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#i kind of want to keel myself these days i'm not gonna lie
clownpassing ยท 6 months
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yyyuuppppp things are getting weirddddd i had to tell nick not to mention to johnny the price of the stuff i bought him or about the hundreds of dollars i've spent on him idk why like. i just don't want jonathan to know. i think that's what's been killing me bc every time i am having a really bad day in jon and i's relationship(nearly every day now tbf) i try to swallow it because i just need to make it to the 18th without having another breakdown since that's my first therapy appointment. but then like he'll say he's been feeling great and i just for some reason can't bring myself to tell him anything. and i know this will hurt him more in the longterm but i don't know like. i feel like i'm the only person making solid efforts. and him spending all this money on nice things has been making me anxious because yes gift receiving is one of my biggest love languages but it all feels so empty
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punkscowardschampions ยท 3 years
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America & Libi
America: This is gonna sound thirsty as hell cos it is ๐Ÿ‘Œ America: your boyfriend's friend, Sean America: do I have a shot? Libi: ๐Ÿ˜‚ Thirst away, I know he would be SO flattered Libi: Bobby isn't MY boyfriend, but that's by the by and so not why you're in my inbox right now Libi: well, he isn't dating anyone, that I know of, I'll ask Bobby to confirm but I'm like 99% sure Libi: and of course he thinks you're cool, you guys would be a sweet match America: He ISN'T? I thought - never.mind ๐Ÿคซ America: anywayyy America: did he say I was cool? LOL yeah I really feel it now Libi: Everyone says that, don't worry Libi: we're just best friends Libi: Awh, don't be silly! I'm not going to go tell him word for word Libi: like that's not an exact quote but I know the few times we've hung out all together he's had a good time, specifically hanging out with you America: if you're gay I'm like really sorry for getting your hopes up with my thirsty opener! America: Sean does not deserve that quick of a U-turn from me Libi: Not, so you're totally cool and not on the gay girl shit-list Libi: not for this anyway, I don't know who is, officially Libi: He talked about your party for AGES after Libi: even though that got cut short ๐Ÿ˜• did you get in so much trouble? America: The reaction from my sister alone would be reason to do it but I don't think I can commit that hard to you & that idea America: maybe if Sean says no America: I hope he didn't say anything about that part of the party when he was talking about it or I'll have to go crawl in a hole America: or bury my mam's boyfriend in one America: did you get to have any fun? I literally don't remember seeing you when we left your house Libi: Well, she is my biggest fan Libi: who's ๐Ÿ’” is theoretically worse, hers or mine rn? Libi: Just what we were all thinking Libi: which was that we thought that guy might keel over if he didn't ๐Ÿค sooner rather than later Libi: so I'm glad you're already making funeral plans though not because that must suck Libi: no, we had a good time, lost in the crowd seems like the answer America: Jake is the only one with any power to ๐Ÿ’–โœ‚ her, don't worry, & she's my biggest fan for pointing out on the regs he's a waste of unblemished skin America: we were making all kinds of plans before she got ๐Ÿ†๐Ÿ’ซ America: guess I'm on my own with keeping the good times coming โžœ Libi: ๐Ÿคจ I'm not sure I've heard him say anything interesting before Libi: It's usually a lot of posing and preening, right Libi: but who am I to judge America: ๐Ÿคฃ I'm on the classroom floor rolling America: neither of them are looking for intellectual stimulation from each other Libi: ๐Ÿ˜… Apologies to your teacher Libi: I'll pretend my ๐Ÿ˜ณ is paint America: Miss visibly wants to get me diagnosed with something, it's a long-running thing we have going Libi: Like it makes them any more equipped to deal when they have a name for something Libi: must be a funding issue Libi: but that's a rant for another day ๐Ÿค“ America: Sean is gonna have his work cut out now America: get your not boyfriend to tell him, game on, but he's in competition with