#i literally did not do my alg2 hw that entire year btw. not one single time. hw wasnt counted in our grades so i didnt do it

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Will never ever forget the time i was 16 and i opened up a bmc fic bc i was making my way thru the entire boyf riends tag (unsuccessfully, but i did succeed with another ship) and it was a fic about jeremy coping with ptsd by writing absurd amounts of fanfic and i dont think id ever felt that type of deer-in-headlights mirror-held-up-in-front-of-me feeling from a fic in my fucking life . i will be thinking about that forever.

#text #And then i ignored the feeling of course cuz i was like well yeah im traumatized but i dont have ptsd #(??? idk why i was so insistent on this) #(i definitely did have ptsd) #AND LIKE. i dont remember the fic super well but i do remember sitting on my couch reading it like oh god. is that why i am like this #opening my notes app to my 92 wips #with like 30 kle.insen smut fics all with 'explicit consent' in the list of tags id use if i posted it.................... #GO TO THERAPY MAN #KL.EINSEN FANFICTION IS NOT A COPING MECHANISM.......... #me 16 not knowing i had a dissociative disorder : damn i cant remember half the year. i need to write 135 fics right now #my brother in christ you have ptsd unmedicated adhd and algebra 2 homework #i literally did not do my alg2 hw that entire year btw. not one single time. hw wasnt counted in our grades so i didnt do it #mirror tag