#in Adulthood. obviously.

[daydadahlias]

my 1st ff was harry styles x oc except i didn’t know who harry styles or a ff was i just thought it was a regular story

the first time i read a ff and was actually aware of it it was a dramione one which is funny bc its one of my least fav ship today lmao

i wish i lived in a world where harry styles was fictional

#dramione is hOrrible #what terrible taste past you had #i say that. when she slapped him >> #i could see them as hate sex fwb #in Adulthood. obviously. #am i legally allowed to say this abt harry styles will someone get mad at me #pigeon #ziya

[sojutrait]

BABY TIME (hopefully). abby and dai lu decided theyre ready to try ivf and thankfully dai lu happened to have a brother whos young dumb and full of cThe Reproductive Fluid Needed To Create A Fetus

#ts4 #s #*soju save #i really am speedrunning this mostly bc dai lu is like. halfway through her young adulthood and i dont need her being an elder when their - #- oldest child gets to hs #also. obviously abby is gonna be carrying the baby not dai lu #u would think i wouldnt need to make this clear but i had anons ask me if dante was dating his grandma bc she had the same name as his gf #so. i dont trust tumblrs media literacy #*abigail gen

[jakeperalta]

if tumblr does shut down they need to give me option to download my entire blog like a book

#i mean i daren't think the file size that would be lmao but i am being so serious #this blog has literally documented the last 11 years of my life! my entire teenagehood and adulthood so far! #i have text posts about falling for my now boyfriend and yearly birthday wishes and the progression of my edits from the very start of them #i've kept diaries on and off throughout this time but i have been more consistent in being on here #both in posting about my life and in the stuff i was interested in and reblogging at the time #i would obviously be very sad to lose the community and platform etc but i would also be so sad to lose my blog specificallg #talking

[eijiroukiriot]

a flavor of krbk that i always love is them just kinda clicking with each other and fitting together in their own special way in the non-romantic moments!! especially with the undertone of "whatever it is krbk has going on, their friends have resigned themselves to the fact that they'll probably never understand it." it's been a sec since i've done a translation but here's a comic that embodies that really, really well - the title is "mountains, krbk, and weeds" !

~IN THE MOUNTAINS!~

kirishima: ohhhh, bakugou!! there's some mountain flowers or something blooming over here! you think they're rare ones?

bakugou: ...ah, those are weeds

k (tiny): oh

k: bakugou, what's this one?

b: hah?? ah, that weed is sort of rare

k: what about these?

b: huh? that's an endangered weed, on the red list

k: ...

b: what

k, internal: what even is a weed...?

b: oi, kirishima

k (spaced out): yea?

b: this is a special weed that only grows around this mountain

k: .... (sfx: KYUN)

k: man, you're kind of a weirdo, aren't you (but my heart got all squeezy over it...)

b: HAH?? the hell do you think you're saying? you wanna go??

#krbk #translation #they're just so casual and peaceful around each other for most of it #obviously there's always been the beauty of 'bkg is actually comfortable around kirishima' #but i feel like more and more lately i find myself craving this krbk where they're relaxed around each other #i love the sappy romance but i reeeeeally love that this is just them identifying mountain weeds #and they still click together as well as ever. and kirishima still gets heart squeezes over bkg #as they should be #i'm assuming it'll be around morning time for most people seeing this so good morning!! #it's been way too long since i've posted here but it's also been a crazy crazy year #adulthood and stuff #i hope you're doing well and i hope your krbk dreams have been plentiful lately

[videoviolence]

i know its not like the disability olympics or whatever but as someone who was unable to function unless I was homeschooled my entire life because one attempted semester of highschool made me genuinely psychotic & unable to function in a group, its interesting how autism as a disorder has just been watered down to this commodified "consumerist" identity where people have deluded themselves into thinking theres something Wrong with them if literally all they do is have passionate interests but oh make sure you dont do anything Actually weird cuz thats "jobless / loser / etc" behavior . that + th whole sweep of th word "neurodivergent" which is a catch-all that means nothing in th grand scheme of things .

