#it’s always harder to be bigger in the summer bc clothes are smaller and it’s hot and I’m just uncomfortable in my skin all the time

[dcsidcrium]

FULL NAME: Nikki Eryl FAden

NICKNAME: Nik (she’s actually really fond of nicknames or pet names so like THROW THEM AT HER)

GENDER: female

HEIGHT: 5′1″

AGE: 25 

ZODIAC: Gemini

SPOKEN LANGUAGES: English (main verse), beast speak (can speak to animals), a few basic things in other languages for the sole purpose of being able to communicate in those verses

𝐩𝐡𝐲𝐬𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐥 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐜𝐬!

HAIR COLOR:  Dark brown, teeny, tiniest bit of red in the right light

EYE COLOR: Dark blue

SKIN TONE: Tan.  This girl is always outside so she’s typically sun-kissed

BODY TYPE: Petite.  She’s got some curve thanks to her bone structure, but she’s mostly muscle and toned.  Can dip into being slightly underweight at times

VOICE: I don’t have a voice claim for her.  Fairly feminine in pitch but not soft at all with the slightest hint of an accent.  She’s loud and brash and it’s a slightly amusing contrast to the words that come out of her mouth.

DOMINANT HAND: Right

POSTURE: Surprisingly good.  Mostly from wanting to make herself look bigger/more intimidating.  She doesn’t want to look smaller than she already is

SCARS: Covered in them.  Prominent scars are listed here, and some are sketched out here for placement.  A fair amount of them can be seen most of the time.  Especially in the summer due to clothing choices.  The only one she actively tries to hide is the burn scar across her lower back.  The rest are free game and on full display

TATTOOS: A hawk in flight going across her upper back.  Wings follow the arch of her shoulder, head/beak are at the base of her neck.  Looks very similar to this.  “Men cry not for themselves, but for their comrades” on the right side of her rib cage.  “A sword wields no strength unless the hand that holds it has courage” on the left side of her ribs.   It’s misaligned from a wound healing and being stitched improperly.  She has a black wolf and a snow leopard on the outer side of her right thigh. 

BIRTHMARKS: none

MOST NOTICEABLE FEATURE(S): pointed ears (think Hylian ears, but like in later games, where they aren’t quite as large.  Easily hidden beneath hair if wanted).  Fangs.  Her canines are larger than a human’s and the tooth immediately behind it on the top row is also pointed/enlarged.  Bottom canines are also enlarged.  Not so much that they stick out form her lips, but noticeable if she smiles widely enough to show teeth.

𝐜𝐡𝐢𝐥𝐝𝐡𝐨𝐨𝐝!

PLACE OF BIRTH: in the middle of the woods in Oklahoma

HOMETOWN: Secluded village out in the middle of nowhere.

SIBLINGS: Dani Faden (sister), Ry (a wolf she bonded with as a child, claimed as her brother.  died when she was 16)

PARENTS: Camira Faden (mother, murdered when Nikki was 15), Aaryan Faden (father, abandoned his family when Nikki was a toddler)

𝐚𝐝𝐮𝐥𝐭 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞!

OCCUPATION: wildlife rehabilitation (main verse), petty crimes/theft, bartender, odd jobs (sub verses/aus)

CURRENT RESIDENCE: a few miles outside of a city (location dependent on verse/thread)

CLOSE FRIENDS: Not counting threads, and strictly her canon universe?  None.  She has two beta wolves (Ryker and Duke) that she considers her family.  Will make friends/acquaintances, but refrains from getting close so she can leave town if need be

RELATIONSHIP STATUS: Single (by default, blog is multiship)

FINANCIAL STATUS: Poor.  Does better in verses with a stable job, but she’s broke and lives mostly paycheck to paycheck.  Will steal people’s wallets if needed.

DRIVER’S LICENSE: No papers on Nikki are real.  She was born in a place where they were actively hiding from humans.  Her driver’s license is a very well done fake.

CRIMINAL RECORD: Breaking and entering, theft, assaulting an officer, escaping from jail (hasn’t been caught often.  she’s good at what she does)

𝐬𝐞𝐱 & 𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐞!

SEXUAL ORIENTATION:  Heterosexual, panromantic

PREFERRED EMOTIONAL ROLE:   submissive |  dominant  |  switch

PREFERRED SEXUAL ROLE:   submissive |  dominant | switch

LIBIDO: Definitely on the higher end of the spectrum.

TURN ONS:

sexual: Mostly anything that can be described as rough or aggressive.  Turned on by violence.  softer things, too, though.  she doesn’t let herself get in deep enough to see it bc feels

non-sexual: good with kids or animals, PHYSICAL AFFECTION/CONTACT, good sense of adventure/spontaneity 

TURN OFF’S: daddy kink, pet play, calling her ‘my’ anything, possessiveness

LOVE LANGUAGE: heavily physically affectionate.  shows her love through actions rather than words

RELATIONSHIP TENDENCIES: Overly protective, can border on being codependent.  It’s hard for her to form healthy bonds, and even harder to get her to drop her guard enough to be in a relationship.  Incredibly affectionate and maybe just a little bit clingy.

𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐜𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐚𝐧𝐞𝐨𝐮𝐬!

CHARACTER’S THEME SONG: Weapon by Grant

HOBBIES TO PASS TIME: Fighting, drinking, running, hiking (basically anything outdoors), exploring

MENTAL ILLNESSES: Depression, PTSD

LEFT OR RIGHT BRAINED: Right brained

PHOBIAS: Fire, snakes, abandonment

SELF CONFIDENCE LEVELS: It’s a bit double edged here?  She’s very cocky.  Confident in her physical capabilities and her appearance.  Some of it, though, is fake.  Her view of herself personality wise and as a person is very, very low.  Nikki is her worst enemy, and hates herself.

VULNERABILITIES: Silver weapons.  Can touch silver, and wear silver jewelry as long as it doesn’t pierce her skin.

Tagged by: @samuraiofice

Tagging: do the thing and @ me im still half asleep and idk who’s done this lmao

#;dash games #;only way im leaving is dead (headcanon: nikki)

[trademarkhubris]

dark thoughts about how good for the economy floods and other small disasters like the one i endured, or bigger ones i really dont want to think abt rn. my insurance is actually one of the less annoying out there. they'll ask for a quote from a specialist and send the money and then you can do wtf you want. for the most part.

but thats for... the pool, the walls... immovable property... anything thats furniture is reimbursed based on the purchasing price, minus 10% per year since purchase. that means if an object is ten years old, you get zilch.

my big freezer has a good 20 years behind it, it got toasted in the flood. the small summer fridge is from 2005, maybe it survived. the karsher is 15 years old, dead. the compressor is??? maybe it survived, maybe it didnt, but i saw it floating on its belly in mud water so yeah. the small oven and microwave i was keeping from a friend were his grandma's, dead. my washing machine is from at least 2010, only one button works now, it starts on its own & we cant change the programs anymore. my fridge is from the fucking fifties. its not broken *yet* but this year has not been a lucky year so far

plus two of the cars got water in... they're starting but if theres water damage thats not covered... and the vehicle safety inspection just got harder to pass... my mechanic had like 6 or 7 cars behind the garage that were just. going to the junkyard.

so will my insurance refund the time spent washing the house and garden?! or spent looking for my goldfish in the grass. or spent wondering if the cat last seen under a car made it somewhere else bc the water is now halfway to the tyres. or all the food that unfroze. or stressig over how this could probably happen again anytime now bc the environment is so fucked next week is heatwave then rain then heatwave then thunderstorm and the town doesnt care abt how shitty their water evacuation system is and the power outages did i mention the power outages bc these clowns make their live wires with ass hair

& they also dont refund the time spent on the phone with people saying "some people have it worse than you do!" yeah thanks! if you had two cents of empathy you'd realize all the reasons why that doesn't make me feel better! but youre just doing your job so i'll shut the fuck up!

im not... we're not dirt poor... we have a money cushion rn... bc family members died... but its money im so fucking scared to touch... bc i dont have a job... my moms job is not super well paying... we have way too many animals... the *human* health insurance here is pretty fucking great but i dont have a health insurance for every pet i have... and they need to eat... and we need to eat... the house is relatively expensive to maintain and we need to put it back in shape if we want to sell it to find a smaller less costly one... and now floods... that money is something we're all in all really fucking lucky to have, and i say that knowing a beloved grandpa died for us to have it

(and on that note; i can't 100% guarantee that for my entire life bc i dont know what the future is made of, but for as long as i can help it i will not have a ko-fi or a gofundme or even an amazon wishlist. theres so many people deeper in money issues than i have ever been. i cant pretend to understand what theyre going through or that i deserve even one percent of what they need.)

anyway thats not what i was gonna say. do you know how good for economy these disasters are? i gotta buy so much shit rn. even if i get help, that money is moving around and into some rich man's picket. my mechanic is overworked (but he always is lmao its the countryside theres always a car to repair) the car carriers have so much work the one who came for us found a way to make our car work again so he could *not* transport it.

theres so much money going around rn lmao. money to the laundromat bc our washer is kaput and we used a lot of towels and drapes to sponge off the water inside, and also regular clothes. money for the new pressure wash to take care of the mud everywhere in the verandas and garages. my neighbor got like 80 cm of mud in her house and she has to remake everything. she lost everything! shes gotta re-buy all that stuff! she'll get help but it's still money moving around! yaaaay!!!!!

so yeah! the planet's so fucked up it's mud party inside my neighbor's house! but the economy fucking LOVES that shit. gobbles it up like a babybel. doesnt even take the red wax off. om nom nom nom nom

anyway im fine its fine its cool isnt it cool everythings cool and fine and awesome late stage capitalism is a dream

#do you know how out of it i am rn #i swatted a wasp away #wasp got in my face and i slapped it away #a fucking wasp #void #anyway im fine i just feel like crying bc i barely have energy to wash my ass everyday and now i have to do all this shit #its too late to say dont worry abt me huh #but please #please dont #ill make it #ill belly surf if needs be #im not alone #okay enough of that bs lets get to the cws #death cw #money cw #wasp ment #food ment #long post #sam vs the elements