I am so mad
I've seen other people say it. Fairly often, even. But I always figured they were outliers; that that sort of thing would never work for me.
But
I finally got a proper ADHD medication. And let me tell you, I am so goddamn mad. I've spent my entire life thinking I was "lazy", that I should be pathetically grateful for anyone who employed me or put up with my inability to do housework. Being TOLD I was lazy for it (though never by my lovely partner, gods bless her). But let me tell you... someone with a properly-working Executive Function doesn't know SHIT about how debilitating ADHD is.
I can clean. I can plan. I can work on a task without constantly longing to just sit down at my computer. I can look at things I've been avoiding for months or even years, and they no longer seem impossible. I can see a dozen tasks that need doing and just... pick one and go do it. I can't believe this is how neurotypical peoples' minds work, but it sure explains a lot.
ADHD is a true capital-D Disability. You're not lazy for it, you just don't have the same tools as everyone else.
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anthony made up for the lack of darryl & glenn moments in season one with this linc & taylor car chase (?) the only person having more fun with it than me is will campos
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okay turns out that in my victorian class, i am absolutely not the stupid one, i just literally didnt do the reading. now that i did, basically everyone else is stupid istg
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I'm just like, sylvariposting today. <- I do this every day so whatever.
Anyway running with the "Lala overthrew the Pale Reavers and took off with a bunch of their young recruits to make his own army" idea... I love Lala, he's not "evil" but he is a manipulative person who'll twist others and charm them any way he can to get what he wants. He claims to be a firstborn, a secondborn, whatever he can get away with to posit himself as Higher and Better Than You, somehow. He couldn't do this working with Laranthir in the Pale Reavers because Laranthir knew that was all deceit. So he started scheming behind the true secondborn's back, charming young recruits who had joined the Reavers with hopes of doing good. Well we could do even more good together, you and I. 💚 Just us together. 💚 And eventually he had so many Reavers on his side, he was able to say hey, what do we need the Reavers for, let's go build our own organization over there! ^_^ who's with me! And led some huge chunk of the snipers away like the pied piper.
He has a tendency to flirt to get what he wants. And he's genuinely charming about it, and other sylvari (saplings especially) fall for it and believe that he’s genuinely interested in them specifically, that he only has eyes for them, that he means it when he refers to them as dearheart. Naturally he has zero interest in them. Any of them. But it's so quick and easy to get them in line and doing as he bids when they all believe that he's in love with them too.
(Lychen is immune to his charms. Zero interest. He'll smack Lala to get him to stop when he's coming on too strong to a recruit. "You have to stop flirting with all the new recruits, sir. They're starting to get jealous." "What's to be jealous about!" "Two of the new snipers got in an argument over which was your dearheart, and three others overheard and joined in." "Well they're all my precious dearhearts." "Stop that.")
I'm figuring out right now what Lala and Eldulis' history together is. Eldulis is a genuine secondborn. At some point I feel he was a valiant. Lacrimosen a couple of generations later was maybe a fellow valiant. Maybe Eludlis was his mentor... I think during this time he would have been questioning the validity of the Dream, the Grove, the Pale Tree... all of it starting to look so fake and forced. He was disillusioned with his own Wyld Hunt and wasn't getting any answers from the Firstborn or their mother. He'd confided in Trahearne first that he felt his Hunt wasn't attainable, and had gotten some kind of comforting non-guidance, which had pushed him towards talking to Faolain instead. Why are we doing all of this, sister? To what end does it serve? And she did have guidance, in the other direction. I think Eldulis would have tried to sway Lacrimosen before going fully to the Nightmare Court. Come with me. You have potential in you. Lacrimosen laughed in his face and told him he had no interest in organized cults. So now to this day there's this rift between them where they both think of the other as that fool who made the wrong choice and ended up in some stupid organization that I have no interest in. Were they to actually be forced to sit down and communicate I'm sure they'd be able to be somewhat honest about missing what they once had, when they were friends, but it's something they can never return to--there will only ever be animosity from Eldulis and aggressive flirtation from Lala.
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Good morning welcome to me mentally six-degrees-of-kevin-bacon-ing my way into the most complicated multiversal clusterfuck the mcyt-verse has ever seen! The best part is I don't even have to use MCC that much because TUBBO IS A RAT!
Between Scott smajor being in half the series I watch now and Martyn inthelittlewood being an og who still works with the Yogs it's not even that hard! Almost everyone else I can tie through the six million creators that touched the DreamSMP that happened to do other things in Minecraft ever
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Sorry I keep changing my pfp besties I’m off my adderall
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Though my thirst is yet to be slaked (please don’t bring out Matt in the last episode jfc I will be dust and bone by then), She-Hulk continues to be a delight. Honestly? All joking aside, I’m enjoying the ride and I really hope it continues to be this solid. The trailer did it no justice whatsoever (aside for maybe the last one before the first episode dropped but I am highly biased over the five whole seconds of Daredevil tease at the very end).
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