#i know it will cause a MASSIVE shitstorm and i dont think im ready for that

[angeltrapz]

you ever remember one (1) thing & suddenly it's like you've opened the floodgates

#i didnt want to know all of this #this is all too much i dont know how to cope w this. what am i supposed to do now #i cant even tell anyone about it #connor.vtxt #i really really dont want to put my mom thru that. considering its all abt my birth father #i dont want her to blame herself for not noticing or getting me away from him. the courts said he had to see me & i never told #but now i feel like i have to tell my sisters mom bc the possibility that he put her thru the same thing makes me sick to my stomach #i know it will cause a MASSIVE shitstorm and i dont think im ready for that #everything is too much and i need it to stop for a second #csa tw #(kind of. not mentioned directly but yk)