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growingrootsinco · 4 years

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So much shit has been going on that I havent talked about. The valley had another spike in COVID cases a few weeks ago. Several county employees got it; some that I personally work very close with. Active cases are at 9 but total cases are at 58 in the county. We are only a county of 8000 and extremely spread out. I believe the tourism here has contributed to the last few outbreaks. People are fleeing the cities to escape it and bringing it instead. We are one of the few counties that didnt shut it down because of the backlash Gunnison received. The upcoming election is changing the area. There is alot more division here that wasnt here before. I think this newly Blue state is about to turn Red again. This state is one of a kind. I have seen more unity here in 2 years than I did in my entire life in Texas. Now that unity is fading.

Another accomplishment was achieved after alot of stressful bullshit and almost a court battle. For once in my life I feel like I won. We are now officially first time home owners. Jan. of 2019 I found this house in Romeo for rent. 2 months in I found out we were renting someone elses house! I contacted the owner, prepared to move. Instead she sold it to us, rent to own. 20 months later its paid in full. She gave us an issue getting title so I filed suit. Once she was served by Alamosa County she handed it over. FINALLY! Now Im working on a loan for some property here in town even though I prefer to get out of here. Its just so expensive to develope vacant land here. Plus, in town I escape several permit requirements. The land I am looking at is already set up for a mobile home and has another run down house on it so we plan to rebuild it. This town really isnt safe. Alot of crime and no police. The county sherrifs will come in if called but its low priority because we are supposed to have our own. Meth and coccaine have taken over on this side of town. I cant stand being home alone and cant leave the door open to enjoy the wind without finding some crackhead standing on my porch.

This extended family grew by 2. J's brother moved up here after he got out of prison. Im worried about him being here but some friends of ours have helped. My brother in law is an ex addict. He detoxed the moment we got him here and I hope he stays clean. Our friends have alot of property here and are putting him up in a camper on the property to keep an eye on it. It keeps him off my couch all the time and keeps him from getting into trouble. Now Roger is joining the pack. Hes a friend of mine from Canyon Lake that came in over the summer with his sister. After a turn of events for them, its left him unsure of where hes going next. I can get him a place in housing because he gets SS. Plus if i get this loan, we will have 2 houses and things wont be so cramped. Of course Cody is still here. Forever a Batchelor since his divorce. Hes a great guy, just not in a hurry for marriage number 3.

Work is getting better and better despite the financial distress the county is in. I have considered finding a new job but it was so difficult getting on with them to begin with. With COVID now its even harder to find a job. I bounce between offices but my payroll comes from road and bridge which will save me if layoffs are needed in the future. I love my job even though Im underpaid.

Life has really thrown me some curveballs in the last 2 years but I cant say Im unhappy about it. They are all leading me down a path I could never have imagined.

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clockworkmoose · 5 years

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mmmmnnnnnyh personal work related fuckery

I function best when I can make repetitive schedules or plan for events far in advance. I’ve got agendas and notebooks and calendars and agendas and notebooks... to the point where if something is sprung on me and I’m not given enough time to properly draft a resolution to modify the plans, take it to the council, put the motion to a vote...

my snap response is to get really testy and panicky and I default to this thirty second breakdown of COOL! GREAT! WHY DON’T WE JUST CANCEL ALL THE PLANS!!! WIPE THE BOARD CLEAN! NOBODY NEEDS TO KNOW WHAT’S HAPPENING! TIME IS A CONSTRUCT AND THE FUTURE IS CHAOS! I’M THRIVING!!!!!!! before I can wrestle myself back to “no, we can do this now, this other thing can be moved to tomorrow, it’s no problem, just pencil it in.”

And I know I do this and that it really stresses me out so I really try my best to, first, plan things out properly in advance so I know what’s upcoming and it’s not a surprise, and then, second, also be communicative with people about what events and plans might get tossed at me so that it’s not a total surprise when it’s tossed at me.

