#if jt helps i think im 4 months clean of sh so :-)

[ace-with--a-mace]

i felt like killing myself so i made muffins :-)

#they came out decent but they have an odd aftertaste so i feel like shit because i made bad muffins and because the muffins were bad i feel #-like shit for wasting ingredients and money and time and #living is too hard i hate it here #l speaks #shut up l #l complains tell them to shut tf up #tw suicide mention #suicide mention #suicide #tw suicide #its like everytime i do something my braim goes 'youre a piece of shit take *object within 5 ft of me* and kys' but it gets louder everytim #hahahha fun fun everythign js fine im doing amazing just needed to rant i think because i cant cry #if jt helps i think im 4 months clean of sh so :-) #the :-) face is so abnormal i lovenit its just :-) like yeah dude <3 #but yeah i think im fine just depressed and suicidal but im not doing anything because i literally cannot move for some reason and its- #-killing me cuz i need to do stuff but my legs wont walk #also i think im going deaf ??? i canr hear shit in my left ear and my right ear ie foggy #but if i tell an adult theyll say its because i dont eat enough or yadda yadda and then ill feel liel punchinf someone #but boy oh boy #:-)