#i may be gumpy today

[nimbostrxtus]

By hell or high water I will be active on this blog tonight!

#i may be gumpy today #because im covered in fuel #and the smell has permantly clung to my coveralls #so yeah. need a distraction

[thehammondlegacy]

Willow Palace - 9 am

Margaret: I’m sorry to keep you waiting. Margie was feeling gumpy today

Isabella: It’s ok… Since I have nothing better to do

Margaret: Do you have to smoke in here? The kids may come soon

Isabella: Since when do you care about smoke? Have you forgotten how much you used to smoke when you were in college?

Margaret: That was a long time ago

Isabella: What do you want, Margaret? Did you make me come here just to bother me about my smoking? 

Margaret: Mama is not doing ok. She is not spending time with the children nor with Leonor, and she is still wearing black. It seems the only thing that may help her feel better is us making amends

Isabella: Did you tell her that’s not possible?

Margaret: Why not? Aren’t you tired of fighting all the time?

Isabella: Aren’t you tired of hating me? Of ignoring me?

Margaret: Here we go again!

Isabella: You put Papa against me! Now you are trying to do the same with Mama?!

Margaret: What on earth are you talking about?! I’m trying to fix things between us so Mama can have some peace!!

Isabella: Not only Mama and Papa, you are also turning Andrew and the rest against me! 

Margaret: You are doing that on your own! You are putting a wall in front of all of us!! 

Isabella: Who is the one that has taken every resposibility I had?!

Margaret: That’s because you were not doing your job! How long has it been since you attended one of your engagements? More than a year, Bella!! First was the wedding! You wanted to work on that full time. Papa gave you that. Then your honeymoon, then Jason’s job in San Myshuno and now you are using your daughter to avoid working!

Isabella: She need me!!

Margaret: You have a nanny! And you don’t have to work every day, but you have to every week!

Isabella: This is never going to end, isn’t it? I get it! You are the Queen now, so you can force me to do whatever you want. I could leave, you know. I could leave and tell everyone about you!

Margaret: We both now you don’t have the guts to do it! You value too much your previleges! 

Isabella: Emmie did it!

Margaret: Emmie is different! She is doing more for the realm now than when she was an active royal! You could learn so much form her! In fact, from now on, you’ll be the patron of the Public Hospital.

Isabella: I can’t have another patron

Margaret: It’s fine. I’ll take the Fashion College from you so you can have more room

Isabella: Fine! I’ll add it to my list of patrons! Don’t expect me to work more, though

Margaret: Isabella… I know our relationship is almost ruined. There is little we can do to save it, but there is something that could work. I promised Papa you would take over the organization of my coronation, and I’m willing to keep my word, If you promise to try mending things with all of us

Isabella: I can’t…

Margaret: Oh, come on! Throw me a bone in here! I’m doing my best to give you what you want! 

Isabella: That’s the job of the consort. Cristobal would freak out

Margaret: Cris doesn’t want to plan the coronation! Besides, he’s planning David’s for his appointment as Crown Prince

Isabella: I have no idea of how to plan a coronation!

Margaret: Well, I do, and so does Mama. Think about it! You can create the event of the century and fix your relationship with us at the same time

Isabella: I can’t promise you the second one

Margaret: I know… But I know you can do this

Isabella: I want a new committee. I don’t want old men trying to tell me what to do.

Margaret: Fine. Choose whoever you like. Not Antony, though! 

Isabella: Fine…

#bts #WillowCreek #RoyalFamilyOfWillowCreek #WillowCreekRoyals #the sims 4 #ts4 #sims4 #the sims 4 legacy #the sims monarchy #royalsims #ts4gameplay #ts4royalty

[passingideasofaredballoon]

Give Love

I don’t do very well without at least a little bit of responsibility. I say this now because it’s been over a week since I reached the end of the content portion of the online course I was taking this summer - well, at least as much as I can. By this, I mean that I’ve hit the point where I can go no further until I wait for someone to contact me. Essentially, I have two assignments left to submit (an assignment/test and a culminating essay) before I can request to take the exam. I’ve finished as much of the test as I could, but some of the questions on the webpage were messed up (and although I could mostly decipher what they were asking, I’m not submitting it until someone’s fixed it and I’m sure I answered the right questions). As for the essay, some very unclear instructions have left me wondering whether I need to submit an essay I’ve submitted for feedback previously (good), or write a new one (bad). So, I’ve got two (hopefully) finished assessments ready to go on my desktop, and I’ve sent two emails. Essentially, I’m stuck where I am until someone emails me back.

