#i've mostly been keeping stuff like this to myself but like

[void-thevoid]

for some reason wanted to test out how terrifying yandere spinel could actually be-

#been wanting to get back to posting stuff like this?? #i've mostly been keeping stuff like this to myself but like #it's my house #spinel #spinel su #su spinel #steven universe #su #spinel x reader #boy howdy it's been a while since i used that tag huh #cw blood #tw yandere #void can draw!

[gramoturtle]

TWEWY Series Analysis/Theory Crafting Master Post

I have a master post for translations (included below) but I don't have one for other analysis posts that I've done. So here is a master post gathering everything here, including translations.

I do a lot of, uh, extra theory crafting and playing with ideas on my art blog, so those posts aren't going to be here unless they also contain something more concrete. If really going off on theory crafting interests you, then check out the #higher plane experimentation and the #neo higher plane experimentation tags on my art blog. For my main blog, I'm going to start tagging any analysis posts with something like #sal posts about twewy series. If I've missed a post that you think should be included, let me know!

Last updated: 2023-07-22: NEO Reaper, Pig and Soul Pulvis Wing Analysis

TWEWY

< Main Game >

Guesswork on the full and separated White, Red and Blue Noise Feathers. [20-11-04]

An Ask & Collection of Composer forms from TWEWY & Animation: I wonder if Joshua is supposed to be naked in Angel Composer form but we can't see it or we turn into dust. [23-04-03]

< Translations >

Localization: Prince’s F This [22-02-08]

NTWEWY

< Demo >

NEO Demo Analysis on Inversion: Artistic piece but also notes things that already have inverted themes. [21-07-19]

< Main Game >

Edited in the vanishing colours for each NEO intro day and finding a pattern: A reversed rainbow + grey. [22-02-10]

Wings: Reaper, Pig and Soul Pulvis, and a possible connection between them [23-07-22]

< Translations >

Issue: W2 Uzuki (not) mentioning the Composer and why Rindo doesn’t react [21-11-04]

Difference: Coco totez (not) told Uzuki she’s resurrected Minamimoto [21-12-28]

Difference: Censoring of God [22-01-06]

Difference: Coco: Summary of EN vs JP [22-01-15]

Overall: TWEWY, Animation, NEO

< Translations >

Master Post of EN vs JP translations. I'll try to keep the translations here updated, but the master post should always be the most up to date!

Shibuya’s Composer Introductions, implying it’s a role [21-11-25]

Issue: “Acting Composer” and Erasure/Destruction from 3 yrs ago [21-11-27]

Differences/potential issues: The Higher Plane, a higher plane and a Higher Plane [21-10-26]

Coco’s Dissonance Noise vs Tsugumi’s Dissonance Term [22-01-31]

#twewy #twewy spoilers #ntwewy #ntwewy spoilers #the world ends with you #the world ends with you spoilers #neo the world ends with you #neo the world ends with you spoilers #master post #sal posts about twewy series #i made this mostly because i keep losing track of the post with neo coloured in days of the week ha ha #i have the image and use it for father all the time but i like having the post on hand too #and the extracted and guess work of the noise feathers #just easier to share around for myself and others #and i might dive into analysis stuff again #even if it's already been done since i've been out of the fandom at least i'll have my own post to look back to #maybe pick up some small translation stuff again

[bloodawakening]

ooc, don't reblog.  Where does the time go?

#｡･ ╱╱ out of character † ･｡ #( hi hello I winded up being busy and having some mh stuff going on I really lost track of time keeping track of or keeping up #- like what do you MEAN my last post was 2 months ago??? - #with things has been pretty difficult atm despite having muse just been very sidetracked with art and making icons etc. ) #( t/otk also totally did not happen when I stepped away to have a small break ) #( tldr I dont like the depths but I'm sure Dan.te would have a blast - ) #(all I need to do is beat the final boss but I have put that on pause because of the prep I foresee myself needing to do TvT ) #( but I've been as okay as I can be atm I'm currently occupied mostly with art ) #( I can't say for sure when I'll be around when energy allots it but I lurk nonetheless <3 ) #( I am still gonna attempt to slowly chip away at things like icons and drafts etc. )

[arcadequeerz]

hi everyone how we doing.

#Cade.Txts #I have been mostly focusing on stimblog stuff as well as discord rp stuff lately #been fun throwing myself into my interests n things. #my anxiety has been god awful and i've been trying to focus on making n writing stuff to push back against it. #been steadily getting worse hkgjfldksjkg keep telling myself i need to go to the therapist about #this shit but its impossible wen no therapists will take my insurance or even csll me back to sechedual shit. #been trying to get help but just kinda seems like no one cares or wants to help. #n i know i have to keep Trying but it is: tiring and hard having to explain things overr n over again. #Going to to attempt to make home made stuffing for thanksgiving w my mom. #was hoping i could try n make some puff pastry apple tarts but idk if we will have the money. #speaking of which. shit is: really tight. #maybe thts why some of my anxiety has been this shit lately but everything expensive n i am tired. #But Anyways. fun time rping w friends and also making stimboards n gifs for things and stuff.

