#im YELLING SO LOUDDDD

[cobaltfluff]

fellas is it gay to painstakingly carve your name intertwined with your bestie's name on a Best Friend Stone

#bucchigiri?! #watch and yell #spoilers #im YELLING SO LOUDDDD #I DOUBT YOU STILL HAVE YOURS #MATAKARA I'M SO SORRYYYY #SCREAMINGGGGG #Guys im sane i swear im watching this like a normal person #also im pretty sure ara-chan started avoiding you bc he felt he was too weak b #dont be so hard on yourself you sweet little (big) puppy

[unproduciblesmackdown]

hhghh so nobody else is here coz of thxgiving, i’ve like crept around the whole place twice just to be sure, and i’m tryna take the opportunity to sing LOUDDDD coz actually i like to sing but it makes me. Nerrrvousss

i got that trauma-linked Volume issues lollll i don’t like to be loud in a nonloud setting. i’m neither particularly good nor bad at singing but one problem i have is you can’t really like, quietly sing below speaking volume that well unless i guess you’re just an expert but i have a kinda quavery voice coz of Trepidation and it is. Difficult to raise the volume. like tryna sing not w my gentle head voice i’m trynto put my damn diaphragm into this!!! It is DIFFICULT. like i said i just ascertained nobody else is around and i forced out a bit of real volume but then upon another crescendo i’m like oops i gotta stop entirely. maketh me god damn nervous whether anyone’s around or not....it’s hard for me to be loud!!! i don’t yell!! i don’t raise my voice!!! i don’t even raise my voice to Avg Speaking Volume, when i’m upset or stressed i get quieter or stop talking entirely but i LIKE to sing and i WANNA BE LOUD IF I WANNA

i may not be an amazing singer but god help me if i am alone and wanna rip my trache out tryna belt out a high C i’m gonna!!! i’m learning to love my own voice even just in writing like i do on my own blog obviously, im gonna say somthing if i have something to say, but i can also try and do this fun slash therapeutic boppin to get more comfortable with making some fuckinnnng noise even with nobody around to hear it. Its just kinda funny how difficult it is lmfao...anxiety