#hudson.txt #idfk man like ik we all mask to certain degrees and im obviously faring mentally and socially . way better #then i ever did as a teenager / early adulthood #bcuz I actually try not to get trapped in my own misery all th time like I used to for years #but we have to like Face th reality that some of you guys have zero sympathy for genuinely “disabled” autistics #who are potentially / were at one point “dangerous” to themselves or others or cant do basic tasks or talk to themselves etc etc #not to mention having autism alongside other schizospec / psychotic mental health shit going on #you just like being in a group of people who share similar interests thats literally normal everyone in HS did that #talk to me when u actually were isolated cuz everyone thought you were too weird / poor / unkempt / dangerous to be around

[peridotite]

im still reeling from gohan outright stating that he doesn't like fighting. everything he's been through since he was 4 years old up to adulthood. and he doesn't like fighting. every exhausting training he's had, every battle he's ever fought, every victory or defeat, every villain he's ever had to face for the sake of the world. and he doesn't like fighting. he's just a kid who wants to make the people he loves proud

#ok like obviously gohan hits different fpr me bc he's been my fave since i was a tiny child but like. he's just so different from the rest #goku and krillin and the others wanted to be fighters. saiyans want to fight. piccolo likes it too he spends his free time getting stronger #goten and trunks want to fight. even future trunks was eager to follow in gohan's footsteps and likes training #but gohan was just a kid violently thrust into world defining battle after world defining battle #he never wanted to be a fighter #its just the reality he was born into #he constantly states that ''im the son of goku!'' so he Has to do this he Has to defeat them but he just wants to be a researcher!! #he's a little kid with no friends his age except an also traumatized alien child #bc he spent his entire childhood either fighting for his life or training til his bones broke or locked in his room studying advanced shit #his best friend is his mentor/surrogate dad who kidnapped him and beat him up and abandoned him in the wild for 6 months when he was FOUR #(ily piccolo) #anyway. i love gohan im glad he lives a happy life in his adulthood (ignoring whatever the hell happens in dbs and dbs super hero) #my posts #dbz #gohan

[kennabeth]

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#like look obviously the narrative that ~wah no one loves fitz~ is stupid he is so very very loved by so many people #but hes taught himself that if theres a part of him others dont like or if someone can use him #then their love for him might as well not exist #and thats how most people love. it's not wrong. #he just thinks it is because hes used to being treated as an item by everyone who doesnt love him unconditionally #up to his adulthood the only person who did ever seem to love him unconditionally was patience #so he made sure to take away from her the opportunity to see something in him she'd find repulsive #--like the wit--because she didnt have the chance to fully know him #which sucks because patience is the best person in the whole series #if he'd like her know him she'd love him all the same #anyway where im going with this is after the accidental... skill coupling?? #and understanding for sure and for real there is no part of him that beloved does not know and does not love anyway #that despite his love of the world in general beloved is only continuing to use him as his catalyst because it's the only way fitz lives #(the fool weeping with makeup running down his face saying he doesnt want to be a prophet he wants this to end #but he cannot watch fitz die again had ME weeping) #ANYWAY that all scared fitz shitless #'it's too much. no one can give that much' is just. devastating to me for both of them #fitz because he still cannot see himself as worthy of being loved and not used #and beloved because all he does is get shit on for what fitz demands of him #I'm so tired #and fitz has yet to notice it was the fool making sure he had food/water/fire in the tower even when they were fighting #because unconditional is unconditional. not liking at that moment is not not loving #i hate it here #also fitz violently breaking the skill connection because 'he would know my secret. he would see my deception' is absolutely crazy #repression go brr #says kenna #kenna reads rote #ALSO when the coterie was healing him and he was begging beloved through skill to not look at his heart or his mind #what the hell!! #one flesh one end bitch!!