[van-ecks]

just gonna dump real quick dont mind me xo

#today's been a really bad day mentally but also i'm ???? kinda proud of myself for how i've handled it #i've def cried a lot and had a few anxiety attacks so that wasnt great but on the other hand #i've tried so hard to keep myself busy and distracted so it didnt get BAD bad yknow #like i recognised what i was feeling and tried to make it better #i read. i wrote. i cross-stitched. i watched a movie i love. i listened to some happy music.... #i reached out to a couple of friends and told them i was having a bad day and felt a bit lonely so we arranged some stuff to do #most facetiming bc they all live up north but still #mostly* #also arranged a movie night with my flatmates #and tomorrow i'm gonna make an appointment with the doctor to get back on my meds bc today got a bit scary #so like ??? yep definitely one of the worst mental health days i've had in a while but i'm so proud of how i handled it tbh #bc i spiralled definitely but i could have made it a lot worse for myself but i didnt #anyway sorry for this heavy post i just wanted a lil vent #holly.txt #mental health tw #just in case idk????

[noxtivagus]

i will do a lot this 2023 >:3

#🌙.rambles #gna be a lot kinder to myself it's alright to take things at my own pace #i'm really hoping i'll be able to improve n strengthen the bonds i have now n make new ones too >< #ffxiv.. i wld like to develop our fc more. make new friends hopefully find some my age too. #i'm an fc leader now aaaa it's nearly been like a month but i've been busy !! #i will wholeheartedly do my best to live up to the responsibility. i rlly want to grow our fc to be a comfy close knit home for my ffxiv #friends. which is. atm rn just me n apollo on our server T_T BUT ONE DAY #n then static i wld love to raid. i want to help my friends get into raiding 🥺 so there's like 3 of us in our not-yet-established static #which means 5 more. regardless i do hope i'll clear another ultimate this year (ucob?) n raid pandaemonium savage again #n then finish both nier games n ccr n other games too. watch more stuff too hopefully #my sleep's been mostly fixed so i'm going to make a nee start this year #not gna dwell on my regrets to the best i can but i'll be kind to myself if i can't help it. nothing to gain by being too harsh on myself #this year's gna be hard w responsibilities irl w school n all n i am honestly very anxious #i've repressed it a bit w the break ;;;; but i'll face it as i always have. #i will study hard! i can't erase or rewind the past but i can do better moving onwards #these memories i can't return too may hurt yes n there'll be many times where it'll burden me n. i know i'll have many hard moments this yr #but i know i'll make it through n keep on going. pain and disappointment in some way will always be inevitable #but i'm more than my despair & i know i won't be alone on this path ahead of me. never have been entirely n never will be n i'll do my best #to remember n hold unto that!!!! #that said my social energy is still very inconsistent i apologize for that n i honestly don't know what to do regarding that but #i'll find a way as i always do. even if it doesn't quite have the 'best' outcome or wtvr i'll be kind to myself #even if things don't go as i dreamed like. idk the things i wrote to myself months ago.. that's alright #i believe in myself. #i'm rambling rn wait why am i so sleepy T_T #i am very used to being alone by just myself n apollo n my family whom i love very much so i may be really reserved w my friends #i barrly reach out n my social energy is typically inconsistent bcs of uhh old friendships that fucked up too but #i. god i cld just ramble abt this more n more but i think i'll be reaching cap for tags soon #that said though i'm really so grateful. for all the memories last yr. all the ppl in it; old friends n new. each moment each word #all of it. i write so much more than you'll ever know n.. even so i really don't think i can write enough to convey the depth of all the #love i have for like yk my family my friends n everything so dear to me in life :<< tyvm for 2022 genuinely yes

[astrxealis]

i really want to make gifs of fuuta's 2nd trial mv while it's still really new. idk if i should post them if ever though... <- has never posted any of my edits of any sort and gifs. even icons

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #⋯ ꒰ა milgram ໒꒱ *·˚ #nah i only have like. access to canva for paid. and it's education and not even pro LMAO ty to school for providing canva education <3 #yeah but i only really use canva and photopea and take a fucking long time doing anything related to editing #it's fun and a great way to pass time esp bcs i take a long time but for time efficiency... not really <//3 #i'll do my homework first and then ya ^___^ #i want photoshop but if you get me i don't want to YEAH. not only do i hate yeah i also don't like paying often #like ofc i do for what i need but i. barely spend my money (it helps knowing that idk how much money i even have) #idk maybe it sounds good like 'yo you don't waste money' but also it sucks idk how to handle money at all and stuff #i rmbr being so excited planning for getting ffxiv. laying out the costs and all. LMFAO ya i only really pay for xiv sub and that's it #cash shop i only have a few stuff bcs i've been there for old events and my friend (very generous. big brother guy) gifted us stuff #fuuta's voice is so good. man i keep getting distracted this went from editing to money and then ffxiv and then fuuta #UHM ANYWAYS...... anyways............. yeah i just do really simple edits. just literally changing the color and all #but you see i often like things most when it comes from me. or my friends. or if it is personalized #so i don't like taking random things! idk the process feels best when it comes from me but i also love stuff that have heart in it #and if it's yk. oh. this is for me. ig i'm just used to mostly having to do things for myself bcs i don't get it often from others </3 #braindead. it is 1 pm. i will finish my homework (soon!) #i love all milgram characters. i was a bit yk to muu and kotoko but i think i understand kotoko better after studying fuuta more #and i get now ^^ it's a bit hypocritical to vote her innocent and fuuta guilty but at the same time it depends on what you value #and also did people really not expect her to. do that. hello. i saw that coming from a mile away but yeah you can't predict the future #so makes sense too! tbh im a fuuta innocent guy but i do believe guilty first trial is best but also wow the effects of guilty 1st trial #were yeah. but taste of his own medicine (real!) i just hope the others get that too. in time. #specifically muu and kotoko bcs though i love them they still iff me a bit (is that even a word) #tbh my feelings on milgram characters are complicated but i think i'm complicating it too ngl. #obsessed with mikoto though. his voice!!! his va slaying as always #tbh w kotoko it's mostly that i think she's getting ahead of herself. in a way. i think that's how to say it but i'm not sure #with muu. i think i get her but it's more of fuuta for me and i think that's why yeah? but i like muu she was one of the first that #caught my eye from b4 i watched the mvs and all!! i think it might be that she reminds me a tiny bit of myself #but in a way i'd rather not admit or something i don't like about myself that makes me like her less. curious #hi um i wrote a lot more tags but they stopped after 30 oops. i took screenshots tho <3 anyways this is a 20 minutes post BYE

