#im just too scared and awkward to do it

[vse-kar-vem]

together in every universe. or something

#bojan cvjetićanin #kris guštin #joker out #im neglecting schoolwork to draw this but that seems like the norm at this point #hoping if i get it all out of my system now i'll be normal during exam szn (in like. a week 😨) #<<sorry if i keep talking about school btw (semi age reveal ahead) gcses are fucking killing me uuaghhgshhahhhaj #i actually quite like this since i started drawing on a whim this afternoon and its only ten now #i dont even mind the lineart (DONT LOOK AT BOJANS HAND OR ILL JUMP OUT A WINDOW) #only a one storey one tho 💗💗💗 can't die without seeing bokris irl <<pipe dream as im too embarrassed to go to a concert #NO because bumping into jo in london would be my worst fucking nightmare 😭😭😭 #what do i even fucking say 'hey are you jan from jo--' NO id combust on the spot #and what if im bothering them uknow 😭😭 idk but i used to live in an asian city where none of my idols from the west would ever visit #(except safiya love you safiya) so keeping the real life person and fictiinalized versions apart in my brain and/or at arms length was easy #but now that i live in the uk and the chances of seeing them irl are non-zero? and presented with the chance to #actively seek them out and you know go to a concert #im just too scared and awkward to do it #maybe i'll bully my friend into going with me #i feel safer revealing age more in the fucking depths of these tags but another thing that makes me feel awkward about going is age #like ik lots of jo fans are younger than me and there's no shame at all in bringing your parents i just feel so embarrassed?? to??? #like i'd rather go with my friends #but that would require at least us riding the train alone and i am a small east asian girl who never looks up from the floor ever #sooooo #not happening any time soon #maybe next yr?? but probably not #unless i suddenly get a lot more independant and cool #i doubt anyone's read this much of my tags but if you have 😭😭 hope you like the art i guess #at the time of me writing i want to draw more but i'll see #(you will know since it will have been posted) #a tag previously used to say 'queueing to post at school' this is false as i am now in fact nauseous at home #my art

[puppyeared]

if escape rooms as team building exercises became popular im not sure if id be more excited or terrified

#if it isnt already anyway.. i can see it happening as a school frosh thing. idk if it would catch on as a workplace thing #i kind of find the concept of being locked in with strangers and working to find a way out weirdly exhilarating though #at least compared to icebreakers cause i dont have to spend 10 minutes racking my brain for something to blurt out abt myself #as a bonus u could like. put people into groups and give prizes to whoever escapes first second third etc. apparently they also do themed #escape rooms.. maybe let people pick a theme? or voluntary sign up? actually this would be really fun for smth like a blind friend date #although if i found out i was locked in a room with an online friend id be too excited to actually escape LOL #ive never done an escape room before so sadly i cant speak from experience. its like up there on things i want to try next to rug tufting #workshop and visiting new art exhibits or conventions. i seriously need to get out more if it wasnt for the horrors <- school and anxiety #i was planning to invite cass to a drop-in art workshop in town but neither of us could go bc typography is making us go thru hell and back #AND THEY HAD A BUTTON MACHINE TOO #im nostalgic bc i miss working in groups and not being awkward abt it or worrying abt schedule conflicts #i realized that i learn best in groups and its a little corny but i like sharing ideas and talking through a problem #in elementary i could just sit down with friends for review and come out of it energized *and* more familiar with the material #and i could technically still do it now. but as adults we're more picky abt who we work with on top of being way more busy outside school #maybe im lonely. im shy and grew up not talking to ppl unless i absolutely have to so its hard to make friends on my own i guess #only thing getting me thru it is telling myself that humans like helping and that my cringe is overblown in my head. but its hard #hence the escape rooms. i have been able to talk to 2(!!) people though!! mostly abt school stuff but im glad to be on friendly terms #i dont really know how to be happy these days cause im constantly scaring myself abt my portfolio and finding places to work #not being ambitious is part of not wanting to put energy into something that wont work out while also not having the passion to do literall #anything else.. i should probably talk to my counsellor ugh #yapping

[tabbyrocks]

thought up a monodeku scenario last night and it followed me to today so here we go

It's their second year and its currently prom or some shit idk. some sort of big school party event.

and the two are talking (Monoma and Izuku obviously) and Izuku brings up that he does, in fact, not know how to slow dance.

and Monoma is SHOCKED. appalled even. so naturally, he offers to teach Izuku because he's just so great and amazing.

but he didn't exactly think about all the physical contact that is involved with slow dancing, so when Izuku has to put his hand on his waist Monoma just freezes.

he's gay. he's panicking. boy oh boy is he panicking.

