#i used to collect them and put the family in my dollhouse LMAO

[fortunatelyfresco]

Arguably Al was better to Woody than Andy was! He had him all repaired and fixed up, took care to keep him in great condition. I mean yeah of course there's the idea that toys deserve to be played with and not just kept in a static state of impetuity, which I don't necessarily disagree with as an Idea vs the idea that adults shouldn't play (bad! wrong! adults deserve play!) but yeah al's crime was theft lmao

right hfdjsk like other than the literal theft, there's really no Moral component to how either Andy or Al treats the toys from what i remember, other than what the movie sort of reverse-engineers from the standpoint of "this makes the toys sad"

the toys are sad that Andy doesn't play with them as much anymore and lets them fall into disrepair, therefore it's bad that Andy is losing interest in the toys. except Andy, like everyone else, does not know the toys are alive. he is just growing up and developing new priorities and interests.

Al's toys live in isolation with very little to do, therefore it's bad that Al collects toys. except... again... he does not know that. he is just vibing. and stealing from children. that part is bad.

these movies were and are fascinating to me, as someone who had a lot of stuffed animals as a kid and also debilitating mental illness that made me think they were alive lmao.

i still have some of the stuffed animals now. my oldest one is in terrible shape and i'm planning to re-stuff him soon. by toy story standards i could be considered villainous for letting him end up like this, or equally as villainous if i had kept him under glass for 20 years. my aunt has a threadbare stuffed walrus who sits on a "retirement chair" in her bedroom. maybe that's the happy medium.

my great grandma elly collected dolls. her home was lined with them, beautiful dolls in good condition, with beautiful dresses. most of them were the size of the average baby doll from what i remember, but she also collected miniatures. she built her own dollhouse. she wired it to have working lights.

the running not-quite-joke in my family is that any time us kids would play with the dollhouse, she would anxiously/sternly ask "did you put it all back?"

the dollhouse is in my father's basement. i ended up taking a lot of the actual miniatures—because i am tragically into miniatures now, about a decade too late to discuss it with her—but i couldn't take the dollhouse. too big to transport.

the miniatures were all just thrown around inside of it. tables, chairs, bookcases, books, lamps, dishes and cutlery, a bathtub. everything. before i took most of it, i spent a couple days arranging everything nicely, the way it was supposed to look or as close as possible, and took pictures. I Put It All Back.

#my grandma nancy collected beanie babies #she kept most of them in their original packaging and thought they would be Worth A Lot someday #and i look back on that now and wonder if that was her way of securing some peace of mind #because my grandpa was the type to make huge financial decisions without her input #he bought land and uprooted her and their kids to a different town hours away from home to start the family business #and it worked out but it really really could have NOT worked out #he also just. walked out on his first wife and two children #i am not sure what happened to nancy's beanie babies and that does make me sad #i can't ask her because she has dementia and i don't want to freak her out #but if those beanie babies made her feel over the years like she had a solid back-up plan in the event of her husband running off #or losing all their money #then good. #eta idk what i meant by 'original packaging' other than the happy meal bbs #but she kept the tags and i think she had us grandkids help put tag protectors on them

[coromoor]

I’ve been too sad over TG ending to talk about the Touken Fam but now the floodgates have opened and I had most of these all saved up *thumbs up*

Touka’s nickname for her is “Pudding”

Ichika is rambunctious and energetic and clumsy like Touka was as a kid. Before her kagune develops, regeneration isn’t as fast so she constantly has skinned knees and tears in her pants from where she’s fallen over

Kaneki learns to sew so he can patch them up otherwise they’d spend their entire budget on new clothes

She likes collecting bugs and instead of playing with Barbies, collects families of millipedes to put in her doll house Ichika: This one is the Mama, this one is the little baby and big one is the Papa! Kaneki: ..... they’re.... lovely....

One time she brings in a centipede and Kaneki faints

Ichika’s favourite people are Amon and Banjou because they’re SO TALL and when they put her on their shoulders she’s so close to the sky and clouds it feels like shes flying

Kaneki is as salty as the ocean and after Banjou makes a joke about him being a small bean, Touka caught him trying to reshape his legs with kagune to make himself taller

Touka draws Ichika latte art in her babyccino and every day when asked what she wants it’s always “A BUNNY!”. She sits on the counter next to Touka as she works on it.

Kaneki reads with her every night- stories of magicians controlling dragons or an epic war between the empire and rebels or a story of a man and a woman who reaffirmed their love in a time of sickness- and Touka often has to carry them both to bed when she finds them fast asleep on the couch with the book still splayed open.