[aeide-thea]

the problem for me with both witcher s3 and wot s2—well, okay, one of a few problems, but the one i'm singling out at the moment—is that i've just reached a point with SFF where i've largely used up what little patience i ever possessed for the 'young trainee gets frustrated that they're not progressing faster and gets reckless' trope?

like it's not that it's not a plausible way for someone to behave, it totally is! but. i don't know. i need a, like, decade-long break where i just get stories starring middle-aged people who have, probably painfully, learned some damn patience and slow perseverance…

#tvblogging #also honestly #bookblogging #anyway i grudgingly did a google bc it's good to take my own medicine wrt researching at least a little before you hit post #so i might try some of the things that came up #but like. idk. really at some level i just want‚ idk‚ someone to option a tarma and kethry show or sth #Competent Cheerfully Jaded Mercs Have SFF Adventures #…is this my cue to revisit ancient misty lackey in 2023. possibly. god. #but like. i just want more coherent writing and less petulant teens #wot is better than witcher and also has moiraine but like. we're spending too much time with the babs. i want my adult qpr back :( #also obviously all of this is Not Unrelated 2 my personal situation where i've like. aged out of really relating to Youth #but remain pretty deeply alienated by most (cishet‚ reproductive‚ *productive* for that matter) visions of adulthood #so it's like. where are the narratives abt ppl who are out of sync with the expected narratives #but also bc i'm having such a bitch of a time with life i'm very hard to please bc crankiness comes much more easily than pleasure #anyway. unfortunately i got the gnothi seauton bit down but in itself that gets you precisely nowhere #just like. deep in the omphaloskeptic hole. emphasis on skeptic

[themalhambird]

Maaaay be about to write H.I.V.Efic again in the near future.

Idk I just have a tasty image of teenage Natalya waiting for Nero to get back from a mission she wasn't invited on, learning he came back in the night and didn't IMMEDEATLEY COME AND SEE HER HOW DARE and breaking into his room to go bother him because he doesn't answer when she knocks except when she gets in he's passed out asleep on top of the bed having got as far into undressing as shoes and jacket off, cravat untied, and left sock...missing? And she just has this moment of oooooh adopted* dadboss is in fact human and does things like sleep and hang on is that a BULLET HOLE IN YOUR WAISTCOAT?

#*obviously THEY dont know that the adoptive part is. not quite accurate #anyway mostly I like dealing with the fact that a) Nero pushes himself incredibly hard and b) Nero is capable of villaining without Raven #but also I think there must have been a moment where closer to adulthood Natalya was weighing up the possibility of striking out on her own #acting as idk an independent subcontracter #and decided NOPE actually im definatley sticking with bossdad

[welcometogrouchland]

Darius 🤝 Willow

Beefing with the blights in complex, somewhat homoerotic ways

#ramblings of a lunatic #the owl house #willow park #darius deamonne #this has always been my vision of their dynamic/how they parallel each other #IF we are to believe the dana gallery nucleus art that positions them as parallels #it's like. if darius was confident and sunny and bright as a teen but had problems showing vulnerability #possibly afraid of losing status/respect #then that lack of vulnerability followed him into adulthood making him the aloof person we know today cause he never had his ftf breakdown #BUT ALSO. i think abt this too. blights are just like oops! I'm gonns give this person massive abandonment issues! #this will make me feel bad too!! i will suffer because of this but i don't know other ways to live!!! #(at least. that's how i envision the darius/alador breakup i know it's very vague in canon) #(but like. compare how happy they were as kids to how miserable they can both be as adults. they are worse off for this) #i think it'd be neat if willow was the person who nudged darius back towards alador #bc she knows what it's like being hung up on someone you're convinced hates you. it sucks!! #and she's so so forgiving as long as she feels like the person she's forgiving is actually going to put in effort to change #(hence how after Amity follows through on her promise from understanding willow to not let Boscha bully willow anymore- #-IN wing it like witches THEN we see amity get to be a part of the best friend montage. she followed through and that proves she's trying) #(and then obviously hunter stuck his neck out for them with nothing to gain after her hurt them and that showed her that he can learn- #-and change for the better and hence she gave him that opening if he wanted it) #(it's still his responsibility to be a good friend but she'll try if he will. willows forgiving but she's not a doormat) #(and i feel like she wants to know the ppl in her life see her as someone worth improving for bc of her self worth issues) #ANYWAY that was a long winded way of saying she'd have a valuable perspective to lend to darius who seems to be similar to her in many ways #anyway what if i cried abt them

