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#i’ve been disassociating too often i accidentally keep checking out which is pissing ppl off
beepmon
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8 months
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i’m panicking about my health, my car, school, my future, my relationships with ppl, about my entire life rn p much
#bumbles (bee mumbles)
#as much as i hated my dad i did feel a certain amount of security when i could rely on him for the few things i could
#he was like a car necromancer
#it would function but just kinda barely zombie like vers
#and now that he’s passed almost all at once all the cars and things he’s fixed up are breaking
#like he infused his soul into them and they no longer has his ecto goop to hold it together
#i’ve been ignoring my health problems bc i really hate going to the dr
#idk maybe it’s bc i’m fat but they always dismiss my problems and i really am not mentally strong enough to advocate for myself
#i tell them i’m in pain and something is wrong and they do maybe two tests and say we can’t find anything bye
#and so i just feel like an idiot for going
#bc obviously i’m just making a big deal out of nothing
#i don’t want to be doing school this semester after last semester i ended up in urgent care twice bc my stress got to my body so hard
#i’m taking less classes/more classes i’m actually interested in
#but i feel like i’m gonna fall apart horribly again and i just transferred and feel so aimless
#but i also feel extremely obligated to go bc that was the last thing my dad wanted from me before he passed
#i feel so fucking stupid his death has effected me so bad he was an abusive monster
#i feel so disconnected from my sisters that i was super close with
#i fee like i’m talking to a wall of past interactions and neither of us can see who we currently are
#i feel like i can’t connect to the ppl around me
#i’ve been disassociating too often i accidentally keep checking out which is pissing ppl off
#i’m so tired and fatigued and depressed that ppl can’t really rely on my and i fee useless and like a drain
#plus i just feel so scared all the time recently like all the worst case scenarios are plaguing me
#like scared my car is going to explode or my cat is going to have a heart attack or ppl died while traveling or some freak accident
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