Not before she draws on their stomachs with a black texta while they’re asleep

Kaneki is a Panic Dad™ and his dad senses are constantly on high alert- “OK ITS BEEN 20 MINS TIME TO REAPPLY SUNSCREEN” “YOU HAVE TO WAIT 30... NO 40 MINS AFTER EATING BEFORE YOU CAN SWIM JUST IN CASE”

Since Ichika is such an energetic little kid, he’s always chasing her around ready to catch her when she’s jumping all over the place

One day Kaneki finds Touka with Ichika on her back, teaching her how to do a backflip. Getting war flashbacks, he rushes over to intervene

Ichika’s favourite movie is Shrek

Touka can’t hold back her potty mouth and every time she swears in front of Ichika, Kaneki is diving to cover her ears

Touka, Yomo and Ichika watch Sailor Moon together, and Yomo nicknames Ichika “Chibiusa”

She never wants to wear new clothes, instead wanting to wear the bunny patterned dress every day and cries when they put her in something different. Kaneki side eyes Touka.

Her first word was “Papa” and Touka didn’t speak to Kaneki for 3 days after that.

Her first sentence was “you shitty idiot”. Kaneki side eyes Touka.

She couldn’t say Ayato’s name properly as a kid, so she calls him “Yabo” instead

RIP Ayato

Hinami calls her “Flower girl” and always brings a flower every time she visits to thread in Ichika’s hair

#ok but the millipede one was me as a kid #i used to collect them and put the family in my dollhouse LMAO #kaneki ichika #headcanons #touken

[incomprehensiblelentils]

I did not get around to this yesterday but, a short selection of fictional things that meant a lot to me over the last decade! ...it is going under a cut bc it is Too Long sorry lmao.

Books

Little Fires Everywhere by Celeste Ng: this book came out in September 2017 and I have read it four times already. It’s the kind of book I want to write but I’m not sure I’m clever enough to: every event and every character is so purposeful and you won’t catch everything the first time through. Every time I reread it I find something new to marvel at. I hope the Hulu series is half as good

Everything I Never Told You by Celeste Ng: this was the first piece of fiction I ever found with a family with a Chinese father and a white mother. This family is a lot less functional than my family, but I've read this three times because that means the world to me. 

Ash by Malinda Lo: I discovered this in 2011 and it was the first f/f novel I ever read, and as I would later learn, one of a handful with a happy ending at the time, particularly in YA fiction. For a long time, I reread it every time I felt hopeless. I just reread it again last month and it is still as beautiful and meaningful to me as in 2011.

Girls of Paper and Fire by Natasha Ngan: This is an Asian-inspired fantasy (becoming more common now, but still irritatingly rare) written by a queer Asian woman, with f/f. I think it is only the second one of these, after Ash? It is frustratingly rare, anyway. The worldbuilding is incredible also.

The Astonishing Color of After by Emily X.R. Pan: We are getting more stories about biracial Asians, but they are still pretty rare and I treasure every one. This one felt so real to me.

The Miseducation of Cameron Post by Emily M. Danforth: The first half of this book captures so beautifully what it’s like growing up queer in a religious environment when you don’t even have the words or self-awareness to know what you’re feeling. This was another one I read over and over again when I was feeling low.

The Scorpio Races by Maggie Stiefvater: this is just a book for horse girls. I don’t know how else to describe this lol. I also feel like the romance is super downplayed until the very end, and honestly barely feels like a romance to me, so that’s refreshing!

Movies:

Pacific Rim (2013): I remember having this weird feeling when asked to give my top 3 movies once in high school, like maybe my favorite movie hadn’t come out yet so I couldn’t answer properly. I was right; this is the movie I was waiting for. This is my favorite movie. The feelings this movie gives me is the standard I hold all movies to.

Terminator: Dark Fate (2019): but Megan, didn’t this just come out? Yes, and it’s my other favorite movie now. I love (almost) every second of this movie. This movie made me feel a way that I thought maybe I might never feel again, after a certain other franchise movie this year took a dump on my heart. I don’t care that we’re never getting a sequel, we got this and that’s enough for me.

Thor (2011): Those of you who have been around awhile know that I really love this movie. I loved it before we all jumped on the Thor train after Ragnarok and I will continue to love it probably my whole life. It just makes me happy.

Aquaman (2018): This is Thor but underwater and with a biracial hero. It made me cry in the theater and I do not want to hear any negative opinions about it, I find them personally wounding.

Belle (2013): The fact that Gugu Mbatha-Raw isn’t a superstar is tragic, and this movie is gorgeous and lovely and made me feel a lot of things as a biracial person.

Mad Max Fury Road (2015): I remember seeing the trailer for this in the theater and going “yikes that looks like a thing I would never watch.” Joke’s on you, past me!!!! I find this a deeply stressful but glorious film that I can only watch like, once or twice a year.