[nexus-nebulae]

i wonder when the last time was that i went more than 24 hours without taking any form of medication

#i take at least three a day usually now #i mean even when i was a kid i had to take medicine all the time I've always been sick from something #but i don't know if i ever had a time where i DIDN'T #probably during middle or high school when i lied to myself about being healthy #but when i was a kid i mostly just had to take allergy medications and stuff a lot #and there was one thing i had to take all the time that was a gross goop idk what it was for tho #but it was grape flavoured which is probably why I hate grape so much also i despise liquid medication textures #i hate when liquids or gels are gritty at the same time it's the worst thing #i am also now realising how much pepto i took as a kid ive had stomach issues for a damn long time #i just never registered pepto as medicine bc it was bubblegum flavoured and actually tasted GOOD compared to all other medicines #which it's important that medicines DON'T taste too good to keep kids from trying to eat it like candy #which i definitely tried to do with pepto sometimes #i never actually succeeded coz my parents were good at keeping it away from me #at least until i figured out how to climb on top of the kitchen counters but by then i was smart enough not to (i think) #and anyways why grab the pepto when i can climb on top of the refrigerator to find my halloween candy #yeah i regularly climbed on top of the fridge as a kid i was fuckin nuts

[torajira]

what's up subscribers it's like 3:30 so i'm gonna journal a little!

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#gnashes #things are slow and fast at the same time. let me explain: #my new job starts on october 17th (my mum's birthday actually) and this is. a big deal. #for one‚ it's my first job ever! secondly it's sn office job with like. good pay. like great pay in fact given i still live with my parents #and stuff‚ so absolutely COLOSSAL changes are coming... just‚ not yet! #the wait is the hard part‚ because that's when doubt manifests. what if i can't handle it‚ what if i have no free time anymore‚ blah blah #i've been doing my best to quell those feelings though‚ mostly by keeping myself distracted. #that's partly why i've fallen back into yakuza again in a manner that might suggest i have an anvil attached to my ankle! #(also last time i got into yakuza i couldn't properly because... nvm i cba explaining) #my computer is still having complications unfortunately. but the cpu+motherboard are still under warranty‚ so right now i'm just fighting #with amazon to get them replaced. so again it's just! a waiting game unfortunately! #my sleep schedule is completely DESTROYED at the minute. #i really need to get that in check before october #my main focus right now‚ project-wise‚ is the newport project. i've been reworking it again‚ rejigging arc 1 and 3 especially‚ but my main #goal at the moment is a new name actually! i never liked 'the newport project' anyway and it was always intended to be a working title‚ #not to mention‚ now that i'm doing a tnp rewrite (still doing that btw!) it's SO confusing having 2 ongoing projects with the same acronym #i keep clicking into my new prophecy folder instead of my newport project folder on gdrive and vice versa 🙄 #i'd really like to share more about it soon! #it's funny how much of it is fleshed out even though like 90% of the characters don't have designs yet. i guess thst just means i'm more #focused on the writing itself‚ which isn't exactly a bad thing. #but yes! i should. share some stuff #uh if you read this far i'm kissing your hands like you are nobility and i am a lowly peasant boy

[artekai]

I'm definitely the slowest HFW player in the world ;-;

If Sylens isn't there the next time I play I'm rage quitting lol

#ramble #idk i had fun last time but i just don't feel like continuing right now i guess... #and idk if it's just the irl stuff ruining my mood or my personal enjoyment of the game itself #tbh i've been mostly been pressuring myself to finish it bc i wanna unblock the tags and interact with the fandom #i wanna make some new friends and stop bothering my current friends with my no context ho//rizon ramblings haha you know? #but idk i'm still embarrassed from that one fic and that one art and maybe one or two unanswered asks #i do like making friends but i don't wanna keep putting myself out there for those slim chances lmfao :') #i'm not gonna sacrifice my self-confidence for that lol #also my social battery probably can't handle more than trying to keep the friends i already have rn. so maybe it's for the best #but then i don't really have a reason to push myself to finish h/f/w... except to figure out where artekai and fross fit i guess... #dammit. i forgot i made fross a f/ar ze//nith. damn. lmfao. guess there's no way around it asfghjfgd #i'm gonna need to finish h/f/w for him lmao. dammit. well hopefully he gives me at least a little motivation

[stellardeer]

TL;DR - How would you kick someone out of your house without involving police? and Should you?

