#insane ramblings of a mad man <

[ghostsense]

ive been thinking about it too hard

#alien stage #alien stage hyuna #alien stage luka #to the person who thinks ivan would be a purple blood: i thnk it makes sense but i feel like ivan isnt like #he has control issues and also is good with the technology #so thats my hypothesis #however i think he could still be a rage player but void also fits bc he can just show up out of no where and till also doesnt pay attentio #to him #lol #ANYWAYS #insane ramblings of a mad man < #my art

[melit0n]

You're telling me the same guy who helped design What Remains of Edith Finch also designed Donut County. And Sonic Dreams Collection. And Neon White of all things.

#Ben Esposito give me some of your strength I beg of you #that's such an insane catalogue of games he's design and consulted #mad man he is #what remains of edith finch #sonic dreams collection #neon white #donut county #mel's rambles

[sonicrainicorn]

RTGame absolutely fascinates me

this man tortures video game characters for fun but if you lay a hand on this one specific virtual sheep he’ll kill you. kids used to call him a vampire. he watched paint dry with 10k people. he’s friends with a chess grandmaster. his audience calls him dad. he knows so many people he’s like one degree of separation from any given person on youtube. he has major little brother energy. he’s the mom friend but only in very specific circumstances. they used to call him the drift king back in college

I hope he never fucking changes

#i want to study him #his friendship with anna gets me the most i think #for all intents and purposes; she's a small celebrity #and he knows her somehow? #and he introduced her to the most pathetic (affectionate) man he knows #insane #let me know some rt facts that make you go crazy go stupid #rtgame #ramblings of a mad man

[sleestakkkk]

there is something so devastating to me about the post leading up to round six where ivan is reaching towards till’s neck while till is facing the opposite direction paired with how in round 6 ivan now has his hands wrapped around till’s neck and till is STILL not looking at him

#i just rewatched the video and cried again #so i’m in a mood #god THE NECK #GUYS PLEASE TELL ME YOU’RE THINKING ABOUT THE NECK‼️‼️‼️ #anyway something something all of the art centered around ivan looking at reaching towards or touching till’s neck #something something him pretending to chock till in round 6 something something #←the insane ramblings of a mad man #they have me in a choke hold (←haha…. (distant sobbing)) #alien stage #alien stage till #alien stage ivan #alien stage round 6 #round 6 #alnst

[pinkmirth]

callin’ all the isaac fuckers!!!

#i don’t hear enoogh noise for this man at all!!! #he’s literally soooo sexy . . . like he could be a model with those features #and aside from him being pretty i just like insane morally ill men >< so here we are! #it’ll be a short one this time (unlike the thousands of worded madness that went down with the richter fic . .) #just wanna write something short and nasty for my favorite forgemaster <3 (hector baby you didn’t hear that!) #— (wips!) #— (castlevania!) #꒰ rambles! #❥ isaac! #isaac castlevania #castlevania netflix #isaac forgemaster #castlevania isaac #my wips

[kind-of-a-shitty-wizard]

hiii i got a little insane over haskills characterization in the other elder scrolls games / material. teehee rambling abt these ^ quotes under the cut (long). also im not that serious abt any of this tbh im just glad haskill appeared in any other elder scrolls material at all LOL

OKAY. okay. about these quotes. idk why other TES media does this, but in these quotes from elder scrolls legends + the interview with haskill it seems like the writers are pushing to give the impression that haskill slightly resents or is even indifferent to his position / the isles / sheogorath ?? (unless haskill is being a little bit more flippant or hyperbolic than usual...?) which is characterization that is NOT what i got from playing oblivion at all skdskdjfn

like... when i played oblivion i thought it was very clear that haskill prefers to be in the isles, serving sheogorath, more than anywhere else. (<- i think this is actually the reason he's technically "mad" even tho he seems sane outwardly. if you enjoy being among madmen it probably means you're mad yourself ykwim). i think haskill does like the isles, his ass is just reserved abt it, like he is about everything... yknow just like jeeves, whose character he's been compared to lmao:)

i think unfortunately some writers take his annoyance with the player and his slight second thoughts about sheogorath's plan in oblivion, and mistakenly assume that he's just annoyed at his whole position. haskill does have his moments of exasperation, but the thing is it's usually only exasperation and it never verges into anger or bitterness or resentment like the top quotes seem to indicate. for example, haskill says this abt his idea of you mantling sheo / the clowns debacle:

