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mixed-kester · 1 year

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hello ms. esther! sorry for suddenly intruding, but i've seen you a lot on my dash n just wanted to say hi! and, well, to also give this tiny brainrot about u and wanderer in offering haha:

i don't know much about your personal lore, but seeing your art for throwaway-yandere's wood vs salt fic had me Thinking Thoughts. do you remember how in the beginning of wanderer-era, before he got his memories as scaramouche back, wanderer was pretty calm and nice? a little ditzy or, well, easily distracted sometimes, yes, but generally, he seemed like someone safe (or at the very least, like he wouldn't suddenly stab you in the back).

what if he met you while in this state? before the traveler found him and brought him back to the sanctuary of surasthana? what if he saw you and felt some dim, compelling force in the hollow of his chest where his heart should be (the lingering influence of irminsul, the all-encompassing obsessive love that scaramouche had for you you you—) when he sees you, a passing visitor in the grand bazaar, and quietly wonders if he's met you before.

now, this could go in many different ways depending on whether or not you remember him (even with irminsul's deletion of scaramouche's existence) and if he decides to do anything about that. one such timeline, like the wood vs salt-esque au, would be so interesting because, well, he doesn't remember pantalone ever being that close to you before. he doesn't remember you working for alhaitham either.

but you still look the same. still smile the same. still blush, huff, and laugh the same and wanderer can't help but cling to that (can't help but listen to the snake-like whispers just behind his ear to hold onto you, tighter this time, and make sure you'll never leave again).

some things are different. some things are the same. and all these unwanted anomalies are easy enough to correct, with or without his vision.

he's learned from the best, after all.

aaa this is very messy n all but i hope i got the idea across! if this isnt ur cup of tea that is very fine wdyhdbd but if nothing else, i would like to say ur art is very cool n ur ebg lore (at least the little i saw of it bc i had pre-mids that week) is very :eyes:

the object of my thoughts.

tags: wanderer, self-insert, situated inside @throwaway-yandere's Apotheosis on Your First Feast...kind of??? maybe??? an AU of sorts.

a/n: omg brain go brrrrr? welcome to my humble blog ajnsbvkjbhlka don't be shy to interact i don't bite- btw this fic is probably nothing like the ask aaaaaaa words: 1,072

The Grand Bazaar is as bustling as ever. Her nose gets hit with the damp, yet fresh air of the hidden city nestled underneath Sumeru's Great Tree.

At once, Esther hears the quiet, lively atmosphere of the merchants, the lingering tune of a song in Zubayr Theater (Sadly, Nilou will not be dancing today.), and the smell of freshly-made street food, minus the bugs that so happens to linger on the stalls.

This place almost ticks all her checkboxes of a "safe space".

almost.

She found herself sitting beside a food stall, waiting for her order to arrive. In Esther's defense, the food was quite tempting. Scented Meat Balls always have a thing going for her mouth. One moment it's there, the next…an empty platter and greasy hands.

A very pleasant experience, 10/10.

With nothing better to do, she rummaged for her shoulder bag and pulled out a small notepad. Some of the signatures are falling off, the purple yarn barely holding it together, and the handmade cover is dirtied with charcoal stains.

Carefully tightening the seams with a sigh, she then looked around, looking for someone to draw. She wouldn't want to ask someone for permission, no. She has to be discreet; quick, yet accurate.

The last time she got "caught", Esther was quite embarrassed, although her subject at the time was quite flattered and even offered some good critiques at her pose anatomy before being dragged off by Alhaitham, of all people.

Alhaitham, your current boss, and the current Acting Grand Sage of Sumeru. Who assigned you to Varanara, just six hours ago.

Vanarana, the supposed home of the Aranara, the children of the Lord of Verdure.

…the Lord of Verdure, and the successful rescuing of Sumeru's future.

A rescue that I refused to join in.

Esther shook her head in an attempt to dispel the frankly annoying and intrusive thoughts in her head. Quickly putting her notepad, aside, she thanked the waitress and tested the waters on the meat balls, still smoking.

Ow. Too hot.

