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grawsay · 7 years

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ok im just gonna say im holding you to your promises every day im not gonna be on your ass but im not accepting last if you dont live up to your word you'll move from second to third then the past : im serious though even though i didnt do it in a serious way i love you from you head to your toe baby

You Na wait stop What was my word

me im not gonna keep telling you everyday i feel like im the master, you're the puppet we're not on the same page and i get lost for words like chelsea Dummett everytime i see your face

You Ok can we pause the free styling What's my word

me no we can't pause when it comes to us there are no laws im not the boss so stop telling me to instruct you can you read back our conversation before you overthink and it destructs you i feel like an old record player on repeat you asked me some things right before we went to sleep that night when we had that big fight And you brought your A game cause you're the samurai alright im done but that was fun

you So how's it feel Thinking back to the times when to I was like a snack or maybe a meal Now you're steady saying im changing but baby it's just the fantasy becoming real And Your not getting all of me n u don't kno how to deal So I guess rn now I'll take this opportunity to tell u how I feel all the while hoping I don't keep it too real So now I'm in out of being defensive putting up shields Blocking u out And every time we fight I b locking u out Too often finding myself knocking u out Out of your space of being my girlfriend I'm running out of ideas praying to God so he can send N I'm never one to follow with the crowd and keep up with the trend So I can just cut u off and let this just end I'm not sure if this end I will befriend you Cuz I rele love that I get to call u my boo Kno it's not Thursday but I wanna throw back to when we're just kool N All this fighting got me sick but I'm sure it's not the flu Not on the show with the blue dog but I'm looking for a clue You're asking if I care wondering if it's true Got me wondering if u doubt the fact tht I love you And honestly I kno to myself this is just one of them phases Back then u were cool now you're hot like the fire when it blazes And now I'm lost in time checking out spaces losing parts of me on some many misplaces Attempting to control time so I could put a switch on the paces noticed tht we showing each other different sides can't recognize each other like we got different faces But I'm sticking around tryna see this thru cuz I got this feeling with u is where my place is

Me You said you WERE a snack? You ARE a snack I never stopped adoring you so please remember that You dont always tell me whats wrong but always "hey beautiful" every morn And when i get in my feelings i wanna leave this meeting is adjurned That's bad on my part But things were different in the start ANd now all i see are fallacies You saying i was living in a fantasy Got me questioning if you and i were meant to be Or if i'm really a priority I dont doubt you love me i doubt our compatibility And it's killing me How things changed so fast Im struggling to stay relevant but for now im last Last on your mind IT wasn't this way in the past Some days you used to miss so much you were skipping class Some nights you called me more than you were grabbing my ass Not saying i dont like that I have no choice but to fight back You dont see that we're drifting and that's a fact i could go and just walk out and say that's a wrap but you're the best i ever had It's just the change and all this locking out that's got me so mad We're supposed to be growing I'm tired and it's showing But im not giving up as long as the wind is blowing f I know im a bit pessimistic it's my way of being realistic Sometimes i dont understand my own thoughts like it's cryptic I wanna see you succeed i dont wanna see you without me and its looking like that cant coincide coincidentally Baby sit down and think a minute is the relationship in you or are you in it are you all about us or are you all about me? Without the two of us what will this relationship be? i wanna take care of you and you take care of me cant you see i cant always be there phyically but i can emotionally But you said it takes time to rely and i keep having dreams that one of us dies one of us is left to cry and ask why why didnt we give our all when we had time : time is a factor yes but time can't stop us If time is our transportation then we're missing the bus Im not losing trust I have insecurities Loving, trusting relying, opening and getting closer should come to us naturally and i don't mean immediately but once we're losing as the days go by indefinitely that makes me question if we will last or if we're meant to be

You You're never last in my mind and thts something u don't see In the past it was just u and me No work no dance all my time was just free And now those things are here and they got me busy Not showing u attention and affection like before to this I admit I'm guilty But I will always love u even tho I'm not Whitney But I keep asking for u to bare with me I told u what was up u said u understood and deep down I was like yippie Thinking u were in the same page with me But it's clear tht your not You get upset and start saying some hurtful shit and ask me why I'm affected like I'n some kind of robot Doing stuff like tht to u is something I could not Now I'm asking where is the patience u claim u got N I ask myself will this work it's clear it might not Tht particular thought in my head is like somebody pointed the gun to my chest and took the shot And the bullet is in there and damn it's hot Everyday is just another day Tryna hold me cool and breeze it through like a palm tree and sway And It seems like my positivity bugs u like a black beetle like my name was lee swae Wait his name is swae lee And yea I find myself wondering too if it's meant to be And u got some kinda of relationship agenda it would seem to me U wanna accomplish certain things with us so we can grow like a tree But baby u need u to understand u just gota let some thing be Cuz what's kool for u to give and do me not be kool to me Cuz regardless of what u see time is a rele rele big deal to me Certain things I can't just pull of thin air⁠⁠⁠⁠ Cuz for those things got come from within me where they're anything but a thin layer U said there's no one stopping me but me But I'm the biggest obstacle they'll ever be So just giving u what u want just like tht isn't so easy And again and again I've asked h to bare with me U say yea but honestly u can't take it and I can tell cuz every time u get a little more cold icee But I'm trying so hard why can't u see Now bare in mind I said it takes time and not tht it can never be So here I am again feeling stupid now asking u to bare with me Trust me we'll grow just u wait and see But tell me of something u kno thts worthwhile tht comes easy While u think In the mean while I'll ask u to have faith in me So yea here I am again asking u to bare with me But honestly if u can't wait for me to be who I am supposed to be I'm not chaining u down so if u want to leave just go free Cuz time is of essence and it's just not free cuz often time we can hear ppl say it's money And if tht the case I don't wanna rob u Cuz I rele don't wanna see us having a court case on some divorce court boo So if it's just too much then u can just do u But just kno I do love you

me This is not going to get easier i hope you realize You're going to get busier as time flies responsibilities are going to hit you by surprise If im alrady loosing my place in your life then what would the time ahead lies Im asking that you please hear my cry I dont wanna be with another guy I dont see you as a robot You said you would change your status and up to now you did not Stop making these promises especially if you're not down with it if one thing after a next fails how am i gonna keep believing shit You're right it's not a big deal not changing is wont make us less real but it wouldn't take an hour to let the world know that im your girl though And people start observing The things they said start hurting telling me it cause your window is left open shit had me moping You promised to show me off i guess i was hoping i tried to stop bugging you but im not coping all that bottling up it started showing how am i supposed to bare with you when you're not doing simple things i asked you to do You're of the view that you're supposed to hold back and that's true Im trying to be content and not asking for anything big thing you're acting like im asking you for a ring I know you got more to add to the table than you bring Im your queen not just some fling I keep talking and asking but you're not listening That's making me doubt I always say if you can put your dick in my mouth you can listen without me having to shout and sometimes you get frustrated and shout and idk what that's about i love you but if you keep suggesting i leave i will yes i get thoughts but with your suggestions it starts to build the last guy that keep suggesting really didnt want me to stay and im happy we did this today a civil way to say what we have to say i really hope we can work all this out but if you don't claim me and keep suggesting i leave im out

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