#monodeku #monoma neito #izuku midoriya #izuku is somehow oblivious the entire time this is happening #they successfully slowdance #monoma is just awkward tho #monoma and his adhd impulsivity #izuku is also a little bit gay hes just hiding it better #they are both nervous wrecks #izuku defo asked if monoma was okay like 5 times too #monoma would say yes everytime #“monoma are you okay you are like really sweaty do you need water” #“im fine and like so normal rn dont worry ahahahah” #but internally hes like #“oh god hes touching me hes touching me and looking at me and TOUCHING ME WHAT DO I DO HES STARING AT ME WITH HIS EYEBALLS HELP ME” #I am a touch starved monoma truther #people don't touch him a lot bc they are scared hes gonna copy their quirk or something

[cynicallyneutral]

guess we comin back here after the shitshow on twt lmfaooo, helloooooooo guys how are youuu, lets be friends, talk to me abt anything! i have 0 life!

#i feel awkward #idk how to use tumblr anymore #twt is kinda ok bc i can just rant but im too scared to post random shit here #it doesnt feel like this before #can i post sketch here???? #this place feels more like a place where i post my finished pieces #or actually just smth compiled #but i do like posting art here bc the tags are godsend #i love reading tags #whenever im down i just read tags on my old art #if ppl liked my art back then #then maybe theyd like it now since i improved a bit #i hope u like my art :(

[bunnyb34r]

Always funny to me when my coworkers notice how much of a germaphobe I am when they see me wipe down my cart in the morning. I dont just wipe the handle, I wipe the top of the sides and the top part of the baby seat, places where people grab other than the handle. Then I use hand sanitizer bc by that point I've touched: the cart, the scanner locker screen and locker, my scanner (also wipe that shit down, yuck), my lock, and the spray bottle. So yucky places.

I mean hey maybe I'm not giving my immune system that boost of exposure, but I'm also not giving it covid, norovirus, or influenza from touching the cart and scanner so 🤷‍♀️

#marquilla #sometimes it gets them to wipe down their cart or at least their scanner lol #im always hounding RC to not chew her nails bc the forklift handle is FILTHY and to wear a mask #everyone else can build or break their immune systems with the abundence of germs about and mask/clean at their own discretion #which is like never sgdggdgdgd but yknow im sure them all getting colds and the flu are just coincidence #im so scared im gonna jinx it and get sick myself sgdgdgd like im more so worried ab covid bc that fucker has gotten me 2x at least and i #got long covid from both times 😠 im less scared ab getting other sickness but i do hold a grudge if i KNOW who got me sick #like i got pneumonia in hs bc this fucking kid in my class had it and kept coming to school and i was out for like 3 weeks AND had to go to #the hospital overnight 🙄 fuckhead oh and he was apparently notorious for skipping school to play video games in middle school #WHY NOT STAY HOME IN HS TOO?? i also had to go in an ambulance and it was awkward as hell bc it was just a transfer from the urgent care/er #to the kids hospital and you cant drive yourself or have your parents take you bc theres a chain of custody and shit #ANYWAYS spritz spritz motherfucker im lysoling you all for your own safety

[olympusrox]

no stronger bond than between two people who were online friends and then lost touch

she deleted her tumblr in 2022

i hope she knows i still think about her

#she had a different tumblr before that aswell #and she deleted it #but she made a new one a few months later and texted me #she remembered my name #she had made me a spotify playlist dedicated to me with songs that she wanted me to listen to #i was so bad with texting her because i was still socially awkward and didn't know what to say #i should have texted her more #i think about her every now and then #i just went through all of our messages and read them all #she was so sweet #i have no idea what her life is like now #i still have that spotify playlist #im listening to it right now #i could make a playlist for her and tag her in it? is that a thing? do i need to actually send it to her? #i hope i can talk to her again #i want to know about her life #i had a little crush on her for a bit #even though all i knew was her name #and a description she told me of herself of what she looked like #all we ever talked about was small talk about our lives and about music we liked #but it was somehow still so personal #back then i didn't have any other friends #i got so excited when she messaged me #but half the time i was too scared to text her back #i miss her #non fandom stuff

[tinderfishboy]

