#if I survive…. ill cry

[leonardoeatscarrots]

Карамора is such a funny show to me ahsgshsh

Like what if we took the fucking Russian revolution and put vampires in it? What if we just made everyone smokin hot for no reason? What if one if the vampires was a girlboss and had a sugar daddy also? What if one of the vampires was fruity as fuck and also literally insane? What if the cinematography was unironically good? What if we did that for the whole show? What if we made the premise sound campy then proceeded to make an unironically badass show that pulls zero punches? What if the soundtrack wormed its way into your head at the least convenient times?

What if we let the fruitbat live?

#survival of the fittest #karamora #felix yusupov #феликс юсупов #карамора #crying because i know ill never get a sequel series about felix specifically 😔

[iqmmir]

happy birthday to the angel ever the girl ever i loveher

#my art #honeyworks #haniwa #mona narumi #narumi mona #finished an old wip because i would cry if i couldn't do jack shit for her birthday #looks bad but it's okay ill survive

[significant-ace-nnoyance]

How do you feel about Leah Sava Jeffries as Annabeth Chase, and why should we throw Leah a huge parte for being the annie we always deserve but never got much of

HELL YEAH ARE YOU KIDDING ME LEAHBETH IS THE BEST THING THATS EVER HAPPENED TO ME THIS ENTIRE YEAR OH MY GODS AND GODDESSES im fully self aware that "i look like i would have been an annabeth kid" and its because i FOR SURE WAS WHY WOULDNT ANYONE BE she is The Character the MOMENt the ICON of the AGES and leah is adapting her energy to screen so ???? perfectly ?????? like did rick just shake the book and she fell out ??????? what sorcery is this?? ??????

no but in all seriousness leah is killing it as annabeth and its super clear that she did her research and understands the character (in interviews she talks about how she read annabeth povs in later books and did research on greek mythology and athena so she could understand the lightning thief not just from percys pov but from annabeth 🥺🥺 she so annabeth coded irl i adore her) and it genuinely shows like ive microanalyzed all her expressions because her facial acting has so much DEPTH and LAYERS and OH MY GODS leah deserves all the parties and we are so privileged to have her as our annabeth chase <3 imagine being that talented at like 13

im super excited to see what additions she makes to the character in this adaptation!!! already i think she's really highlighting annabeth's battle strategy smarts over just booksmarts which EVERYONE ALWAYS FORGETS ABOUT SHES NOT JUST A BOOK NERD SHES A FUCKING GENERAL HEAD OF THE ATHENA CABIN MOST FORMIDABLE DEMIGOD AT CAMP AS A 12 YEAR OLD the duality is giving me LIFE and i love how she gets to boss around percy and grover (leah also talked about loving to get to be in charge and competitive as annabeth which shes SO REAL FOR THAT shes such an annabeth type) BUT ALSO YOU ALREADY GET TO SEE HER VULNERABILITIES AND INSECURITIES AND THE WAY SHE CARRIES HERSELF THAT MAKES HER SIMULTANEOUSLY COOL BUT ALSO IS A REFLECTION OF TRAUMA AND POOR EMOTIONAL COPING yeah basically shes not just giving us annabeth shes giving us annabeth but MORE and its making me understand her character BETTER and in a NEW way (and if you have anything to say about her portrayal in the show i will genuinely pull up with a full ass powerpoint slideshow because IF YOU MEDIA COMPREHEND FOR TWO SECONDS AND KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT HER CHARACTER IT MAKES SO MUCH SENSE AND ITS SO JUICY AND JALKDJFKBL)

i think about that shot of her looking at percy using medusas head through the screen porch ALL THE TIME. and her delivery of "grover can you tell your friend to pull himself together" LIKE THATS WHEN SHE TURNS TO HER PROTECTOR FOR HELP AND IT HAS A LITTLE BIT OF A SASSY IM-BETTER-THAN-YOU-PERCY VIBE TO IT BECAUSE SHES HIDING THE FACT THAT SHES SCARED AND UNCOMFORTABLE TO TALK ABOUT HER RELATIONSHIP WITH HER UNAVAILABLE MOM (and percy sees right through that just as she sees right through percy and oh my gods if i get started on percabeth ill never shut up)

