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#idk what the invisible obstacle is this time. I've struggled with procrastination before but not like this
cisthoughtcrime
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2 years
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#what the fuck is wrong with me
#i feel like something in me broke recently and like ive had so few lucid moments in the last two weeks
#i dont feel right. physically mentally emotionally. im fucking exhausted and cant be around people or alone.
#I'm running away for the weekend. gonna hide in a motel/hotel somewhere nearby and try to force myself to get through this work
#cuz if i can just write this thing i can focus on getting the rest of my shit together
#if i just power this out
#idk what the invisible obstacle is this time. I've struggled with procrastination before but not like this
#it feels different and i feel idk. sick from it.
#im 25 & have lived 1000s of miles from where i grew up since i was 18; but i broke down crying to my mom saying i wanted to come home
#I'm a wreck and it's all self inflicted. cant even blame anyone or anything but myself. there are no external factors in this...
#...once again i have no conclusion other than that I'm the problem. im my own problem.
#and ik id feel better with this work behind me. ik I'm capable of doing it. so why am i not? why is it that every time i sit down to do it
#i feel prematurely defeated?
#even running away to a hotel for a few days to force myself to work without distractions idk if that'll remove the obstacles
#cuz im the obstacle. even alone in a room with nothing but a bed power WiFi shower & my notes for three days...
#...will i accomplish what i need to at all? will i even get close? im so tired
#on friday-saturday i slept like 18.5/24hrs and was still tired. I've done good work even in this state before why am i not doing it now
#just fucking do the work just fucking do it oh my god im so angry at myself
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