#im gunna puke

[isa-ah]

we're going out tonight and were gunna grab dinner from a place that has not 1, not 2, but almost an ENTIRE MENU of things I CAN EAT...

#im so excited im gunna puke im like bouncing off the walls #getting food ever for me is like. well i could have half of this meal. i could remove 80% of the filler for this. i could gamble for that.. #its scary and very restrictive and occasionally i get rlly sick 💀 #but this place is gluten free and vegan which means NO WHEAT NO EGGS NO CHICKEN BABYYYY #i can just deal w anything else that hurts me those are the big ones im so so excited dhdjdhjsjs

[myhouse-pk3]

going to talk to my therapist this sunday about how to go about starting t ^_^ perfect timing because my 18th is just around the corner... i hope things pan out well

#talks #sooooo excited im gunna puke #even tho idk if he will actually be able to do much ? and if not i think hed have to refer me to someone else #but like idgaf (spongebob voice) Gary i need testosterone #just hope it wont be a super bumpy process

[pastelchad]

About to get blood work done I'm so brave everybody congratulate me for being so brave

#its been months i havent had blood drawn since i was in the hospital #i would puke but they had me fast #so theyre probably taking TWO vials #im gunna be such an action movie man getting his wounds cleaned by his love interest after battle abt it

[frankencanon]

nurse: are you dizzy?

me, who just woke up from anesthesia and doesn't feel like sticking around:

#i would later go on to regret this while wobbily stumbling around a freezing cold parking lot without a jacket #in an attempt to find my mom's car #which turned out to not even be there #there was some sort of miscommunication #my mom says she didn't get any calls and the nurse said it kept going to voicemail #so either she called the wrong number or my mom had do not disturb on #🤷 #anesthesia #surgery #colonoscopy #endoscopy #apparently i have acid reflux and red spots on my stomach #and something else but i cant remember what and im too lazy to get up and get the papers #they gave me the ''milk'' to knock me out #makes my face feel weird... #also: my throat hurts and i feel like im gunna puke #gunna take a nap now ig... #update: my sister got the papers for me #i have gerd and gastritis and #something called diffuse patchy erythema #i think that's the spots #oh and esophagitis??? grade a with mild acid #whatever that means #im gunna google it #later

[methed-up-marxist]

i feel like im gunna puke my lungs out

[urprettybunnybaby]

im n so much pain

i feel so damn sick

im over heating

im gunna cry n puke

the inflammation the throbbing the stabbing please

it’s a never ending story. stop adding 2 it

please just give me a break for 20 seconds.. please i beg u

#my diary #chronic illness #does god hate me

[showerb0ng]

ive been coming down from this little uppers bender all day because im a complete pussy and get all ripped up off of like 12 total mg of addy.. its honestly so embarassing but my brain chemistry seems fucked anyway with the megadose of an ssri im on plus the endless nicotine and the 45 ounces of dunkin iced coffee plus the beers & the vodka. which is pretty much a normal day. but anyway im like delirius and stoned off my ass on the bus to school and i keep getting this quivering sensation in my chest that feels kinda like im gonna puke or kinda like my eyeballs are gunna bubble out of my head. i camt stop imaging my body as a cup of dunkin donuts hot coffee, like over and over again, im like having a fever dream, i'm a hot cup of black coffee , like my skin is the cup and i am just slowly sweltering from all the hot liquid inside, like my organs are all steamy and fluid, i'm organ soup, and sloshing around because the bus is so fucking BUMPY, and then suddenly its like someone pours just the tiniest daintiest little splash of ice cold creamer into the hot cup (me) from a teeny delicate little milk jug like the ones they give you at breakfast places. anyway thats like how the weird little shocks in my chest feel and also how the delirium is creeping over me and im also stoned out of my mind at this point mind you. but i took the last of the colossal ssris in question this morning and im gunna start withdrawing if i miss a day, like almost immediately, so i have to go the fucking UI pharmacy to pick them up. so i get off the bus and like almost get blasted by a car because im not paying attention to the right crosswalk but i make it across and now im in the doctors office. i feel like eileen myles strutting into pick up some diet pills (speed) from some fake doctor in brooklyn in the 70s. i wish. i actually love this doctors office because there's always medical students at this one who i love to kinda fuck with. theres absolutely nothing i love more than just bold faced lying to medical professionals because there's really jack shit they can do about it. its so funny to watch some of the like medical student dorks too like try to figure out how to react because theyre like trying to be good & friendly & helpful doctors and theyre like scared shitless the whole time. one time i was at this doctors office i walked in like absolutely REEKING of darts. like i'd probably smoked two or three on my walk to the doctors office because i must have been off vaping for some dumb reason or another. and i still had the pack in my back pocket. and the clinical assistant or the nurse or whoever came in and was like taking my vitals whatever doing my medical history then she like looks at me and is like 'do you use tobacco' and i just like.. stared at her and was like 'nope!' and she gave me this LOOK like are you serious? but she thought i was just dumb so she asked again 'do you smoke cigarettes' and i just like grinned at her and was like 'no' and she was just like '...ohkay....' like she wanted to kill me lol. it was so fuckin great she tried one last time too, she was like 'ok, which are you: current smoker, former smoker, or never smoker' and i was like BEAMING i was like never smoker :) i think thats when i was there to get my copper iud inserted

[spiked-mall-goth]

I SET UP MY STEREO!!!! i am so happy. physical media… safely…. oh my god i think im gunna puke