anyways thanks for giving me an opportunity to go on a mini rant about leahbeth i could say so much more because when i say ive analyzed every frame my girl is in i am NOT joking

but ill just end by saying that anyone who is upset by show annabeth being black literally did not understand her as a character or the percy jackson books in general so they can stfu and get their little butthurt wrong opinions out the door bc they dont belong here anyway <3 rick and becky also talked about how they hired black sensitivity readers to help write annabeth's blackness more authentically into her character in the show so very much hoping that they do that well! and im overall just super excited to see what changes they make to adapt my favorite character to a new era, a new medium, and a new audience!

go treat yourself to some leah interviews because i actually adore her and will protect her and annabeth (though arguably theyre one and the same) with my life <3

#god i coudl talk for hours but ill stop #sorry for hte long ass post but honestly whats the point of tumblr if not for me to be autistic on main about annabeth chase #omg i still remember the moment they announced annabeth and grovers casting #i litearlly slapped and hand over my face and was like no way no way no way THEY FUCKIGN DID IT OH MY GODS #ltierally thank the gods every day that we got the perfect trio based on actual voice and personality <333333333 #anyways bestie i will talk leahbeth w you anytime we should throw her a party because she is actually eating up this role #the sass #the emotiosn #the Generaling #will never get over her in her armor THAT IS MY QUEEN RIGHT THERE THAT IS THE ICON I REMEMBER FROM MY CHILDHOOD #they ltierally just stole annabeth from the books but made her better #and by that i mean like rick has a chance to rewrite her for the modern era and make her characterization cleaner and tighter #esp becuase APPARENTLY people missed the point the first time #annabeth haters actually make me so fucking mad if think about it too long ill explode #BUT WE DONT HAVE TO THINK ABOUT THEM BC WeRE GETTING A TRUTHFUL ADAPTATION OF ANNABETH AND THE TRIO AND THEY CAN CRY ABOUT IT #YIPPPEEEEEEE #time to rewatch episode three #im not going to survive the tunnel of love #or the discussion in the vegas truck if we get that #leah sava jeffries #SHES TRENDING!!! #leahbeth #annabeth chase #leah jeffries #annabeth #percabeth #percy jackon and the olympians #i love the mispelled tag #pjo <3

[staticsaturniid]

Ghost Huntin’ Hornets

Some friends and I have been playing phasmophobia “in-character” in a roleplay server. I muse Skully and sometimes bring out Alex for the funny...

So from @firebugfrenzical, @hybridagencies​, and I, enjoy some bad doodles of ghost hunting Marble Hornets ft. Heath’s oc Hazel!

(more doodles under cut)

#marble hornets #marble hornets fanart #i know i draw kralie poorly if you point it out ill cry #mh skully #mh tim #mh hoody #mh alex #alex had a 1% survival rate #my art

[mywons]

guys 😭😭😭 i 😭😭😭 got 😭😭😭 enhypen 😭😭😭 tickets 😭😭😭

#ky speaks #actually so so so SO freaking out rn wyf #WHAT DO I WEARRRRR WHATT #i only have 20 days to prepare im literally not okay #seeing heeseung in eprson. BRING IN THE SAME ROOM AS HIM #GONNA MAKE ME FERAL #gonna make me cry . #don’t know if ill survive #gonna take so many pics istfg #SEEING ONE IN A BILLION LIVEEEE UGHHHHHH #enhypen

[boxwinebaddie]

IS THAT A SHORT HAIRED JERS ON PINTEREST?? 👀

Ding, Ding, Ding! We Haaave A Wiiiiiinner!

that Is a short hair jerseykyle on the pinterest!

