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pffbts · 4 years

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＊ legends : [ ☼ ] - fluff | [ ♛ ] - smut | [ ☾ ] - angst.

Don’t repost or translate my stories. Uploading onto other sites (even with credit) is not allowed!

―QUICK LINKS ↴

⤿ wips

⤿ networks: caratwritersclub

―bts: the way i see them; an introductory post

→ K I M N A M J O O N

[ ☼ ] [ ☾ ] Spring: The Time I Met You

―where you and namjoon drift apart because of his job and somehow he senses it while he tries to mend things up when they go downhill.

[ ☼ ] [ ☾ ] While You Were Sleeping

―where you`ve a nightmare and joon calms you down.

[ ☼ ] [ ☾ ] When Eyes Meet

―his fingers waited to be wrapped around your own, passing the heats of both palms to each other.

& MORE.

→ K I M S E O K J I N

[ ☼ ] [ ☾ ] Anything For You

―where sharing a cup of coke to letting it out that jin has always been love with you, that he couldn`t look past you at the end of an apartment hunting day becomes the longest day for you with some realization coming to life.

& MORE.

→ M I N Y O O N G I

[ ☼ ] [ ☾ ] Save Me (werewolf! au)

―somethings are meant to be left unsaid.

[ ☼ ] [ ☾ ] Another Year, Another Us

―let`s just say that we will definitely suffer a lot and that we will cry a lot. maybe not you. maybe it will mostly be me, but i`ll cry a lot. i promise even if it`s for both of us.

[ ☼ ] [ ☾ ] Only Rain Remains

―“bullshit,” yoongi had said, “your face is the most expressive. you`re literally like an open book.”

& MORE.

→ J U N G H O S E O K

[ ☼ ] [ ☾ ] Sunrays (dad! hoseok)

parts: one | two.

―sometimes you get the chance to live through someone and see the sun rays in a different way.

[ ☼ ] [ ☾ ] Sunflower Stickers (journaling! au)

―their happy moments are captured in time and though the time has frozen in that particular picture, the feelings inside those two humans grow with abundant depth.

& MORE.

→ P A R K J I M I N

[ ☾ ] [ ☼ ] Play Me A Song

―the local late-night radio jockey is somehow the guy who lives next door.

[ ☾ ] [ ☼ ] That Thing Is Love

―more than feeling you, he wants to know you. maybe people won`t understand him if he ever tells them about his perspective of love for you, also it`s not like he has ever tried speaking about it. it would sound too greasy for their ears.

[ ☾ ] [ ☼ ] Heartbeat

―where nights like this are rare, when there`s the most minimum distance in-between both of you & jimin has the full freedom to listen to your hearbeats to sleep rather than the songs on radio.

& MORE.

→ K I M T A E H Y U N G

[ ☼ ] [ ☾ ] Fall Into My Arms

―somehow your arms are enough tonight.

[ ☼ ] [ ☾ ] Please Remember

―it has been the only thing that`s been with me all this while. i had given up on almost all things other than this

[ ☼ ] [ ☾ ] Winter Bear

―he could stay like this all night and nothing will change. in-between both of you there stands a big thin wall. some unrequited feelings and some unsaid words, taehyung sighed softly. right now everything that he did, every little gesture, every little action, everything came out into its mildest form. it was as if you`re the most sensitive thing in this world right at this moment. taehyung couldn`t differentiate if it was him who was being vulnerable right now or you.

[ ☼ ] [ ☾ ] A Moment of Indulgence

―in which taehyung recites you a poem by tagore while you sit in your bathtub and his voice rings out the day`s tiredness off your body beside the basking sunset.

& MORE.

→ J E O N J E O N G G U K

[ ☼ ] [ ☾ ] [ ♛ ] Lost & Found

―maybe this is how fate works. maybe it was your act of fleeing that made him realize how much emotionally he was dependent on you.

[ ☼ ] [ ☾ ] Beginner`s Lesson To The Otaku Life

―okay, but what do you think about gguk and library but it`s binge-watching sad anime movies instead of reading books at the farthest corner of the library?

[08:58 AM] from you: “gguk―what if you were my best friend?”

―[09:01 AM] from gguk: “i thought we were already best friends.”

[ ☼ ] [ ☾ ] Nights When We Fall in Love

―a new guy at the local bar has been making some noise among the people of this town with his charming voice & you decided to hit the bar with not a clue of what will go down that night when you finally get to meet him.