What I was getting at with that slightly long explanation is that I’ve been forced to take an unexpected break from the one thing I’m doing. It’s strange to be pushing so hard to power through something just to hit that point where you can’t go further, while there are still loose ends that you can’t tie up. I don’t know, I’m just restless about it. 

Real time update: I just got an email from somewhere!! Just let me check it. I’m back - Nope. It wasn’t my course. Sorry, I was saying -

Yeah, it’s been weird for this past week. The days have started to have this late-Augusty, everything-is-mushing-together vibe that brings back very intense deja vu from past summers. I had to begin making to-do lists again and filling them with scheduled things to do. Movies, read for an hour, listen to podcasts, music, etc. I’ve noticed that I’ve begun to feel obligated to pass from distraction to distraction, like it’s way more important than it is - the other day my friend called me and I told her didn’t have time, because then I’d miss the movie I had scheduled to watch at 2:00. It almost makes me nervous to think of going back to school, when I’ll have barely enough time to distract myself at all. Haha. This makes me laugh because really, nothing I do is of any importance at all! I could lie on the floor or even spontaneously vanish for 9 hours and none of it would make any difference. I don’t really talk to anyone for long periods at a time and this worries me some (which was honestly the same as when I had physics to do, but now I feel like my brain is melting with nothing to hold on to). As much as my parents and brother are here, it’s noticeable that I don’t really have conversations as much as respond to essential remarks like “it’s time for dinner”. In another previous post, I’m sure I’ve already explained why I prefer to tone out family conversations as well. It’s been a headphones-filled summer. 

I don’t like that I’m acknowledging it, but in the past week I seem to have hit something of a sad patch. It might just be the times, or it might have been brought on by the fact that I (quite literally) have nothing to think about now. I’m not even sure why I feel this way, since I can think of lots of other people who must be in the same situation as me (my brother, for instance) and aren’t as affected as I am. Maybe it’s the constant analyzing of it that does it for me, but that’s hardly a new explanation for why I feel things (haha). The weird deja-vu of it all just serves as a reminder that I probably couldn’t have gotten a different situation, even if there wasn’t a world pandemic keeping me inside. I’ve found it hard to comprehend that my relief from this is school in a month, which may well enough be worse, especially if it makes me feel anything like the way I felt when we left in March. But overall, I’ve been trying to steer away from the looming hole of believing that feeling isolated is all I’m going to get. I’ve grown up in a household that deals with rough patches by convincing yourself that the worst is all you’re going to be given, so you should get used to living miserably. 

I’m trying to stop doing that, but it’s hard to change your mind when you’ve been telling yourself that today wasn’t good and tomorrow isn’t going to be worth it either. I don’t think that’s even remotely true, unless of course, you let it be that way - I’ll tell you now that I won’t. I think about the things that make other people happy, and for the first time, I’m honestly considering that I’m truly missing out on things (usually I just convince myself that I feel left out because I can’t recognize what I have). So I made a list that I consider to be relatively fair and here’s a bit of it. I wish I had somewhere to go - with people I liked, that wasn’t school. I wish I had a single friend who liked my music so I could listen to it out loud. I wish I could play piano more without feeling like I’m annoying someone. I want to go grocery shopping, and I want to go to the beach. I want to go for a walk. I had lots of good things happen this summer, but lots of not -so-good things as well. I don’t feel like I have a single person I could talk to and I just really wish I could tell someone about them. Those are just some of the things I’d like to do. If I even did one of these things on the list and enjoyed it, I’d have a good day. If I think about it, every single person must have a list like this. There’s got to be so much more that would make a day seem worth it. There’s got to be something good coming. 

So that’s really the backbone of my new plan, which is how we get to the absolutly gag-worthy title of this post. So maybe I’ve been sad lately, so maybe I feel like nothing is going on. Maybe people in my house are extremely gumpy. I’ve come to the conclusion that it’s not worth trying to change where things are now, just wait to see where it goes. I’ve decided to just be okay with being sad about it for the time being. There’s only so many times you can tell yourself to reset, that tomorrow’s another day and you’ll try to do things differently and that you’ll start again happier. I just don’t feel like I have the motivation or energy, given how many times it hasn’t worked. So my new plan is to give up on feeling good, and just “give love”. My new plan is just going to be trying to make things better for the few people around me right now because I think that’s all I’m able to do (which will hopefully be more, once school starts). If I want to be somewhere that feels okay, I should try harder to make others feel that way too. I feel like everything being put out into the world has been so negative and it’s getting tiring, dude. My goal is to do some nice things, give others what I wish I felt and just contribute good vibes where I can. And maybe it will come back to me, sometime soon.