^ This quote is a good reference point for haskill's view on sheo bc its pretty much the most critical-of-sheogorath quote from oblivion i can recall, and it tells us a lot of things. in this quote he expresses some exasperation about the clown idea (because he's a prissy bitch who doesn't want to get his outfit dirty /affectionate) and shows some apprehension about one of his lord's ideas (because it involves you, and haskill doesnt like you). but these 2 points he has beef with aren't really reflective of sheo himself but of other issues - ie he doesn't directly question sheogorath. and IN THE END Haskill defers to sheo's judgement because haskill trusts him and values sheo's ideas. in all of his oblivion dialogue, this is the most critical toward sheogorath he gets, and he never outright insults or shows resentment toward him or the isles like in the above quotes bc his loyalty to sheogorath eclipses it

on the contrary (and i dont know why the writers for non-oblivion elder scrolls content dont seem to see this??), theres so much evidence that haskill actually does, you know,,, enjoy being in the isles. here are just some snippets i can think of:

"the isles are hardly a place for anyone, really" <- i BEG to differ, Haskill likes it here, he likes listening to prisoners being tortured in xedillian, he likes wearing his ridiculous frilly high collar outfit emblematic of the fashions of the isles, he doesn't care about morality and it suits him just fine that it doesn't matter here!! (the end quote might be him being a little facetious about relmyna but to be honest i wouldn't be surprised if he thought decency and morality WERE provincial notions because he certainly has no problem killing people lmao). and again, to enjoy doing these things / being around madmen probably says something abt haskill being mad himself. lol

not to mention he likes a bit of joking around. which i imagine sheo does a whole lot. when YOU rib him a little he says this:

his derision in the first bit i think indicates, "i cant believe you would joke around at a time like this," and the upturning of the "very good" i think indicates, "it was a good joke / maybe they could mantle sheo after all". he's not all dour - he appreciates a good joke, especially from (someone who's about to become) his Lord!!

and going a little deeper into haskill actually liking the isles... haskill clearly holds what sheogorath and the isles represent (chaos, free will, individuality) very highly. a good example of this is when you ask him about dyus, and he gives this snarky reply:

^ he says this with such VITRIOL its so funny :p and the amount of disdain in this line indicates (to me) a real conviction in his belief in the free will, chaos etc that sheogorath represents.

this is why i dont think this quote makes sense. "i cant remember why i put up with [sheogorath]" <- haskill wouldnt say this bc he understands fully why he puts up w sheogorath, and his own convictions in sheo that lead him to keep doing it, and even if this quote is him being hyperbolic, i dont think he'd joke about his faith in sheogorath like that because, yk, one of his characteristics is that he's extremely loyal, and moreover he never said anything to this effect in oblivion sdkjskdjs

him having a strong belief in what sheogorath / the isles represent is also evidenced by the language haskill uses when talking about sheo. whenever haskill mentions him, there is an element of poetry and respect to his words that shows that haskill thinks about him highly at the very least:

^ haskill constantly stresses sheogorath's intrinsic unknowableness and power and unique wisdom in a way that feels very respectful. saying "to attempt to fathom [sheogorath's will] is a foolish endeavor" shows that he knows there are unexplainable aspects to sheogorath that he takes note of, respects, and knowingly keeps his distance from... he gets sheogorath and reveres him (at least more than most others or the HoK). in these quotes especially, it feels a bit like hes trying to illustrate how impressive sheogorath is to the HoK, hyping up his boyfriend if you would. who said that. and combined with this respect is (i believe!!!!) a deep care. he is invested in the isles and sheo and wants to help them out of more than just duty. he gets fearful and even loses his composure at some points in the story when sheo/the isles are threatened which i think indicates that he deeply cares for them both!!:

i think this is a care that, combined with the respect he has for sheo, makes it really unlikely for him to get more than exasperated with his behavior and verge into resentfulness. i dont think anyone truly understands sheogorath, not even haskill, but haskill respects sheo as a god, and also gets him in a more familiar/personal way i think - like the way that a cat owner loves their cat but gets exasperated with it when it gets its head stuck in a tissue box. he doesn't angry or anything because he understands that it's the cat's nature to get stuck in the tissue box / sheo's nature to be wild and unpredictable and messy. (the difference being that sheogorath is an all-powerful god cat..... do u see my vision???)