So I’m sitting here today, trying to make the schedule for the second half of March for my two employees and myself.

One of my employees has a full time (30+ hours) job, and is a part time student. Last semester, she worked Monday-Wednesday-Friday evenings after her classes, and then Saturdays (10 hours a week). And she liked this schedule, so for an entire semester the schedule was consistent for her, me, and my other part time employee.

This semester, in early January, she informed me she was going to have a late class on Tuesday and Thursday, and requests Wednesdays off. So the first two weeks of January pass with her working Monday-Friday-Saturday (8 hours), and then she comes to me and says she’d like her Saturdays off so she has a day for homework, and can she work Tuesday or Thursday instead of Monday and Friday so she has time for extracurriculars at school?

But here’s the thing. She is in class until 7:45, we close at 9 on Tuesday-Thursday. After driving, she would have a 1 hour shift, and I would have 10 hours. And with the way she arrives to her shift and then immediately launches into stories and she does not shut up even if you rudely tell her you need her to be quiet you’re literally on the phone with a customer and can’t listen to her jabbering on about writing a screenplay (that is already so good hollywood’s going to be salivating to turn it into a blockbuster) about a giant colonial era cotton plantation and also someone gets murdered while her brilliant centuries-ahead-of-her-time self insert that everyone calls “yum yum dog food” makes references to the modern year and takes over running the plantation, but there’s no slaves in this story because she doesn’t want to deal with writing about slavery as it would ““““““put a damper””””” on the story?????......... Rant-ception, sorry.

It takes me so long to tell her what needs doing that I would end up being there almost until 9 anyways trying to disengage from her and get out. And I do not want to. I tell her that’s not going to work. She understands, so she asks if instead I can schedule her only 2 days a week.

So for the next two weeks, I schedule her Friday-Saturday only, and I work a 9 hour day on Wednesdays so that my other part time employee isn’t working Sunday-Thursday every evening in a row. And then she comes back and says that 6 hours? Not enough paycheck. Can she also work Wednesdays? And Fridays?

So. 10 hours. Her original schedule. More than the 8 that was “too much.” I schedule her that for ONE week, anticipating it’s going to be “too much” and SURE ENOUGH yes it is. And she comes back to me asking if I can give her less hours again. Either week days or week ends, but not both. She is officially dubbed wishywashy.

At the same time, my other employee who has thus far not caused me any problems has requested Saturdays off (she has since she began working for me and it’s been fine) and maybe some weekday morning shifts instead of evening shifts so she can spend time with her girlfriend in the evenings. And so far this employee hasn’t caused me any stress or grief and although I don’t really want to work evenings either (I hired both of them for nights and weekends specifically!) I’ve already been working evenings to cover other employee’s too-many-hours-not-enough-hours wishywashyness, so sure, I can work on accommodating that.

So now I’m looking at the schedule for March I’m trying to make.

I’m obligated to work on Saturdays, that’s part of my position. And if I give wishywashy employee just weekends, that means I don’t get a day off during the week, I work 6 days straight, and my good employee has to work every single weekday, 4 out of five being evening shifts. And she loses her Sunday shift that she enjoys working. If I give wishywashy employee just week day shifts, she can only work Monday-Wednesday-Friday (which was “too much”), and good employee has to work Sundays, evenings on Tuesday-Thursday, and Saturdays which she would prefer not to work. And either way, this is ringing a little too much like punishing the employee who does a good job to reward the employee that does a bad job, and that doesn’t sit right with me. (Found out from last job the reason I never got the backup help I asked for was that I was too good at my job, and the lazy person who took over my position immediately got backup to make the job easier, so wtf! Uncool!)

So I’m sitting here stressing out over how I’m going to juggle the schedule to appease someone who just CAN’T be appeased and changes her mind every single week about what she wants... and I’m realizing I haven’t had a consistent weekly schedule at any point in January or February. I’ve had to work on what should have been days off and I’ve been working anywhere between 3 and 11 hour days, and right now, working 14 days in a row without a day off.

