#i posted these on tiktok first now they are here

[violetasteracademic]

FYI to my lovely readers, as of last night Golden Doe in a Valley of Shadow is a completed fic. 🤭 All that remains is polishing and posting!

I will probably push into the first week of May because I really want to give everyone at least a day in between chapters to read and catch up, and myself time to perfect all the little details and ensure the chapters are well edited before releasing. (Always shouting out to Sara Anne aka @SaraAnneReads on tiktok for being so generous with her time and proofreading/line editing/chatting with me about my problem areas and giving so much support to this fic!)

I'm still going through my early chapters when I wasn't polishing as cleanly and correcting typos and weird syntax 💀 #haunted. If you downloaded onto your Kindle, I hope you'll consider getting rid of those and redownloading the full piece when it is finished for my peace of mind. 🫠 But I am genuinely just so honored that you all have come on this journey with me, and the final chapters are truly for you. It's actually taking effort to not just dump them all out right now.

You guys have made this experience genuinely amazing. I had no idea I would find such a community here and I'm already mourning the process a bit, but also excited for you to have the complete story in your hands.

Thank you for everything 💞

#elriel fanfic #spicy elriel fanfic #elriel #pro elriel #elain x azriel #elriel endgame #elriel supremacy

[eldaryasharbinger]

Making this post again, this time as it's own post and not a reblog (for context, the original post that inspired me to actually share what Is going on my head was about a theory on Jason's possible dynamic with Candy so I'm writing my own thoughts about it! I'm brainrotting about it so you've been warned!)

OP was talking about "imagine if Jason is actually just going to manipulate you for his own power and success" and something along the lines, not 100% accurate I just can't remember it right now so I might reblog it later just in case anyone wants to give it a read!

So now I'm like, ok HEAR ME OUT and consider my candy Petronilla the example candy here because that's the way I thought about all these (she's got the sweet personality, is all pink and pretty so keep that in mind ok??!)

Okay now we can really get into it and I'll start by saying, what if Jason did not only just fall FIRST but also HARDER and is either in denial or too arrogant to admit it or something like that yk, like he's been actively trying to seduce the enemie's new girl just to end up falling in love "accidentally"(???) and he feels like it's not possible that he's just imagining things so he pretends it's not true (kinda something similar to what actually happens in Baldur's Gate 3 and Astarion, he tried to get into your sheets for his own protection and ends up catching feelings for Tav)

But once he's like "oh shit! I really do love her!" he suddenly feels bad about himself because he genuinely cares about candy but he's not right for her since he's this annoying b- I mean, since everyone else low-key despises him too, so maybe he's kinda worried that he can't be good or that candy could NEVER feel the same way after everything she knows about him and everything Roy Devon etc could've told her about him (this is the angst part in the enemies to lovers...)

I got inspiration from this pic, I don't even know the context but IMAGINE he's looking at candy like that because he doesn't really know what to do about it but he loves her dearly or sum and he's kind of frustrated??

Like I don't know if that's just me but I don't only see "love" in his look I kinda see sadness as well?? something like that?? YEARNING even???

While she's just there, with her doe eyes... not knowing how much this man cares... Like tell me my version wouldn't go great with Hozier's song "Too Sweet" (currently going viral I think on Instagram and idk about TikTok since I'm not on there, I only know about it because of the Harvey Stardew Valley edits lol)

take a look at the lyrics please and pretend with me, let's be crazy about this together...

(realistically I don't really know if this could be possible like in the canon so I'm not even going to say that it's a theory. I only thought about it when I saw Jason's expression in that exact picture a little bit before launch, got inspiration for my new MCL Oc Petronilla, had no context and still RAN with it)

#my candy love #my candy love new gen #mcl #mcl new gen #mcl jason #my candy love jason #mcl oc #my candy love oc #beemoov #beemoov games

[secretgamergirl]

When Complete BS Becomes "Common Knowledge."

Someone told me they stopped paying attention to someone who reviews movies after one too many mean-spirited jokes about trans people, and it was one of those cases where the reviewer in question definitely had the vibe of someone who'd go around doing that, but I couldn't think of any real flagrant examples. Cut to me watching a movie the other day, remembering that oh yeah, I skipped that one guy's review of it because I wanted to go in blind, and sure enough, that review has this big long crappy 5 minute aside of an out of left field "DID YOU JUST ASSUME MY GENDER!?" routine. So that's a shame.

