#it took me 5 years and 3 months

[recurring-polynya]

hey guess what happened last week

#ONE. MILLION. WORDS. #it took me 5 years and 3 months #which is slightly longer than i expected but also i'm kind of amazed i did it at all #this is a tiny bit of a lie b/c i do have a small amount of duplication amount in my works #which is to say the fade-to-black version of portions for foxes and the first bits of the tattoo artist au that started out as shorts #on the other hand i still have another 50k of damage history on deck so it'll be legit soon enough anyway #i just wanted to see the odometer roll over!!!! #i feel like i should do something to celebrate this but i'm kind of an idiot right now and if i open requests i'm afraid i'll just blow it #on the other hand maybe getting other people to give me ideas is what i need #i don't knooooooooooooow i am still thinking about it

[jupiter-balls]

Guess who finally finished sewing this dress!! And I'm actually happy with it in the end

You can't really see the lace collar because of my hair but it's cute!

I also would like to be acknowledged that my tights have sunshine carebear on them😌

#wasn't feeling the best so it's not my best outfit #but I feel accomplished I actually finnished #took me like 5 months because I kept having crisis' #but it turned out cute and I'll have it for the next 3-6 years so 🤷‍♀️ #is it fairy kei? maybe

[minamotoz]

riley asking shawn, "when you looks at me, does it remind you of what you can't have?" was a crazy ass moment because yes the line was about shawns intimacy issues and his inability to commit to a longterm relationship, but holy shit if that isn't the most blatant way you could confirm that shawn was in love with cory and the existence of riley was just a constant reminder that he had missed his chance and could never be with cory. what if i went insane

#boy meets world #shory #shawn x cory #i havent finished GMW because even though i like the dynamic between the kids everything abt the shaty ship tease makes me want to *** #it took me like 5 hours to get thru girl meets hurricane because i couldnt deal w the horrible way they dealt w angela #who even though i dont talk abt much is in my top 3 for BMW characters #but this one line from that one episode drove me mad like. did i die ? am i dead? #it actually took me until the end of the episode to realize what that line was supposed to mean #bc it read so explicitly to me as a confirmation of shawns feelings for cory #not to mention his ass literally LEFT THE CITY and never came back after riley was born #ignoring the continuity issues that crop up w this . its giving shawns wedding breakdown 2.0 lets discuss #i think that the take of 'shory is entirely one sided and shawns feelings for cory are unrequited' #is pretty surface level and it doesnt add up much if u take a deeper look into corys character #but GMW definitely leans into this take #what with shawn desperately trying to mirror corpanga in all of his romantic relationships (to run away from his feelings for cory) #like ​is it really in shawns character to marry a woman hes barely known a year ? #or is he just trying to mirror cory and topanga who basically rushed into marriage the second they. were legally able to #i'll let u be the judge #am i making sense idk im tired n i havent watched sn episode of GMW in months

[francy-sketches]

do u guys think I can animate a 5 minute video in like 8 months

#.txt #now i know what you're thinking. it took me 1+ year for a 3 min pmv. BUT 80% of that was procrastinating and not doing anything #I have 2 make a short film for my final project this year. and we were supposed to start making sketches n shit during the summer #and uh. school starts in a month ish and I still haven't done shit #bc I have like 0 ideas #except for ONE. but's it's kinda long as balls (5 mins) #ok actually. the song is 4 mins (they said we could make a music video) but I listened to the slowed+reverb version 2 much #so like I kinda imagined it to the slow version and the normal version is a bit too fast. i think #we don't have to work alone so I guess I COULD just attach myself to one of my classmates projects. but I'd rather not #bc the thing is. i dont wanna be mean but half of them don't know what they're doing 😭 #had to keep explaining basic shit to them like please dont make the scene 50 frames long when it's supposed to be 30

[puppybong]

checked in on my prof & he hasn’t answered yet and im so not worried about it at all

#THE most annoying part about this whole situation. is that he knows nothing about me #not that i would tell him anything personal but who looks at a 16yo kid and is like You will sell me drugs. Or i will kill myself. #5 years of knowing this guy & he hasn’t once asked me abt my personal life😭bitch what am i to you (i already know) #i took one class w this guy. one 3 month course.How does this happen #b

[amelia]