anyway this got crazy long JHDSHFSD... to finish i wanted to look at this extra bit of characterization i found that was wild to me:

^ like. i truly dont get where they got THIS characterization LMAO sheo constantly calls haskill faithful and smart and knowledgeable in oblivion, he practically begs you to summon haskill for help, hyping up his boyfriend so to speak, they care for each other your honor so of COURSE sheo trusts haskill to do his job. what are the legends writers doing in there!!

ANYWAY dear god this got long im going to bed <3

#rambles into the void #haskill #tes #this is all lighthearted by the way just my interpretation of the dialogue #if anyone else has thoughts abt this then be my guest to disagree <3 love to talk abt him #and honestly im just glad he appeared in legends at all..... like that card art??? im still bonkers about his card art #does this all make any sense!! lmao #i just think its more interesting if haskill is a snarky person but only to people he doesn't like. which is the case (i think) in oblivion #i think these lines are a l m o s t there but misdirect his snarkiness... that mans loyal as hell i dont think hed talk like that... #i mean why would he stick around sheo if he didnt at least respect him and enjoy the silly things he does. this man voluntarily puts #on a bright red foot-tall collar every day do you think he wouldnt appreciate a little silliness!! SKDJSD #and it fits with why he'd be in the isles even if he doesnt look mad #the first thing i thought when i realized he was outwardly 'sane' was 'oh but he likes being around 'mad' people therefore insane'... ykwim #i cant believe how well developed he is actually. haskill my beloved. i love your 400+ lines of dialogue haskill

[gonersgoners]

remember when i said over a year ago that vegapunk's arc would start revealing even more of sanji's power and potential and how hard that was worrying me? yeah

#i'm clearly talking to myself here since this blog is basically a corner of my brain #but last chapter having sanji deflect a light beam and both kizaru and franky reacting the way they did #and zoro commenting in wano you cannot possibly block a laser... lmao....lmao! #ooooh man i just. feel oda is cooking something for sanji. and since there was a parallel with the wings of the pirate king #in recent chapters (where oda typically shows both sanji and zoro fighting and not just one of them) #just... man. man! man. lol #i know i can't let myself go and talk about all things going through my mind anymore because of. lol guilt and fear of being annoying #but god. that moment stirred something in me. like you're resurrecting a fucking corpse #so i am both scared and excited about next chapters and what this means for sanji #i was saying from DAY ONE of this arc being centered about vegapunk that it would eventually #touch on sanji and this is it. this is happening #if this for some reason isn't it. and oda will for some reason just let this slide or die in the shadows? i won't understand it #because of JUDGE and VEGAPUNK and QUEEN being partners and being linked to vegapunk! like come on. the connection is there #and this laser deflecting thing seems to finally touch on this red thread i've been holding with both my fingers like an insane person #so yeah. lol. listening to a video right now about it and finally. FINALLY i see SOMEONE ELSE point out that #not mentioning judge still is giga weird. so here's hoping. here's hoping #also lol it was very fun to be on reddit and look at so many people being MAD that sanji managed to do that. and that we got a little bit o #mr prince vibes. LMAO STAY MAD. my boy is being treated good right now and i can't wait for oda to destroy me #(again) lol #GG rambles

[volfoss]

not sorry to be getting into this but its wild to me how different the representation in the sandman vs the doom patrol is handled

#twist rambles #yes im back on my i hope gaiman blows up grind. but if u compare coagula and wanda its INSANE with trans rep. esp when u realize the doom #patrol author for those issues was an irl trans activist. and well. gaiman sure did name his trans woman character wanda mann. so. lol. #transmisogyny #<- jic. but it makes me so mad i hope that man blows up every day of my life. like these are from the SAME TIME PERIOD. a year apart for #their intro dates lmao. but yk so many ppl on this site are like omg <3 hiii mr gaiman youre soooo good for the gays!!! <- i hate this man #editing to add that i do NOT think doom patrol is perfect but its handled with more respect imo. esp compared to well. how focused on+ #bioessentialism that gaiman is in his writing lmao!!