Now this particular guy rather famously Does Not Get Out Much. Pretty sure he hasn't really have any exposure to a single trans person, or to any real die hard transphobes, and most likely what happened here is he saw I dunno, an episode of South Park or a facebook post from some bigoted aunt, or some Tiktok video, something like that, and just blithely assimilated it into his world view.

But you know, the reality is... to the best of my knowledge no trans person has ever actually said this, or anything similar to this, and we sure as hell don't live in a world where anyone would have the back of someone who did? But you know, here we are.

Now I want to be clear, this isn't some kinda thing where trans people can't take a joke or anything. Literally while I was typing this, some cis guy just tossed this out, and this is a real tired old hokey one, but I cracked a smile, because oh yeah, the whole "programmer socks" bit really is a weirdly accurate stereotype.

And there's plenty of other trans jokes I'll laugh at. Ones directly at my expense. Some real dark ones even. You wanna go off on trans women all having the same like 10 names and them all sounding like we were born in the 1800s, go for it. Other stuff about how we all dress? Coping mechanisms? Low standards? Being too into pickles and sriracha? There's plenty.

But "DID YOU JUST ASSUME MY GENDER!?" and while we're at it, "I identify as..." don't even have the vague shape of something you're ever going to encounter in reality. Like if I didn't know the context of where these came from and hadn't had them posted a thousand times or so by people with swastikas for avatars and such, these probably would get a laugh from me the first time I heard them, because they sound like weird surrealist humor. Like, "don't you hate how every time you go to the laundromat, you have to play chess with the dragon before they let you in?"

But, again, I know the context. And the context is a bunch of fascists want people like me dead, and they're both too scared to pick up a gun to do it themselves and too incompetent to know who to point it at or where to find them. So they sit around with each other and go "hey, what sort of person does everyone hate? Let's all say trans people talk like them!" And because they haven't spoken to a single human being besides each other and the rich parents they're sponging off since getting banned from the Something Awful forums in the 90s/punk bar in the 80s/whatever, they settled on "rich white person calling the cops on somebody for walking down the street" and "didn't I first get into being a hatemonger because I was stupid enough to think that time I saw someone roleplaying he really thought he was a big scary dragon?" Which has honestly worked out weirdly well for them when you stop for half a second to appreciate just how absolutely ridiculous it is to ever imagine cops coming to the aid of trans people.

Like... here's a situation that actually plays out in reality. I have a bad tooth. Dentist says I need a root canal, and she doesn't do them. Refers me to another dentist like an hour and a half away. I walk in, write my Victorian sounding name on some paperwork, fill in all my various medications, wait a bit, hop into the big dentist's chair, so far so good. This dentist busts out the pick and the mirror about to have a look, and goes "hey, so I noticed on your medications you're taking a ton of something called divigel? What is that?" I say "oh, yeah, I'm trans, so I'm on supplemental estradiol." She almost drops the mirror, stares at me like she just realized I'm Venom and if she bent down to look at my teeth I was about to swallow her whole head. She stands bolt upright, says, "your teeth are fine, get out." I'm a bit confused, but I can read a room, so I say "well that's weird, but OK..." and start to leave. I get a "have a nice day SIR!" shouted at me. And then I go out, call the cab company to say my appointment ended early, and get told too bad, it's coming when it's scheduled, and someone snickers. See, at some point in having to take cabs to all my appointments, a driver worked out that this woman he'd been picking up from this address for the past year has a similar voice to and maybe vague family resemblance to who he'd been picking up from that same address the year prior, and after getting the courage to ask me, guess who's constantly having cabs show up late, or not at all, or on time with a driver staring angrily into the rear view mirror while blaring AM radio with someone shouting about all "the gays" needing to be rounded up so they can burn in hell. And I just need to suck it up and live with it. I'm sure as hell not going to pick a fight over it. I'm just gonna stand out in the cold (fortunately with nice warm knee-high socks) waiting for this cab for an hour because I sure as hell can't stay in this lobby.

But again, the whole weird myth here posits a world where trans people are all-powerful and control the government and stuff. And the basis for that is like... sometimes people refuse to pass ridiculous laws to stop trans people from doing things we only do in bigots' imaginations at great taxpayer expense, and SOMETIMES someone is responsible enough to double check what's up before they allocate the funds. Like... hell, you know what's exactly as completely divorced from reality and honestly the same people doing to same crap? That wild BS about "schools keeping litter boxes in classrooms because all this acceptance of trans people means we also have to accept kids who think they're cats!" Like... how the hell can anyone actually be stupid enough to believe that anyone else could be stupid enough to believe that they're actually stupid enough to believe such an OBVIOUSLY made-up narrative? Like... lawmakers bring that one up and try to get bills passed on it. Everyone else in the room is socially obligated not to laugh and ask whether they also want to pass legislation against Bat Boy and UFO abductions. This is Ralph Wiggum tier absurdity.

