#idk if i like ikt

[barbreypilled]

one of the things I want to elaborate on in The Piss is like. Avox subculture bc I think if Avoxes were a thing prior to the first rebellion they would have proliferated and probably bred amongst themselves like ?? is this a weird thing to hyperfixate on at 9 pm on a Monday? probably.

#I’m turning 24 in 2 weeks. this doesn’t bode well #i have a few Avox ocs who show up and an oc who has been introduced already #NOT SAYING WHO #who was the product of her father. enjoying an Avox a little too much it’s very much tender is the flesh esque #I mean presumably they might also be sterilized too but Ismene definitely wasn’t…… #also I’m very intrigued by an entire underclass comprised entirely of ppl who are considered to be traitors like #cutting someone’s tongue out doesn’t technically change their political beliefs so like. what’s going on w avoxes I think they’re scheming #and like in the books Pollux is actually like participating in the rebellion so like ?? #idk I’m thinking about it!! #thg #ikte #ALSO bc Avoxes work in the transfer with non-Avoxes from district 6…..what’s going on down there I think they’re hanging out #oughe imagine being from 6 and working in the transfer and just like. running into some guy who randomly disappeared a few years ago AAAHHH

[cosmobrain00]

Hi!! Your fic series I Know The End is one of my favorites honestly. You're very talented and I could go on, but I'll save that for ao3 lol. I can't relate as a writer, but more an artist. I understand the need/want to re-do something. To start over and rework because sometimes we need to or feel we have to. However sometimes I think we are a lot harder on ourselves than we should be even when we know our results would have been better if we did something differently. Espeacilly when the thing becomes more stressful to finish than fun. Whatever you decide- do what is best for you and your stories, but do not feel pressured! It may be silly or complicated suggestion on my part(apologies), but maybe a ikte 2.0 divergence from whichever point you would want could be an alternative or make them separate timelines within that universe? You'd still have your original, but they could be seperate too. Or perhaps just asking a friend to take a look! A fresh set of eyes can help sometimes. I'm sending you lots of strength and I hope you feel better! I can't offer much, but do what makes you happiest and is fun. Whatever the turn out I am cheering you on from my side of the world. 🦖🦋

okay first off can I just say that idea is honestly really cool???? have not heard anyone suggest that n if I had not figured out a plan I think I would have actually rlly considered going that route tbh bc ??? idk canon divergence/ diff timeline of n an au of mine would actually be AWESOME bc my brand includes time fuckery and I personally love to exploit it as much as possible. & it's pretty unique too (and def not silly at all!!)

anywho, I appreciate u relating as a fellow creator (always lovely to talk to another) bc I def feel like it is a universal experience to rlly get down on urself esp when smething gets difficult that was supposed to just be a fun little project at first.

but tysm for taking the time to send me such a thoughtful msg n I rlly appreciate the support/ suggestions once again<3<3

#these asks r single handedly carrying me through the hell that is editing #like that one scene in spongebob where patrick is carrying spongebob on his back yk? #yeah im someone who references spongebob shut up #n maybe ill have something good for u gems for wip wednesday👀👀 maybe.. no promises #cosmobrain asks

[therealkags]

Two questions.

How long do you think they were in space in VLD? I'm rewatching and I cant stop thinking about it!

Like. It was mentioned that Sam was in space for 2yrs. The paladins left earth a year after kerberos but there was a fair amount of time between sam leaving and them defeating lotor. And from what we can tell, returning to earth did not take 1.5yrs, it definitly took less time than that. Which to me adds up to maybe 4 or 5 (possibly almost 6) years. AAAA i just need to know!

2. Will we see more canon compliant events?

For example, then end of season 7 (?) theres the whole sacrifice thing, are we gonna see that? I know that this is canon divergent but I can sense that we do follow a vague plot but I require answers. (I dont just mean the end of s7 but like, the REALLY BIG important stuff in general) If we do, will it be in IKTE or perhaps a third installment?

Anyway, I think my neurodivergent, obsessive ramblings are finished...for now

(I think I have more to talk about but I'll save that for another ask)

Ooooh all good questions!!

i honestly don’t know lol. i think in IKTE i switched things up to make it that sam and matt were gone for like 4 years and the paladins were gone for 2? idk tbh lol id say anywhere from 3-6 years sounds like it could be accurate in canon (including the timeskip, which i reduced to 6 months in IKTE because i hate time skips lol)

canon has gotten away from me bc i haven’t rewatched vld in sooooo long bc netflix hates college students that still use their parents’ accounts LOL. but id definitely say at this point that its all canon divergence from here tbh. im not doing the multiverse thing, that’s for sure lmao

#kags answers

[softwaring]

heyoooooOo

#i feel like i look like an alien #idk something is just off about my face doesnt feel like ikts my face #ideky i post selfies on tumblr tbhhhh jst a test zone for other socials i guess lol

