#im overthinking this minute interaction i think. its fine ill be fine its ok.... etc

[moodr1ng]

ive been working these past few months on trying to like.. every time im in a good enough mood and i go outside i try to notice whenever i see someone who has like a beautiful face or great hair or a great look and i briefly stop them and give them a compliment right, i feel like its one way i can do a little bit of good for other peoples days and it helps me practice social skills and be less paranoid about other people. its always went well but one person today seemed clearly annoyed and just said "thanks" in this like, frustrated tone (felt like she was verbally rolling her eyes) and now im :( .. its dumb to focus on that bc she prob was just having a bad day or thought i was trying to hustle her or whatever, and i complimented like 10 other people who were all happy and smiled and all so it shouldnt matter, but now im just going to focus on the one time it went poorly and feel insecure lol. anyway something wrong w me

#97 #i understand that as i look like a guy its bound to happen that a woman would eventually not like it #but i do my absolute best to not come off like some guy hitting on them (having had the experience enough to know how they come off) #i always politely say “hi excuse me you have a very beautiful face have a good day” and keep walking #so that its clear im not expecting to start a conversation #and i always speak very softly and try to come off as friendly and nonthreatening #but i understand that no matter what if im not looking Very Clearly GNC (hence assumed to be gay) it might still come off that way #but now i feel bad ig #idk maybe i need to figure out more codes #im thinking maybe its bc we were in a somewhat empty street and it mightve set off some instincts #so ig if i compliment women i should try to only do it if were in a more populated street? #or maybe i just shouldnt compliment women at all unless i look gay that day #but maybe im overthinking it and she just had other shit on her mind and it was simply a bad time #its so so stupid i keep replaying it in my head and beating myself up over it and it was a 5 second interaction #meanwhile i had like a dozen other successful interactions why cant i just focus on that #i shouldnt have complimented her face.. it doesnt come off as hitting on someone if you compliment the outfit or hair #but she did have a beautiful face :( one of those faces from classical portraits yknow? #im overthinking this minute interaction i think. its fine ill be fine its ok.... etc