**very long uncle nina rambling under the cut, a lot of it is about my creative process, rm, the side characters and ofc...short hair jersey.

also omgshjssks!!! y'all are Quick With It on the pinterest!!! i personally am Obsessed with it and tried to make it really well thought out and am very specific with the things i pin, especially in the face/aesthetic sections bc they’re v important for visualization to my personal hcs bc i feel very strongly about my hc about how the characters look, what they wear, even just what they care abt and i hope you like them. <333 i also try to add sections/pins as we get new information/i develop my rm!cast more — specifically the side characters because they got neglected while i developed stan/kyle.

sidebar abt a side character i was scared abt developing bc they’re not in my wheelhouse: i’ve actually been working on some stuff about tweek lately that i actually feel p excited abt it’s a little weird? but I Personally think it’s fun and fresh! i hope y'all it, omg <333

someone Also asked me abt craigory a while ago and idk too much abt him Yet other than that he that he’s 6’5” n lanky as hell, skates everywhere, smokes a lot, is bad at processing death specifically and every time ( a ) stripe dies, he buries her in a shoebox marked stripe like #13, goes to the pet store and buys a new stripe and pretends like that’s the original stripe: no change, like she’s not a completely different guinea pig. ooof. he studies astrophysics at harvard ( takes a greyhound to visit tweek every other weekend ) and is gearin up for a huge internship for NASA in washington all the way cross the country which freaks tweek out SO much bc he’s moving far away. :///

but, anywhore! please ask me about the side characters anytime! i love talking about them! and if you see anything specific pinned anywhere on the NCU pinterest, also feel free to ask me! obviously i have a sea on anons rn, so it'll take me a sec, but hmu anytime, y'all.

now...onto Short Hair Jersey which...tbh, i looked at that pin for a while because i was like, hm, this site model is very cute to me, i like his freckles v much...but he has short hair. regardless, i just said fuck it and pinned it to the board as another face reference and didn't do anymore deep thought about it...but ooooough that i am Thinkin...

i wanted to do a short hair jersey moment for a while. hair i feel like is very symbolic/can be analysed in rm, specifically with stan.

basically, you can kind of tell what era were in, his current mental state, and honestly, what point of rm where are in by stan's hair color.

ie. that white/silvery danny phantom color was pre!rm when scotty was still around/calm b4 the storm, blonde stan is post-scotty fallout when the toner washed out, electric blue hair stan is first style breakup sort of manic/mostly depressed stan, blue washing out/color oops, stan having just the tips of his hair blonde is healing stan w/ the dark brown coming in, red hair stan is crazy boy manic divorce stan and pink hair stan w/ the red washing out is cute boy, happy anti-valentines day ravesey reunion stan, with pink tip hair stan being very close to healing/college stan, and dark brown stan being healing/sober, thriving ( hw is hard, but he's okay ) ravenstan.

as far as kyle goes, i think long hair kyle is Default Kyle...short hair kyle is definetly...an Anomaly, a glitch in the matrix...a very, veeery bad sign, tbh. long hair kyle being jersey just sets him apart from my pep kyle and canon kyle tbh, i like his dark academia, maneater, philosophic ice king energy. and i was gonna say that maybe kyle stopped cutting his hair after stan passed away but...nah. nevermind.

bc sheils def had kyle get hair cuts & complains when his hair gets too long ( when kyle came to visit all he did was nag nag nag kyle about his long hair, smh ) but once he started college, i think it just got longer and Longer and he was Going to cut it but bebe BEGGED him not to because he looked so good w/ it long, v chic, giving off duty couture runway model fr. i love you sm, long hair jersey! mwah!

BUT I HAVE ALWAYS WANTED IT BE SHORT FOR AN IMPORTANT PLOT REASON. like not just Because, like, i think kyle agrees that his hair looks better long and likes it like that so he wouldn't just randomly cut it short...but he would if it was an important reason.

my first thought was that maybe he did it before the plane ride, like cut his hair short when stan dyed his blue so they could both be dramatic and quasi-secret broken up together buuuuut...

i had a far, far Worse idea. ;)

so towards the end of RM...