But like... what do you do about this sort of thing, really? As the person ultimately has to deal with the dentists who think I'll bite their heads off, ask to speak to their manager, and drop trou over a sandbox the state mandates they keep in the middle of the room, I'm... not in the room when this BS gets concocted, or discussed, or shared in Minions meme some film critic sees and imitates to try and be relatable and relevant. Can someone else start grabbing all these people by the lapels and shake them and shout questions about how they can be this stupid, maybe invite them back to reality for me?

#bigotry #transphobia #out of touch boomers #the one joke

[fawningflattery]

#cathy ward #aod #angels of death #satsuriku no tenshi #danny dickens #ray gardner #rachel gardner #eddie mason #lucy aod #cathy x lucy #cathylucy #zack foster #isaac foster #abraham gray #i cant stand these guys #gay ppl fr #fml bro #i posted these on tiktok first now they are here

[sergle]

what I was talking abt earlier. we have fully looped back around and away from feminism, societally, whereas before it was very Feminism 101 to acknowledge that many parts of existing as a woman in a misogynistic society are painful and upsetting. not that being a woman is Inherently Negative in a bubble. but that living on this earth, in the conditions we're living in, is hostile to women. and that gender is a performance. that many of the Staples Of Femininity as accepted by society are things that you have to create and perform and mold artificially and aren't inherent, that COMPLAINING about day to day difficulties of existing as a woman is something that you're allowed to do. acknowledging these basic, again, feminism 101 things, that something tied to womanhood is more time consuming or more expensive or more dangerous Because Of The Problems. does not CREATE the problems. that when women complain about having to perform femininity, they are not, in fact, oppressing themselves. the call does not come from inside the fucking house. saying that you HAVE suffered does not fucking equate that you believe you SHOULD have suffered.

like I could talk about this for hours. how braindead and one-dimensional the Takes are getting. "being a woman is looking in the mirror and going fuck yeah i'm a woman" damn. I guess any negative experiences you have by living in a misogynistic world... are your fault if you are anything but positive? "you don't actually want liberation" we've fully gone back to telling feminists "you WANT to be oppressed" when anything negative about our society is pointed out. it's not real until I say it out loud, I guess, and then I'm actually the one who caused it. if anybody expresses any unhappiness with how they're treated or the status quo or the language and culture surrounding womanhood and femininity. they've created it, right that second. they invented it just now. it wasn't a problem before somebody complained, right? also trans women aren't braindead zombies who just follow the flow of whatever cis women around them say. I am pretty fucking sure they are very much aware of pain, and are MORE than aware of the swirling torrent of misogyny and standards of femininity than anybody else. actually. and I am pretty sure someone complaining on tumblr that being a woman means always putting on a performance is going to make someone change their mind about transitioning. also "performing femininity" as a necessity to being treated well as a woman is not fucking NEWS to your Local Trans Woman. I AM PRETTY SURE SHE GETS THE CONCEPT. using trans women as a scapegoat for this braindead perspective on gender politics is spineless, meritless, and pathetic.

#how I feel about my gender is not the same as how I feel about the living conditions of my gender #when I saw that post I screenshotted here I literally sat w my mouth open for a minute #sent it to my friends and was like am I fucking crazy. is this what we're doing now #Forced Positivity and that there is no war in ba sing se and actually #you're ruining children's lives if you complain about misogyny on twitter #I don't HAVE to tell little girls about the downsides because they are already being mistreated #before they have even heard the word 'misogyny' let alone know what it means #you do not have to be fucking happy all the time about the cards you're dealt. #you don't live in a bubble where it's just you and your mirror and your pretty dress and nothing bad has ever happened to you #unfortunately bitch. we will have negative experiences that are in fact. part of the package of being a woman #and IGNORING them doesn't make them not exist. actually they will continue to remain status quo unless acknowledged #sergle.txt #I see so much rhetoric that is JUST old-fashioned gender ideals being presented with liberal language on tiktok #that is just telling women that womanhood is just being a girllll and loving pretty things and being kind and gentleeeee and nurturing #and not working and just like being wholesome and being happy and being a light in ppl's lives and just LOVING LOVING LOVING being a woman #so if for even one second. you don't love it. you are actually failing at being a woman #if you complain about the standards for shaving or putting on makeup. which used to be Baby's First Feminism online #that's actually just you creating problems. you're not supposed to acknowledge it. you're supposed to shut up and smile into the mirror.