Which is explaining a lot???

I haven’t been able to properly plan out anything or anticipate my schedule and have just been in a general sense of anxiety for weeks now and did not realize just how much battery power it takes just to be stressed. I haven’t had the social energy to chat with or hang out with with anyone since the holidays because I’ve been dancing around what’s going to work for a part time employee so much I’ve completely neglected what’s going to work for me? I think I’ve logged into discord maybe five times? Haven’t drawn since December, haven’t done fantrolls or RP in as long, and pushed back three of our weekly dnd games just because I wasn’t feeling up to DMing or talking to friends? And was debating just straight up not going to our weekly trivia game because time is a construct and the future is chaos who even cares that trivia has been well established and consistent for almost 2 years, fuck the whole system!!!

And holy shit, now realizing the cause of my general withdrawing from everyone and everything that’s supposed to be stress RELIEVING is a huge relief in of itself? I still don’t have any sort of consistency going in to March, but at least now I know why I am struggling and failing and can properly attribute it to a cause rather than just feeling like I’ve fucked up somewhere and can’t function properly as a human being.

And for the second half of March, I’m going to start scheduling what’s best for me, and if wishywashy can’t handle her shifts, that’s going to be her problem to solve, not mine.

4 more weeks of this though.... fuck me for making the schedule in advance so my employees can plan their lives out in advance rather than throwing it up the day before the week begins lmao!!!!!!!

#moosemun #work blogging

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trendingnewsb · 7 years

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It Doesn’t Sound Like Senate Republicans Are Anywhere Close To A Deal On Obamacare Repeal

WASHINGTON It took the House months of infighting and a failed first attempt to ultimately pass a bill torepeal and replace the Affordable Care Act. More than two weeks later, Senate Republicans are nowhere near reaching an agreement on a bill of their own.

As scandal after scandal piled up for the Trump administration last week, Republicans were given some cover. Rather than being flooded with questions as they exited multiple meetings about their own disagreements on how to repeal and replace Obamacare, they were asked about the firing of FBI Director James Comey and the investigation into Russias meddling in the presidential campaign.

But even with some of the pressure off, they appear to have made only a little headway enough to identify the key issues dividing them but not to make much progress on resolving those differences.

A substantial number of Senate Republicans have made it clear they cannot vote for the House bill, which would reduce regulations on health insurance, rearrange tax credits for people buying health insurance and dramatically cut funding for Medicaid leaving many millions of Americans without health insurance while exposing older, sicker people to some combination of higher premiums and out-of-pocket costs.

The Medicaid cut is a big sticking point for senators from states such as Ohio and West Virginia that have expanded the program and have come to rely on it to finance treatment amid an opioid addiction epidemic.

Asked if she still had concerns about the health care talks, Sen. Shelley Moore Capito (R-W.Va.) said her problems havent changed from weeks ago when the House passed its bill.

Well, still the Medicaid expansion piece, and whether the tax credits are sufficient at the lower end, she said, referring to credits afforded to older Americans who face higher premiums under the House bill. Those are the two biggest.

Sen. Rob Portman (R-Ohio) backed up Capitos complaints and added that the House billgoes too far in not protecting communities reeling from the opioid epidemic. Still, Portman wouldnt offer details on where talks are headed.

And scaling back the Medicaid cuts or bolstering tax credits for older consumers a priority for many GOP senators costs money. And the Republicans dont have a lot of money at their disposal.

Under the rules of the budget reconciliation process a procedural mechanism Republicans are using to avoid a Democratic filibuster the Senates bill cant increase the deficit. The only way to free up money would be to keep more of Obamacares taxes in place and doing that risks losing the support of more conservative members who, all things being equal, would rather the Senate bill look more like the House bill, not less.

The parliamentary math for GOP leaders is difficult. Even under reconciliation rules, which allow Republicans to pass legislation with just 50 votes assuming Vice President Mike Pence breaks the tie, leadership can afford to lose only two members. And there are plenty more than two members who seem convinced the Senate is far from agreeing on anything.