My no-note blog is probably not the best place to ask this question, but maybe someone will come along and answer, who knows.

So in the ideal circumstance that we abolish the police, I've been wondering about a specific scenario. Say there is a person in your home, for whatever reason, who has no legal right to be there, and you do not want them there (again, for whatever reason) but they refuse to leave and you want to forcibly remove them from your home.

Most people nowadays would threaten to call the cops on them, and usually that alone is enough to get people to leave. I've never actually had this problem myself, but I've known numerous people who've talked about these kinds of situations (and coincidentally they were all middle class, if that tells you anything...) I, personally, would think twice (or a million times) about calling the cops on someone, especially if the person in question is particularly vulnerable to police brutality. So, even if the police aren't abolished, I still want to know the proper alternative to handle this kind of situation.

I'm a pretty weak, easily overpowered person, so my first instinct would be to like.. call someone I know or go get a strong neighbor or something to help me get this person off of my property.

I know that the specifics of the situation also play a key role here, too, on how to handle it. Like, if the person is reasonable, I would hope that just telling them to leave would get them to go - easy enough. But if they refuse to move.. what do I even do? If it's someone that I know very well, I might think to take a break and just walk away from them and hope we can sort things out once we've calmed down. If it's someone that I don't know very well, though, (not even necessarily an intruder, but just say someone who is overstaying their welcome) and especially if tensions are not even high, I wouldn't really know what to do. Some states even have squatters rights, so like.. sometimes you literally CAN'T do anything about this person being in your home, and in some cases they can even get you kicked out. I think it's kind of obvious that if the person clearly has violent intentions towards me, then I have a right to defend myself, but again, I am not going to be able to do that by myself, and I don't know what the legalities are around asking for help from another citizen, i.e. not a cop, if someone means to do you harm?

And what if you do ask for help and your helper ends up injuring the person in the process of trying to get them out?? I'd imagine it's still better than calling a cop, and risking getting a life-ruining criminal record, or worse, shot and killed. But I'd also imagine there could be grounds for them to sue if they get injured by the helper since the helper is not a professional of any kind and not protected in anyway. Only some states have protections against self defense anyway, and I don't know if it even counts if you invited the person into your home willingly and they weren't being violent to begin with. Like.. if they person is just stubbornly standing there and then your burly neighbor puts hands on them first, I don't think that even counts as self defense for the homeowner? At that point if the person fights back then they have a case for self-defense.

And I don't know what the leftist attitude is towards personal property like that anyway, like should we even have a right to our own home? I don't know the leftist view on that, I get the idea that individualism is not the move, but like.. do we still have our own personal space? Space that we are allowed to bar others from entering? Even if that space extends to the entirety of a 2-bedroom home? I'm asking sincerely, because I really haven't read enough socialist theory, so I don't know what the opinions are on home ownership in general. Like in an ideal society, would we supposedly just allow the person to stay for as long as they like, as long as they aren't hurting anything? That's another part of it, like what if they aren't doing any harm but I still don't want them there? Am I wrong for wanting them to leave, even if I don't know them? Supposing even if they are an intruder, if they haven't stolen anything or hurt me or my animals, but they just... won't leave, should I even be mad about that?

But again, forget an ideal society, let's take it back to reality, assuming that I live in the US and the laws are exactly the same as they are in this moment, police are not abolished, but I am choosing to not involve the police in this matter... what is the right thing to do???? Should I just resolve myself to accept that this person lives with me now?? I don't even live in a state with squatters rights, so I don't legally have to, but.. should I? (more thoughts and anecdotes if the tags if you feel like reading)

#leftism #socialism #communism #abolish police #this is open to debate for anyone it's one half sincere question and one half ethics think piece #like.. there may not be any one 'right' 'good' answer for every situation i just want to hear opinions from people who know more than me #please try to be civil and i know this might sound like a stupid question but I'm asking it in good faith #I feel like a LOT of people (at least US citizens) will just tell me 'well duh you have a right to not want someone in your space' #but like idk i've been thinking over this for a few days now and questioning if I even do have that right?? #like obviously i have a right to boundaries but do i have a right to a 784sq ft home? #if i have extra space im not occupying all of the time is it wrong for me to keep someone out of it? #i'm someone who prefers to live alone and i've just recently got my house to myself after having a guest for over a year #he is a friend of mine and it made me miserable having him here sometimes (despite him doing nothing wrong) #but our other friends kept telling me to kick him out and i just couldnt believe they would even suggest that?? #like.. just because i want to live by myself doesn't mean it's better to put him out on the street?? #i still cant believe they saw no issue with that #and not once while he was here did i ever consider making him leave so this question isn't about him or anything #this anecdote is just an example of like.. differences in opinion on personal space #i have a 2-bd trailer and i've been waiting to turn my second bedroom into an office #but i let him live in the extra room while he was here because i was able to get by just fine without it #but i think i might feel different if someone i didnt know just showed up in my home one day and wanted to live here #or what if my friend (not that he would EVER) did become violent and i DID need to force him to leave? like .. what do?? #this question mostly came up because someone i met recently was telling a story about a terrible roommate he had #but his (the person telling the story) parents owned the property or something and this guy's lease was up but he wasn't leaving #so they threw all his stuff out because he had been gone for a couple weeks and they assumed he wasnt coming back #but then he showed up one day looking for his things and was trying to take stuff from the kitchen #and the guy (telling the story) told him that he couldn't take anything and he needed to leave and said he would call the cops if he didn't #and i kept my mouth shut (especially cause the roommate sounded particularly foul) but i would not dream of calling the cops over that #but it was like... just because they owned the property and he didn't want him there calling the cops was a perfectly reasonable response #it sickens me