So it turns out i think maybe my friend group is bad for me actually

#its nobodys fault i think some of us have just. autism flavors that dont always mesh the best #like. one of my friends. is one of my favorite people i know. but i get so scared im saying things wrong or that they dont like me allll the #damn time. no fault of theirs i just have really evil ocd and i care too much about if they like me or not bc i like them so much #like frequently i will be kvetching and they take it srsly and seem annoyed. or like ill jokingly be upset and i dont know if they dont #realize im joking or if they do and theyre just annoyed with it so they dont go along w it? but either way like it doesnt Work and then its #awkward and i dont know. i dont know. i think i need new friends i dont fit anywhere jn this group anymore #i think its going to very much become split into a few smaller groups none of which i fit into as the rest of our friends get here and im #just going to be left out a whole lot or like begrudgingly included but not really needed or wanted there and i dont think i can take that #so i will probably just leave to be on my own quite a bit #if it sucks hit da bricks etc etc #makes me sad bc i do love these people quite a lot but something here is just really very bad for my head

[mrfoox]

Being... Told or 'reminded' by general people that you should go out on walks/exercise is my least favorite thing

#miranda talking shit #Its like yeah i know ... Unfortunately im severely depressed and is struggling to find the motivation to get out of bed and do basic chores #I cant force myself to exsercise most the time and even basic walks is like scaling a mountain in my mind #I know they mean well so im not going to snap at them (lets be honest i never snap on people unless im in an awful mood) but like #Yeah... Ive heard the same thing from doctors since i was 14 believe me i know #Its not like im having a fun and great time and deliberately avoiding the outdoors bc im just lazy or something (': #Yeah no I'm sure this lady is nice and all but almost everytime i see her she makes some awkward joke about how im not going outside like #Ma'am... There could be a reason behind that... I mean you're hired to help me and check in on me... Obviously im not normal and healthy #Pointing out the obvious is 9/10 times not the best strategy to help someone change something/do something #Im too nice and scared of conflict to say anything about it though so ill just laugh or something

[flovverworks]

sorry i got overwhelmed with love for akira again

#stardust speaking ! #they gave us one(1) anime headshot thats basically just the ingame one in the anime style #and im daydreaming #ITS DIRE OUT HEREEEEEEEEEE #also if we dont get animated canaria i Will be crying #sometimes i think of lesbian akira meeting canaria. falling in lov. abd then immediadetly finding out shes engaged #to a guy whos also named after a bird #the comedy for ME #i love akira. i love heartfelt akira whos a loser and keeps messing up in this new place and tastes the rain falling #'sage what r u doing we dont know if this rain is safe or not?!?' 'huh?!?!?!?!' JSJSJWJQKQKKWT.........AKIRA VS THE UNSEEN DANGERS #but also akira who DOES do cool stuff. akira who is scared and shaking but still shields owen when hes out of commission #against a UNICORN......(owen ends up doing the protecting but ykno). akira whos life is threathened but still #continues to speak to their wizards. akira who picks up shinos scythe to keep them safe #THEYRE SSOOOOOOOO scared and awkward but they do what they can #way more skilled at saying very sweet things and speaking from their heart. despite struggling with words when comforting ppl #theyre so charmy.................i lov akira............i lov both designs for akira......................give me an expression sheet for #anime akira NOW❗❗❗❗❗ #im so excoted i desperately hope they capture the loser and the otome-route side of them #akira & cains back & forth stunning e/o with something smooth the other said is everything to me #i need that so bad #(its like always unintentional too!!! theyre both just speaking from their heart!!!!!!!!!!! #also rly need akira freaking out over how prettt everyone is. i NEED the 'are all of them models or something wtf' in there #guy who spends like 5 sentences in a row describing someone as handsome

[thxnks4themrms]

Guys if I volunteer at some dog adoption event for school do you guys think people will actually come

#cuz like #when i helped out the other day i just stood behind a table and watched kids draw #and like i met some really nice kids #but like #i wasn’t very busy #and i don’t think they liked me that much #do i scare little kids #like this one kid #she kept on staring at me #idk if she was scared of being there or like me being there or what but 😭😭 #<- i would be scared of me too #dude look at me #im a 5’4 teenager #and 5’4 isn’t that tall but when you’re a small child then like #it feels awkward

[todayisafridaynight]

channeled daigo to write him so hard ended up in an awful funk for the last week. Ever think about what its like to hug him.... run ya figners through his oily ass hair.....

sometimes i think about what it'd be like to have a drink with him does that count

#snap chats #it'd go horribly by the way id want to throw up cause id be too anxious to do anything and then id leave through the bathroom window #i just cant do hanging around people significantly older than me i get scared. or i just get awkward like tf i say. tf i do #unless it was like. idk ryuji. or saejima. kiryu too maybe. i just KNOW hangin with saejima would be the best .... #i dont know why ryuji is acceptable in my brain but ive dreamt of hanging out with him before so i simply will have to accept it #i dont think this is what you were talkinga bout with your ask. im so sorry #anyawy i think if you hugged y2 daigo youd be hugging a bag of bones. emaciated #that might be countered by his puffer though. i dont think he knows how to hug people tho i dont think he was hugged as a kid #see im thinking too much now but i think this is the answer you were looking for

