#it is getting late and I'm on my phone

[yasmeensh]

This is what I have been working on this week. A4 paper in gouache. It's a rather difficult medium to work with. I do like the consistency, and the matte finish. But I found it hard to make the colours come out bright (I suppose gouache is like that?). I used coloured pencils and what is supposed to be oil pastels (it was straight up chalk lol). I think it could still use more work, but I fear I would just ruin it if I work any further. Overall, I'm happy with the result! Next up will be acrylics! Progress shots under the cut:

#gouache #lioness #drawing lions is actually fun #Worked on this in evenings #after work #omg yes the employment life began. back to school. elementary #i'm basically that meme now that goes #oh no i'm late for school!!! wait i'm an adult now *goes back to sleep* #I'M A TEACHER!!!!!!!!!!! #I have 10 thousand hobbies and now they must be crammed into the evening and weekends #i want to draw and game and work on my story and bake and read and and and #oh my god so much #maybe if i get rid of my phone i can make time for all of it #won't be surprised if it turns out i spend a total of 2 hours doom scrolling in bed

[utilitycaster]

Ok but for real I think Max should start tweeting that before each episode on the grounds that he can't really miss any episodes of Critical Role, as it is his job, and see how long it takes people to catch on

#in all seriousness i've seen people freak out because: episode on longer side. episode on shorter side. early-ish break. late-ish break. #mercury in retrograde. dreams. visions. the grocery store being out of their favorite brand of oat milk. #like don't get me wrong i'm excited and ready for a good time. i am also a big fan of fair-weather faith. #but literally people go shrieking mad in the tag before every episode and i think the cr crew is honor-bound to fuck with them #if i were liam o'brien i'd just tweet interesting episode tonight *moon emoji* at random and turn off my phone

[justunderscorecattttt]

one hand-sized spider punk, coming right up

if the quality seems a bit low, it's cause I had to draw this on very short notice and I conviniently just lost my only small brush. and yes, this image is blatantly copied from a panel (I think?) from his comic. honestly not too sure, this is a Christmas present for a friend.

never again am I attempting to cut out that small of details. never again. Hobie I love you but your spikes had to go.

#crappy photo quality ik but what can you do #I'm working with one (1) cracked phone camera and a tiny canvas #anyhow #happy late Christmas to those who celebrate #spider punk #hobie brown #spiderverse fanart #oh oh fun fact #I redrew the background 6 times because I couldn't get the gradient/shape/colour right #blow drier is now officially my favourite thing #art

[dont-offend-the-bees]

Not to continue my recent trend of oversharing on tumblr dot com, but I am very much struggling not to feel like I'm doing everything in my entire life wrong at present

#normal things to think after your doctor tells you you need to get a blood test re-taken bc you mistimed your dose #I'm just. I'm tired man. #I've been putting off a phone call for two months #i spend every day lately torn between do I need to go to hospital or am I just unfit and anxious #I rot and decay when left alone but also people are Too Much #I want to Create but I can't get started and when I do I'm just so disappointed with whatever I make #I'm exhausted but I'm awake at 4am bc if i go to sleep tomorrow will start and I'll have to do this all again #and I need so fucking badly for someone to just crush me so hard in a really long hug until my bones realign #and i need to find past me shake her by the shoulders and yell “you're fine! you'll be fine! cut your hair! eat your greens! #take up swimming and also some new pronouns! no one else will respect em but they're for YOU and so is the health stuff #please for the love of fucking god just look after yourself better than i did!“ #there's toooooo many fuckin holes in this sinking ship #I need a full body MOT and then to be cradled against the chest of a large gentle man for 12-36 hours #mr. bees speaks

[skeletalheartattack]

Im soooooo hungry i neeed.... gaming trivia. tO live 😺

i mostly just have TF2 trivia, as its history has always been something ive always been fascinated with, so i hope these suffice:

The Pyro's Beta Head: While 8 of the 9 classes had their heads redone throughout development (to better show off Valve's new facial flex system), only the Pyro was left untouched, leaving them as the only class to still have their beta head.

Reference Posing Medics: In "Trailer 2", there are two Medics who are in their reference pose, during the first-person sequence of the Scout running through RED's base. While their role isn't clear, one likely theory is that they were meant to be camera positions for shots that were ultimately removed, in favour of the Scouts perspective, and Valve just forgot to remove or hide them. The second Medic even turns to look at the Scout as he runs by, maybe further proving their original purpose.