#spikes rambles #the cd player inwas using i dug out of a dumpster and was literally waterlogged #took two weeks to dry out #i’m not kidding btw #not to mention i haven’t even HAD a cassette player in years bc my walkman broke down the same time as my old stereo #i am just so #oh my god

[mergoatmagic]

i hate my job omg. i havent called out at all since i started. 

i called out today cuz im sick and i was told that i have to call everyone to find coverage or i have to go in anyway. 

first off- ive NEVER had to find coverage for any job ive ever worked before. thats not my job to do. 

second- no i will not be going in anyway, i told you i was puking. im not going in. end of story. “go in anyway” is not how sick time works. 

im literally about to just quit. theyre lucky im pulling an open to close on the 4th cuz that sweet sweet time n a half. but they know i dont think this job is worth the gas money. i dont care. i dont need to stay there while im looking for a new job. 

ps: dont work for your friends. i get shes got people coming down on her too but this job is a joke and is gunna cost me my friendship....... 

#i think im going to give my two weeks so i can get my holiday pay and leave

[tiphares]

horrific migraine all evening sittin in the dark like im gunna puke 😑

#of course

[intoafandom]

No literally im gunna puke

#bruins lb

[thingsandstuffyeah]

I really really need you. I know im a broken record but i feel like im gunna puke and no one else is here.

#october 2022

[anxiousanteaterr]

dude, medical professionals really need to start taking migraines seriously bc i just realized how bad my migraines really are.

So like, my migraines do not follow the pattern of "suddenly wake up with one" and im in intense pain and feel like im gunna puke. My migraines are so much more methodical than that. They can last for weeks at a time, and often times I BARELY have any of the actual "headache" part of the migraine. After tracking them for years now, here's what I've noticed:

1. Anxiety gets worse, and I cannot find a reason why. My anxiety is always bad, but typically, I can find reasons. Sometimes, no matter how hard I sit with it and listen and process, nothing changes. It's just elevated for seemingly no reason.

2. Auras/Vision Changes/AIWS: Things start looking weird. Its brighter out. I see snake like figures dancing under carpets. I space out a lot more than usual, and sometimes my pupils will actually dilate more unless I focus on something. This makes me get motion sickness a lot quicker, and general eyestrain chances are increased.

3. Everything gets Louder and too many noises at once overwhelmes me. Eg: i cant drive with the windows down and my radio on bc the traffic sounds + wind + music is WAY too much noise.

4. Constant, dull ache behind my eyes: Typically happens with migraines caused by eye strain, but migraines caused by my neck can also do this.

5. Mind Fog: My ADHD makes me forgetful, but my trauma makes me remember. My migraines make me a special kind of forgetful. The forgetful that I notice pretty quickly, typically forgetting small habits like turning off the tap water. Or I forget sentences as I'm saying them. The brain fog can get so bad I sometimes just straight up cannot think at all.

5. Depression gets worse/Mood swings: My depression is strictly fueled by my anxiety, and since my anxiety is heightened, my depression gets worse too. It also shares the common trait of being unaddressable, bc these high levels are not caused by my trauma.

6. Irritability: This one is new, but I've noticed it only seems to happen after I've given myself eyestrain and its so bad that I get that dull pain behind my eyes that I usually get with migraines.

7. Nausea and Diahrrea: Probably get these bc of how fucked up my vision gets with my migraines, so its a constant battle of eyestrain that leaves me feeling like im gunna hork. The gut pain gives me a whole new level of both pain and fatigue.

8. Fatigue: This typically only hits if I have s migraine cluster and its lasted over 5 days. If its a one-day and gone migraine, this doesnt happen.

These above stages can happen across AT LEAST 5+ days. There typically is no pain aside from the eye aching. If I take a migraine med during any of the above stages, there is about a 60-70% chance itll rebound, regardless of the steps I take to avoid it. This ofc, fucking sucks.

9. Full-Blown PAIN CITY: This is the "headache" stage. The part where my head is in absolute misery and feels like I'm getting lobotomized and I'm so fucked up all I can do is lay in bed in the dark and groan when people talk to me. Once I reach this stage, if I take a migraine med, its a 99% chance that the med will take it away fully w/out any rebound. The only times this has failed is bc i do something stupid like stare at a tiny screen for hours on end.

The problem ofc is... at least in the USA, i can't just take 10+ days off to battle my migraines. I either have to work thru it, or keep getting in trouble bc i keep leaving early bc the world looks fake and im anxious beyond all compare and I feel like throwing up. And my migraines will be with me for the rest of my life.

Like, we GOTTA start normalizing migraines and giving ppl the time and resources they need for them. Even if its just wearing sunglasses and headphones/mufflers indoors. Like, my god.

#personal #long post #migraines #ok to rb tho if thoust desires #i wrote this on my phone instead of taking my migraine med. LMAO

[hunnyfemme]

Im sorry but every person who posts lewds on here with their thinnest at the center of their sex appeal isn’t just boring but also cringe

#thin people can be gorgeous im not saying dont post selfies or anything #but if i have to see one more mediocre cis white girl showing off how flat her tummy is while all of my mutuals go ‘oh boy oh wow oh jeez’ #im gunna puke #its so boring and based off of how gross yall find fat people!!! #i have thin ppl on this blog every now and then bc they post themselves as whole human beings #does this make any sense? #im just over it #thin people are not extraordinarily beautiful or special just for having a flat stomach