Her eyes roamed around the bazaar like a camera, looking for interesting people to draw. Interesting poses to draw. A merchant selling fruits, a vendor calling for customers. Quite banal.

I spy, with my eyes…

there!

Her hands fly towards the notepad, leaves ruffling as she attempts to find an empty page.

The slight off-colored white invites her in to draw the first line, to fill it up with her lines, to see the figure of a person, the someone she chose to draw.

Reaching out again, she tests if the balls are too hot. Feeling the warm, crumbly texture of the finger food, she eats one whole and quickly focuses on the task at hand.

She looks quickly.

He's not looking at her. Perfect.

She quickly dismissed the hat in her drawing. That thing is a pain to draw quickly, she thinks, instead opting for just an ellipse with shaded points.

She quickly deconstructs his relaxed figure, filling it up with more details as the platter beside her grows more and more empty with each passing hour

He doesn't look like he's from here, Esther figures as she draws the man's robes- kimono, she corrects herself- hanging loosely on his figure, making for quite the focus on his high-collared undershirt-

Esther chokes on a crumb. Coughing, she hides her face on her arm and shakes her head again. Taking a bite out of the meatballs, carefully this time, she erases the quite scandalizing abs on her drawing, scolding herself for the…distraction.

She tries to finish the figure without looking this time. A large gold ornament on his left chest… hair shaped like a weird bowl cut…red eyeliner…

hang on.

She glances again. He did not seem to notice, and was still facing away from her, talking to what she presumes is his boss. how did i know his eyeliner is red?

Her gaze lingers on the drawing, slightly smudging the freshly-drawn face as she traces its jaw. She thinks hard, her eyebrows furrowing, the tapping of her pencil serving as a pendulum for her thoughts.

think, think, think.

She tries to chase the thought, but it slips away from her grasp like a falling leaf amid a strong breeze. Whatever the thought is... she deems it not important.

Esther looks at her drawing again, and her grip makes a dent in the notepad. This drawing, this pathetic croquis of a figure...it's too ugly. It doesn't even shine a light on the guy. This drawing of hers is too disgusting to see the light of day.

The left arm is too long, the face is off, the torso is contorted unnaturally, the fingers are unproportioned, the face is off, the eyes are off, the eyes are off, the eyes are off-

…

She tears off the page, throws it on a random garbage bag, and leaves the bazaar in lower spirits than when she came. so much for relaxation.

If she dared to look back, the subject of her interest has filched the torn paper.

Behind the tree, his errand remained forgotten, the fruits on the forest floor as he traced every uneven line that captured his inhuman self, marvelling at the seemingly glorious art in his hands.

Why did she discard it? he can only wonder as he gingerly holds the paper like it's a treasured possession of his. He does not understand. Why did she throw it away?

Should he find her? He thinks about it, but then considers his chances. An unknown person asks for her, saying something about knowing her vaguely and asking to come with him? He might as well parade around Sumeru City with the biggest hat he could find, yelling loudly.

What name would he give her when she asks for it?

He is a shugenja; a wanderer, as he calls himself. A tree with no roots. Somebody with no home, no kin, no destination. Someone with no name, no identity to hang on with. Trekking across Teyvat to train himself...it's just an excuse.

That's how absurd this is.

So why is he so hung up on this one person who drew him in such a human fashion? What is there to her that piqued him?

Have we met before?

He sighs, and folds the paper, tucking it in his hat. He picks up the sunsettias on the ground, and makes way to the nearby river to wash it.

#word vomit galore #i just got lost in the ask and???????????? damn #also OMG AN ASK????????? IN MY SPACE?#wanderer: 黄鳥 #genshin impact #wanderer: tinuvion #wanderer #author: kester #kestchat: bl-inkstone #also nooooooo you arent intruding at all!#your ask got some of my brain juice go brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr #astronetwrk #totally did not draw experience from my drawing