[ ☼ ] [ ♛ ] After Rain

―as you sit with your back facing jungkook on the floor, his eyes slightly widens as he realizes that he could, at that moment, if only he squinted his eyes a tad bit harder, can make out the whole of your back through that piece of clothing.

[ ☼ ] A Thousand Steps Away (established relationship)

― “anything cherry flavored is my favourite so naturally, it is my favourite lip balm of all time.”

→ C H O I S A N

[ ☼ ][ ☾ ] Koi no Yokan ; barista!choi san.

―your head held back, your thoughts clouding your head, suddenly in-between that, making way for some room inside that mind, you hear san`s excited voice.

→ C H O I J O N G H O

[ ☼ ][ ☾ ] A Fool`s Act

―choi jongho―transferred himself to this school two years ago and it didn`t even take a month before he was already a strong player in the school`s basketball team. for your case, it took him only a week.

→ L O A D I N G....

[on-hold] what if we lived in the same town | ot13

↬synopsis: there are 13 boys who lives in your town where each of them have each of their own colours. some you know in person & some from afar so one day you sat down deciding to describe each of their colours absorbing all of their goodness and all of their flaws. you wondered what if someone in some other town ever thought of questioning when they looked at these boys, that―what if we lived in the same town?

members: seungcheol / jeonghan / joshua / junhui / soonyoung / wonwoo / jihoon / seokmin / mingyu / minghao / seungkwan / vernon / chan

→ C H O I S E U N G C H E O L

[ ☼ ][ ☾ ][ ♛ ] Cakes & Blues

―where a sudden bunch of texts from seungcheol one night before your work finishes off makes you end up in front of his restaurant. a sudden surprise with a handmade birthday cake from this blue haired guy, a strings of memories, an heated kiss while a walk back home after that ends up into something of a first for both of you. maybe opening up to feelings is not always just about naked bodies and sheets in-between each other but rather it`s two hearts bare open, un-bottling feelings over a shared cup of memories.

→ K W O N S O O N Y O U N G

[ ☼ ][ ☾ ] Here`s My First Rose To You

―where sometimes some confessions doesn`t need much words.

[ ☼ ][ ☾ ] Skin to Skin

―where you wake up next to the love of you life, his warmth against you and yours against his.

→ L E E S E O K M I N

[ ☼ ][ ☾ ][ ♛ ] If I Get To Meet You (ghost!au)

― coming soon!

[ ☼ ][ ☾ ][ ♛ ] Chosen Family

― coming soon!

→ K I M M I N G Y U

[ ☼ ][ ☾ ][ ♛ ] Navy Blue Socks

―where mingyu puts on socks for you when he sees how the cool air has engulfed the sleeping you.

[ ☼ ][ ☾ ][ ♛ ] I Call You, Her

― “breathless, mingyu smiles as he kisses both of your palms. pulling you into his lap, he tells himself that this is exactly where he belongs. there`s no other place like this where he can wish to live and die at the same time. he wants to engrave your name to his bones and tell you how he was only born for you.”

→ B O O S E U N G K W A N

[ ☼ ][ ☾ ] Only Fools Rush In

― if he tells you, that he loves you and even if it’s just to call him by his full name, please don’t forget him?

→ C O N N E C T W I T H M E :)

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bidotorg · 3 years

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Musician, Scientist, and Activist. Meet Carlos Castaño.

My name is Carlos Castaño. I was born on April 16th, 1987 in Béjar, a small town near Salamanca (Spain). However, I’ve been living in Madrid for the last 12 years where I work as a Ph.D. scientist researching molecular biology. I love movies, books, nature, and music. I actually play the keyboard and sing in a rock band called Me Quito el Cráneo!

Turns out, I am also bisexual. This took me a lot of time to figure out and the bisexual group of COGAM (an LGBT association from Madrid) was very relevant in this process. Having a safe place where bi people could just be themselves showed me what bisexuality really was and allowed me to embrace my identity and live my life to its fullest. I started my bi activism in this group, which I am currently coordinating with other bi activists.

In time, I joined the bisexual area of FELGTB (Spanish LGBT Federation), which is one of Spain’s main LGBT organisations made of LGBT groups from all over Spain. Here, I was part of the group of bi activists coordinating FELGTB Bisexual Visibility Year in 2016, which increased bi visibility in Spain. This was the first time I came out as bisexual publicly (in national papers or TV news). It was very, very scary, but also, very rewarding in the end. At the moment I am part of the FELGTB main board, a team made of nine LGBT activists from different areas of Spain working to improve the life of LGBT people from Spain and the rest of the world.