-- which sorry, side bar again, but i just wanted to say, bc i have anxiety abt it and get lots of anons asking me for answers abt things i don't actually know yet. I Did Not Finish Planning Out RM. like...at all. just because its so complicated. so the stuff in the middle is kind of only half way there, some of the stuff even before ravesey get together is kind of dodgy and the end, i have Concepts for ( and plot concepts in gen ) but they're not fully formed and need to be figured out by me. so technically, you are basically building a story with me, or watching me develop it thorugh your asks...i hope that's okay? --

but, *ahem*, towards the end of rm ( i'm so sorry, guys, i'm evil ), i had plans to...FATALLY WOUND JERSEY ;) saving stan in south park, there's some violence and drama and action towards the end that involves a lot of the other characters in southpark we left behind/side characters we don't know about yet...and i kind of wanted to do something Dramatic ala tangled saving rapunzel by cutting her hair off, like, idk some very dramatic and upsetting, heroic reason that jersey's hair gets cut short....

so i'm thinking...he gets also mortally wounded in some violent and horrifyingly sad and frightening way, maybe a shard of glass cuts the hair off...but, tbh, my most Final Canon Answer is the hospital team needs access to a lot of his upper body/head/neck region and they have to cut his hair short to save his life and operate or something. so he wakes up in the hospital with stan there...with shorter hair.

( he still looks fine as hell tho! don't get it twisted, i think it kinda still curls around his ears and stuff it's not too short but it's DRASTIC )

anyways...so...Yeah. short hair jersey. dramatic, i know! and i think him groing it out post rm is him going back to being healthy and i kind of wanted to keep it like that....buuuuuut...

I had an Even WOOOOORSE idea...

which was that around the time stan dyes his hair unhinged manic panic vampire red, kyle cuts his hair short again in a sort of He Liked My Hair Long, So I Cut it Short...way.

what do we think?

-uncle nina, torturer of beautiful boys

#honestly i feel *exciting* things abt this omg #i don't have that last part planned out perfectly but involves the mackeys lackeys law student group assisting on a trial in sp #a large investigation...that resurfaces...about a ~murder~ #and its very messy and violent as it unravels and things come to light oh my god i am excited and frightened to develop/share #ALMOST MORTALLY FATALLY WOUNDED KYLE DYING IN STANS ARMS...i bet you he says smile pendejo :((((( #brb gonna krill myself to be with jersey i think its very unlikely hes going to survive bc how weak his body is from his ed the smoking #and all his chronic illnesses and everyone is scared hes gonna die and stan is at his bedside the whole time idk if their back #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAa dramatic tangled ending #i have mixed feelings abt short hair jersey like i love u and miss u long hair jers but the symbolism and the reason/plot around short hair #thats very interesting to me i like the change in the air #BUT HOW DO WE FEEL ABT THAT DRAMA OMG #I THINK THAT ITS SPICY AS HELL #not stan holding kyle in his arms kyle spitting up blood and telling him itll be okay and to take care of curb and water suzy for him #IM ILL THIS IS SICK BUT IF THIS WAS A TV SHOW I KNOW IT WOULD BE CRAZY PEOPLE WOULD BE SCREAMING AND CRYING

[silverlininghills]

UHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

#SCREAMING CRYING THROWING UP #ITS HAPPENING YOU GUYS ITS HAPPENING #the return of blurryface #WTF I CANT BELIEVE THAT TAG IS BASICALLY CONFIRMED NOW #tyler #THE SHOWS NOT TILL SATURDAY #I DONT KNOW IF ILL SURVIVE

[soldier-poet-king]

Sometimes I think I'm really emotionally intuitive and other times, like today, I'm literally the stupidest person on earth.