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domjaehyun · 2 years

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WHAT an HONOR😭🙏🏾🙏🏾 top 5 most used tag on here…I had no idea I sent in that many asks! I’m so happy! :) we’re good friends❤️ also we love hearing ur horny thoughts girl that was hot asf you have good taste in…sex. Idk if that makes sense. But I like your style. Now I’m looking at Haechan a lil different…😏😏 but I can’t! Omg he’s Mark’s bestie! …now I imagined a ménage a trois with them… hot. Mark would be flustered and jealous. Haechan would be cool and teasing. Heheheh. -👄

KJDFLSGD i just posted the actual year in review post and . YEAH you're actually the 3rd top tag fgsdkj so . a win for u i guess hehehe and yes we are good friends 💖 (under the cut is a surprisingly long rant from me abt . the rest of ur message gsdfljdk)

and . hHhHhhH okay i DO hear u..... my thoughts are welcomed here..... but . at the same time, like, if someone came here on some fuck shit and were like "tHat'S wEiRd / cRiNgE / uNhEalThY" i'd feel the urge to rip their throat out w my teeth.... like these are My Fantasies....... on My Blog...... that I Run..... regarding My Interests......

like, i'm gonna be honest... when i was talking to y'all abt fiending before i posted it and was like so...... dubcon........ i did Not Like some of the responses djfkgskd like it's one thing to be like "i'm not into that" which is totally fine !! we don't have to agree !! there's SO much stuff i don't like !! it's not like that would be 100% my content forever, i can write a bunch of diff stuff y'know?

but i remember at LEAST 3 anons being like "that's so unhealthy what's wrong with you blahlbhalbahbkahbk pbbtt i'm a whiny baby and i don't like to let people have fun" (i am paraphrasing but . we get the gist, yes? they were unaccepting and Super Judgmental and Accusatory, like. shut tf up pls i asked how y'all felt abt it to be nice but now i no longer care abt your opinion bc you don't know how to act)

like i remember so clearly that i made a poll asking if ppl were into it? (bc i was gonna put it in my fic) and at least 1 person (i'm p sure there were 2 ppl but for now i'm saying 1) like . attempted to spam vote "no" and i was like . okay well now your votes are entirely deleted and you get No Say At All because you don't understand how democracy works 😒 1 vote per person... this is not the presidential election.... popular vote/majority rules.... and even if the majority HAD said no.... it's still my fic sdjkgskdf like at the end of the day i'm gonna do what i want regardless ://// i just wanted to see where ppl's heads were at !!

tbh maybe this is kinda like the US gov't but like... where a bunch of ppl (like congress or smth) write a bill and then are like "hey, president, what do you think abt this?" and then the president either goes "yeah this sounds good" and makes it a law... or they go "mmm no vibe check failed" and then . vetos it 💖 y'all are following, right? y'all are congress, the bill is the fic idea, i am the president 💖 except this is my world and there are no checks and balances if y'all say no and i say yes, then it's yes 💖 if i say no and y'all say yes, then it's no 💖 i am taking suggestions, not orders y'know?

and DJFKSGKLD "you have good taste in...sex" you WOULD think that pls omg i'm having flashbacks to the time i went on a rant in your dms abt . one of my fantasies . that was fun . i would write that some day i think (i'm sorry to ppl who are reading this that are not 👄 anon and want to know the fantasy; it is . private atm gfdjsglk maybe one day i will talk abt it) but yeah i think that you and i do have similar, like, things that we like so that's dope for me hehehe at least i know One Person will probably like the things i am thinking of !!

"i'm looking at haechan a lil different" *softly* don't. don't do it. don't do this to me 🧍🏽‍♀️ i can't... i'm too insane for this woof woof bark bark grrr but OH?! mark...hyuck... threesome... i've done a markhyuck threesome once before, i did a mark/hyuck/jaemin foursome once, and . i am currently doing a fivesome with markhyuck and other ppl.... but markhyuck threesome.... inchresting.... if you want to,,,, uhh,,,, elaborate at all,,,,,, i am all ears........ 👀 like a... setting, perchance,,,, maybe a plot.... maybe...