How long have you been out and who was the hardest person to tell?

I’ve been out for four years and a half.

The hardest person to tell was probably my mother, even though she and my father had raised me in an open-minded environment. At first, she did not understand what being bisexual was and she accepted me nonetheless. This acceptance increased when, bit by bit, I explained to her about bisexuality, bi-erasure, and so on. This made me so happy.

Who is your bi icon?

My bi icons are the Spanish bi activists that worked before me. They paved the way so my activism and my life would be much easier than it was for them. And of course, the bi activists that are currently working all over Spain to fight biphobia and increase bi visibility.

What is your greatest extravagance or indulgence?

I've got plenty of those but I would say that my greatest extravagance is that sometimes, when I am alone with my husband, we speak to each other using some sort of a made-up cat language (just using “meows”) and, oddly enough, we understand each other! It’s super weird!

As for my indulgence, I use to eat food that I like as a reward for the work that I do, so on Saturdays, after a looong week, I often eat a large dish of pasta with cheese and Lea & Perrins sauce using my mum’s recipe.

What do you like most about yourself?

I can multitask! I am a scientific researcher, a musician, a writer, and an activist. I think that’s cool… and a bit exhausting.

What was your last post on social media?

Two tweets saying how much I loved the movie Ralph Breaks the Internet and how I probably enjoyed it more than the kids that were watching it.

Where would you most like to live?

I love Madrid. I got everything I need in this city… although sometimes I miss the countryside where I grew up… but I can get to my hometown by car in less than three hours and enjoy nature.

Would you like to be famous? If so, for what?

My only ambition is to sleep eight hours a day, which I rarely do, even on weekends! I think being famous would demand less sleeping for me, so no thanks!

What do you know now that you wish you’d known when you were 18?

That studying a lot, getting a degree, a master and even a Ph.D. would not necessarily get me a good job. I would tell myself “stay away from science, lad!!!”.

What are you the most grateful for today?

My family, my friends, and my husband.

If you could change any one thing about the way you were raised, what would it be?

I wouldn’t change that much. I was lucky enough that my parents always told me that I would be loved no matter who I loved. Of course, they never taught me that bisexuality was a thing, but then, they didn’t know!

If you could wake up tomorrow with one new quality or skill, what would you choose?

I would love to have the ability to sleep whenever I wanted, for the exact time that I wanted. That would be awesome.

What’s your fandom?

I love way too many fictional stories or characters that I find inspiring and have contributed to my view of the world. For example, I love Doctor Who because of the witty anti-violence and feminist stories, or the Final Fantasy videogame series as they have some of my favourite stories and characters, especially Yuna from Final Fantasy X.

What trophy or prize do you most covet?

I don’t recall winning any trophies in my life, to be honest! Does a Ph.D. fellowship count as some kind of prize? If so, this definitely the prize I most covet!

What is something you remember fondly that someone who is now a baby will not grow up with or understand from personal experience?

Jokes from Monkey Island or The Simpsons that some younger people than me don’t understand. How can they communicate without using jokes from The Simpsons!?

What do you consider the most overrated virtue?

Courage, probably.

What stereotype about bi people annoys you the most in your own life?

I just hate the stereotype that says that bi men are actually gay men in denial, or that bi women are just straight women “playing." It is oftentimes used as a joke in a very harmful way because it shames people’s internalized biphobia or/and homophobia. When you think about it, it’s incredibly cruel.

Your house is on fire and all people and animals are already out and safe. You get a chance to run back in safely and save a single possession. What would it be?

Nah, I think that I would enjoy the company of the people and animals that are out and safe! It’s not like I don’t care for my possessions but, my favourite music I can find on Spotify, my favourite books are in my ebook (and could be retrieved if my device broke), most of the video games I own I have already finished so I wouldn’t need to buy them again. After moving a lot from house to house I’ve learned not to accumulate much, or I will suffer the consequences when I have to leave one house and move to the next. And it’s not like I (or most people my age) can afford a house in Madrid so…

Who’s your favorite bi character?

Captain Jack Harkness from Doctor Who and Torchwood.

Given the choice of anyone in the world, living or from history, with whom would you want to sit down and have dinner?

I believe that we often have these fantasies of meeting some celebrity or person from history that we admire. However, I have the theory that these role models are idealized, so it is highly likely that we would be disappointed when finally meeting them. Therefore, I’d rather have dinner with someone I have already met and admire. My answer is definitely my late grandfather and grandmother.

