#im experiencing normal emotions

[mayathexpsychic]

UMMMMMM. dallon image 🤲

#i have been looking at pictures of him on pinterest ALL DAY. here are my favorites #what if you wanted to study for your exam on monday but your brain said dallon image #mx weekes i am having Thoughts and/or Feelings about you #experiencing the whole range of emotions rn. its fine im sooooooo normal #i am going to run into the wall #okay bye #dw #idkhow #the brobecks

[sugardecreme]

undertale yellow ost save me..... undertale yellow ost......... save me undertale yellow ost

#sugar rambles #i am. looping echoes of another rn 😂👍 im experiencing some very Normal emotions! #(helpppphelp help helpppppp helppppp) #so many ttracks from this game make me wanna😭😭😭😭😞😞😞😢😢 I HATE ITTTT I HATE IT I HATE ITTTTTTTT #i have normal feelings about this fangame and its soundtrack. trust me🩵🩵 #undertale yellow

[theyarebothgunshot]

pen15 is such an accurate time capsule for me that i keep thinking “oh my god, people should see this to understand who i am as a person” before something happens that makes me go “no never mind, this is too personal love and light”

#like wow. it is SO fucking much i am experiencing EMOTIONS ghdfhdfg #like. for one thing the language is so so spot on #never been done before #but also the experiences #like the 'i am dating someone i never saw before' experience for example #i related so much #but also the obsession with wild things #the spice girls bit #ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK #bitch this is ME #ok im normal i am NORMAL lmao #pen15

[somewhat-adorkable]

Listen....

I'm not saying that my home isn't good for my mental health, but what I am saying is that in two weeks away from home I:

-kept a regular sleep schedule (had three total nights where it took me a little longer to settle down but I was still asleep before 11pm)

-ate a normal amount

-had no trouble getting up in the morning

-didn't cry a single time (even during a panic attack, during which I was comfortable enough to go to my partner for comfort)

But in just under two days of being home I:

-haven't been able to settle to sleep for more than an hour or two at a time

-only ate because food was brought to me (I didn't finish either meal, got too nauseous)

-spent most of my day in bed because I was so exhausted and tense

-also spent most crying because of a stupid argument between my mom and I (long story)

-got called moody and snappy despite the fact I was silent and completely by myself 95% of the day

So..... that's fine, I guess.

#the emotional whiplash i have experienced in the last 24 hours #i spent like the first five days away TERRIFIED i was going to come across #as a hateful or snappy person or that i would ask the wrong questions and start a fight #turns out people are capable of just talking about shit #and not snapping over everything #every time i try to talk to my mom about something #i get snapped about about how talking is useless because i never change and it's me thats the issue #turns out what i thought was me being 'hateful' is actually just.... Normal joking tone #i cant even interpret my own tone anymore #because im so used to thinking I'm being calm or happy #but being yelled at for being hateful or snappy

[hella1975]

my mum: you've been doing really good lately. every part of your life is really stable and you seem genuinely happy, it's great to see :)

me, who's felt like ive been going actually crazy bananas insane for months now: yeah haha

#sometimes i forget that 'being in total control of my emotions at all times' isn't just my cringe lore & is actually something im good at #like wdym my MUM said this. girl im experiencing horrors over here! #i got really offended by it? ilke i just smiled at her and agreed but inside i was like HELLOOOOO CAN ANYONE HEAR MEEEE #i just genuinely feel like i am so detached from myself and im entirely manipulative and i micromanage every facet of my personality #and change it day-to-day person-to-person and not in the Normal Human Way but in a crazy insane I Am Manipulating People Way #& it's a CONSCIOUS thing & like. idk who the real me is idk if there is a real me idk if id like her if i saw her idk if im a good person #but i look like im doing fine. i seem really stable and happy atm according to the person who knows me better than anyone #like that's the extent of my control on myself. even my mum cant tell. HUH #idk i feel like im being dramatic bc last week and this week ive definitely been feeling a lot better #and like maybe i was just having some sort of months-long episode but that doesnt negate the fact that while i was IN it no one could tell #not even the closest people to me that see me every day in the same house where im most vulnerable could tell #that's like. worrying surely. maybe. i think. whatever im just saying shit at this point #i always do this tho i go 'i fundamentally base my self-worth on how little i share vulnerability with people #and it's been a constant part of my personality since childhood that i dont talk about my feelings' and then i get SO pissed off #when people dont realise im going through shit. like girl what did you THINK was gonna happen. look inwards #hella goes home