[memorys-skyscraper]

anyone else remember when Re:CoM was finally getting released in NA and people were SO mad that they didnt redo the lip sync to match the dub

kh fans were awful spoiled back in the day

#rambles #'wahh my full-blown 3d remake of a gba game released 4 years after the original doesnt have complete lip sync for english!!!' #i get that people were mad bc the other PS2 games had it but holy moly what an insane amount of work to just take for granted #kh really had us spoiled with facial animations in general #SO many cutscenes had super expressive facial animation and exact lip sync for every language even in kh1 #and in 2002 that amount of high quality facial animation was *exceedingly* rare #they were not mocapping that shit! studios were not mocapping faces to get accurate lip sync in 2002 #that shit was done by hand for every language #man. now i wanna just start boomer posting about old kh drama from the deviantart/gamefaqs days #the soriku vs sokai flame wars. litigating whether xion is a mary sue. the desperate attempts to explain why axel was somehow riku's nobody #oh the good ol days

[welcometogrouchland]

I will feel so tired that it's like my atoms are coming undone and I'm being made unreal...and then I will have a little chocolate treat and for 15 minutes I am whole and present again. Then the horrors

#ramblings of a lunatic #i remember feeling like this at the peak of my burnout and fatigue before #(also the same burnout and fatigue that took my interests and creativity and ground them into dust) #so I've concluded that i will just try and make it through the next two days as best i can (I GET FANCY RESTAURANT FOOD ON WEDNESDAY) #and then I'll just try to let my mental and physical health recuperate while finding excuses to hang w/ friends #cause that'll stave off thr madness of isolation #i wanna watch my shows and movies too and I'll finally be able to w/o guilt after the last exam :cries: #anyway. if you've noticed an uptick in me just sayin shit recently (in a way that may or may not be cause for concern) #it's bc I'm so close to getting out of the mines that having to wait any longer is driving me clinically insane #i wanna downplay the problem bc it's truly not that big a deal in some ways #but then i remembered that this is a) the longest I've gone w/o seeing my pals in like. nearly a month #and I've been at home doing the same stuff everyday for nearly a month too #and also IT'S THE FINAL EXAM I'M EVER GONNA DO BEFORE COLLEGE. IT'S A BIG DEAL MAN #so actually. yes I'm a bit of a drama queen but my slice of life problems have a place for mediation and bemoaning #but it's fine. bc we're gonna kill it #I'm gonna do sooooooo good on this test (<- manifesting) #it's. a little high pressure bc the last time i did a test for this subject (that I'm generally very good at) i majorly beefed it #but I've learned since then and I'm hoping. praying. also working hard but mostly hoping and praying #anyway. I gotta sleep soon bc i got so little sleep last night bc of the heat that i almost started crying at breakfast #LET'S GO LESBIANS (the lesbians are me. it's just me talking into a hall of mirrors)

[sm01-sis]

I just think Pinkie Pie could win against Goku. No I will not elaborate.

#mlp fim #pinkie pie #honestly have you seen her? #pulling party cannons out of no where? #she is all the types of ponies combined #insane ramblings of a mad man at 12am

[valleyyofthemoonnn]

can i just say i actually watched a james somerton video a while ago without even realizing and i literally had to click off because i found it so genuinely annoying and i almost never do that with videos it was the killing stalking video. he had really bad takes about it

#it took me a while but i recognized his voice in hbomb’s video #it is just so . . . i cannot understand how people sit through hours of that sorry #literally so monotone its just so obvious he has no real interest in what hes talking about Especially in his media analysis videos #feel bad for all the genuinely fantastic pieces of writing he ripped off by just reading it in an annoying ass voice #rambles of a mad man #just absolutely absurd how people can copy paste other peoples entire body of work word for word with no shame #i feel insanely guilty for copying One single sentence even if i cite the source for a college essay 😭