What is the best thing about being bi?

Being bi is like being a double agent. You know that what most people think about dating men or women is wrong. For example, straight men that complain about how difficult is to communicate with the women they date don’t know that this also happens when men date men. Having dated men that see and treat you as an object helped me to understand painfully well everything that my female friends were complaining about all the time. It gives you a great gender perspective and an out-of-the-binary view of the world that I find very rewarding. Of course, being bi does not necessarily make me a better person but I feel that all that I have learned from my bisexuality may help make the world a better place.

*If you are interested in being featured as part of bi.org What Bi Looks Like series, please fill out the form here.

#bi #bisexual #bisexuality #bi pride #bi visibility #what bi looks like #lgbt #lgbtq #lgbtqia #queer

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unravelling-the-world · 3 years

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random thoughts related to kagepro (tw for depression?? death?? suicide ?? implied ?? im not sure and idk what else read at ur own risk)

well idk lately ive been thinking a lot and ik ive uh always (? since i can remember?) have been depressed (i mean...it started around age 12...i dont really remember much before that. most of what i remember are bad moments anyways. or very specific scenes. but they dont feel mine. if that makes sense. its like remembering the scene from a movie. back on track i guess idk well lately ive realized i actually kin some characters and lately ive...been relating a lot to shintaro kisaragi fromkagepro. i mean its ok. there´s always been that specific similarity in us (after all, how many characters in anime are as related to coca cola as shintaro //and me,,im literally a coca cola addict lmao// well anyways. after some days, this lead me to thinking...to a hidden memory within my brain, i guess. I remember introducing my then best friends, to kagepro. one told me haha he´s like u bc the coca cola!! and i think i just laughed and smiled? i truly didn´t see it? i was sad sure, but i couldnt really relate to him. after all, i was the leader of my own little group of 12 year old weebs,right? (i was also 12 btw) i didnt personally dislike shintaro but i didnt rly see myself in him yknow? also i have loved ayano from ever since i have memory so idk like she´s one of my biggest comfort characters and its weird bc if she was ´´real´´ idk if i could date her or anything but im just glad she exists bc it somehow comforts me a lot yeah anyways ayano essay for another time lol. anyways at this age my favorite characters in kagepro were ayano and konoha ( i still love them a lot) thing is, at this point in my life i didnt know/wasnt aware i was transgender but i already kinda liked he/him pronouns so i roleplayed a lot. online. i roleplayed as konoha obviously lmao and actually one of my irl friends related to shintaro ?? and i think we may have roleplayed lmao and stuff.... she even had a facebook account named shin hikkikomori or smth like that. anyways fast forward bc after being 12 a lot of stuff happened obviously. and none of that relates to kagepro until quite some time. i will mention some items that dont really relate to kagepro but marked moments in my friend group that may be relevant later on. Around 2016)? Some of my closest friends changed schools (but we kept contact) yet i still had a big group at school. But it got fragmented along the way. 2017 i went to Japan and formed a new, different friend group with people that even today, are dear to me. When i came back, my friend group fragmented more. I kept contact with other members of the old group but one on one, not as a group anymore. 2018 we graduated, and i broke up my realtionship with one of my former best friends (2016-2018) 2019 was a year of change, and even though i was afraid and shit got weird, i was not doing too bad. i will skip that. Well. Im sure we all know 2020 was a trainwreck, shit happened. i had a villain arc. I lost my shit,definetely. Ups, downs, whatever. 2021 has not been too different. However, even through everything, in early 2020, i kept close relationships with my friend group. as the year moved forward and the restrictions started lifting ( thank you government very cool <3 //ironically obviously, this is the reason this shit wont go away//) some of my friends saw each other irl and stuff, or talked about stuff i didn´t understand/didn´t want to hear while on discord. I felt alienated. I felt empty. I got mad at a friend for the first time, for something he said. I ended up isolating myself. A friend celebrated her birthday. She invited me and never excluded me, asked me a lot of things and asked to virtually include me. But that would just make me feel more alienated, wouldn´t it? I told her it was ok, i didn´t go. Honestly, I felt like a bother. I didn´t want