[its-just-like-the-movies]

May Viewing List

Given that I now have two jobs that occupy a good amount of my week I’m so genuinely amazed I was able to get this close to last month’s number.

Casting JonBenet (17, B+/A-): As intimate with the actors as they are with their parts. Life experience as credibility in interpretation. - May 1, 2017 (review)

The Fighter (10, A-): O’Russell realizes the best possible version of this script to create a stunning, spiky showcase for everyone involved. - May 2, 2017

4 Months, 3 Weeks, 2 Days (07, A-): An incredibly tense, textured portrait of two women in a time and place that’s slowly creeping back. - May 4, 2017

The Butler (13, C-): Gumpy, conventional plotting, odd casting & makeup undermines everything neat about Daniels. Amazingly broad. - May 4, 2017

Props to David Oyelowo for being the stillest thing in that movie, enhancing everyone else while giving a great, quiet performance.

Pitch perfect supporting acting. Great work, improves the lot, and you wonder why this isn’t a movie about him and the Black Panthers.

Don’t Think Twice (16, B): Spry cast, easy chemistry, remixed script beats elevate this tale of relocated dreams and success. Jacobs! - May 5, 2017

Nebraska (13, C-): Dern gets his Crazy Heart but instead fights flat, mean direction & plotting, false emotions & atmosphere, shitty musak - May 6, 2017

Face/Off (97, B+/A-): So deliciously, entertainingly Extra, finding the perfect tone to pull off this astounding nonsense. Cage! Allen! Woo! - May 7, 2017

Aladdin (92, B-): Feels like a different Disney musical than the 10′s movies. Lovely songs. Williams more magical than the Genie. - May 7, 2017

Guardians of the Galaxy Vol. 2 (17, B): Such a wide color palette! Shaky til “Come a Little Bit Closer”, then becomes the space opera it dreamed of. - May 7, 2017 (review)

Who else thinks Guardians of the Galaxy 2 should’ve been a musical, and that the next one should just go for it?

Florence Foster Jenkins (16, B-): Great fun, especially the leads. Generous, but overly so? Seems to resist a deeper dive into her rise. - May 8, 2017

And with that, I’ve seen all the 2014, 2015, and 2016 acting nominees!

Nightcrawler (14, B-): Provocative, in distinct and generic ways, but strained. Wonderfully lit, creepy, and blunter than Snowpiercer. - May 8, 2017

The Innocents (15, B): Textured like a Gothic horror story. Milieu I’ve rarely seen in this genre. Intertwined, parallel narratives hit hard. - May 9, 2017

Autumn Sonata (78, B+): Bergman, Bergman, Ullmann, and Nyqvist just beat the shit out of me for ninety minutes and it was an incredible experience. - May 9, 2017

Dheepan (16, A-): I noticed so much more in practically every aspect the second time around. Camera, Srinivasan my favorite elements. - May 9, 2017 (rewatch)

Blue Jay (16, B+): Another one that spiked up for me. Dynamics even richer the second time around. Paulson and Duplass are so lovely! - May 10, 2017 (rewatch)

Blue Caprice (13, B+): Hard, risky, genuinely nightmarish. Symbiosis, paranoia as real bonding. Finds so many questions in its own answers. - May 11, 2017 (rewatch)

The Immigrant (14, A-): An operatic marvel, moving freely through every period of cinema. And so gorgeous! God rewatching things is great. - May 11, 2017 (rewatch)

The House of Mirth (00, B+): A warmer, more conventional, but just as impassioned cousin to Portrait of a Lady. Great look. Gillian shines. - May 11, 2017

The Lady Eve (41, A+): Lord why don’t they make them like this anymore? Quick, witty, lovely, silly, paced like a dream. Superb. Stanwyck!!! - May 13, 2017

I get how problematic the setup could be if made today, but it’s hard to image a modern comedy with this much genuine craft at all levels.

The Stanford Prison Experiment (15, B): Every element builds & improves as it goes. Not sure how much to credit any one part over source material. - May 16, 2017

Maybe because the real thing is so pervasive in the culture already but I’m not sure what I got out of this. Already thinking about B-.

Cool Hand Luke (67, B+): Lots to say about people, about one among many, and how we treat them. Newman makes it about a man. - May 16, 2017

We Own the Night (07, A-): Technical prowess and directorial strength ably fight off genre cliche. Tense, captivating, and very much Gray’s - May 16, 2017

Network (76, B+): THIS was the film so many adults have said I’d be inundated to because of the world now? Friend, that makes it stronger. - May 18, 2017

Malcolm X (92, B-): Artistically and politically valuable even in the sequences Lee is less interested in. Not always both at the same time. - May 19, 2017

That being said, Denzel is incredible, giving a massive performance in an epic that’s sporadically as alive as he is.

