#i would consider these two childhood friends tho so like yh

[noxtivagus]

Anxiety

#🌙.rambles #WHEJVJDKJA I WAS RIGHT #my energy did return w school #even on four hours of sleep i woke up n #greeted my friends good morning #...and texted during class but it's just HR orientation ykyk #i've been lackinn energy to talk w ppl these days so this is ✨ #i would consider these two childhood friends tho so like yh #everyone else... still big anxiety 🫠🫠 #we need to know each other for a /long/ time before i can really feel comfortable opening up #there are surprising times where i'm comfortable enough to actually open up but for the majority of ppl i'm super fucking quiet #speaking of that two messenger gcs for this school year are in my message requests n i wna die #everyone's changing their nickname yk :') in big grps of ppl it really makes me anxious to stand out from the crowd #the first step is just really difficult. i can't do what i need to do bcs i just freeze in. fear or anxiety idfk #that's really stressing me out rn #n then when i say i'm ambitious i really mean that. i want to improve every aspect of my life #i want to enrich my social life and have more friends/have deeper friendships but #social anxiety for fuck's sake #in discord i'm more comfortable w talking #when i'm w others i'm comfy with that enables me to be less shy #in general i really struggle with anxiety at first :') #once you get that initial barrier down and give me a comfortable atmosphere then i feel a bit more free but #then it's either i talk a lot (i thrive in my passions or when i'm with people i love) #or i still don't. i stay more as an observer #THE PROBLEM IS. I REALLY WANT TO ENGAGE MORE IN MY LIFE #when it comes to texting it's either easier or harder for me. #n then w voice if i feel comfy talking then that's nice fr me! a lot of times i'm also anxious to unmute tho #n then in convos i typically like to tie up ends in topics so. if i get nervous then it's harder for me to #yeah talk n all. either way i find it difficult to lead in convos unless i'm not really stressing out (...which is uncommon) #in texting sometimes i deal woth a sort of writer's block so it's hard for me to get words out. voice (and esp irl) is nicer in a sense that

[mirxae]

FUTURE FANFIC IDEA ( that i badly want to write but i dont have TIME)

oK IDEK IF PPL WILL SEE this BUT i had a fic idea for MDZS reacting to the book.

 what if during the second siege of the burial mounds/ where the juniors have been kidnapped (forgive me i STILL haven't read the novel, though I've seen the live action and read WAYY too many fanfictions) that WWX does sum dumb self sacrificing shit where he gets MORTALLY ENDANGERED, and they get visited by a goddess who conveniently has a book/video with WWX life and they react! 

But its not a normal reaction because!!! its basically a rewritten mdzs featuring!!

 792 more inside jokes (who doesnt like inside jokes) 

10x better bro JC (like what if all the ‘demonic cultivators’ he captured was to keep them safe? wat if the ‘ill break ur legs’ is a secret code btwn him and WWX so when they meet wwx knows its safe! but he gets dragged away seduced by LWJ so yh)

lan jingyi is the son of lwj and lxc cousin-once- removed ( LQR cousins grandson) and LCX kinda adopts him and JC helps out so jingyi accidentally becomes the son of them two

OUYANG ZIZHEN IS HERE WITH A BIGGER ROLE!!! idc he deserves MORE attention (also i just wanna see him stand up to his dad~)

a severely scarred and WWX because he walked in onto LQR and WRH doing it. (yes i want LQR/WRH because of this fanart)

an equally traumatized JC bcos he walked in onto WANGXIAN doing ~it~

Wangxian is happening 10x faster

Xicheng is the oblivious ship, and wangxian are TRYING so hard but. its. P.O.I.N.T.L.E.S.S. (they have son!!! why!!!)

zhuiling because a wen and a jin WHY not 

overprotective uncle/brother JWY and WWX

an extensive past reflection on LQR, WRH, JFM WITH THEIR CLOUD RECESSES DAYS!!!! (there should be more fics istg why not?)

LWJ parents with WWXs parents best !!friends!! (because i think madam lan and cangse saren friendship would be adorab) (and baby lans!!!)

wen zhuliu and yu ziyuans friendship b4 the war and sect leader/wen shit happened 

WWX practically finding out all of the cultivation sects secrets and having ~fun~ AKA blackmail 

wei changze and jiang fengmain friendship (honestly i want a chance to write 15yo LQR, WRH, JFM, YZY u get the idea

baoshan wander making an appearance somewhere in there

WWX meeting Hua Cheng and Luo Binghe but i havent really developed into the TCGF or SVSSS too much, ik how their personality is tho)

Chaotic MDZS bottoms (im a sucker for this)

maybe lan yi and baoshan saren friendship ( im considering if the yin iron should be a thing, bcs then WRH couldve been possesed by his dad or smth!)

wen ruohan being related to cangse saren OR wei changze (im not sure abt this one tho)

Jiang Cheng and WWX childhood friendship

Wen Ning best boii as usual

Nie huisang is a plotting criminal with partner in crime wwx (lol but the CHAOS this duo inspires!)

badass mianmian w tiny mianmian

ANdd so much more!!!! i just wanna rite a fix-it!

what should i do?

thats me coming to the realisation that if i did write this fic it would be 100k+ and take so much time because of all the extra words/plots i need to take care of

yall i dont have time

and its rlly hard to commit 

oof lets see wat i can do~

#mdzs #mdzs fanfiction #future fic #i need to write this #someone save me too many ideas