to bother. I wasn´t okay, but i didn´t want to bother anyone, so i isolated myself. I had a very bad breakdown. lasted weeks. When I recovered, it wasn´t the same. It felt like everyone else was closer, while i drifted away. I kind of recconected with some of my friends from Japan after this. In the vacations, i felt like i reconnected with some friends just to drift away again later. However, i never could reconnect with one of my best friends. She never really got mad at me or anything ( i think) but we don´t really talk much anymore. We used to talk daily, be it actual talking, memes, anything. I don´t think we´ve actually talked in weeks. There´s nothing I can do. This year, another friend had a birthday, but I was so disconnected from everyone I didn´t even care. I mean. It´s all broken now, isn´t it? The other day I just started wondering. When did I start relating to Shintaro so much? I had always been like this, hadn´t I? Who am I, actually? Why do I relate so much now? It´s not just about the soda. I had lost friends before, but I never really felt like that. Sometimes I feel like I´ve lost everyone. In a one year span I became a hikkikomori. About a month ago, when I entered classes, I was recognized as Shintaro pfp and I admitted to kinning him to people i´d never talked to before (on chat) // I decided to go apeshit idc anymore about what anyone thinks of me// I had fun. I think I must´ve posted on my stories, because two different people told me they were the ene to my shintaro. I appreciated it. i mean it´s kinda true bc now that i´m only on the pc they do bother me online and try to get me to open up or get better but sometimes the just annoy me lmao but also not bc they all have their own particular lives and they all seem to be doing better than me. Still, my classmates are very nice and inclusive. But it´s not like im close to any of them I guess. I´m just alone now. I´m fucked up man....I don´t feel real anymore. I don´t really know who I am. I guess that´s why I find comfort in seeing a part of myself in Shintaro? But when did i turn out like this? Why didn´t I relate when I was younger? Well, I hadn´t really lost any friends back then. I now know how painful that is. How lonely it is to be alone even when there is people around. idk. and i´ve always been quiet. introverted. shy. a loser. yet now whenever i meet anyone i try to idk connect? but i cant. i wish i could be more evil. maybe it´d just be easier if everyone really, truly hated me. maybe i´d get the strength to actually kill myself then. it´s weird. i really see myself in route xx shintaro. I know that´s fucked up because I know how it ends. but truly, i was trying. I was healing, i think i was going somewhere. and i was trying to keep my newly formed renovated friend group together. I really was trying to. I didn´t mind if we had sub groups on the big group, but we were all there for each other. I tried my best. I felt like i belonged. but now im alone again. and this time there´s nothing i can do. if something, i´ve made it worse. and i keep making it worse. it´s weird. when i first got into kagepro, both shintaro and ayano felt like adults. i thought they were really, really big. im older than them now. now i know theyre not really adults. i get it. i still feel 18. after all, these last two years have been taken away from me. i didnt waste them myself this time. i feel like a rotten 18 year old...when i listen to lost time memory, i just...get it. i always liked the song. i thought the story was so cool. when it first came out.. i still remember. iwas there. i waited for it. i loved it. i still do, but back then, i just saw it all as some really great and cool song. now i feel like i really, really get it. i love it even more. im hiding away in all my memories. but what is my true heart? what do i really want? i don´t know, i don´t know... If I'm 'wise' then, I can't face forward; I have no reason to so, I'll rot away instead It would be nice if time could be turned back. Years may pass but I'll never die I repeat hopeful words to myself, even though I know I still won't be able to reach you. "It doesn't matter, just die already!" I said as I clutched my wrist, simply cursing it. Unable to do anything, I merely indulged myself in life. "If summer can show me dreams, then let's go to before you were taken away" The days where I hid my embarrassment are illuminating upon the atmosphere and burning my mind. If I'm wishing for a dream that can't come true, then I'll embrace this blurry past and have a dream which I don't wake up from and naturally seclude myself from the outside world. "But that means you can't even see tomorrow?" I don't really care 'bout that, so it's ok I stained my hands in order to kill these boring days I'm choosing "solitude" after all A rotten boy at 18 today too, prayed again while clinging on to your colored smile Underneath the blazing sun Asking "Somehow, please take me away instead of leaving like this!" and my murmuring breath was quietly stopped