you Libi: I'll go easy on him ๐Ÿ˜‰ Libi: oh, and he is 100% single and 100% tried to read that message so America: misbehaviour puts him back in the ๐Ÿƒ Libi: Damn Libi: Would helping you have a meet-cute with him bizarrely help my case? America: how cute? sharing in my sister's delusions is a turn off Libi: I don't think he's that kind of guy Libi: BUT it would not be weird for me to bring you along to hang with my not boyfriend and it wouldn't be any weirder if he asked Sean, casually America: which means what I've been thinking about him is right America: & you don't have to be disqualified for trying to drag me into some fake paradise where everyone is in love with themselves Libi: I mean, like all boys Libi: or most, I would be asked to ** in Libi: he talks a bigger game than he has, but I mean that in the best possible way, honestly Libi: he's nicer than he can sometimes sound, you know what I mean? America: me too, I hope Libi: You sound nice Libi: thirst and all America: I scared you away before, couldn't let that happen before I got what I wanted from you Libi: No, that was your mum's fella Libi: I promise Libi: I'm just not a party pro America: that's what I mean, before at your ๐Ÿ  I could tell you two were out of your depth Libi: I hope you didn't take it as a personal, you and your party thing though America: it wasn't my party Libi: Sorry, no doubt she'd be ๐Ÿ˜ค over my lack of distinction there Libi: you know what I mean America: I'm just a guest that she didn't really want there, like you Libi: I don't get the whole sibling thing Libi: only child perk and curse, I guess Libi: but I'm not anti-party or anti-you, for the record Libi: just less initiated America: & I'm not anti-anyone cos Chi is, putting that on the record while we're stating facts Libi: Fair enough ๐Ÿค Libi: I don't take it personally from her, also btw Libi: how she has been about Bobs, moreso but that's not on you so like โŒ America: she acts like she burst out of her crib knowing how to do a smoky eye & what shots she liked best America: you've got time to get initiated if you want to America: & yeah, I know she's a dick about anyone not in her โฌ› of perceived coolness Libi: I've got very little shame in how far away from a smoky eye I was as a kid ๐Ÿ˜‚ Libi: She's not the only one Libi: โฌ› are boring Libi: more boring than I probably seemed that night Libi: ๐Ÿคž America: I thought you were just ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ’– America: that's a lot of people in my life right now though so that's probably why Libi: Oh God, you do not need to tell me Libi: I feel like EVERYONE is suddenly, it's wild America: & now me jumping into your inbox America: what's in the water? Libi: I'm sure the Bio teachers are screaming hormones right now Libi: ๐Ÿ˜ฌ gross but true America: Whatever the reason, I didn't mean to contribute to the ๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’ฃ in your face Libi: You're so beyond fine Libi: not anti-love Libi: or a nun America: you'd be in luck if you were, we aren't calling this love Libi: ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ’–? Libi: Gotcha America: interest America: the 1st I've broadcast Libi: Worth pursuing Libi: I hope I've helped confirm, anyway America: maybe we'll end up just friends like you & Bobby or < America: but I think he's worth pursuing Libi: no harming in ๐Ÿ‘€ or trying, right America: for the right people Libi: I'll drink to that Libi: not right RIGHT now though because that is paintbrush water and I've made that mistake before ๐Ÿคข America: vivid flashbacks to your pre-party drinking face America: shock & disgust Libi: Oh nooooooo ๐Ÿ˜ญ Libi: really sold myself as life of the ๐Ÿฅณ Libi: ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ™„ America: It wasn't any different for me, if you'd be there to see it Libi: No one is doing it for the taste yet are they Libi: I refuse to believe America: I don't think anyone's doing it for the taste ever America: wine or whiskey snobs only wanna show off America: & that's grown adults Libi: My granddad would be so offended ๐Ÿ˜… America: If he wants to try & change my mind, I'll come over Libi: Sounds fun Libi: but also like a potential way for him to lose his license so maybe we'll keep it between us America: Why can't he use his words without bringing the ๐Ÿท๐Ÿฅƒ? America: it's like those