Am exhausted from sudden travel for unexpected funera. Have not slept nearly enough the last few days. Am staying with my father's family which means zillions of relatives I barely know or outright dislike, trying to follow conversation in a dialect I don't understand, or else standing awkwardly in the doorways. Basically just my one cousin who deigns to speak English to me, plus her 6 month old and the puppy. The food is terrible I haven't seen a vegetable in 3 days. Have been running the funeral home/wake/funeral mass/cemetery rounds for the last 2 days and while my grief isn't as severe given we weren't close, it's still a horrible tragic death, there's a crying motherless 5 yr old, and I'm surrounded by people grieving in an already EXTREMELY messy family situation. My dad's cousin has managed to make fatphobic and homophobic jokes within 24 hrs. Also the Casual Racism of this entire branch of the family. Missing work unpaid, job interview prep, my fkin artist hasn't gotten back to me abt my tattoos.

Also me. Hey I wonder why I'm so on edge and exhausted???? A mystery I'll never solve

#the duality of fran #literally i just want to go to bed #my OWN brd #with PROPER FOOD. VEGETABLES. A FRUIT EVEN #not just meat fish potatoes #IM SURVIVING ON BREAD AND BUTTER which is delicious but also #my body cannot eat just bread im gonna fuckin die #and the near constant headache between bouts of crying like #i also got roped into serving the funeral mass bc the family are not regular church goers #so my dumb ass who doenst even Know the french mass parts #was better equipped to serve #which. fine. but like. im HANGING ON BY A THREAD #and i have to be here to manage my father's emotions #instead of grieving in my own way. which sure #maybe its not dramatic given my cousin and i werent close #but she was young. it was horrible and tragic. and sudden. #and sure her illness and suffering are over. #but i still think i should be allowed to be moody

[aidenwaites]

NEW JOB !!

#im gonna cry fhdNDSN #its only 12 an hour but i did the math and so long as im getting a minimum of like 25 hours im still making more than i am currently so #ive just gotta survive the next weekend and ill be set

[kirishwima]

GEGE WHEN I FUCKING CATCH YOU GEGE.

#THE NEW LEAKS HAVE ME CRYING WTF. IVE NOT FELT THAT BAD SINCE -THE- SPOILER #jjk spoilers #dont read ahead bc ill rant bout it #but fuckin. IS ANYONE GONNA BE LEFT ALIVE?!?! #im not holding out hope for Choso bc damn. we have seen him kill others faster and harsher #and #i say one time. ONE time that i like Hiruguma n fucker is about to kill him #again my hopes are DWINDLING but like. im. ARGH #delulu kaisen indeed but m still hoping theres a way theyll survive bro. gojos gonna com back i FEEL IT HE HAS TO. ONE LAST FIGHT #choso is ded tho isnt he. he is. not yet but. delulu kaisen indeed sighh

[notmygrave]

best friend decided to move abroad next year for uni i cried so much i’m going to kill him and then kill myself

#we were all acting like he just told us he has a terminal illness fucking insane #anyways he’s not gonna go through with it all of his long term plans fail eventually #but if he does i don’t know how i’m going to survive that he’s the only person that knows what to say when i’m falling apart and i know how #to handle his moods and we’re identical we’re the same i love him so much i can’t stand the idea of him not being around #look at me crying over a man…

[alexalbongf]

#mick schumacher #drive to survive #f1edit #* #if i think abt the quality of this ill cry

[newtness532]

this is by far the worst period ive had in years, i had the most terrible cramps i felt like shit and my period brain with the regular mentally ill brain combined, i was a mess

#i also made mom worry and cry 😀👍 #today was better #especially after i agreed to finally eat something bc yes mom was right going over a day without eating and while youre bleeding is bad #tomorrow ill try to be better. get my iron earlier too #anyway i survived days 1 and 2 so i will survive the rest #jo says stuff #personal ramblings

[dufrau]

Prompt for you… Not sure if you Go Here but I love my grief driven girlies. Any version of a bly manor au? I love the way you write devotion tbh and the tlou au ruined me (this is cry at wife anon) so why not tap into more devastating source material !!