[yeehawvamp]

kind bummed that im more alone than ever this year but i guess that’s what’s in the cards for me

#gotta be okay with being alone ig but idk it just feels isolating n like nobody likes me much less wanrs to be my friend #im just upset rn ig with how lst yr and this yr have turned ikt #out* like i rlly thought i was making friends and then it just didnt happen #now the universe is tryin to tell me that’s okay and im sure it is but im lonely dammit #anyways gmorning

[strawbebyjam]

i was supposed to sleep early but instead i’ve just been sitting here crying i’m so disappointed in myself can i be done caring about this can i stop please

#i'm so tired #nothing is going to change so i need to stop and it only makes sensebut i'm just so sad #and it. everything else is falling apart too #and i just #ikt's so hard #i'm sotired #ad i'm so ugl ynadn stupidand immatureand impulsivenand i never changeeven wheni try to andi hate myself os much for it !!! #i'm just tired of ! !! !myself oh my god #i literally have. the most closure i've ever had on soemthing about this and i'm handling it the worst i ever have #like i get it marya !! you thought it was forever !! but its' not and we know why and it makes sense !!! so please get that through ur head! #i just. idk #really not liking myselfright now at all #mano.mindtalk #neg

[19cvdesa]

December 3rd 2021

Okay so this is it again... trying to maintain peace of mind . I am surrounded my menaces who have found a way to infiltrate my mind as crazy as that sounds. They can forshadow my next thought and it all started that one day in December ... the day before I was “ shot” by who knows but i think I was the neighbor for there i was laying on the couch after drinking like five beers and this voice started talking about past events in my life and i caught on and listened to it. As ikt got more interesting and i applied more atention into the matter thats when I felt a huge shock enter my body and I went numb or parayloized.  I couldnt move and in the back ground I heard the words “ oh my god i cant beleive i just shot him”. It aounded like the neighbor girl who always was outside in her car but i often would ask for a cigarette here and there. The last thing i remember was walking through the hallway or more like stumbling and everything was in slow motion i was headed towards the bathroom and then everything went black. I woke up the next morning but as i woke up as soon as i woke up adrenaline hit my body but it was overcome with the most uneasy feeling ever, this was chriistmas day. It felt tlike everything was gone I was somewhere i did not know and everything was strange. In reality i was supposed to be in the middlle of hayward but if felt like i was a world away on that christmas day. the first thought that came to mind was my aunt idk but maybe as i woke up that was probably my next of kin- something terrible had happened i just didnt know what who when or why. I sat there cold and shook and it took some time to readjust again and then grabbed a beer.  That night i beleive andre came over and he brought over dinner but the world changed for me... a few days later my family arrived back from their trip in mexico but when i saw them exit the car i could see the look on their faces as if someone had sent them to die- insterad of happy faces and reunion i could sense a feeling of dispair - my sister ran into the arms of her husband and i just kinda sat and starred at eveeryone. days later i was arrested by an officer from the police depsartment and this is where the saga starts. these Rougue audio weapons projected voices that are causing so much trouble around me where also in the house that night in fact i have been dealing with the same “ characters for a while- ever since we moved into that house- imagine like living in a haunted house and your constantly hearing voices- you go to the doctors and the doctors says your dillesuinal or you have mental health isseues but in fact you dont the voices you hear are real and they were just waiting for the perfect time to strike. So as the police were called and the came up one of the voices said that these guys were the affiliated with an organization that i kept bumping heads with in the neighborhood. -- The “ mafia”... initially i met what seems to be my neighbors double and she said to me were the mafia and your going to learn to respect me- inside i said to myself nop youre not and shrugged it off- I really didnt know what it waws and what it meant i thought it was onoly something that you see in movies or was an east coast thing... i never really understtod it but things kinda changed ... well anyways i remembert being arrested and the arrest itself was a whole bunch of bull- i was arrested for being under the influemnce of a conmtrolled substance in my home after my sister called the police becasue she was scared that the mom inside the room was not the actual moma and i kept walking back and forwwards freaking her out. so she called 911 hoping to get help but in reality there are things that happened in that house that make no sense. i just rememebr when the police put the cuffs on me in the living room that i could see the horror in the eyes of those tweo little girld my sisters with what seemed to be my mom but wasnt in a weird way as this lady had a scarf over her face and was laying down with a cough that severe that we all got. things like that kinda look back and freak me out because it was there that someone came into our home and i failed to protect my family and home. I know something crqazy happened becasue when we got to the police station as regular routine would have it i remember meeting up with time and destiny - the sound of heavy metal doors shutting behind me. in the previous house we livied in i would sit outside and smoke cigaretted in the back ywrd mostly just me and wound just listien to the crazy stuff going on inside my head and i oftern heard the sound of heavy metal doors shutting but this was like two years before but that night i realized a dream had possibly come tru and for the first time i met upo with what i had heard in the back of my head and it came to real life. the doors closing- then all hell broke loose at the station but i could not see what was happening becasue i was in a cell in the back -things to right about tomooor - the extra people in the celll- lobster man- the guy behind me- then the mob- and how the police station got hit- and the possible shooting ogf  the cop who arrested me and then the voice- youre going to be involved in one of the biggest cover ups in history and then take off 