[fexicoded]

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#I feel like I’m getting to the stage of grief where thinking about angus’s death doesn’t hurt quite as much #and it does make me a bit mad and a tad scared #but also… I never knew him in real life but yet he was a constant ‘fixture’ in my life #and ill feel pain about his death and random things about him but it doesn’t hurt as much and idk… it hurts #I want to continue to be sad about his death but I know it’s fruitful to continue to do so due to the parasocial relationship issues #like today I kinda laughed reminiscing about the Sunday spottings and watching all them waiting to see if he’d show up and when he would #we’d all be like ohh that’s insane he’s famous enough to be part of the deuxmoi Sunday spottings #or the time my speculation about him and dru made for a blind about him #man… it’s still so hard to believe it’s been over a fucking month since he left earth #and yet i still vividly remember everything about that day and how that date will forever mare my future feelings #wish he was still here #anyways #just thought I’d update my grieving process incase others needed something or felt the same way and as a way to just give words to stuff #and like block me if you hate me now with my bs ramblings

[bandtrees]

(through clenched teeth, trying to swallow back “blorbo was violently misinterpreted”-induced rage) the fact that one story can essentially become a million different stories to a million different people is so beautiful, the fact that one character can be a million different characters to a million different people is so wonderful, it’s genuinely delightful to see how one character or one scene can mean so many different things to so many people, thus making fandoms like one massive book club as no two fans’ interpretation of a work will be the exact same

jokes and irony aside, i think it really really is cool to think that my favorite character in the whole work is just a footnote plot device to some people, and characters i hardly think much of are the whole reason for experiencing the media to other people. my favorite arc was a complete flop to some people, while some scenes i hardly remember are someone else’s favorites that they go back to read over and over.

as easy as it is to get hung up on seeing things i like misinterpreted, it kind of quells that anger to think just how cool it is that i’m not engaging with it in the Objectively Perfect way either, that we’re all just taking stories and our own life experiences and preferences sorta subconsciously shape them into the kinds of stories we want.

there’s never really one Perfect Fan™️ or True Interpretation™️ of a work, and i just find that… cool to think about, i guess!

#babbles #surprisingly the character in that second paragraph i was vaguing was not dominus. it was erika #two characters with very little in common other than ‘man people are weird about this character huh. often in a racist way for some reason?’ #i am very very very picky and opinionated about fandom but i think iv been too much of a hater lately #i feel this a lot with umineko - a story that’s already affected me greatly #and it’s easy for me to get mad when my favorite characters get misunderstood or when plots i like get brushed over by fans #but on a lighter note i think it is cool to think everyone is reading their own versions of these stories #im sure the people i roll my eyes at for making unfunny erika simp jokes have parts of this vn - #- that affected them so greatly that i rarely consider on deeper levels either. equivalent exchange #thinking about it that way just keeps me from going insane ig. He Is Awed By The Diversity Of The Human Experience #And The Many Different Things People Can Get Out Of The Same Story #this has been another: incoherent rambly 6 am text post #please do not blow up like my ace one.

[gorgynei]

so if theres a city on the moon its gotta be the people that are trapped there right right UNLESS the gods up there had the ability to create mortals and thats how theres people up there or maybe the people were brought there i mean the gray assassins have gotta be those people right like how could they not be why is there a fucking CITY but could it be cognouza but ruidus was around way before cognouza but but is it a similiar concept though like people looping in on themselves forever like 2 gods in an endless feedback loop also what the fuck is up with the bloody storms are we ever gonna get that addressed a city a FUCKING CITY on the moon under a cage but was the city there before the cage was ruidus always a cage or was another city put there and turned into ruidus im assuming thats not true because there wasnt that many cities during the founding so its gotta be that people were born there and created a civilization but if thats true how the FUCK is otohan out and about like this why is she not stuck up there is the latticework like the divine gate does it only block gods but rughruhfg that seems so risky why not just put them in their own prison planes and and

#i feel fucking insane i feel like a mad man #cr spoilers #ramblings

[theministersdoom]

He Would Not Fucking Like That: a lament

#ramblings #I’m not even mad anymore I’m just sad #that man would not like tswift y’all’re insane