(amy & eleven | do me a favour)

little video about the impossibility of holding onto what you treasure the most. it's about no one wanting to leave with roadblocks in front of their own ability to stay it's about "don't let go" "never" it's about how embarrassing it is to admit that you need someone so much that it turns into resentment and about how in the end to tear apart the ties that bind, perhaps "fuck off" might be TOO kind

#doctor who #amy pond #eleven #amy x eleven #mine #happy new years i still feel like there are a million things i want to change about this edit but i also do not want to bring it into 2023. #shedding my burdens. anyway. this is for a select group of mutuals and the bitches who get it only. #this took 5 months and also i have been talking about how much i have wanted to see an edit with this song to them since i was like. 13 #so it's personal!!!!! to me. #um anyway click the link if you want the youtube HD version. or don't <3 #also sorry about my terminal americanism that made me write the text in as Favor even though the song is Favour. you can kill me for it

[moregraceful]

put 712 of the worst words ever put in a google doc tonight BUT! it is 712 more words in the google doc than i had yesterday. this fic will be more than 2k, so help me god

#the past six months have been so weird after posting over 200k last year (including the longest fic i've written since bandom) #i think i would have been fine continuing to post 1-3k one shots all year if i had not just had to request extended time off of school #but between that + having no idea if i have a regular schedule at the library + my nonprofit boss sending a harrowing welcome back #i'm like by god jason robertson we are going to take a couple of leisurely 7-10k+ strolls to get you a boyfriend or two this summer #well all that + being horrendously writers blocked on the other two longer projects lmfao oh my god #10k deep in one and every time i open the google doc a portal to hell opens up in my living room #0k into the other bc every time i open my outline another different portal to hell opens up in my shower #i get no rest. i get no peace. every morning i wake up and 5 more demons are- oh my god #bro my fucken train of thought just got completely derailed by spotify. i know i'm the last person in the world to know this but #3oh!3 and big freedia remixed rebecca black's friday?? and it's completely unlistenable?? girls what did you do #3oh!3 kill me bc no time traveler ever took their faces in hand and kissed them gently on the forehead and looked into their eyes #said ''please focus on coloradosunrise it will literally course-correct the trajectory of your career from frat house gimmick to #rowdy but respectable indie edm artists. you can remain true to your warped tour dirtbag origins but you HAVE to develop THAT sound'' #like the chainsmokers are a joke but i feel like THAT + ANGRY EMO GIRLS + THEIR TOTAL DISREGARD FOR MARKETABILITY... could have been THEM #when the piano drops?? hello?? i had so many mental breakdowns in college listening to that song they could have defined a generation #like who else is gonna get noah cyrus and ashe and gayle and olivia rodrigo's vision. only warped tour dirtbags. #me @ myself [so lovingly]: what are you talking about. how old are you #me @ myself: talk to me abt earth 2 in which 3oh!3 remixed i got so high that i saw jesus....and it whipped ass #also. i had to google how old i was. THREE TIMES last week. #the minute i turned 32 apparently i was like i'm in my mid-30s now the rest of this decade is NOT my business until i turn 38 #this post was supposed to be an uplifting reminder to myself to keep pushing forward and trying hard and to not let the rot consume me #but i think i just drove off a cliff like fully my god #i need listen to big freedia more she rules #fresno oilers.txt #another banner day in the tags with kasper moregraceful

[lesbianlotties]

uh oh i'm getting this feeling that tells me i might not graduate this year and as soon as that's confirmed you have no idea how much i'm going to cry <3

#as if i wasn-t slow enough and procrastinated like my life depended on it... my thesis tutor is an asshole that took a month to read ch 1 #to READ IT so who knows when he'll finish the corrections like these will be just the first ones of the first chapter #there's two more chapters left #and my uni requires that i'd be done with fucking everything by OCTOBER 5 #that means submitting myt thesis AND defending and god knows how long that takes #like my prof technically just gave me good news but idk about about you guys #but i'm feeling like i might just kms instead <3 #i'm staring at the calendar on my phone thinking we're not going to make it chief #oh i'm going to be sick #okay wait wait hold on i'm thinking not everything is lost like so what if i don't graduate this year i can still finish the thesis this ye #and then actually fucking rest and enjoy my life and plan what i'll do next while i wait for the next graduation! #but what about everyone in my life being intense about me graduating already??? well they'll make me cry but what else is new