[bladeofthestars]

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#currently having one of those shits you have to get naked for #curled over the toilet and yelling as quietly as possible #hopefully whatever this is is out of my system before i have to go to lessons tomorrow #would hate to have to call off #i've been pretty consistent about my practice and would like to actually get good at it #also excited to go out for a latte tomorrow and put the lavender flowers i just bought in it. they smell super pungent so should be good #would also like to write or draw sometime soon #have mostly just been playing videogames with my SO when they're home and various homemaking stuff or piano practice when they're not #we desperately need to move out of here which means i need a job which aaaaaaa #i have desperately fucking needed this break after how that place was treating me #hoping to get a work from home job again to make moving easier #also would like to not burn through my entire savings but ey whaddaya gonna do sometimes ya know? #between med bills student loans keeping gas in my car groceries car insurance and whatever the fuck else life throws my way #my decently sized savings will likely dwindle fast #my partner is currently covering my car insurance but like. i pay significantly more than that amount for our shared groceries #maybe double or triple the monthly cost of my car insurance #and they have like 0 bills except the amount taken out paycheckly to have health insurance #hate ever even suggesting to take up more of the load tho #just awkward to talk about #in any event #here's to hoping for a decent wfh job. it's much easier to take care of the home and myself with wfh.

[inkskinned]

what is with men being mad any time a woman raises her voice where did that even come from. someone posted a video of a small electrical explosion, and the top comment was of course the woman screams. the second comment is women try not to scream challenge, level impossible. i had to go back and watch the video again. there is, somewhat fainty, a little gasp emitted off-camera, more of a yelp than a scream. it is mostly lost in the crack of the explosion. afterwards, you hear her voice, shaken, say, are you okay?

i am helping one of my friends train her voice pitch lower, because she wants to be taken seriously at work. she and i do each other's nails and talk about gender roles; and how - due to our appearance - neither of us have ever been able to be "hysterical" in public. we both appear young and sweet and feminine. she is cisgender, and cannot use her natural voice in her profession because people keep saying she appears to be "vapid". we both try to figure out if our purposeful voice lowering is technically sexist. is it promoting something when you are a victim to it?

a storm almost sends a pole through a car window. in the dashcam, you can hear the woman passenger say her partner's name twice, crying out in alarm. she sounds terrified. in the comments, she is lambasted for her lack of calm. how is that even fucking helping?

in high school, i taught myself to have a lower voice. i had been recorded when i was genuinely (and righteously) upset; and i hated how my voice sounded on the phone speakers when it was played back. i was defending my mom, and my voice cracked with emotion. it meant i was no longer winning the argument: i was just shrieking about it.

girls meet each other after a long summer and let out a little joyful scream. this usually stops around 12-14, because people will not tolerate this display of affection (as it has the effect of being passingly annoying). something about the fact that little girls can't ever even be annoying. we are trained to examine each part of our lives (even joy) for anything that could make us upsetting and disgusting. they act like teenage girls are breaking into houses and shrieking you awake at 3 in the morning. speaking as a public school educator: trust me, it's not that bad, you can just roll your eyes and move on. it does not compare to the ways boys end up being annoying: slurs in graffiti, purposefully mocking your body, following you after you said no. you know, just boy things.

there's another video of a man who is not allowed to yell in the house, so he snaps his fingers when he's excited about soccer. the comments are full of angry men, talking about how their brother is unfairly caged. let him express himself and this is terrible to do to someone. eventually the couple has to address it in a second video: they are married with a newborn baby. he was trying not to wake the infant up. there is no comment on the fact women are not allowed to yell indoors. or the fact that it could have been really alarming or triggering for his wife. sometimes i wonder if straight men even like women, if they even enjoy being in relationships with them.

for the longest time, i hated roller coasters because it always felt inappropriate and uncomfortable for me to scream. one of my friends called me on it, said it was unusual i'm so unwilling. i had to go to my therapist about it. i don't like to scream because i was not raised in a safe situation, and raising my voice would have brought unsafe attention towards me. even when i am supposed to scream, it feels shameful, guilty. i was not treated kindly, so i lack a basic form of self-protection. this is not a natural response. it is not good that in a situation of high adrenaline - i shut up about it.

