#if i was a fictional character. it would make so much sense. ykwim.
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my only wish in life is to be a fictional character
#its kinda insane but like. i already dont feel real. like i havent felt real since a long time and LISTEN#if i was a fictional character. it would make so much sense. ykwim.#like im not Sad im nust. not anything atp. im nothing BUT if i was a fictional character. it would make so much sense#also like??? imagine being percieved by people you have never met. imagine being written. imagine art being made of you.#like nit just the ego boost but ive been thinking about how like. if these characters were real it would defest the whole purpose of them#and all of this love we have for them will always be unknown to them#but like the thought of wanting to be a fictional character in someones story is so. like i#deep DEEP yearning to be a character. just not real. im not even kidding the whole of december and now january this is all#ive wanted#like at first i was like. i dont feel real then it pipelined to i wish i wasnt real to i wish i was a fictional character who's story has#been written already. ykwim?#i may sound crazy rn but i dont CARE i had to get this out#like im sick of being. an author and not the character. im sick of being the creator and not the creation. yk?#is this how god feels sometimes#man...#i also have Noticed that sometimes i talk about human beings as if I'm not one#like i think abiut how interesting humans are and i say it like im an alien that has just made contact w earth#LIKE most times i feel like im not real and it really is like. what the fuck. where am i supposed to be then. yk?#like i dont feel. misplaced but i also dont have a place here. i dont belong anywhere tbh#like. an unwritten future. author unknown. a letter without an address or purpose#this is so. like i dont know how else to say it and get it out there but i just had to cause i#cant just keep Thinking About it by myself ik noones gonna read this but atleast#like if its. written or typed out then it would be more real. more of a record of this. even though my existence (or lack thereof) is#already proif enough#sigh#titli tag#ishworry
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let me start this off with i hella respect you and love your art/stories, but all this discussion about torture got me thinking too and i definitely dont wanna come across the wrong way, i agree with you on many points, but i just dont think its that deep.
cause honestly ive been writing torture since i was like 11 so i know its not that serious. not for most people. i get that it could come across the "wrong way" but like... most people literally do not think about this. that being said, ive never written torture in an interrogation setting when it WORKED (i did write interrogation but actually never worked cause then i would have had to stop writing the torture, and, you know, thats what i wanted to write, so the person being tortured never "break").
i wrote (and am writing) torture because i, personally, enjoy it (and get off to it). my characters (the torturers/captors etc) are doing it mostly out of sheer enjoyment/passion. they dont try to get info, dont try to get their victims to be obedient, dont try to brainwash, none of that. i just write what makes ME feel GOOD. i never ever thought about "how would this affect people" or "what deeper meaning does it have", cause, frankly, it doesnt have a deeper meaning for me, all it means is "mmmm torture, i love it".
i. just. enjoy. it. that simple!!
and while im not a fan of the "whump community", i believe lots of people there think like me, in the sense that they just want to write what they enjoy without thinking about it. reflecting to what the other anon said.. like yeah they say it's "fiction only", and it "could be interpreted as torture apologia" (a term i havent even heard before you talked about it), but it really is just that.
it might sound "bad" or "ignorant" but most people dont go digging for info or research studies before they go writing, and that's alright, most people write FOR FUN. as a hobby. not trying to think too hard about things, you know, just let out their thoughts, frustrations, emotions, all that shit. can it come across as ignorant? probably! but at the end of the day, it's just people writing for the sake of writing.
i really, REALLY respect you and your story and how much thought and research goes into it. i dont read all that "whump" shit, im mostly "in the community" for the art and pictures. your story was the only one that captivated me, and it's not for no reason. i WISH i could write the way you do. but... most people wont ever do all that for writing, for something they just do on their freetime as a hobby.
and believe me, ive been writing for 15+ years now. all that time its only ever been a hobby, ive never done research, i do it when i feel good, to feel good. and im not planning to release. most of these people on tumblr, in the "whump community", they dont plan on releasing. they just sharing their little stories with each other. as far as i can tell, there is no harm in it like you say in harry potter or batman, all that. these little stories wont make it out to the public. and im sure most people who write dont even upload their writing! (me included, hahaha.)
just saying. its not that deep:) keep doing you because you and your story is AMAZING, but just dont give too much time of your day to all these random "whump writers" who write shit you wouldnt wanna read anyways:))
serious here if you're this far gone in wilful ignorance i think i would like you to stop reading my content. i mean this genuinely. people like you are not part of the audience i wanna build ykwim
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spn asks, yay! Okay: 8, 9, and 13 (and for an extra challenge you can't choose Kevin :)
Thanks so much, Liz <3
8 - If you could write yourself into one episode, would you? What episode?
I’d probably put myself in 10x05 Fan Fiction. I am a cringy Supernatural fan preoccupied with subtext and if I’m gonna be in the show, I’m going to be authentic
9 - What supernatural being would you be?
Not 100% sure but I’d probably go for ghoul. Nibbling on dead people and shapeshifting sounds like a super sweet gig ngl
13 - You can bring back one character. Who is it?
Kevin Tran
Okay it took me like an hour to get to this conclusion, but. John. He appeared in like, five episodes and then died forever, but he’s probably the single most influential thing in Sam and Dean’s lives. On the one hand, I love that we get to know him through Sam’s and Dean’s memories of him - it’s just a cool way of building/developing a character. And also I’m glad Sam and Dean got to get out of his shadow and become their own characters early on, that was important narratively. But on the other hand, I wish we could’ve seen more of him and his interactions with his kids, because we never really got to know him and judge him for ourselves, ykwim? We only knew him from the biased accounts of other people. Idk man. It’s a tough question. I dunno if I’d necessarily bring him back because like, his being dead is such a fundamental part of the show, but I’d still kill to see some more of him, if that makes sense. Maybe like some sort of prequel or something. Anyway that probably doesn’t make much sense but I’m just trying to say he is one of the most interesting characters but also one of the most important characters with the least amount of screentime which sucks
(Also yeah technically John did come back for “Lebanon” but that was so unsatisfying and could’ve been done so much better and it didn’t give any closure to Dean so I pretend it didn’t happen at all)
Honorable mentions: Bela, Gabriel, Ash, Andy, Kevin (again), Anna (who I don’t miss but who was too interesting to die so soon)
(ask me supernatural questions!)
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