#im so fucking behind and im seriously considering withdrawing from one course but that scares me bc im already /behind/ in general

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#another post to vent bc irls wont see it #i hate how ******** school makes me #like wtf i really hate school i really do idc anymore to sugar coat that shit #yes ofc i love to learn especially things i find interesting #but school ??? fuck this shit fr #the amount of stress and depression and anxiety and wanting to *** i hate it #im so fucking behind and im seriously considering withdrawing from one course but that scares me bc im already /behind/ in general #like im not gonna graduate in 4 years for sure #but the whole shit with my financial aid is another thing #like they told me i have to pass 9 credits to get financial aid next semester but the distrust i have in the system scares me to not drop #but hhhh idk i just wanna curl into a ball and sob and sleep forever #like sure ill hold myself accountable maybe it wasnt just mental illness that made me fall behind ive never been the best student #but theres a fucking limit like we’re in a pandemic bro im talking 15 units and the profs are assigning shit left and right w hella readings #and this one prof just suggested i drop the class bc he doesnt accept latework #thats what kickstarted this spiral sigh #idk what the point of this rant is #im just so done