The Teaser Corkboard: While we don't have a clear idea as to what Valve had been planning with the "Teaser Corkboard", one likely theory is that it was created for the proposed update that would've included both Asteroid and Cactus Canyon, due to the few mentions of "Future", the blueprint of the rocket engine from Half Life 2 Episode 2, and Poopy Joe. Also worth noting, the two posters that were added with the corkboard share similar styles Asteroid and Cactus Canyon.

The Balls of Steel Taunt: Originally, The Love & War update was meant to include a lot more taunts than what ultimately shipped. One of the few to get scrapped is a taunt called "Balls of Steel", where the initiator would dare other players to kick them in the groin. While we don't have footage of this taunt, we do have voiceline files that reference the taunt's intention, as well as the name. The few files that remain were reused for other contexts, such as the Soldiers Conga taunt, where his "Ooh!" and "Ahh!" lines were originally his pain sounds for the taunt.

#ask #anon #im a little late to respond to this. so i hope you didnt starve anon #if you did. whoopsies. uh oh. oh well anyway #i didnt want this to be too long so i left it to just 4 trivia pieces #was gonna answer this earlier but my phone died of low battery. so instead i took the time to get images for all the bulletpoints #i'm still kinda sad thinking about Asteroid and Cactus Canyon #also ik the blue poster isnt as clear to Asteroid. but to me it lines up more with the maps original idea of being a moonbase #and said poster has the moon.... i know. grasping for straws. #also for those interested. the corkboard deciphers to ''be sure to drink your jarute/jarbate'' #its unclear if the mispelling is intentional or accidental. given how the spellbook pages translate weirdly #theres also the red herring on the corkboard itself. maybe as a way for valve to have a way out if development doesnt go as planned #thats just my interpretation of it atleast. the corkboard was added in december of 2013 iirc. #while Asteroid was teased in April. and later released as a beta map a few months later with Cactus Canyon #anyway thats all my brain could muster for trivia #i havent thought about this kind of stuff in a long time. so searching through the file cabinet in my brain is a little tough #i hope these were interesting. or were new information to people #thank you for your ask anon!

[sadlittleratboy]

Put down my cat late last night. She was old, around my age (24) and I've had her basically my whole life. I miss that rage beast already. She died comfortably in my arms at least. As long as I was holding her she seemed happy. I held her the entire 40 minute drive to the emergency vet and four 2 hours prior, and I held her during the hour and a half wait for it to all be over. She loved being held, and she even started feeling better enough to purr right before the end. I almost put a stop to it all and took her home because she was feeling a little better, but I knew it would happen again. It seemed like she was ready to go anyway. I feel like I left a big chunk of me in that clinic. When I get her back she'll be ashes. I've had to put down a pet before (just three years ago) and though I loved him I hadn't had him for half the time I had her. She cuddled me to sleep every night. She demanded my attention every second I was home. Even with my other two cats seemingly understanding that I need them more than ever right now it's not enough.

#worst part is that all of my friends are too busy to see me right now #my 2 closest friends are 1 sick and 2 in another state all the way across the country #and she was the one who sat on the phone before and after #she wanted to stay with me during but i needed to go alone #also i have work stuff that's already late so I'm trying to get that done too #fucking hell #this 3 day weekend was supposed to be a recharge for me #I'll be back on monday worse off somehow

[subsequentibis]

my power is unlimited. mouthful of coffee started going down the wrong pipe and i coughed it all back in the cup

#ignore me #between this and penis phone image i'm really testing the limits of how much people want to follow me today #in other news i'm thinking about enforcing a soft 18+ ruling #i'm not gonna comb thru my whole follower list blocking minors but i may block any new followers under 18 #especially because. sigh. people from a space i used to be in keep following my main bc i don't post in that space anymore #a lot of them are kids too and i just don't know how comfortable i am with that given the stuff i'm getting into lately #sorry junior i wanna post cannibalism on here so just. come back later ok

[queer-omens-in-the-archives]

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#saw a reply to a post that was like #websites only have apps to get more ad revenue out of you #and like. what i had to say about this wasn't the point of the original post so I'm making my own #but Reddit's mobile site used to be perfectly good and engaging #now it's changed layouts and stuff and it looks like the app. which we despise and hate and find unintuitive and user-unfriendly #which means what in practice? we're not using the app we hate it. we're just not on Reddit if we're not on the computer (old Reddit beloved #but it's not losing them ad revenue because we use an ad blocker so they probably don't give a shit either way #:/ #saltposting #actually ETA I think a lot of things we hate about the Internet under late stage capitalism is. why does everything have to change layouts #all the time #for no good reason #like if it works there's no need to fix it #but nooo endless growth blah blah blah maximise user engagement blah blah blah money etc #how about retain the users you already have by remaining what they liked about you in the first place. ever think about stability? #there is a reason why we have autoupdates turned off on our phone and there's like 5 apps that are FORBIDDEN to update #Tumblr because we don't like the overhauls to the notes section (the ones where they're coloured differently based on read/unread #instead of on people you follow/don't follow) #Discord because the new layout looks like absolute shit and having DMs separate from servers would be hell for our processing #and ability to respond to both #our red filter app because it's gonna stop filtering wallpaper to comply with Android regulations and that's a no from us #are the main three but I think there might be others I'm not thinking of #anyway. yeah #I wish for predictable apps that don't suddenly throw new layouts at you every time you've finally gotten used to the last change #I don't wanna be kept on my toes real life does enough of that. I want to have a stable anything in my life is this too much to ask for