[caffeinatedopossum]

A poor man's guide to fucking up

Fucking up is inevitable 👍 yet not many people are aware of how to respond (ideally) in a scenario where they've genuinely made a mistake. Recently my girlfriends (ex girlfriends?) fucked up and hurt me but they get an A for how they're responding so I wanted to go over a list of what they've done right and what they haven't, for your reference and mine

1) they're giving me space to process my feelings- room to be angry and understanding but also physical space. They aren't spam texting me or constantly walking into my room or trying to force me to talk to/spend time with them

2) with that, there's also an acceptance of their responsibility and they're taking the blame with dignity- something that I know from experience hurts like a BITCH and is not something most people I've known are capable of or willing to do. I have mad respect for that

3) they're not trying to force me to do or feel anything I don't want to. They're not trying to manipulate me- not trying to turn me against anyone, force me to forgive them, or ignore what they did. They're not trying to force me to stay in a relationship with them or not be mad at them or hurt by their actions

4) and this is where they lose out on getting an A+ and only get an A -_- they told me the truth (just not at first). Despite being ashamed of it. And at first they did both try to minimize their own blame in the situation but pretty quickly opened up about the reality of it. Now ideally you wouldn't do that at all, you would just tell the whole truth right away but nonetheless, it's impossible to be perfect and I'm not judging them too harshly for this

#obviously im still mad and i cant say ive forgiven them yet but ive accepted their apologies and im trying to let time heal #i wanted to at least share somewhere my appreciation for them reacting this way since ive never experienced such humility and maturity #from people who have hurt me before #even if it 'should' be normal its not yet. so yeah i have a bit of gratitude towards them for doing something not yet common #i can say with certainty it is SO much easier on me to handle this situation and my own emotions because of them doing this #i think my putting effort into recognizing and appreciating this also has to do with how i experience empathy- #im not gonna be one of those 'im an eMpAtH' people but i will just say #other peoples emotions affect me severely and i cannot ignore them or block them out #its like... intrusive empathy if you will #redirecting my empathy to analyzing something helps me process my own feelings without the interference of everyone else's feelings

[evankinard]

STRANGE WORDS COME ON OUT OF A GROWN MANS MOUTH WHEN HIS MINDS BROKE

#experiencing eddie diaz emotions while at orientation cause they're playing a hot hits playlist #fuck fuck fuck im supposed to be NORMAL right now

[andoutofharm]

the foundations of decay the foundations of decay the foundations of decay the foundations of decay the foundations of

#im experiencing more than the normal amount of emotions

[weenhands]

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#vent #i havent really been able to sob in awhile and i think tonight was just another breaking point #im so emotionally numb and devoid of emotions so i end up really sobbing every few weeks #when normally i would be crying almost everyday if i could properly respond to the hell i feel like im experiencing all the time #idk. i sort of spiralled and i ended up thinking about what it would be like to just cry in my moms embrace #and maybe not even actually say word for word how i feel #im trying to just cry quietly so my parents dont hear but in my head my mom knows why and she understands and shes holding me and telling me #its going to be okay.....i dont trust her with anything but i just wish i had her reassurance specifically. #ive been off these past few years to them because of how bad my anxiety and depression have been #and i think i find comfort in giving my parents that closure of whats really going on....while also having them hold and protect me #like they used too #i switch my stuffed animals to hold depending on my current situation and mom gave me this stuffed animal to hold when i just Want her #she gave it to me randomly and i havent felt so bad where i had to reach for him in probably years #so im just holding him now. i dont wanna put my other one that i was holding before in the box of my other stuffies #cause im not used to seeing him there yet idk hes used to the bed #im probably gonna delete this soon cause just writing all of this down sorta calmed me down #im just really sick of my head and i feel like im thinking really bad thoughts again