I guess i just wish someone could actually help me. take me out of this hole. Maybe some kind of closure would be nice. It´s not the same, though. I don´t have enough bravery in myself to actually kill myself. Mostly because of guilt. I can´t take the guilt of dissapointing everyone. I don´t want my parents to get hurt. I don´t want my bunny to miss me. Yet i wish everyday for it to be over. Lately, half of my dreams have been in Japan, with many friends, some who i met there, some who have never been there. Yet my brain shows me the dreams before it was all taken away. I think one of my favorite parts of the day is dreaming. I like to sleep simply because I dream. And i sleep very few. mayb bc i hate myself? I still barely indulge in life. I do anything to stay distracted. If i think, it all goes to shit. it all does. like now. Heh. it´s funny. I guess no one is truly my ene, because no one actually knows how mentally fucked up i got these past months. No one knows how badly i´ve been treating myself and how badly i´ve been doing. Still, i can´t tell anyone but scream it into the tumblr void. No one has to keep up with my shit. No one has to take care of me. After all, it was I who chose solitude. It was me who kept them away. But I don´t get a second choice. I don´t get a change of routes if things go sour. And i guess I don´t get to get a mentally fucked up friend group where I belong for a second time. Once was good enough, wasn´t it? I.. Even when I wasnt as deep as i am now (again) into kagepro, ive always wanted to die on August 15. It holds meaning to me now as well. Every year I used to ask people to go out with me that day. I know im not brave enough to kill myself. I always hoped for a lil miracle i guess. Last year was the first year...I didn´t do anything. I just... I just hope this year i can make it. I hope the miracle happens this year....I can only hope......its too late for me to be saved, isn´t it? I never thought it´d be like this. I don´t get closure. I don´t get goodbyes. I am left behind on a world that keeps moving. I am nothing.

#long post #hinatalks #we live in a society #fr fr #when i die....if god is real..i´ll end this once and for all. all of it #i am left with nothing but pain and anger.... i cant even feel anymore. i think i forgot how to

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hcneysoaked · 3 years

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💘 eli and seb c:

send me 💘 + A SHIP and i’ll tell you—

where they first met and how iconic meet cute !!!! next door apartment neighbors with seb Nicely asking eli to shut up and eli going “no <3” bc he loves being a menace

how long their ‘flirting’ phase was before feelings got involved the back and forth went for a while, maybe a month or two which absolutely kills them once they realize its more than just messing around and playful flirting

who fell for who first ( if applicable ) seb……. I Think… bc he was the one making excuses to be around eli but eli definitely indulged it bc he was also very much interested. but like, i think seb was at least more conscious of it first??

where their first date was and what it was like mm first “sort of” date was seb picking eli up after class and taking him out to eat BUT they were still playing their little game so i dont think they count it gbdjkfg i think once they start Officially dating then they probably spend the day out doing that cute couple shit

who asks who out and how ( with a sign? spelled out on a cake? just a simple ‘will you go out with me’? ) officially ask out, probably seb again but mostly bc eli has already assumed they’re dating by that point so its more of a formality/clarification than anything else gkjgdfg

who proposes first seb!!!!! if this is like the Actual proposal and not that spontaneous vegas shit i think eli’s pretty content with not making it formal and all as long as they stay together

if they keep / kept their relationship secret or let everyone know right away eli tells his friends like Right Away bc theyve probably been on his case abt seb for ages and im not sure seb has anyone he’d like want to tell right away?? It takes eli a while for him to figure out how to tell his siblings, but he definitely tells them way before his parents who probably just end up finding out on their own anyway gbdfkg

where the proposal happens and how ( kiss cam at a baseball game? on a hillside surrounded by ducks? at a disney park? ) honestl y im not sure bgfjkgd i feel like seb would put a Lot of thought into it and have a whole Plan but also i like the idea of it just kinda Happening :(( like has this plan and everything but maybe theyre just together one night and fuc k the plan

if they adopt any pets together im literally dying to give them a cat bgjkdfg partly just bc i know eli really wants one and he’d absolutely just show up one day with one in tow

who’s more dominant eli def has seb wrapped around his finger but we Know seb has big dom energy and is probably one of the few people that can keep eli under control

where their first kiss was and what it was like :((((( i mean they Like hook up before they really start dating some probably around then but like they have that little moment with the confession ™ and that kiss would be a soft lil contrast to how they’ve acted around each other up until then

if they have any matching couples stuff ( mugs? sweaters? pillowcases? ) probabl y bc they’re gross and cheesy kjdgfdgd but i like the matching sweater/clothes idea :(( eli definitely gets that for them bc he likes dressing seb up so much

how into pda they are very!!!! seb can Lie and say he doesn't like pda all he wants but he likes that eli’s all over him even in public we know how clingy eli is already

who holds the umbrella when it rains probably seb bc taller and eli’s a Brat bgjf

