#WHEJVJDKJA I WAS RIGHT

[noxtivagus]

Anxiety

#🌙.rambles #WHEJVJDKJA I WAS RIGHT #my energy did return w school #even on four hours of sleep i woke up n #greeted my friends good morning #...and texted during class but it's just HR orientation ykyk #i've been lackinn energy to talk w ppl these days so this is ✨ #i would consider these two childhood friends tho so like yh #everyone else... still big anxiety 🫠🫠 #we need to know each other for a /long/ time before i can really feel comfortable opening up #there are surprising times where i'm comfortable enough to actually open up but for the majority of ppl i'm super fucking quiet #speaking of that two messenger gcs for this school year are in my message requests n i wna die #everyone's changing their nickname yk :') in big grps of ppl it really makes me anxious to stand out from the crowd #the first step is just really difficult. i can't do what i need to do bcs i just freeze in. fear or anxiety idfk #that's really stressing me out rn #n then when i say i'm ambitious i really mean that. i want to improve every aspect of my life #i want to enrich my social life and have more friends/have deeper friendships but #social anxiety for fuck's sake #in discord i'm more comfortable w talking #when i'm w others i'm comfy with that enables me to be less shy #in general i really struggle with anxiety at first :') #once you get that initial barrier down and give me a comfortable atmosphere then i feel a bit more free but #then it's either i talk a lot (i thrive in my passions or when i'm with people i love) #or i still don't. i stay more as an observer #THE PROBLEM IS. I REALLY WANT TO ENGAGE MORE IN MY LIFE #when it comes to texting it's either easier or harder for me. #n then w voice if i feel comfy talking then that's nice fr me! a lot of times i'm also anxious to unmute tho #n then in convos i typically like to tie up ends in topics so. if i get nervous then it's harder for me to #yeah talk n all. either way i find it difficult to lead in convos unless i'm not really stressing out (...which is uncommon) #in texting sometimes i deal woth a sort of writer's block so it's hard for me to get words out. voice (and esp irl) is nicer in a sense that