[barbreypilled]

plz actually respond to this if u see it and have been reading IKTE bc I actually don’t know what to do… I’m breaking it up into segments of 20 chapters and interlude chapters from the POV of a side character, but idk if I should keep it all in the current fic or post them separately within the same series? idk I think either one would work for me but just in terms of readability….. also one thing against breaking it up is that I have characters tagged in the original that don’t show up until like the 30th chapter so like if someone is looking for a fic that features Persephone Price heavily and they click on the original instead of the second and third installment that might be annoying? idk this is the farthest I’ve gotten in a fic and I have about 80 chapters planned as of rn. so uhhh yeah lmk what u prefer

#oh yeah Persephone is coming soon ily scary cannibal gilf #I also like keeping it as one so there’s less titles for me to come up with bc the spotify playlist is only so long. whatever yall prefer #ikte #thg #mine

[barbreypilled]

⭐ for ikte!!!

hehehehe

anyway I started writing this silly ahh fic in July 2022 after rereading the series and I have a lot of silly headcanons and silly little facts that I cooked up in my crazy brain hehehe also this is going to be annoyingly long so I'm putting it under a read more

-I’ve had the headcanon that the victors were trafficked out of a physical brothel since about 7th grade when I found out what a brothel was, i liked the idea of them all kind of commiserating. In my mind sex trafficking is actually a huge moneymaker in the Capitol even before Ptolemy’s time but he streamlined it in some way and eventually was able to monopolize it (I won’t get into that fully yet bc there’s a pretty big plot point related to that) (I spent way too much time thinking about this lmao), in addition to victors and ‘roadsiders’ as mentioned in the 3rd chapter he also gets his pick of new shipments of Avoxes, which go for way cheaper. (I’m trying to remember what has actually been published yet lmao I’m just omw home from work rn, none of this is like. major spoilers tho like I won’t talk about [REDACTED] or the [REDACTED] 🤪😎 anyway I love writing about evil shitty ppl doing weird evil shit my Baby Book headcanons are very ASOIAF coded

-idk how many chapters there are going to be yet but as of right now probably about 70, I’m contemplating breaking it up by year bc it starts w Annie’s games and ends right at the beginning of CF w a post-MJ epilogue. Im also giving pre-canon POV chapters to a few characters, as of rn I have one for Asenath and one for Ronan aka Ciaran’s dad but I can’t decide who else…. also on that note Asenath’s backstory is fucking bonkers and I can’t get into it rn without just openly spoiling a huge chunk of the second half of the fic but it’s. a lot. it starts to be hinted at in the 7th chapter which will ideally be up soon… >:)

-I have entirely too many opinions about fanon Annie and how I am literally the only person who Gets Her and I won’t get into all of that now but as an Actual Mentally Ill Person™️ I definitely don’t think the Capitol would have just left her alone after she Came Back Wrong like I definitely think the upper echelon would have kind of pretended all that never happened especially bc (at least in my take as we will see soon bc I have actually finished those chapters hehe) she was INCREDIBLY inconvenient as it pertained to mainstream entertainment/network tv but the tabloids and more low-brow media outlets would have had an absolute field day w her and that’s a major plot point in The Piss. Also as someone who has had actual psychotic episodes and has actual OCD and actual autism I’m definitely taking her in a different direction than most ppl do lmao. Also somewhat on that note I know there is a high demand for like. rly saccharine odesta content there is absolutely none of that in the piss lmao. Like they have cute little couple-y scenes but for a good chunk of it they are two deeply traumatized unemployed 18/19year olds w way too much money basically just sniping at each other until one of them overhears someone talking shit about the other and gets their child gladiator sleeper agent murder instinct triggered

-A few scenes I'm rly looking forward to publishing in no particular order without any context are The Seal Scene, Angerona Heavensbee's Wedding, the 72nd games, The Ismene Reveal, The Phoca Reveal and Persephone's introduction hehehehe and half of these are already fully finished >:)

#sorry if this is so disjointed lmao im exhausted #i wrote half of this omw home and half just now about to pass out and i have to get up early tmrw #ask #brynners #ikte #thg #i also have been in a tism spiral about this silly fic since july so i need to like. air this out