time wanting to so badly it hurt (osdd)
rage fits. over little things, big things, any things that bothered me (bpd)
obsessive interests. so obsessive i wouldn't talk about any other stuff for weeks no matter if my friends were interested in listening to me (autism)
but at the same time having some interests that turned on and off with time. examplified by our team's favourite: reading homestuck for over two years because some weeks we binged it to the best of our abilities and some weeks we weren't interested even in the slightest (osdd and autism)
"kinning" characters in a very specific way. not trying to act like them consciously, but ending up doing it naturally. not being able to stop on demand, even if demand came from myself (osdd, introjects)
reckless behaviour, adrenaline seeking even. im not about to confess to my crimes on social media but we might or might not stole a couple of things back in the day (bpd)
having drastically different styles day-to-day if we went somewhere that is not school (osdd)
usually getting along with younger kids better than with peers (autism)
k lol thats it. its not an exhaustive list by any means and i purposefully didnt include any heavier stuff just bc. i dont want to lol. its not fun and games all the time, but its also not always awful, some things are pretty funny in retrospect
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gobbluthbutagirl · 3 years
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might fuck around and spend the entire rest of my life wishing i had gone to college
#it's so funny bc the fact that i didn't never bothered me until like. literally 11 months ago#now to be fair for like the entire four years leading up to that moment my whole thing was 'i wish i had gone to high school'#and for the entire four years leading up to THAT it was 'i wish i did not exist'#which is still kind of my thing but it's taken a back seat to the other one#it's just like....you never miss it in the moment. only when you're looking back and there's a huge gaping hole in your life#also like 'you can still go to college!' i know. like i get that. on a fundamental level i understand#but my main thing isn't even that i want an education(although i would love to have had one) it's the social part#like just being around peers. meeting people. forming social connections#i'm 23 years old and so isolated i know absolutely nobody#like i have zero friends or even people that i talk to outside of my immediate family#i literally don't even interact with people online. all i do is come on this website and make posts and then leave#i just feel like if i had been in a more social environment at any point in my life i would be so much better off now#i mean i'm a functional adult. i have a full-time job. i can drive.#but my life is just so soooo EMPTY#and of course there's the whole thing with the ptsd where i have myself convinced i literally cannot make friends or even have a decent life#while living in my hometown in south carolina#and that my only option is to drive myself across the country to la in the middle of a pandemic just so i can go be lonely somewhere else#because at this point being lonely feels like a given and i've mostly come to terms w/ that#but that little 'what if...' voice never goes away and it's like#shut up about what your life could have been! shut up about what your life could have been!
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Natasha 5000? 👀🍿
ok storytime. sit down and grab your beverage of choice this is going to be a long one
i met natasha 5000 when we were both in 10th grade (we were in the same mutuals polycule online and it turned out we live rly close to each other, i think i was in the age of sail fandom at the time) and we were just. awful kids with severe anger issues so we have always been pretty aggressive to each other but not like in an abusive way. we used to spend literally every day together, usually at my apartment, smoking cigarettes and watching kpop videos (she forced me memorise all of the bts boys like literally wouldn't stop showing them to me until i could tell all of them apart) and just generally fucking around. she used to buy us cigarettes bc she looked older and the cashiers rarely asked her id
so yeah we spent some of our most formative years together (from 15 to like 20? 21?) and we fought a lot so we would go months without speaking to each other after a bad argument but inevitably always came back to each other. i think we've grown as people a lot and this in fact taught both of us how to be less toxic. i remember at least two conversations we had about how much we changed for the better
i think it's very rare to have a person in your life who just Knows you inside and out and you in some way share a life together. but i also think you can never fully know someone entirely. ive had people in my life who turned out to be completely different from me years after we became close
ANYWAYS im too tempted to dunk on natasha but honestly just like me she was just a very unstable person and was a maximalist in a way most young people are
fast forward to 2018 (i think?). we've been fighting again, for quite a long time, but still close friends and on speaking terms. somewhere around may natasha went on a trip to south korea, and because she's a bitch idiot she ran out of money because she spent all of it on clothes and clubbing. i sent her ₱5000 - i didn't have a job at the time so the five thousand were carefully saved up by me over like a year. she didn't give the money back to me immediately after she came back, but i wasn't really bothered by that because she was my best friend and obviously she would give it back
then we started fighting again - i genuinely can't remember what about, but awful things were said, it was very ugly and im not at all proud of how i acted. at some point she blocked me on almost everything - phone number, twitter, tumblr, insta, you fucking name it. i called her out (via vk) about the money, but she said she's not gonna give it back bc i have her curling iron (not true, she lost it when she moved apartments) and one of her shirts
i truly don't know what was going through my head because instead of pushing it i was like "fuck you, im gonna steal your shirt" and then she blocked me on vk too and i had no means of contacting her
i could have called her from a different number or straight up come to her house (it's literally a 20 min walk from me) but at first i was too mad and then my pride got the better of me but im still very salty about the money . . . 5k is kind of a lot for me even still and i was saving them up for so long!!!!! i get riled up about this every couple months which i think is really funny because it literally doesn't matter. like im more mad about the money than the friendship i lost or how toxic she's been towards me
so yeah she's natasha 5000 because her name is natasha and she owes me 5000 rubles
(btw i stalked her socials a few years ago and she got diagnosed with bipolar just like me lol which explains a lot actually
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