[silouvertongues]

finally finished pride and prejudice 🫡

#took me like a year to read bc i would pick it up like every 3 months read 5 pages and then get distracted #but it was good i listened to the audiobook as i read sometimes instead of just reading it myself and karen savage is so fun to listen to #cozy cozy cozy book makes me wanna watch every adaptation of it #i still think darcy and liz are kinda…..like idk i like them but i wanted more depth maybe #but the vibes were so good i don’t Really care much about that . i think that’s why the audiobook is lovely to listen to i was so immersed #surprisingly would love to reread it even tho i’m not much of a rereader esp with classics but it was genuinely just warm and comfy #h talks

[xmenred2022]

Every so often I think about hank pym and I’m like damn he’s been dead a while I wonder when they’re going to bring him back. And then a year goes by and they still haven’t resurrected him. Or even separated his corpse from ultron which is really fucked up. I think part of it is the mcu synergy which means Scott gets to be antman forever so marvel editorial isn’t really pushing for him to come back but I also think there just isn’t a lot of interest in the character, which is weird since he’s such an iconic character and it’s almost been a decade. But who knows maybe next month they’ll announce the “The Cage of Ultron” event and they’ll bring him back. who knows.

#doing a little research revealed to me that characters killed at roughly the same time (cyclops and wolverine) both came back within the #span of a couple of years #it took Scott Lang 2 to 3 years #and Janet about 5. hank is at roughly 8 and counting. I doubt he’ll do a jean grey and do 2 decades but I really wouldn’t count on him #coming bcak anytime soon. SAD! well there’s other Antman #okay coming back to this months and months later. I don’t know what I was on about for Scott because he died in Sep 2004 and came back #in like April 2011. so more like 7ish years

[sodrippy]

genuinely how on gods green earth can one earn money while paying rent i cant do it its impossible im going nuclear

#the way it took me like 5 years to save my money and within the last 18 months ive spent almost all of it just to be alive. ok. #will i ever actually start saving in any substantial way ever again? probably not<3 #when i move back to my parents place in 3 yrs itll be over for financial instability

[magentagalaxies]

happy birthday to the incredible paul bellini!!! may this be the best bellini day ever

(picture on the left is from the first mouth congress concert i went to last december and picture on the right is from my first ever zoom with paul bellini which is going to be exactly a year ago in a few weeks. so surreal how far our friendship has come since then, he's genuinely like family now)

#uncle paul <3 #i should make a ''top ten paul bellini moments'' thing some day. the chia pet story is number one #but also shoutout to literally the first thing he ever said to me on that zoom #i was like ''just so you know i'm feeling a little starstruck right now'' and he was deadpan like ''you'll get over it in 5 minutes.''' #and i did <3. but just because i'm not starstruck doesn't mean i've ever stopped being excited that he knows who i am #also i'm like 99% sure that i reminded the kith instagram to make a bellini post today lmao. i posted this exact thing on instagram #and the kith account liked it and then 5 minutes later posted happy birthday paul bellini like i'm out here reminding people it's bellinida #last thing. this is not a post about scott but can i just take a moment to appreciate how far my friendship with scott has come #just looking at the pics of us together??? #like the one on the left here. that's the first time i ever met scott so obviously he wasn't as familiar with me as paul #so he's just kind of posing doesn't look as excited (plus he was tired it was like 3 a.m. that's fine) #but look at the ''family photo'' i took with all three of my guys in june??? (the one where he's directly next to me) #he looks SO HAPPY by then it's such a difference! like over the course of those months he did get to know me better #and now any time i'm in town it's a whole Event with everyone trying to get their jess-time lmao #as i was falling asleep last night i was thinking about how different that new year's eve trip would be if i went up this year vs last year #just bc everyone knows me a lot better #and it just makes me so happy. character development all around

[bilestat]

the silent realms in skyward sword have no business being as nerve wracking as they are

#this game is taking me so much longer than the others #not in hours but in months #because i keep putting it off for weeks at a time #also i suck so bad at the controls #thankfully i've had an easier time lately but my god lmao #anyway!! i'm inching closer to the end #i got nayru's silent realm on the first try and yes i had to watch a video of someone else doing it #because farore's silent realm took multiple tries and i was so frustrated i almost cried #personal #i might finally play persona 4 when i finish it #and then probably finally accept i'm never getting wind waker and twilight princess hd for switch #so i'll bring out my gamecube and wii and finally play those #begging atlus to put p3r on switch like PLEASE 🙏 #yes i played persona 3 for the (muffled speaking) time earlier this year yes i'm dying to play it again already #and i'm so used to my switch pro controller that i struggled with my ps4 controller when i started tlou (which i never got back to rip) #which means i will probably just get persona 5 royal on switch for christmas instead of playing the vanilla version i already own for ps4 #courtney plays zelda