where their usual ‘date spot’ is ( if applicable ) mmmmm damn i kinda like the idea of them going to that first date-ish spot every so often, but i'm not sure how many actual dates they go on that would be super consistent? partly cause free time and also just bc eli loves spontaneity and surprises

who’s more protective I think seb seems more protective on a sort of surface level but they’d be super protective of each other? like they’d both be pretty quick to defend the other

how long it is before they sleep together ( can be as in ‘had sex’ or as in ‘shared a bed’ ) i feel like they might’ve fallen asleep together (at least accidentally) during one of those times eli hangs out at seb’s while he’s working but i dont think they really share a bed until they hook up and eli like purposefully stays the night, and that happens a while after their flirting

if they argue about anything oh definitely, especially at first i think. definitely about eli’s recklessness, about the whole parent situation, if eli feels seb’s being too protective, but they work through all of it <3

who leaves more marks ( lipstick, hickeys, scratchmarks etc. ) not 100% about seb but eli definitely likes marking him up gnjddgd he just likes the idea of seb going to work all cleaned up with hickeys and shit under his collar gkjgfdgf

who steals whose clothes and how often eli definitely steals clothes the most, he likes curling up in seb’s shirts and sweaters :(( i'm not sure that seb steals eli’s clothes so much as eli dresses him up in them gkdfgd just bc their styles are pretty different

how they cuddle ( spooning? facing each other? ) lots of spooning for sure, lots of eli sitting in seb’s lap while he works, also probably eli resting on him if they’re on the couch or in bed

what their favourite nonsexual activity is just hanging out together you know :((( like cuddling and resting together

how long they stay mad at each other I don’t think seb likes staying mad at him for too long, but eli definitely likes to hold grudges and all that, though I think he’d be a little more forgiving?? depends on the situation gkdfng but he’s also the type to just get up and leave when mad so I’m sure that doesn’t really help

what their usual coffee / tea orders are seb…. black coffee man, eli’s likes coffee but he likes it really sweet bgjkdgd

if they ever have any children together :(((( i think……. maybe….. at least one gbfdjkgdf especially after like more people around them start having kids??

if they have any special pet names for each other definitely the standard babe + baby :(( but aside from that…

if they ever split up and / or get back together oo f i’m not sure if the family thing is enough to split them up for a bit, but it wouldn’t stay like that for long they’d definitely get back together pretty quickly, regardless of what it is

what their shared living space is like ( messy? clean? what kind of decor? ) they end up spending more time in seb’s apartment, probably gets a little more put together after eli movies in and he definitely tries to decorate it with anything he finds Neat so it's not the most coordinated gbdfkgd

what their first christmas / hanukkah / etc as a couple was like probably just as overboard as their first birthdays are together gkdfg or maybe more lowkey? they might spend the actual day with family but they’d exchange gifts and have a little thing together afterwards i think

what their names are in each other’s phones eli has him in as babe with little heart emojis and i think seb has him in as baby??

if they have any ‘couple traditions’ ( buying a new mug for their collection every year? baking every friday evening? ) mmmm i feel like they Absolutely would but i’m blanking now gbdfjkgd

who falls asleep first and who wakes up first they’re both late sleepers so it’s just whoever passes out first I think but seb tends to wake up earlier bc Work and eli won’t leave bed unless he really has to

who’s the big spoon / little spoon mmm seb’s probably the big spoon more maybe?? but also wakes up w eli clinging onto him

who hogs the bathroom probably eli?? bc again, Brat, but also i think he’d just take longer getting ready overall

who kills the spiders / takes them outside gbjdkfgd eli feels bad killing spiders so he definitely takes them outside if he comes across them and probably doesn't even mention it to seb

#hc.#&& sebastian.#anyway i would do Anything for these two #fcade

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Could you do a mercy, gender neutral reader in which the reader comes back from a long trip (what it could be is up to you) and she is trying to catch up with you? If you accept this, thank you.

As the plane gently descends and prepares to make its landing, you can´t help but feel slightly sad that your journey is over. While you do miss your home and friends, the last 3 months have been some of the best of your life. You travelled through as many countries as you could, starting in Germany before driving through Belgium, France and lastly Switzerland, before returning to Germany and flying back to Gibraltar. It was a wonderful time, and the memories you made will surely never be forgotten. As you exit the airport terminal ready to call for a taxi, you suddenly hear someone familiar calling your name. You turn to your left and notice Reinhardt and Ana standing in front of a car, waving at you. You quickly grab your bags, and make your way over to them, with a smile covering your face. Most of the younger members of the team view Ana and Reinhard as a mix between “mentors” and “grandparents”, so it´s common for them to volunteer for stuff like picking people up.