The cinematography, especially the lighting, is also really spectacular. It’s artistically strong across the board, just conventionally told.

Secret Sunshine (10, B+/A-): Grabs you by the gut with bracing handlings of trauma and religion, albeit with small hiccups. Jeon’s a marvel - May 19, 2017

The Wolf of Wall Street (13, D+): Is there anything to even say about it? No new ideas from scene one. Boring depravity. So visually dull. - May 20, 2017

Melina, after making a joke about snorting coke out of a stripper’s ass: ”Can women really have it all?”

Alien: Covenant (17, B-): The case against humanity, by David. Human stupidity as real plot logic. Sets, VFX even better than Fassbender. - May 21, 2017

After the movie I realized I almost have the same haircut that Katherine Waterston has. So that’s neat.

August: Osage County (13, C): Not all the pieces fit, especially with so many sharp edges shorn. But Streep’s incredible, Roberts gets it. - May 21, 2017

Passion (13, C): Weirdly uninspired style for such a pulpy tale. Awful sets balanced by great clothes. Score works. McAdams on point. - May 21, 2017

Love & Mercy (15, B): Limited in scope but what textures it finds. Separates art and madness even as they feed each other. Great leads. - May 22, 2017

All three really blew me away, and between this and the Manson You Must Remember This episode, hot damn are The Beach Boys interesting.

And on a totally unrelated note, Paul Dano can fucking get it. Oh yes. Yes he can. Young Brian did have a sweet bed. I’ll stop now.

The Final Girls (15, B+): There’s an even more inventive script in here, but so much more going on visually than I realized. Åkerman! - May 22, 2017 (rewatch) (review)

The Iron Lady (11, C): Damp rag baby of La Vie en Rose and The Whisperers. Messy camera and direction. How much really happened here? - May 24, 2017 (review)

Sweet Bird of Youth (62, B): Scrumptious. Not quite the play but expands nicely. Page a delectably seasoned ham, Newman a sweet hunk of meat. - May 25, 2017

Stage Door (37, A-): Is it a bird? A plane? No! It’s the inner lives of over a dozen artistic, intelligent women, right there on the screen! - May 25, 2017

Is there any point in film history where this project isn’t a miracle? Why hasn’t this been remade every ten years? God, was I in heaven?

Caterpilar (11, B): So confrontationally severe in content and style, even as it dilutes itself in the final third. Iffy taste, but it hits. - May 26, 2017

Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire (05, C+): No tweet (rewatch) - May 26, 2017

Me, watching Goblet of Fire: “Why couldn’t Ron have dated Hermione AND Krum?”

My mom, every time we watch a Harry Potter movie: “It shoulda been Harry and Hermione.”

Not to read too deeply into things but Ron being Harry’s person he has to save is Really Gay

Easy A (10, C+): Kinda spotty outside Stone, but boy does it care about her. And lord does she make it something special. - May 27, 2017

It’s abominable that with a filmography seemingly built on delightfully supporting women Stanley Tucci’s sole Oscar nomination is for Lovely Bones

The Banishment (07, B): Pace and length made me sleepy but Zvyaginstev’s formal control more than kept me awake. Oddly compelling. - May 29, 2017

The Miracle Worker (62, B+): Beats Arrival for conveying the power of language and understanding. Bancroft’s great, and Duke’s even better. - May 29, 2017

The Man With The Golden Arm (55, B): Sinatra does great work to elevate this semi-cliched tragedy, but Parker and the score hit a home run. - May 30, 2017

Paranoid Park (08, C+/B-): Never not overworked, especially sonically, but unbearable first half hour turns into a compelling yarn. - May 30, 2017

National Velvet (44, B): So kind to its characters, mature about their wants and ideas. Gorgeous, infectious, and well-acted to boot. - May 31, 2017

#my posts #month logs #my reviews #performance reviews

[iwouldhavefollowedyou]

I was tagged by the wonderful @willhernandezdraws

Rules: Write 92 truths about yourself then tag other people

LAST…

[1] Drink: Water

[2] Phone call: My mum

[3] Text message: Jo (my babe)

[4] Song you listened to: Michael Jackson - Man in the mirror (because it was stuck in my head from the lego batman movie)

[5] Time you cried: like yesterday, because I love Jaal Ama Darav so much.

HAVE YOU EVER…

[6] Dated someone twice: Hahaha no

[7] Been cheated on: you have to date someone to be cheated on 

[8] Kissed someone and regretted it: Nope if I kiss someone its because i really wanted to.