[everybodyknows-everybodydies]

in trying to figure out how to process/think about elven aging I did come down on the side of childhood/adolescence being equivalent to humans' in terms of length and development, which means that in perspective elves likely consider physical childhood an almost negligible period of time. (the realization that you are a quarter of a century old is much different when that's a quarter of your lifespan than it is when it's a tenth or less of your lifespan!) however I would love to see someone more mathematically-inclined with a take on aging that works more telescopically (reverse telescopically?), wherein life stages all around are drawn out to scale... ex: an elf child might be chronologically twenty years old but physically and mentally equivalent to, like, a ten-year-old human... idk I just think it could be really interesting to see. human now fifty years old established in their career no longer really peers with the fifty-year-old elf who went to school with them because the elf is still basically a teenager.

#Mouse talks! #I think young adulthood/middle age/seniority obviously must be drawn out correspondingly #do not misinterpret I do NOT want a Chibs 'this is a 900 year old eight-year-old!' situation. please. #just thinking about what it would mean to have the stages of life where you've never known independence be elongated also... #like. imagine. elf child raised by humans. their childhood could be their parents' entire lives #decided against this however entirely because I have Vakka-Ei as middle-aged already when she gets Hallie and have also established #that she's very much not dead by the time Hallie is on the cusp of adulthood bdjgjdkg so NORMAL CHILDHOOD LENGTH I REQUIRE #ANYWAY brain would not let me sleep until I expressed these thoughts! chucking them out here so I can go embrace unconsciousness!! #if there's a typo it's because I already took my glasses off and can't be bothered to put them back on sorry we're not addressing it

[agnesandhilda]

*voice of someone who watched revolutionary girl utena at thirteen years old and has never been the same since* blue lock is like if ohtori replaced duels with sports games and also if the student council were supposed to be the good guys

#bolo liveblogs #SORRY it's just like. surreal closed location centered around ideas of power and growing up #specifically growing into the right kind of man #all these teenagers hate each other over this petty bullshit but it feels life and death to them and there's this shadowy man who represent #the pinnacle of “proper” male adulthood running everything behind the scenes #like blue lock is so obviously (to me anyway) this sinister isolating place but all these kids keep coming back to it bc they're told it'll #give them power 😭 #his ass is NOT breaking out of hegemonic structures of power #also kaiser as a long-haired prettyboy antagonist with a rose motif is violently touga coded so #<- insane

[prettyboysdontlookatexplosions]

this does also feel related to my secret belief that i think having an excessively happy childhood is unhealthy in the long run

#the thing about having a fucked up childhood is #literally not once as an adult have i ever missed childhood or looked back on it with any wistfulness or longing #even when it sucked real bad adulthood has always been very obviously superior to childhood for me on every level #my childhood didn’t give me emotional stability or a healthy psychological foundation. but it did give me that. #and sometimes when other adults talk about childhood i’m like. you know what. this was a rare and precious gift to receive

[floralcyanide]

part of my healing journey is realizing I’m going to annoy people with my energy and not mean to, and there’s nothing I can really do about it ((:

#making friends is so hard #because I’m obviously autistic #and people think I’m slow/dumb/annoying #and have all my life #just never told me to my face #until adulthood lol #so yeah #now I think I’m like that 24/7 #especially when around new people #sigh #floralcyanide speaks #rants