As you reach the two, you are instantly greeted by Reinhard’s loud boisterous voice, as he happily exclaims “Willkommen zurück (Y/N)! Ich hoffe das deinen Abenteuern in mein Heimatland gut gegangen sind!“1 while he pats you on the shoulder. He blushes a little at your confused expression, while Ana can´t help but giggle in the background. “Reinhardt dear, I don´t think (Y/N) is quite as fluent in your way of speech as you are,” she says before turning to you and adding, “I do agree, though. it´s lovely to have you back (Y/N)”. “Thank you, the trip was really fun, but it also feels great to be home again” you say, as you envelop the two in a hug.

The ride to the base is fairly uneventful and mostly consists of the two agents filling you in on what has been going on while you were away. Nothing special like an attack or anything like that, just the daily going-ons of Overwatch. As you arrive at the base, you are not only greeted by a strong sense of homeliness but also a very excited Swiss doctor, waving at the car as it comes to a stop in front of the entrance. “It would appear that someone missed you” Ana remarks from the front seat. You can´t help but smile at the doctors’ excitement. You and Angela (or Mercy as she is more commonly known) have been close friends since you joined Overwatch, and you count her as one of your closest friends. As you open the car door, you immediately walk towards your friend, who greets you with a wide smile and a tight hug. “Willkommen zurück (Y/N).2 she says, “I hope your trips went well”. “They went very well, it was all so exciting” you answer, happy that she switched back to a language you can understand. “I´ve even brought you a souvenir” you add as you collect the box of Swiss chocolates from your luggage. You, Reinhardt and Ana, can´t hold back your laughter at the sight of Mercy´s eyes widening, as a giant smile starts forming on her face. Your laughter is quickly silenced though, as the blonde doctor almost tackles you while saying “Danke!”3 at least a hundred times per second. After calming down Angela invites you to the medbay for a chat. “I want to hear all about your trip and what you have been up to,” she says. You almost decline her offer, looking over at your luggage, until you´re saved by Reinhard, who quickly offers to carry your bags to your quarters for you. As you no longer have anything to worry about, you accept her offer and begin to walk with her to her workplace. On the way, you are greeted by many familiar faces, such as Tracer (looking energetic as ever), D.Va (listening to Lucio´s newest album) and Jesse McCree who tips his hat in greeting.

When you arrive at the medbay you notice that not much has changed, the room still as clean and orderly as ever. Angela pulls out a chair for you and a glass of water, after which she sits at her desk. You happily take a seat, remembering all the good times you have shared with your friend in this room. You sigh contently and watch as Angela, now seated and enjoying her chocolates, turns her eyes towards you. “Sooo…” she says, looking at you expectantly. “So, what?” you answer teasingly, knowing exactly what she wants. “Oh, come on!” she exclaims dramatically, feigning offence “You know I want to hear about your trip. I rarely get to travel because of my position after all” she huffs. That is a fair point, to be honest. Being a doctor is a hard job with a busy schedule and lots of late nights, so you decide to indulge her wish for adventure. “Well if you´re are as interested as you claim, I might tell a little bit about my journey”. Your response makes the previously offended doctor excited again, but she quickly becomes still, looking like a child waiting to open a Christmas present (It´s quite cute actually). “Well, where should I begin?”” you wonder aloud “Oh, I know!” you exclaim as you start what is turning out to be one of many tales told that day. In fact, you and Angela talk the entire day, laughing at silly experiences, scoffing at morons, and just having a good time.

It is only when you look out of the window and notice that it has become too dark to see anything, that you notice how long you have been speaking for. Your shift in attention also affects Angela, who is also surprised at the time. As you finish your story, she quickly begins ushering you to bed, showing you her more doctorly/motherly side. As she is about to close the door though, she still has one last thing to add: “I really enjoyed our “little” chat. Do you think we could do it again sometime?”. You smile at your close friend and say that you would love to tell her more about your adventures. The doctor smiles happily, and bids you good night. You do the same and begin walking towards your quarters, to rest after an exhausting but also wonderful day.

1 Welcome back (Y/N)! I hope that your adventures in my homeland went well

2 Welcome back (Y/N)

3 Thank you

P.s: Sorry if my German/Swiss is bad. I am much better at speaking than I am at the grammatical side of things.

#Overwatch imagines #mercy #angela zigler #reader insert

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