Oh man. So im answering this one specifically because I dont think i could ever write this no matter how many days i spend staring at it. Im sorry!

I have very mixed feelings re Bly Manor as a whole, but I do love this love story and I think it's very beautiful and sad but like it's sad in a way I don't think I could handle writing?

Within the context of it, obviously its about loss but also as you say devotion, and about how much the love matters when it's there and the way love echoes (the selfless kind and also the selfish kind), and about letting go in the name of love. And I'm like, INTELLECTUALLY i know there is a beautiful story there. I felt it to be very beautiful when I watched it! BUT I CANNOT LET THESE CHARACTERS GO THIS WAY IN THE NAME OF LOVE I AM HOLDING ONTO THEM TOO TIGHT I AM ONE OF THE SELFISH GHOSTS.

I think I would break my own heart trying to write this.

In real life I'm extremely pragmatic and Im like it is objectively good that character A lives a long life full of love after this part of the story is over! This is a good thing! I am happy for her! But the part of me that writes stories is a very foolish romantic who finds the TLOU au ending to be "better" than leaving one of them without the other for the rest of their lives. It's stupid! It's objectively incorrect! But it would wreck me to do this to them!

Anyway this is all to say thank you for this ask it was really nice and i loved reading it! But I'm sorry, I am too weak to fill this prompt!

#it also makes me think about like #how long forever is #and the blip of time a relationship turns into the further you zoom out #and the difference between the way things matter in a cosmic sense which stays static #and the way they matter in a human sense #which lessens the more other things happen in between #and its okay! #its literally how we survive grief #because if it stayed as big as it is at the beginning forever we wouldnt make it #but i dont know #the idea of it lessening HURTS #after my brother died i remember just feeling so offended when the seasons changed #and still its like the insult of time passing without somebody #if that makes sense #ANYWAY #the anon who has a wife to cry on #asks #somebody write this though ill cry so much

[unlicensed-un-proffesional]

Sad Story in Two sentence: (warning, very sad)

Skinny sad girl wants to eat so bad and grow big and happy, but she has no money and already ate her last emergency cup'o'noodles, all she had all day. Her legs stop working and she falls over in her bed, deciding to lay in bed all day and try to A+ all of Hotline Miami to distract herself while her tummy shrivels away and she degrades into a woefully malnourished depressed girl.

(secret bonus bright side true ending: all her cats have been fed and they make sure she knows they love her very much by laying on her and purring loud)

Leave a Lightbulb if this made you Cry and kill a capitalism.

#story so sad it made me cry. #and kill a capitalism. #uuhhhughhhyiuuuhgghhhgggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhh #ive ran out of tea now too! ugh. where is my windfall? where are my messages of en payment? fruits of my labor?fruits? where are the fruits #blegh. i -/d/i/e/- ill survive. i once went a week without eating anything but one handful of moss! i can take the pain! bringer it onn!!! #awagawagawaahwahasgwgwgwgwgwggwwggwsgshfiffofifififjfhddjjfdjdjfjcjfkdkkkkkckckckcllccmcmckkckcmccklxlckcmfgllflckgckcccmmmmmmm bleh. #hexacles.txt

[kideternity]

Digimon Savers…… I'll never forget you Digimon Savers…

#dinu yells into the void #dinu yells in the void #dinu watches digimon #digimon #literally just finished the show tonight. #WHAT A SHOW…… #digimon savers (or data squad) is deeply deeply imperfect i bitched and moaned about it to ppl on discord but i loved it. i loved it a lot. #i loved the characters and the way it goes about the world building i think the lore is really fascinating #i wish it had been longer. i wish it got appreciated by people more. #usually its a real mixed bag on if ill like cry at the ending of something #usually i dont cry anymore #but savers finale did make me cry #tamers is next on the list but I’ll probably take a break before i do ot #it* #thinking of playing either digimon survive or digimon world next order #bc i just bought next order yesterday #im just ough. i love you digimon. ill never forget you digimon.