[8bit-mau5]

A series of quick studies I did earlier this morning of Katjya! I’ve always found sketching traditionally to be WAY easier and much faster than my digital process tbh, I’m pretty happy with these 🥺💙

Maybe I’ll even finish these digitally. Thoughts? 🎤

[SHE/HE/THEY]

#artists on tumblr #traditional art #fantrolls #homestuck #hiveswap #Gabriel's arts #Katjya Romeda #i was inspired to sketch while watching another artist sketch traditionally and i was like. wait. i can do that. i can do that RIGHT now!! #at 6am. SDMJNHBGDHBGFBGF #So i waited a while before posting this here on tumblr cos i wasnt sure if ppl would care about my traditional art. let alone #my traditional sketches #snff #im really happy with these though #like. its the first time i had fun while doing quick n messy pose studies. cos i dont DO studies... but i wanna get into the habit #all of these poses were screenshots from tiktok but i forgot the users name 😭 #anyways. look at her and love her<3 yes i know i didnt include her face paint and tattoos. it dont matter! these r sketches!

[rosicheeks]

🎶

#ok super random rosie post #not gonna explain but I feel a lot more free to do what I wanna do now #and it’s fucking amazing #but but I’m thinking about starting a tik tok for like idk singing and cover videos #maybe art who knows #but I don’t even understand how to USE TikTok let alone how to make shit on it #(just realized the first time I used TikTok it was ‘tick tock’ and I find that super funny #but also shows that I’m really really not on it at alllllll) #I only use tumblr #for years now I guess? #I still have a fb but it just makes me sad going on there lol #never been into twitter or x or whatever the fuck and instagram never really stuck for me #so here I am #but I’ve been really wanting to make music videos and I feel like that might be the best way #fun rosie fact of the day #I used to really want to do covers and music on YouTube #like back in middle school #I even did a few videos and I’m terrified to look to see if they are still up #but most likely they are 😂😂😂 #lil rosie at like idk how old are middle schoolers? 10????? #anyway getting super distracted #but I’ve been singing my musical theater songs and oooooofda I love it so so much #kinda wanna try and do like a duet with myself #like if I’m doing wicked #I’ll do half my face like elphaba and the other like Glinda #orrrrrr I’ll figure out how to edit videos and do different ones and idk the right word right now connect them hahahaha #yes I might be a littttttle high #but I’m doing goooooooood also running out of space so the main reason for this super long tag post if anyone cares or sees #if you know or use TikTok and wanna help an oldie (even tho I’m 25 I feel like I’m so old 😂😂) #shut up rosie

[watercolor-hearts]

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#for some reason tiktok has showed me a lot of videos from a hospice nurse today and what was my first fucking thought?!?!?!?! #a simi story #listen up my fucked up brain i won't fucking write sad stories. no fucking way. do dying no sad end no no no. #and now i'm sitting here crying over these videos while i should pack my stuff for tomorrow to move away #i don't even know how this nurse's page ended up on my for you page when i only watch f1 makeup and graphic design videos #i hate these emotional rolecoasters #like... carlos on pole today = happiness and positivity and i don't let anyone to fuck up my mood i even eat one of my fave foods because #this was my last full day at home and now i'm sitting on my bed after i cried my eyes out and i'm just sad and scared #for some reason all day i was thinking about wanting to write a short little something for myself with one of my fave topics as comfort but #then i didn't write it because i don't want people to think i'm obsessed with that topic or something and i didn't really have the #motivation to write because after writing for prompts this summer it's really hard to write without prompts i mean like without someone #waiting for the story and without someone requesting it #i want to write cute stories and i want to write about that one topic over and over again but it's so difficult because... i can't not #care about what people might think if they saw i have like five stories about it or so and i want more #i sometimes don't know what to do with my thoughts and emotions #my useless posts

[vegetablewithapencil49]

UHHH THIS TOOK WAY TOO LONG TO MAKE!!!

Yes, it's an animation meme, and yes, I still can't make a game-accurate background :,(

I posted this on almost every social I have at this point. I think you guys can tell which parts of the meme were made more recently. Also yes they are fan designs!!!