[sunset-bridge]

we are so based and correct for having our favorite little personer dynamics where the vast majority of the fandom saw them and turned them romantic but we didn’t. we persevered. and sergio and goro rivalhead freak friendship will always be more correct than sh//uake

THIS THIS is so real squishy i hear this i hear this is verified

we are like the bravest soldiers on planet persona ... you are so right btw about shinji and hamuko. based as hell interpretation. i never played portable, i played FES so i didnt have many thoughts about hamuko-specific interactions. but you are literally right shinji is trying to shake off the biting cat on his arm (hamuko) he loves that cat but man i think his arm is getting an infection /silly

i think... i guess a lot of people just see people getting close and they are like... well romantic relationship time.. hi hello!! theres nothing wrong with romance lol im a bit of a grand romantic actually ahahah but like.... have you people had friends. friends you are so close too, you love them, but never in a romantic way. but you are so close and you'd do anything for them etc..

its so nice to hug your friends. take a little nap together do funny stuff together hello live a bit

ANYWAYS SORRY. YES ALSO AS A RIVALHEAD I AM a bit bothered by. WHEN PEOPLE MAKE joker like not be into the rival thing at all like. you know the specific genre of ake shoooe fanart im talking about right squisher. like. when they make joker only be like in it to try and date gorbo or something and goro meanwhile is trying to have a rivalhead moment.. HEY !! as if goros rival feelings were silly and temporary and stupid and inferior like "shh shut up lets be romantic partners already stop with that silly rival thing etc"

grrr barking. guys its a differnt thing. . i think its a bit sad if joker were like that.. goro is just Like that, hes a little dramatic hes a little "weird" but thats him thats how he is and how he feels, it would feel like joker is just ignoring all that to make something he wants... besides i can tell you having your cute rival feelings ignored and replaced like that sucks ass its like.. hey. no thats not it. hey stop that.

whatever. you guys get it

SORRY hi . cough. hi im normal

#hi squisher #ask #im normal about goro rivalhead feelings hi you can approach me i wont bite you #perhaps im being a bit dramatic. i dont care #rival feelings are very important to me i always felt like a weirdo for experiencing all my life basically with them. #too emotional too weird too dramatic too “into it” SHUT UP !! i adore the feelings and i will talk about them all the time

[avallachs]

every day i think about varinia taking zenos' necklace from his corpse and every day i yearn. i also think about a scenario where he'd see her wearing it. and i yearn some more

#ophelia.txt #ocs tag #oc: varinia #x: blood in the wine #him staring directly at the pendant around her neck like um <3 what do you have there <3 #she's like oh!! i took it because i thought you were gone for good and didn't want to leave you behind. did you want it back #and he's experiencing an Emotion like ⁿᵒ ʸᵒᵘ ᶜᵃⁿ ᵏᵉᵉᵖ ⁱᵗ #im so fucking normal about them goddddddd shoves them in my mouth and chews them

[sick-as-a-dog]