[crowtechs]

le sighs and screams loudly into my hands

#im just gonna talk about it in the tags lol #i wanna like participate more in fandom spaces but i never really do that because i get so scared #i mean sure writing fics and all is fun but like ... idk #on twitter seeing ocs for it is soooo cool but i feel if i do it no one would like it idk #i think thats just my overthinking and second guessing myself #i wanna be more active and all that with fandoms but just fear #its always this its always the stupid fear #i think its also more on the fact that i get terrified because i feel someone will see what i post on there??? #idk i just #i wanna be a part of it because it seems so fun and the community just seems so nice?? #i just have so many issues with socialising i am so socially awkward idk what to say without being weird??? #this always happens! aaaaaaaaa #i mean i know i have to like nothing will happen if i dont try to be open but i still get so scared #im not even gonna talk about what the fandom is for personal reasons but its literally the thing thats keeping me sane lol #its just??? i wanna talk about my silly ocs too but i cannot out of FEAR AAAAAAAAAAAAAA #i was so like “im gonna be more active and engaging on twitter!” and then i DONT out of fear! #man. wish i was like normal and not socially anxious all the time oh well #i guess tumblr is easier to talk about this sort of thing than twitter anyway?? #but ppl who are on tumblr in this fandom hate this one character i absolutely adore so </3 #idk what to do le sigh #its fine things will always turn out better #maybe its because i wanna draw and i wanna be good at it too? idk #im fine i think sort of. i dont know. i wish i just was so scared about this sort of thing #no one is like being mean to me about it so idk why im scared #maybe i just never been nicely welcomed into fandom spaces :\ #idk #haha sorry #i just needed to vent in the tags i guess #kaden txts #<- yeah. fine. i dont care.

[mommypieck]

⌗︙・megumi's birthday ⸜⸜・

virgin reader surprising megumi for his birthday is the cutest thing ever. it's your first time wearing a victoria secret matching set and you feel pretty. when you finally tiptoe into his room, his jaw falls on the floor.

"it's you?" he asks, making you laugh. he doesn't believe what he's seeing. the lace wraps perfectly around your body and it's a bit see through, leaving nothing to his imagination.

"happy birthday." you say, climbing into the bed next to him. his hand settles on your cheek before he kisses you softly. you never got further than kissing and you want to change it today. but one problem, megumi is even more scared of your first time than you are. soon the kisses turn into needy clashing of teeth and tongues and you end up on his lap. he feels a bit awkward that he's still fully clothed but he can only concentrate on you. he tskes one of your tits softly in his hand, rubbing your nipple over your bralette. he's so shy. megumi has you wrapped in his arms, holding you close to his body as if he's scared you're gonna leave him. you decide to give him more as you start moving your hips on his lap. he sucks in a breath, feeling his cock get harder than it already was. you can feel his tip bumping into your clit with every move of your hips. his mouth focuses on your neck and he sucks and bites all around it. he wants, needs to mark you up but he knows gojo would tease him to his death about it.

"can i- please?" you don't know what he's begging for but you nod your head. a squeak leaves your mouth when he flips you over so that you're now under him. megumi takes off his pants and shirt, still leaving his boxers on. your eyes meet the hard on he's wearing but you decide to ignore it for now. that's until he thrusts his crotch into you. you moan, back arching off the bed. he humps your pussy as if he was fucking you.

"im scared," he confesses, "don't wanna fuck you yet."

your heart sinks a bit at his words, you need him inside of you so badly but you're gonna give him time. you wrap your arms around him, bringing him closer to you. with each stroke of his hips, he brings you closer to your orgasm. you know he's close too by the shaking of his thrusts.

"gonna cum together." he whispers in your ear. it takes him few more thrusts because you're cumming together. you both shake in each other's embrace. you smile at him, wiping his hair out of his forehead to look him in the eyes. you notice that he's close to crying so you gently kiss him on his lips.

"thank you so much, y/n," megumi says, burying his face into your neck, "you didn't have to do any of this. im just so in love with you."

#jujutsu kaisen x reader #jjk smut #jjk x reader #jujutsu kaisen smut #megumi fushiguro x reader #megumi fushiguro smut #megumi fushiguro x y/n #megumi fushiguro x you #megumi fushiguro headcanons