#will you snail #wys #will you snail game #will you snail? #will you snail squid #will you snail unicorn #will you snail dallin #will you snail amelia #squid wys #unicorn wys #wys squid #wys unicorn #will you snail shelly #wys shelly #cw bright colors #bright colors #cw eyestrain #eyestrain #tw eyesore #tw bright colors #hue shift #animation meme #fan animation #small niffty background cameo for no real reason i just thought it was funny but now i have mixed feelings cuz what will y'all think??? #i mean it's tumblr but i also posted this on my TIKTOK #OH GOD #first time i drew the human characters of this game #first time i publicly show you guys human art anyway even if the way they're drawn here is verry simplified #WHAT DO YOU THINK WATCHERS?

[zzariyo]

ok that’s what I’m posting for now lmaooo

Maybe I’ll try to post things as I make them here, too…but no promises. Even though I used tumblr predominantly for years and years..it feels like a forbidden space now WHOOPS.

#ig that happens when u find out that a lot of ppl in ur last big fandom hate ur ass and #ppl made fun of ur new ship when u posted about here for the first time #like GODDAMN I know it’s the internet but I’m gonna feel weird af about it lmaooooo #at least when ppl were mean to me at TikTok I could laugh it off but tumblr was my safe space for most of my online life on now it’s RUINED #anyway . I do miss my tumblr b0tw days those were really fun #personal #lots of autocorrect mistakes pls ignore them fhfjfhfj

[rigels-nigels]

Something I don't get is when someone is talking about things being expensive and then some americans are like, it's not actually a scary $125 guys it's actually only $80 which is still a lot but it's actually kinda reasonable for the item

And it's like no!!! It doesn't work like that!!! Just because it costs less in usd doesn't mean the person didn't actually pay that much!!

If you buy a mug for $125aud, and you live in australia, you're paying that in $125aud, not $80aud!! Currency conversion doesn't matter in the slightest for understanding because in practice it is functionally the same as paying $125usd for a mug in america!!

If I earn $15cad/hr, and someone in Poland is earning 15zł/hr, and they bought an item that was like 150zł, me converting that price into Canadian and being like it's actually not that bad bc it's only like $50cad :), it doesn't change the fact that that for them!! It was a lot more!! Like functionally that's the same as $150cad

Functionally 1cad = 1zł = 1aud = 1usd = 100¥

Like the only time currency conversion is useful is for figuring out how far your coin goes when used in another economy, not for understanding if an item is or isn't expensive for a person living in said economy

#op #i dont go on tiktok often but. a few weeks ago there was a thing with this influencer who bought a mug and didnt see the price first and was #shocked to see it was $125 and there was a lotta discourse about it even tho she wasnt really mean about the cup or anything #and there were people in the comments being like oh 80usd that's not as bad as i thought it was (prev thinking it was $125usd) #and i just. aughhhh #gestures wildly at my post #anyway. unless im buying something in another country i just cannot see the point in currency conversion for figuring out if something's #expensive in that currency #like gimme ur min wage/is there a functional equivalent of a dollar/monthly or yearly cost of living #and like yeah it's not perfect but imo its soo much better to understand things #im sure a repeated some things here but whatevs #this is also good for more accurate despair when buying anything in euros/pounds bc it may only be 18£ for them #but comparatively for me id have to spend like £30 😩 #currency conversion hell euros are basically double canadian #also if im wrong on any price things do correct me. pretty sure my equivalents are correct but ive only ever lived in canada so :p #rant done now lol #does anything i said make sense? who knows. will i attempt to bury this in reblogs? absolutely!

[rosesradio]

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#i’m kind of really heartbroken right now #so i had tickets to the hot freaks concert and went tonight—which i don’t mind posting on here because i live several hours away #so basically i drove to the venue for several hours and stopped like once for food #it was my understanding that windsor was opening and then the hot freaks and then the happy fits i guess but i didn’t know the exact times #we were running a bit late bc of the road trip and walked in at 7:25 (the show started at 7) and i got to see the tail end of ‘boyfriend’ #& i was like ‘oh okay i just missed their first song’ but then they walked off stage and my heart dropped. i missed everything #and yeah it’s on me because i must have had a misunderstanding about how the show worked #i’d never even heard of a show where an act performs for 20-25 minutes unless it’s like a variety show or something #i did cry about it already and just tried to have a good rest of the night since we’d already driven for hours #i got to meet the band at the merch table which was really cool and they gave me a free signed CD & sticker & friendship bracelet because— #they felt bad for me. which was very sweet (i also bought a shirt) #i know i should be grateful i was even able to go to the concert. and i still had fun but part of me will always be heartbroken #because financially/geographically it’s not smart to go to another show even further away just to see a 25 minute set when i’ve already got #the merch & all. plus i can listen to them on Spotify #i can only hope they come to a location closer to where i live #but there’s no guarantee because they’re so underground. they only resurfaced because of stupid tiktok & they’re only popular enough to be— #half of an opening act. so they could potentially never go on tour again #if i had more of a platform i would boost their music more but i don’t #i know it’ll be okay. it’s just a lot of things have been going shitty lately and i thought this would make me feel better and it just— #went to shit #tw vent #rose.txt