something very bad is happening, i think. in between all the beauty standards and the stuff i've already discussed - this one feels new and cruel in a way i can't quite express. yes, it's scary and silencing. but there's something about how direct it is - that so many men agree with the sentiment that women should never yell, even in an emergency - it feels different.

is the word shriek gendered automatically? how about shrill or screech? in self defense class, one of the first things they tell you is to yell, as loud and as shrilly as you can. they say it will feel rude. most women will not do this. you need to practice overcoming the social pressure and just scream.

most women do not cry out, even when it's bad. we do not report it. we walk faster. we do not make a scene. what would be the point of doing anything else? no matter what we do, we don't get taken seriously. it is a joke to them. an instagram caption punchline. we have to present ourselves as silent, beautiful, captivating - "valuable."

a woman is outside watching her kids when someone throws a firecracker at them. she screams and runs towards her children. in the comments, grown men flock together in the thousands: god. women are so annoying.

#warm up #writeblr #this one has bothered me for a bit #any time a woman does something even passingly annoying we treat it like a fucking crime #hey man. women are allowed to be annoying. everyone forever is allowed to be passingly annoying #as long as they aren't hurting anyone/thing #like u wanna know something? i find it super annoying that men don't wear seatbelts #why arent there thousands of comments on driving videos thats just like : men try not to die in a car crash challenge #''this briefly annoyed me''. okay??????? AND????????????????? go get ur self a cookie and calm down about it #ur not entitled to control other ppl's experiences and emotions just so u can maintain ur own peace #if being briefly annoyed ruins ur whole day! you! need! therapy!!!! #men try not to become immediately angry about nothing challenge: level impossible #ps author is nonbinary. we didn't even get into the gender presentation thing #the fact men think it's SEXY that my voice is on the lower end....

[vetyr]

hi, i ireally love your work and i don't know if you've answered this before but, what kinds of studies do you do or how did you learn color theory? i wanna get better at rendering and anatomy but im having trouble TT TT

Hi! Long answer alert. Once a chatterbox, always a chatterbox.

When I started actively learning how to draw about 10 1/2 years ago, I exclusively did graphite studies in sketchbooks. Here's a few examples—I mostly stuck to doing line drawings to drill basic shapes/contours and proportions into my brain. The more rendered sketches helped me practice edge control & basic values, and they were REALLY good for learning the actual 3D structure behind what I was drawing.

I'd use reference images that I grabbed from fitness forums, Instagram, Tumblr, Pinterest, and some NSFW places, but you could find adequate ref material from figure drawing sites like Line of Action. LoA has refs for people (you can filter by clothed/unclothed, age, & gender), animals, expressions, hands/feet, and a few other useful things as well. Love them.

Learning how to render digitally was a similar story; it helped a lot that I had a pretty strong foundation for value/anatomy going in. I basically didn't touch color at all for ~2 years (except for a few attempts at bad digital or acrylic paint studies), which may not have been the best idea. I learned color from a lot of trial and error, honestly, and I'm pretty sure this process involved a lot of imitation—there were a number of digital/traditional painters whose styles I really wanted to emulate (notably their edge control, color choices, value distributions, and shape design), so I kiiind of did a mixture of that + my own experimentation.

For example, I really found Benjamin Björklund's style appealing, especially his softened/lost edges & vibrant pops of saturated color, so here's a study I did from some photograph that I'm *pretty* sure was painted with him in mind.

Learning how to detail was definitely a slow process, and like all the aforementioned things (anatomy/color/edge control/values/etc.) I'm still figuring it out. Focusing on edge control first (that is, deciding on where to place hard/soft edges for emphasizing/de-emphasizing certain areas of the image) is super useful, because you can honestly fool a viewer into thinking there's more detail in a piece than there actually is if you're very economical about where you place your hard edges.

The most important part, to me, is probably just doing this stuff over and over again. You're likely not going to see improvement in a few weeks or even a few months, so don't fret about not getting the exact results you want and just keep studying + making art. I like to think about learning art as a process where you *need* to fail and make crappy art/studies—there's literally no way around it—so you might as well fail right now. See, by making bad art you're actually moving forward—isn't that a fun prospect!!

It's useful to have a folder with art you admire, especially if you can dissect the pieces and understand why you like them so much. You can study those aspects (like, you can redraw or repaint that person's work) and break down whether this is art that you just like to look at, or if it's the kind of art that you want to *make.* There's a LOT of art out there that I love looking at, probably tens of thousands of styles/mediums, but there's a very narrow range that I want to make myself.

I've mentioned it in some ask reply in the past, but I really do think looking at other artist's work is such a cheat code for improving your own skills—the other artist does the work to filter reality/ideas for you, and this sort of allows you to contact the subject matter more directly. I can think of so many examples where an artist I admired exaggerated, like, the way sunlight rested on a face and created that orange fringe around its edge, or the greys/dull blues in a wheat field, or the bright indigo in a cast shadow, or the red along the outside of a person's eye, and it just clicked for me that this was a very available & observable aspect of reality, which had up until that point gone completely unnoticed! If you're really perceptive about the art you look at, it's shocking how much it can teach you about how to see the world (in this particular case I mean this literally, in that the art I looked at fully changed the way I visually processed the world, but of course it has had a strong effect on my worldviews/relationships/beliefs).