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#just the thought of him not loving me the same way and amount i love him makes me want to slice myself up #ill only stop cutting when i cant feel anything anymore not pain not love just emptiness #just want to be with master but dont want to make him stressed out because im too dependent and reliant on him #why cant i just feel my emotions the right way or a normal amount or at least less strong? why am i like this? #why cant i love like a human and why must that shit be so complicated? why am i so feralminded? #and why cant i feel my loves separately? should i even? or am i not understanding it right? why do i feel everything wrong? #why must i love him like a wild animal loves its lifelong mate? but also like how that animal loves the taste of prey and hungers for it? #like a dog loves its master and feels the unending loyalty and unconditional love overtake remaining wolflike instinct #like a best friend i also wish to do stereotypical romantic and domestic things with and so much more #i want to be bound to him in any way possible marriage and collars and microchips and blood pacts and marking and such #but im so scared he wont want that anymore i want to stop feeling i need to completely stop feeling and worrying but i cant #even when im emotionally numb i still feel that canine love for him even if just a glimmer #i wish i knew what he thinks love is and what hes comfortable with and how he felt and experienced love and if he still loves me like #he did before he came out as aro....im scared to bring up how calling himself aro and me his exception actually hurts and idk if i should #tbh him saying hes aro yet says he loves me feels like when a close friend keeps saying they dont have any friends while youre right there #like my existence makes his identity a lie or a betrayal to him i cant shake the gross feeling that hes forcing himself to stay for my sake #....hell am i even his exception anymore? what did he mean by same amount but not the same? what changed? did anything actually change? #wish i could figure out what love is and how to feel it right..esp dont understand romantic or queerplatonic or anything its all confusing #i want to take on the world with him and stop being an emotional wreck so we can fuck anyone together like we swore to #i just want to live the rest of my life by his side and i want to experience all we can together #picnics and movies and living together and sharing a nest and....idk i just want to be with him forever and hope he still feels the same #it would literally kill me if he ever left or fell out of love i think i would lose whats left of my mind and end up bleeding myself dry #i want us to be together forever and never ever stop being mates but i cant help but be terrified and confused and hurt

[lesbaurinkos]

WHJAT THEY DONT TELL YOU. ABOUT MAKING PRO-FEMALE HYSTERIA POSTS. IS THAT MERE HOURS LATER YOU MAY BE THROWN INTO UNSPEAKABLE HYSTERIA YOURSELF. OVER THE SECOND HALF OF THE FIRST EPISODE OF THE FINAL SEASON OF YOUR SHOWS. YOUR PODCAST SHOWS. AND YOU WILL TRULY KNOW WHAT ITS LIKE TO BE. THE CHERYL BLOSSOM (LESBIAN FOR JOKER

#guys dont get thrown back into ur 2020 hyperfixation u will be feeling so faint at 3 am on a tuesday #Oh god. just experienced the full range of human emotion. Oh my god juno #what they don’t tell u is u will be in full tears over this INSANE CONFRONTATION because they LOVE EACH OTHER SO FUCKING MUCH and it’s SO. #and then you will cry ALSO over an ALIEN CAR because the alien car LOVES ITS FAMILY SO MUCH #(blood pouring from my mouth and down my face and im crying it also) yeah i feel fine #see getting back on tumblr was good for me i can be SO NORMAL about this in long long ways in the tags

[kiseiakhun]

Almost committed a hate crime because I couldn't find pasta

#im experiencing emotions at normal levels. im normal.

[helennorvilles]

trying not to be a cunt but im in SUCH a cunt mood

#not gonna get into it and wanna blame it all on a hangover but im not even hungover im just experiencing normal human emotions to a thing rn #so in my current state i see a dumb post on here and my usually very strong ability to scroll past and let it go is fucking right off #ughhhhh i am just going to self care to the extreme and by 7pm i am going to feel fine this is my plea to the universe #my post tag

[eosofspades]

i know i literally just made that post but MAN the mental illness has got me tonight

#absolutely gorging myself on literally ANYTHING in the kitchen i can get my hands on as fast as possible #two slices of pizza applesauce crackers cookies caramels etc etc #i spent an hour and a half on a math subject im supposed to be good at and i didnt fucking understand ANYTHING and it made me so mad ahskdh #its 220 in the morning btw. surely this has nothing to do with my insane mental state #anyway ive been putting off laundry and showerind and assignments and art and literally everything that might make me feel better for #the last many days for No Discernable Fucking Reason #and now its just. area jester experiences consequences of their own actions more at 4am i guess #im like sticking snacks and stuff in my room and trying to plan meals for future me for breakfast which would be nice if i wasnt also. #you know. exhibiting unhinged behavior in the kitchen at 2 in the morning #also my teeth hurt so bad and its going to make me commit a crime #i am experiencing Normal and Reasonable human emotions at Normal and Reasonable levels #or something #vent post