[not-poignant]

Schedule change:

Hi folks! Looks like I'll be putting up Underline the Black about 8 hours early tomorrow (around 9-10am GMT+ 8 on Thursday).

This is because of family emergency reasons still, and visiting a 'could die at any moment' parent in the hospital tomorrow afternoon. There might be some schedule hiccups in the interim. To the best of my ability, I will put up chapters earlier, rather than later, and all of June has been written (and most of July), so we're good.

I know most of you will say 'don't worry about that' because you're all the best, but I really care about y'all and these stories and these characters, so I'll be doing my best :) Besides, sharing these stories helps me too, so y'know. <333

#housekeeping #underline the black #just going to set the alarms in my phone now so i wake up early enough #because frankly i have been getting up at like 11-12 in the morning lately #i'm taking care of myself #and i'm in touch with my therapist/s #i don't need to take a break (i might later though who knows) #just blease be patient with the schedule <33333

[lohstandfound]

Dumb deities au concept

Someone comes up with the brilliant idea to put Jake and/or Brooke in charge of some social media content, especially around this new exhibition

The problem?

Brooke has almost zero idea how to even work a phone properly and Jake doesn't understand social media

It becomes clear very quickly after watching Brooke and Jake attempt to make videos that maybe the 'youngest' out of them are not actually the best option

#lohst.txt #bmc #be more chill #jake dillinger #brooke lohst #deities au #awkward tiktoks are how Michael finds them #This is 100% inspired by tiktoks of museum people talking about their collections and preservation and restoration #Jake has had more important things to worry about than mastering social media #I like to think this takes place in the few weeks following Brooke's 'mysterious arrival' as Jake's partner/assistant/whatever lie they tell #Jake finally seems to be more sociable and the two of them could bounce off each other #So in theory it seems like a good idea #In reality not so much #But I think eventually Brooke would figure it out pretty quickly #Messing with Jake's phone while he works #As Brooke gets more comfortable being free she begins chatting to Jake's coworkers #(her coworkers too. She's just somehow become part of the team but no one complains. No one really knows what she does but no one complains) #I'm losing my train of thought #And I feel like these ideas are going to start becoming not coherent #And it's late so I'm going to stop now

[dontmeanyoudontmissit]

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#I know I'm likely catastrophizing and also that a day or two won't make a difference #But I noticed a lump a month or two ago and then dismissed it as not a problem #I cannot remember why I did this. Like did it go away? Did I forget? #Either way I noticed it again today. Spent twenty minutes trying to reach my doctor's office #Before I was fully losing my mind (it's terrible on a good day to keep hearing 'we have a patient portal!' and 'we do urgent care on week!' #Once a minute.) And had to hang up and roll into work 30 minutes late #Just tried to call them again and they are at lunch #Like!! I just want an appointment and for someone to tell me it's not cancer or do a biopsy if it is #Because the internet suggests it could very well be cancer!!!! #And I'm limited on what else it could be based on symptoms so like. I'd like to speak to a fucking doctor #So I can know for sure #Either way I'm starting to investigate a new practice because this one has reassigned me three times in 1 year #So I want to try to find a place that is more stable and doesn't have 20+ minute wait times to speak to a human #Update that I called again and had to hang up after 20 minutes waiting for someone to answer #If the bridge weren't an issue I would show up in person #Anyways I'm now hoping to get through at another place and switch PCPs because this is unacceptable #Even the 'are you sick and need to get in today' option had a 10+ minute wait #Why even have a phone

[running-in-the-dark]

me before: wow I'm not nervous about my appointment at all, cool!

me in the waiting room: hm I wonder why I can't stop shaking, and sweating like I'm running a marathon, and feeling like I'm about to die

#waiting rooms are the worst thing on earth #evil #I don't understand how people can read magazines or whatever in waiting rooms #I'm so on edge I can't do anything but stare at my phone #I'm not doing anything. just staring. to have something to do (looking at my homescreen (jake with his weird stone)) #I also have only slept 2 hours. and was 2 minutes late. and almost scraped the door of the car next to mine with my car door trying to get #out of the car because everyone just HAS to park like shit #so that is not helping #but fuuuck I am so shaky it's insane #ALSO don't have a watch because my smartwatch doesn't work (right) with my new phone and. I have no idea where I put my analog ones. #and I HATE not wearing a watch. it's actually terrifying. no idea why but. always been that way.