[apricotluvr]

July 23

#1. the weather this month was horrible. how is it raining this much in the middle of summer? so annoying #2. July was a month full of having mehmaan or going to visit other peoples houses. I’m a pretty social person and I usually love spending #spending time with family but this was a bit too much #I made my version of knafeh after quite some time (without a recipe really) and it turned out good 😃 #3. flowers my mum regretted buying cause after paying she saw other ones she liked more and which were cheaper lol #4. these beads I used last year to make necklace. wore it only a few times so decided to change it and make it into a phone chain. also #got this cute sticker from work. cute right. my inner child is really happy with the amount of cute stickers I can just use #5. every year there’s this group of Muslim youth from another city. and they organise a carnival type a thing for the kids in their city #2 years ago I volunteered there and decided to do it again this year. it’s not in my own city but our masjid is in that city. took my mum #+ little brother with so he could play. my aunt also came with her kids and it was a really nice day. the whole thing was organised and run #by Muslims and was free for all. i had a good time helping out and was asked if I wanna join the committee (?). I declined #bc it’s a little too far for me to be present throughout the year. I will continue to help on the day of in sha Allah. anyway they did do #catering for the volunteers and it was from one of my favourite restaurants in that city. I kinda know the owner so when I saw him when I #joked if my favourite cheesecake would also be provided today. he said unfortunately not but he’ll bring some just for me so he did 🥺 #6. made a little heart w my baby bros hair #monthly recap

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#ugh. i wasted a lot of time and money today #bc my leg was suddenly hurting a lot more today and it kinda freaked me out so i went to urgent care #and then they had me get an x ray. luckily my hip looks fine and like i thought i probably strained or tore like an adductor muscle #so all that for something i already knew. but she said i should just chill for like 3 weeks and let it heal #at least nothing worse was wrong but its really annoying. i want to run 😫 #wtf am i gonna do to dispel energy??? ugh. and i was supposed to go to thr post office today to send stuff #ill have to go tomorrow. bleh. its so annoying #part of it is just that i hate having to interact with people. like talking to people. like im sure i come across as v young #bc im so anxious and hesitant and im like zero eye contact. so idk it just feels kinda embarrassing #i wanna b like. bro i promis im not stupid. i have 2 advanced degrees in biology and im going for a 3rd. u can talk to me like an adult #its probably just me projecting. my perception is distorted from being made fun of by my sister lol #whatever. at least its just 3 weeks. tho it does remind me i havent been to an actual doctor in like 5 years #...probably should do thst before i move. or idk maybe ill just wait a month and go before school starts #ugh. fuck the American Healthcare system. they looked at me for like 5min and to go to urgent care was $125 with my insurance #thats just to b seen. like i can afford that but what r u supposed to do if u cant? #unrelated #at least its not as bad as when i passed out in class and took a 10 min ambulance ride that somehow cost $700

[crybaby-bkg]

I hateeeee hate hate hate it when I write a one shot and finish it on a certain note bc I don’t plan on nor desire to expand it or write more…….and then someone……..comments a brilliant fucking idea that could turn into another part and it’s SO FUCKING good that I literally have to write another part or else I’ll die -_-

#it makes me SO MAD #bc I HATE writing a second part and multi chapters #mainly bc I like one and dones since I’m lazy lol #but I wrote my first crossover fic on ao3 (everyone go read it NOW) #and it took me nearly a YEAR to write it and I NEVER take that long #so once I finally finished it I was like #okay that’s it you’re done great job #and here come two people giving me this bomb ass idea for another part 🤨🤨🤨🤨 #and it’s SO good and it’s plaguing me like crazy #I cant even finish the other wips I started months ago!!!!!! #I wanna finish them all this week I’m determined to #bc my semester starts in about 2/3 weeks and I wanna do as much as I can before I’m tied down lol #I’m rambling sorry #I need to gts bc I have to be up early for an appt #that’s probably gonna last like 5 mins ugh #HATE HAGE HATE IT #—in store chit chat! 🍫