Thanks so much for sending in a question (& for reading, if you got this far)! I read every single ask I receive, including the kind words & compliments, which I genuinely always appreciate. Best of luck with learning, my friend :)

#answers to asks #illustration #art advice #art help #drawing #digital art

[theminecraftbee]

task: answer the following question. do you believe in curses? respond as completely with relevant information as possible.

Grian: Well, that's a lie. This isn't a task. I know it's not a task, I set the things up! Not sure why we're getting a question as pointless as this one, but sure, mysterious scroll, I'll answer. There's no such thing as curses, unless you're Timmy, in which case it's funny, yeah? Besides, I didn't actually kill Etho. Even if that did count, self-fulfilling prophecies aren't the same thing as curses, and I know which one I fall under.

Joel: Do I believe in bloody curses what kind of question is that? Do I really get hearts just for answering this? This feels like a prank or something... well, whatever. There are no such thing as curses, except the Boogeyman curse, which I sort of had today, but it wasn't actually the same at all. A lot of the bloodlust, sure, but a lot more... Etho had to be the one to do it, huh? And it's not the same. Not comforting. That's a stupid thing to say actually. Take it out of wherever you're putting this. Cut it out of the recording. Comforting. Please. As if it were ever... Yeah, I'm done actually. Don't have a good answer. Go away.

Scott: What, other than Jimmy? Bless that man, he may not have died first, but he sure tried his best. Sure, I'll believe Jimmy is cursed. I mean, mostly he's just kind of stupid. Lovingly so. I mean, despite him being stupid, I put up with him, right? That seems like a complete answer to this question. Jimmy's an omen but we put up with him anyway. That's all.

Mumbo: NO RESPONSE GIVEN.

Pearl: Oh, I mean, I'm probably cursed. That's what everyone liked to say at one point. I think... I mean, I think this time I have good friends, which is nice. They don't think I'm cursed. And it's not like I--I mean, it's surprisingly fun, acting cursed! And I am just acting. Acting scary, blowing up dance floors, all of that. And I don't really have to this time, so... Maybe I'm not cursed? And since it's acting, it's not real? This is a weird question.

Etho: Oh, man, that's a question. Um, do I have to answer? Because I feel like if I say no, that's really just asking for it, but if I say yes, I have to explain myself. Uh, I think I'm abstaining, unless the zombie thing from earlier counts. That was scary and I hated it. Curses are scary and I hate them in general, but apparently I'm good at them, if you ask everyone else. Um, it's not the only thing I find scary that apparently I'm good at.

Scar: Why, of course I believe in curses! Look at poor, poor... Timbert? Timmy? Jim? Gosh, sorry, I'm very tired right now. That's more proof of curses, by the way! That I'm tired. I've been tired straight since the desert, let me tell you what. And that, my friends, is a curse like no other. What a terrible beast, loneliness is. Wish me luck breaking it, because it's not happening this season!

Cleo: Oh, you mean the thing people like to blame instead of their own actions? Nah. My soulbond was kind of a curse, I guess, but even that's at least half just... bad people. Bad relationships. Good ones, too. We're all just doing what you can, you know? No script, no curses, no characters, just... Oh, I hope everything turns out tomorrow. Sorry, that's unrelated. It's just nicer to hope than to preemptively blame things on curses that don't exist.

Impulse: Well, I mean, I didn't until you just asked me that, but now I feel like I should. Wouldn't that be nice? Being cursed instead of just sort of unlovable? Sorry, no, that's mean to Gem. I shouldn't say that about Gem, she's been good this season. Super, super cursed, mind you, in the like, game mechanic sense? But she's been good, no backstabbing or inability to get love involved. Um, and I guess that's not fair to Bdubs, kind of, except it also totally is and I haven't forgiven him. So I guess if they ask I said I believed in curses, and that's why my life keeps circling clocks? Don't put any of that other stuff down, I'm trying to work on that.

Lizzie: NO RESPONSE GIVEN.

Gem: I was just cursed for a task, but that probably isn't what you're asking about, right? I'm new, so I don't know! A task is a concrete thing to believe in, like bloodshed or victory or fun and games. You don't have to believe in those to know they're real, either! They just are, whether you like it or not. I understand that much!

Tango: Gah, don't talk to me about... Deep breaths. Look, I don't care if it's a curse, or if it's just me being really bad, or what, I'm not going out pointlessly this time. Jimmy managed not to die first, I can manage to not go out to a stray arrow or my own bomb or a misstep this time, right? Is that so much to ask?

Skizz: Huh? Curses? I mean, I don't think so, and to be totally honest I think it's kind of mean the way people sometimes rag on people about them. Everyone's got so many good things about them! Why do people like to focus on the unfortunate luck, huh?

Bdubs: Hah! Curses! Let me tell you about curses. When I see curses, I eat them for breakfast. I don't got curses, I've got better things to do! I've got my buddies with the Mounders, and I've got-well, I'd say keeping Etho safe, but he's being weird at me again this season. Not that it matters. It never matters. Etho and I, we're... The point is, that doesn't matter anyway, because I have the Mounders, and they're the ones who matter here. And because I'm a strong, independent Bdubs, who doesn't need anyone but my bow and my perfect, flawless fighting prowess! Sorry, what was the question? I've been thinking so much lately that it's just sort of made everything else pop out of my head, so it's hard to keep track. I'm sure I answered it flawlessly, though.