I AM NOT GUARANTEEING I'LL WRITE ANYTHING FOR JUST THOSE TWO!!!! i just . am curious . abt ideas . if it unlocks smth, it unlocks smth, and if it doesn't, then it's not a problem fdgkljsfjs i have my current wip that's literally at 18.6k rn and is not even close to being finished, so . markhyuck content will def appear in there at some point... their dynamic is not very prominent though, heads up :p BUT YEAH OKAY SORRY I WENT ON A RANTY-RANT-RANT anyway . yes 💖 haechan 💖 i love him 💖 i am gonna answer any like newer messages i have now and then i'm gonna go back to writing i am Thinking A Lot about haechan now and the thoughts need to leave my brain and land on this document!!!!!!

#answered #anon #👄

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donghyuwus · 6 years

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boyfriend!haechan

hello and welcome to josie tries to distract herself from writing a shitty love yourself au series and instead tries to write a bf version of the boy who owns her heart. get ur seatbelts fastened kids cause this is gonna be a hell of a ride

so umm we all know donghyuck is my ult

wait what?1/1\\!2 jinjaa? haechan oppar is your ult josie unni!?1//2/11

sorry okay yea but without any joke this boy makes this bitch a bit too soft and im not okay with it

actually i am but you didn't hear that from me

anyways lets get started shall we

so like we all know hyuck is mr.clingy101, so get ready to for loads of skinship

like if he isn't hugging you like a koala, he either is holding ur hand, his hand is around ur waist, his head is on your shoulder, he is playing with your fingers/hair/cheeks/nose/ears

this boy just likes to touch u okay

not like that you nasties, i see y’all, we are a pg friendly blog, get tf away from here rat

likes to put up michael jackson and just slow dance with you through the living room while he sings along perfectly

cares abt u fucking much but won't admit that

makes u food and gets u shit when u aren't feeling well

cheesy jokes and sarcastic remarks

but they are made with love and that's what counts

is that annoying bitch in a relationship

you: ‘i love you.’

hyuck: ‘bitch me too, da fuck?!’

yea that bitch

takes u on theme park dates and coffee dates in autumn just to take aes pics of u and brag abt it to his friends

probably has a playlist of songs that remind him of you and listens to it on tour when he misses you and then he'll just randomly is extra nice to everyone and there all just like ??? like where did his sassy ass go

you’re honestly the only one he gets all soft for if we exclude mark ofc

gets extra on stage just bcs he knows how crazy you get every time you watch his fancams

teaches you dances but then just laughs at your ass failing

sings for you when you can't sleep and likes to play with your hair as well

gets all soft and acts like a puppy as soon as you start playing with his hair bcs sis he likes it

members teased him in the beginning but he couldn't really care less and now they gave up and have to hear him brag abt you 25/8 rip

but he doesn't tell you that tho, bcs he loves his pride and he isn't gonna admit he is a baby for you

lets you wear his clothes and acts like he's mad abt it while he secretly likes everything way better on you

fights mainly happen bcs he is either way too stubborn or his jokes got out of hand

i think it will take him some time to say sorry but he loves you and misses ur cuddles so he will eventually after he cooled down

gets you weird gifts

like he’ll be walking in a shop and sees something stupid that reminds him of you and just gets it

like he’ll bring you a kermit plushie and be like: ‘it looks like you, wait why are you mad?’

your his sunflower and he is your fullsun

wow im crying

y’all be remaking vines and going around using dumb trendy words and dances *sigh*

sleepovers are never an actual sleepover bcs he challenges you for a gg dance battle

which ends in you loosing and after that being like well that's not fair and then it leads to another competition to another one and another one and eventually the both of you will finally get to sleep, totally exhausted at 6am while dream is shaking their heads at the sight of you both

y’all probably be giving the poor members a hard time with stupid and well thought out pranks

loves to compliment you when he isn't in a sassy mood

but gets all shy and blushy when you do it

may even make that cute screaming noise he does omygod my uwus busted

over all he is everyone's dream boyfriend

and even though he might not always tell you he loves you like so damn much

and pls show it back to him

and tell him how great he is doing and how talented, pretty and amazing he is. complement his personality and tell him you love him

he deserves all the damn love and happiness there is tbh

wow i love lee donghyuck

and so should you

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