[9] Lost someone special: Of course

[10] Been depressed: Only for most of my life ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ

[11] Gotten drunk and thrown up: Dont drink

LIST THREE FAVOURITE COLORS…

[12] Pink

[13] Orange

[14] Green

IN THE LAST YEAR…

[15] made new friends: Amazingly yes

[16] fallen out of love: Don’t think so...

[17] laughed until you cried: Of course, most recently last Thursday when making fun of my brother.

[18] found out someone was talking about you: My dad was talking about me to my cousin if that counts?? 

[19] met someone who changed you: Sure

[20] found out who your true friends are: I have like four friends so i’d hope so.

[21] kissed someone on your Facebook list: Not in the last year.

GENERAL…

[22] how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: Most of them

[23] do you have any pets: Two doggos, Mac and Ruby, and a succulent called Pidge  (*´∀`*)

[24] do you want to change your name: Yes, I really do. 

[25] what did you do for your last birthday: Just had a burger with my family  

[26] what time did you wake up: Either 9 or 10, the clock changed today and I’m not sure which.

[27] what were you doing at midnight last night: Crying over mass effect ((´д｀))

[28] name something you cannot wait for: Episode Gladiolus!!!(●♡∀♡)

[29] when was the last time you saw your mother: Like half an hour ago.

[30] what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: So may things my guy.

[31] what are you listening to right now: The gumpy gamers play dark souls III

[32] have you ever talked to a person named tom: Yes actually.

[33] something that is getting on your nerves: Myself

[34] most visited website: Youtube probs

[35] elementary: It’s primary school actually 

[36] high school: Sucked

[37] college: Better

[38] hair color: Blonde with strawberry blonde tips...and auburn roots rn  

[39] long or short hair: well its a bob so shortish.

[40] do you have a crush on someone: Not a real person

[41] what do you like about yourself: Dude I dont know

[42] piercings: I have five, all in my ears

[43] blood type: O positive 

[44] nickname: Curly, Ginge, Asshole, you know the usual.

[45] relationship status: Single bean

[46] zodiac sign: Pisces 

[47] pronouns: They/Them

[48] fav tv show: Hawaii Five-o currently 

[49] tattoos: Not yet, soon hopefully 

[50] right or left hand: Righty

FIRST…

[51] surgery: None yet

[52] piercing: one set on my lobes

[53] best friend: First best friend?? She was called Tilly

[54] sport: I played football and rugby in primary, but Swimming was probably my first sport. I also did line dancingヾ(⌐■_■)ノ♪

[55] vacation: Probably tenerife or lanzarote

[56] pair of trainers: I was like five dude don’t know

RIGHT NOW…

[57] eating: Nothin’

[58] drinking: Water

[59] I’m about to: Do some draws

[60] listening to: the same as before 

[61] waiting for: Tea!

[62] want: Real doughnuts (*´ڡ`●)

[63] get married: Not rn thanks

[64] career: Professional crybaby.

WHICH IS BETTER…

[65] hugs or kisses: Hugggs!!(づ￣ ³￣)づ

[66] lips or eyes: Eyes are nice

[67] shorter or taller: doesn't matter my guy

[68] older or younger: Again i dont care.

[69] romantic or spontaneous: Spontaneous I suppose

[70] nice arms or nice stomach:  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[71] sensitive or loud: I’ve surrounded myself with loud people so idk

[72] hook up or relationship: Well deffo not the hookin up.

[73] troublemaker or hesitant: Again surround myself with troublemakers, not really intentionally.

HAVE YOU EVER…

[74] kissed a stranger: No I’m good ta.

[75] drank hard liquor: Not a fan.

[76] lost glasses/contact lenses:  I’ve forgotten my glasses before.

[77] turned someone down: Surprisingly often. 

[78] sex on first date?: Hahaha fuck no. [ ± _ ± ]

[79] broken someone’s heart?: Probably (｡•̀ᴗ-)✧

[80] had your own heart broken?: Sure

[81] been arrested?: Not even close

[82] cried when someone died?: Of course, professional crybaby remember.

[83] fallen for a friend?: Sure

DO YOU BELIEVE IN…

[84] yourself?: Hahaha not really (ﾉ´ｰ`)ﾉ

[85] miracles?: I guess

[86] love at first sight?: theoretically.

[87] Santa Claus?: You mean Father Christmas?

[88] kiss on the first date?: Sure ( ˘ ³˘)♥

[89] angels?: I mean girls are all over the place

OTHER…

[90] current best friend’s name: Jo (ˇᵋ ˇෆೄ

[91] eye color: A shitty grey/green

[92] favorite movie: Hot fuzz baby!

I tag whoever wants to do this i dont have many friends

#Captains Log #long post