Martyn: Of course there are curses. That's half the fun for you lot, isn't it? Putting your little curses on us and watching us rail against them. Bet you think it's real cute to ask us what we think of the things, too. "Oh, what do you think of curses," like we have any control over them. Please. If I had any control over curses, Jimmy--or, well, no, I guess that one was technically broken, wasn't it? Sure doesn't feel like it. Point is, curses are bad, and they're definitely real, and I hate you for them, got it?

BigB: Look, man, if you're trying to get me to write my character out for you, just say so! I won't tell anyone. We can come up with a hole thing about holes and red tasks and the Backrooms together! It'll be fun! After all, you probably don't know what kind of curse to say I have, right? Haha, just kidding. I have no idea what I'm talking about. Luckily, neither does anyone else, so I think that evens out between the lot of us.

Jimmy: NO RESPONSE GIVEN.

#secret life smp #a bee fic #not tagging everyone in this because it's. everyone #anyway i have wanted to write this for like TWO WEEKS so i figured that now's as good a time as any #anyway this is probably as thinly disguised as my character meta gets #we talk a LOT in this fandom about curses #we talk about whether we like them as fanon we talk about whether we dislike them we talk about who has them we talk about why #we talk about if they're here or broken or anything else #so i'd like to think the characters have an opinion on curses too after how much talking about them we've been doing #...at least the characters around to tell us their opinions do. #(anyway for all I claim this is thinly disguised character meta it IS actually of note that this isn’t actually about if they believe) #(but instead about how they’d respond if they were asked) #(hence why half of them don’t even answer the right question) #(this is why I’m not good at character meta btw)

[noxtivagus]

hdflkjasdklf i'm just thinking of certain characters n stories hehe

#🌙.rambles #no bcs why out of all gbf characters it is Belial that is on my mind lately.. 💀 he's so sus but there's smth sad abt him to me that i think #uh. makes me. feel drawn. SOMEHOW. charas in general that like i don't like them just bcs they're sad. i just Like them n later realize how #similar i am in a way n huh. maybe part of me. perhaps not really relate but i think i understand ^ him with lucilius. but. nyways #sometimes i find myself having ideas from time to time for. scenarios n stories n maybe not super concrete? even just the idea or the #emotion & sentiment of it. even if it's a mess bcs i just dump phrases n words from time to time. #i really like reading my own words. they remind me a lot of myself n resonate a lot with me.. i wrote them all after all before. #😭 ok i just got a notif bcs i have smth due in 24 hours from now.. (-> i ended up venting again but i have no more space to tag it) #there's a lot i'm stressed abt. anxious even. it's not rlly a big deal in the end n eventually the burden of my regrets will hurt less but #noooo i keep on rambling abt that i guess there's rlly just so much weighing me down in my mind But i will persevere!!!! #imagining stuff or wtvr n indulging in. idk any form of self-expression n being creative brings me so much comfort #when the break comes i'll read books i'll write stuff too i'll watch stuff i'll play video games i'll play/listen to music i'll. yeah. Live #like i want. but like success has always still meant a lot to me i'm too strict on myself w that so w school i constantly just feel trapped #even if assignments r easy n i understand all my lessons in general. i'll pass CETs certainly i'll succeed in the future i know that's who #i'll be but every single mistake just tears me apart and makes me forget who i am as a whole. i've always been 'better' in a way than your #average person i've always mostly generally done well & good but never ever quite the 'best'. so while i do love my intelligence n all as #a whole. ffs i know better but i end up being too harsh when it comes to my shortcomings. so. stuff like stories n games n yeah #those allow me to be free in a way. from my own restraints. from my own cage. so to not. be able to do that too rlly makes me forget myself #while w work n personal stuff like that i'm mostly sure of myself but when it comes to. me w ppl in this world. it's so. unpredictable? #that's just how ppl r. it's. intriguing to me definitely but. confusing. i long to belong but it's hard when most of my life i've felt.. #i'm not rlly sure how to phrase it. it's in my head but yeah. so.. i'm rlly just a mess w that. i think i tend to isolate n distance myself #so easily bcs i fall far too much w the thought that. nothing much wld change? recently i'm so confused too bcs i'm aware of reality but #then i'm also just so confused n then a mess in general but i'm returning to like my old self when it comes to stories. embracing that agai #understanding myself a bit more while being distant w others but also lost for the very same reason. ITS SO CONFUSING n complex ofc. #which is. v human ig. but i'm not taking care of myself well so ffs it feels like i'm falling behind but i'm technically productive w work? #stuck between remembering. v well. i'm not too brain empty in the present too. n. i've been v keenly aware of the future #it's all going far too fast n i'm not keeping up Well Enough. the helplessness i think i wrote a while back #bcs i want to stop or i want to do smth or just change n get things done but it's not That easy. n it's been like this for so long now #i'll be fine my mind's just a mess rn n i'm just so frustrated w myself but i'm well enough. a bit empty but i'm fine. #there's a lot more to write n i could have done this in my notes but i'll stop anyways i'll work now. i'll try not to stay up Too late 🥹🫶🏼