[filet-o-feelings]

I know a lot of my mutuals are crafty so I'm begging for craft ideas!

I've been struggling with focus for several months now (arguably several years, but it’s been particularly bad for the past 6 months or so) and every day I try to get myself back into writing and it just isn't happening, so I need another hobby to keep myself sane!

I used to be crafty and have a bunch of random craft supplies and a ton of inherited fabric I don't know what to do with. I have paint and diamond painting projects I barely started but spent hours on and they just hurt my eyes and I made almost no progress lol

So I'm looking for something uncomplicated and relatively inexpensive if anyone has suggestions! Other non-craft hobbies too!

I made cabin pressure related stuffed felt plushies for a fandom exchange a long time ago, and that was enjoyable, so maybe if someone has a request or suggestion for SC felt plushies? Or non SC, lol I'm just stuck right now so all suggestions are welcome!

#I'm feeling so stuck lately in everything #work is so slow and boring and I don't love what I do #but I have 10 years of experience and it's a good company and I have benefits and I'm not qualified for anything else #and then after work I'm so exhausted from barely doing anything that even though I want to do stuff I just play phone games or read #I want to get out and do stuff but there's nothing to do here and I don't know where to start #I feel like I'm losing my mind with the way I'm desperate to live life yet stuck just existing #oversharing in the tags as I do

[sociallyawkwardseal]

if i don't write soon i'm going to Implode into a million tiny pieces

#I haven't felt good At All lately and haven't been able to focus. Shaky thumbs up. #I kinda wrote like... 600w on Nothing Really In Particular last night but #I've been reading a lot this month. Novels for a series I like a lot. #But I haven't really been Writing bc my brain is just. Exhausted in-general. And it's making me exhausted physically. #I'm probably gonna try to write again tonight... I ended up writing from my phone last night. Augh. #Ainsley.txt #Reading is good for writing but I Need To Actually Get Words Down For My Own Sanity.

[broken-synchronicity]

Hello again. I have another funny thought about Kal.

In chapter six, when they are going through all the Phantoms, they come across a phantom that is so hideous (or resembles something like a spider you'd find in Australia headlines) that Kal just stops, stares into the distance with their arm outstretched with their palm facing up and with a completely blank face, says: "BRING FORTH THE HOLY HAND GRENADE".

And to their absolute dumbfoundedness, there, in their outstretched hand, plops a holy handgrenade.

Vil, Rook and Epel are wondering what in the seven just happened.

Kal blinks away the shock and does the instructions to activate it. Pull the pin and count to three. Then hauls it at the phantom. The sound of holy singing can be heard as it hurtles towards the phantom. Kal maybe even plays along and has their hands put together in mock prayer. When it explodes, it not only destroys the one phantom but all the other phantoms lurking in the hanger.

The Pomfiore trio is just standing there in confused, terrified shock.

Kal deserves to be powerful. As a treat.

THE HOLY HAND GRANADE-

I'M GOING TO PISS MYSELF-

THAT'S PERFECT THAT'S SO BEAUTIFUL I WISH I COULD DRAW IT

Kal indeed deserves to be powerful, as a treat, especially at that point XD no one would know what's going on but I can definitely say Epel would be cheering as soon as he got over the shock

#twst #twisted wonderland #nonnies getting curious! #silverstagspirit #I FUCKING LOVE MONTY PYTHON #sorry I'm so late replying work has been shit #I left my phone at work today too so I'm answering this on my laptop #which I haven't touched since January I think

[brakingpoint]

i'm sorry but everyone leaving hate comments on oscar piastri's instagram (when he's not even confirmed yet! not that it makes a difference) is fucking deranged. like what did you want him to do, turn down a shot at an f1 seat to spare another driver's feelings? it's not rupaul's best friend race my beloved

#i think i'm allowed to have opinions on this because i have been in an ALMOST IDENTICAL situation to daniel in the past #i GET being upset and whatever if you really feel the need to be privately resentful of oscar. not my style but i get it i suppose #but directing that at the man himself? throw your phone in a fucking ravine mate it's too late for you