Asked to share what major sticking points are holding up the talks, Sen. Jeff Flake (R-Ariz.) laughed and said: Where do I start?

Its totally fluid. Sen. Bill Cassidy (R-La.) on the health care talks

Sen. Bill Cassidy (R-La.) told HuffPost he isnt even sure where negotiations are headed.

Its totally fluid, he said, adding that he has no clue when the Senate would even be ready to bring a bill to the floor.

Im not ducking. I just cant answer it, Cassidy said. I dont know.

And the current disagreements among Republicans could only become worse once the Congressional Budget Office releases its projection on the effects of the House bill.

The CBO score, which is expected Wednesday, is very important, Cassidy said. He stressed that it will help inform policy decisions facing Republicans in the Senate, and he appeared hopeful that it would steer his colleagues away from the House bill.

Theres still some idea that we might use the House plan as a basis for which to proceed, he said.

Of course, the prospects for getting a repeal bill through the House looked bleak until it didnt. After House leaders pulled the bill in March because it didnt have the votes, senior members began negotiating quietly on their own until theyd worked out a deal capable of just barely getting enough votes to pass.

It looks as if Senate Majority Leader Mitch McConnell (R-Ky.) is trying to do the same thing by having his caucus work out a deal behind closed doors and then bring it to the floor right when he is within striking distance of a majority. Sen. Bob Corker (R-Tenn.) is among the senators whoarent happy about the process. On Tuesday, that irritation came to a boiling point for him.

Its a very awkward process, at best, Corker said. There are no experts. Theres no actuarials. Typically, in a hearing, youd have people coming in, and youd also have the media opining about if a hearing took place and X came in and made comments.

Later Corker called the entire saga very difficult at best, adding that theres been a lot of progress in understanding the problems senators have with the House bill, and between each other, but theres no bill written.

But leadership hasnt indicated a desire to move negotiations out into the open, and its not so hard to imagine how, eventually, they could work out a deal that would get them close to the 50 votes they need while still keeping the guts of the House plan and its dramatic effects on insurance coverage.

Leaders might try to win over holdouts like Sen. Lisa Murkowski (R-Alaska), who has said she wants to protect her states Medicaid population, by offering extra money for Alaska much as Democrats in 2009 used special funding for Nebraska to bring along then-Sen. Ben Nelson (D-Neb.) in what became known as the Cornhusker Kickback. Maybe they could win over Capito and Portman with extra money for opioid treatment as a way to replace a little bit of the money their states would lose from Medicaid.

On the Medicaid expansion front, Sen. John Thune (R-S.D.) offered some insight into where the talks are at, saying theres an interest among many Republicans to have a longer tail on [repeal] phase-out. Under the House bill, the extra federal funds for Medicaid expansion would phase out starting in 2020.Senate Republicans could push back that date or find some other way to make the transition more gradual, although, notably, the debate seems to be over when and not whether to end federal funding for the expansion.

Theres also the issue of pre-existing conditions and the tax credits, which are sticking points for Thune himself.

Weve had a lot of members whove made statements and are very committed to having a solution in place for pre-existing conditions. There are just a lot of ideas about how to do it, Thune said.

And the tax credits are a work in progress, Thune said. A big concern there, he said, is that the House bill unlike the Affordable Care Act doesnt tailor the tax credits to income, making it a lot harder for the poor and even some middle-class consumers to afford coverage.

A lot depends on whether external political events, like the upcoming special House elections in Georgia and Montana, change the political calculus of Republicans so many of whom seem convinced that the political cost of doing nothing is worse than the political cost of doing something that appears to be highly unpopular.

About the only sure thing seems to be that neither GOP leaders nor members want to be dealing with health care forever. They continue to say they would like a vote no later than the August recess, even though the possibility of reaching a deal by then seems highly uncertain.

As Thune put it, At some point we need to vote, and so that day of reckoning will come.