Scott Pilgrim vs. the World (2010): I do not need or want to hear about how this movie is Problematic, I know all of its issues, and yet. It brings me joy and it was one of the first movies I saw when I was just starting to break out of my religious upbringing and I laugh until I cry every time I watch it.

Star Wars: The Force Awakens (2015): I am starting to realize that I am not and never really was a Star Wars Fan, which is to say that like...I love this movie specifically, I love the characters, I love the interactions, I love the stuff that happens. I do not so much love Star Wars as a whole? I like it fine! But this movie is the only part of the franchise to really make me go “oh, I get it.”

Professor Marston and the Wonder Women (2017): This was a weird little movie that nobody saw and nobody talked about, but I adore it because it’s so gentle and romantic. I don’t know how accurate it is to history and frankly I do not really care.

Big Hero 6 (2014): are you tired of me mentioning I’m biracial yet? This movie has biracial protagonists and a cute squishy robot and no romance and superhero stuff and I love it so much.

F8: The Fate of the Furious (2017): I went to go see this on a whim with my wife and it was one of the most joyous theater experiences of my life. I don’t know, I just love everything about it.

TV shows:

Community: This only kind of counts because it started in 2009 but I started it mid-s2 so eh. Seasons 1-3 of this show are written on my heart, I can quote a ridiculous amount of dialogue from them and these characters will stay with me forever. Warts and all, this is my show.

Dollhouse: Another technicality but like, I met my wife because we both loved Bennett Halverson so I gotta put this on here. It’s pretty significantly affected my life! Also I find that it holds up fairly well, if you’re down for the admittedly iffy premise and an ending that’s a bit of a mess narratively due to sudden cancellation.

Agents of SHIELD: I would never claim that this show is “good” but I do think that it has mostly figured out what the hell it’s doing. And it has been a pretty significant part of my fandom life for the last 6 years, so to leave it off this list would feel wrong. It gave me Daisy Johnson, first canon biracial superhero as played by a biracial actor, and for that i will always be grateful.

Warehouse 13: I could not tell you why I fell so deeply in love with this dumb, badly written show that shit the bed in the final episode more spectacularly than I could have imagined, and yet I did! I think probably it is because I love found family so much, and also I find goofy camp charming more often than not. And of course, there is Bering and Wells, the femslash ship that fandom forgot. I will never be over how no one knows what we have suffered!!!!!

Runaways: wow was this a surprise! The Runaways comic is my favorite comic besides Marjorie Liu’s X-23 run, and this show has basically nothing to do with it, and normally that would piss me off but they got my kids’ personalities down so well and all of the actors are so perfect that I really can’t complain. And also, this show has canon f/f and neither of them die at the end! Which is...better than some other shows I could mention!

Doctor Who series 1 and 5: I had a very intense Doctor Who phase in college, and after all was said and done and I quit the show for a time, I realized that although I love a lot of the characters, and Thirteen’s run is pretty good so far, what I really loved was Nine’s run and Eleven’s first season. That is the show at its best to me. Eccleston is my Doctor and Amy is my favorite companion.

Legends of Tomorrow: Look, I am as shocked as anyone that this, the scrappy underdog of the DCTV lineup, is the one that’s most emotionally competent and has the best character arcs! But here we are. Season 4 was some of my favorite TV I’ve seen, uh, ever.

Albums

Dirty Computer by Janelle Monae: I listened to this for basically a year straight after it came out. It’s just ridiculously good.

Something Fierce by Marian Call: This was my on-repeat album in college. i drew a lot of strength from it, and I think that it’s still the best album to recommend to people who ask me about her.

Standing Stones by Marian Call: I heard most of these songs live at concerts before they were quite done yet, so it was really special to get to hear them all collected together like this. I’m going to get a tattoo with a lyric from one of these songs because no one’s quite been able to put my basic philosophy into words quite like Marian.

Heartthrob by Tegan and Sara: Hot Take, I know, because a lot of people hate this album, but it was so affirming to go out and buy A Lesbian Album from A Lesbian Band in 2013.

The Rent movie soundtrack: I know, I KNOW, but in my defense, my parents got me this for my birthday my first year of college and I needed it so desperately. I can definitely still do “La Vie Boheme” from the beginning and probably most of the other songs too.

In the Heights OBCR: I can only listen to this when I want to cry, but it’s my favorite musical. I got to see the show in 2018 and it was incredible. I think it’s better than Hamilton and I can’t wait for the movie to come out.

Trouble by Natalia Kills: this album is really great and also it says fuck a lot, which I used to be very nervous about hearing or saying, and this helped immensely!

#me