[kakejiszkas]

this is the second time daniel has pseudo-spoiled content for us and I’m LOVING IT

#first the owayaya story now followed by then performing it #then the Sam and Rosie post followed by the puppy tiktok #insert the *ive connected the dots* *you haven’t connected shit* meme here fhdjdndnd #I’m under caffeinated and over tired and I think the five day Danny spiral has BROKEN MY BRAIN

[aqqleshiqqing-archive]

hero time. if you even care ... jk I'll make you care 🥺

my buddy for life 😭 I care about him so so much!!!! 😭😭 the bestest friend one could ever ask for, he just needs to be told that he is doing amazing and everyone is proud of him 🥺 don't worry though because that's me I'll be the first to tell him 🥰

he makes me super happy and he wouldn't even be trying, yet he still makes me so excited :')) <3 i just wish I could be there with him all the time huhfuhu but i know he knows i care lotsssss

#reminder this is all /p especially to my new followers hehe #i got myself into a hero mood today 😭 im so glad i discovered this game hes just awahhh!!!! no words man no words... #his actions in the game is enough to tell just how much i adore him weeeeeee 😭 #I should get some more herolexa content but from others hehehe 💕💕 #🍀 gush post #{p}: 🍳 #real talk; i never really had a consistent platonic ever since i started this blog. i just instantly platonic f/o'd close associates of- #of my romantics and that was it. it was never because of the character themself #and then.... HERO...... #it all started with me enjoying how he's portrayed and the next moment later — i always end up playing as him and his dialogs makes me- #suuuper entertained wawa and then he suddenly became a comfort character.... which also was never a big label I'd use (comfort chara) #and after really enjoying the omori fandom (its super chill here because we are all traumatized #LAMAOOAOSIADS OKOK BUT ANYWAYS #that's when im like OK he is my platonic now :))) yknow what's even more shocking to me #spaceboy came second. he wasn't the first character i looked at with f/o intent but it was HERO idk i find it neat #im always eyeing on potential romantics but hero stood out for me 😔 #ALSO TO BE FAIR... I FELL FOR SPACEBOY BECAUSE OF A TIKTOK EDIT AND I WOULDN'T BE HERE IF I DIDNT DOWNLOAD TIKTOK AHAHAHAHD #anyways ty for reading 🥰 school tomorrow but i have many many thoughts<3 #this went muuuuch much longer than i thought #i was gonna say ask me questions about hero but i think I answered everything here oops BDNDBODPF #(still if u have random questions about alexa and hero i will MOST DEFINITELY RESPOND and hopefully asap)

[oflgtfol]

hate when i discover a new song i really like and then find out it was popular on tiktok like two years ago. like oh great now i look like a tiktokker

#first mary on a cross now harness your hopes by pavement what else will i be dealt psychic blows by this week #im on the genius.com/last.fm pages and theyre like oh yeah this song got popular on tiktok like stopp leave me aLONEE #i am here from a youtube recommendation and a spotify daily mix respectively !!! #brot posts #music

[halftheway]

the best part of being friends with my favorite artist is that we r mutuals everywhere😌

#twirling my hair treis finally followed me back on tiktok the other day #its tumblr i can be as sappy as i want he is licherally the sun in my sky. AND HES MY FRIEND do u know how cool that is #we use friend loosely around here but still. like i can tag him in memes and he'l be like ur so right. #ok or like. idk he knows things about me. i know things about him. ive met his father in law albeit accidentally #its so crazy! bc the level of affection i've always had for parasocial relationships is here too except treis is Tangible to me #like. when i went to a show for the first time in a couple years?? the look on his face bro. he lit up and it was because of Me #im rambling but really and truly it has been so so very healing to have a local artist be like. my special interest/hyperfixation/favorite #because oete wentz is never going to recognize me by face or know what my relationship with my mother is like. and treis does. #and idk. i felt so very Loved at that first show this year bc i am not just a face in a crowd to treis (or the other boys!) i am Me #and i am Important. and tbat feeling is like crack. #ok i gotta post this now or i Wil go on forever