#i'm taking a break from ttrpgs altogether for a while bc i need it

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Interrupting my own scrolling to realize how fucking grrrrrawrawrawr it is for absolute beloved asshole doctor nithral baines to have two names—a first and a last (HELL IT'S THREE BECAUSE HE'S NICKNAMED THE SCALPEL BY BARDS)—he didn't choose, only to be given the choice to take a (last) name that has become partially his by way of him choosing it the same way he chose to love the man who gave it to him. i CANNOT believe i only found a way to put my feelings about that interaction into words just now.

the fucking feeling of "i'll offer to let you share my surname if you'd make it more comfortable, but you don't have to" and him choosing to. him getting to choose his name. him choosing to share a name with someone he fucking loves fucking what

this is not even my character even though my character is involved and i am just absolutely fucking bananas fosters bonkers about this shit right now oh my fucking god

#; the citrus speaks #; healing hands #; lemon thesis moment #i'm taking a break from ttrpgs altogether for a while bc i need it #but god damn can i ever still think about the blorbos #the fucking gays in my phone #the bard and doctor. the sunshine and grump. the hopeless romantic and the unromanceable (oops). #i also did not put this into words well #i just needed to not derail the post that made this thought click tbh #because man #MAN #AUGH #THEIR RELATIONSHIP IS SUCH A FUCKING SHARP DICHOTOMY BETWEEN SHIT LIKE THIS AND NITHRAL DEALING W YAEV BEING SILLY #EVERY TIME I REALIZE LIKE. WOW THEY ARE SO IN LOVE. IT HEALS ME SO MUCH #THEY HAD TO GO THROUGH SO MUCH TO GET HERE #GOD #anyway #uhh #tw caps #oops #and also #; lemon's inane ramblings #double oops uwu