people who are all about how ๐ŸŒถ๐ŸŒถ๐ŸŒถ or rare something is America: you wish you were ๐Ÿ’ช we understand Libi: I didn't know you just wanted a debate but that's cool too Libi: come over any time, like America: it's off the table at my house America: he'll start blowing a whistle & stop all verbal communication soon America: not a nun either so I assume I won't be into it Libi: Yikes, he should try getting a ๐Ÿถ or two Libi: even then, probably be disappointed, soz America: I'll pitch the idea as long as it ends in disappointment Libi: if he doesn't love puppies you know he's not the one America: I know that about him already America: What's Sean's stance? Libi: Good question Libi: I shall ๐Ÿ’ฌ America: don't lie to score points yourself, I'll find out Libi: [so many dog pictures which clearly aren't just her and Killer but her and Twix and Bobby too] Libi: โž• America: OMG Libi: Yeah ๐Ÿ˜Ž Libi: they're old ladies now but they were puppies once [a throwback we just have] America: Miss is gonna live for this U-turn from ๐Ÿคฃ to ๐Ÿฅบ America: name that personality disorder, bitch Libi: Looking like a poor taste budget horror Libi: LOVE that America: get my good side with that ๐Ÿ“น of yours Libi: but every personality Libi: Got this ๐ŸŽฌ America: every personality's best bits Libi: I wish I could fix everything in post Libi: life would be so โœจ America: edit out Gary America: make Chi less of a cow America: make my other sister reappear Libi: So wild to me how your sister used to be 'round my grandma's at the same time I was and I really can only just remember those days Libi: what is she up to now? America: ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ’– Libi: Ah Libi: of course Libi: like everyone else in the world America: but you know, with a rented flat & office job Libi: The grown-ups version Libi: I feel you America: I don't know what the fuck we're calling what my mam is playing at America: but yeah, give my sister more grown up points than that Libi: How long has he been on the scene, Gary? America: too long LOL America: but that'd be 1 date in his case Libi: I can't imagine how awkward that must be when it's your mum and your house Libi: it's bad enough when a friend or an auntie or something dates a dickhead America: she's dated fuckwits for as long as she's dated America: but they don't usually see a month in Libi: I'll ๐Ÿคž he's gone sooner rather than later America: Thanks Libi: You're okay, right? Libi: That might be weird to ask America: I guarantee it's weirder to answer Libi: You don't have to, that was out of line Libi: but if you wanted to, I wanted to give you the chance, even though all I can do is listen Libi: but we can as easily leave it America: I'm ๐Ÿ‘Œ in the sense that he's probably not gonna murder us all in our beds Libi: That's always something America: but if your grandad decides to leave your nan, I'm down to move in & have nightly debates Libi: It's been nearly 60 years so Libi: he's either overdue or change or you're out of luck Libi: but you're still invited to come crash when you need America: unless Sean makes me a better offer, you win Libi: Of course, of course America: unlikely, I can't really open with please rescue me Libi: Might be a bit strong Libi: but the spare room doesn't come with any of those connotations America: Can I have the dog too? Libi: She'll have to decide for herself, it would be rude for me to Libi: but she's pretty chill as long as you give her treats or attention so it's likely America: What's her name? Libi: Killer Libi: I did not name her America: ๐Ÿ˜ถ I don't really get to say anyone's got a shit name anyway Libi: What's in a name, the English teachers will chime in America: music teacher would probably say a lot Libi: **harmonize it, please America: [does as if we're not fully in class rn] Libi: Brava! ๐Ÿ‘ Libi: so much better than whatever 'painting' I've managed this lesson, whoops America: that'll be my L to take for not shutting up America: sorry to your ๐ŸŽจ Libi: We'll all survive, even if this not-masterpiece does not ๐Ÿ—‘ Libi: painting is not my thing anyway America: I never got prime fridge real estate America: as an only child, you would Libi: Only child, technically, but my grandparents have ALL the grandkids, so it didn't always work out like that America: my nan has the same favourite as my mam so ๐Ÿคท America: consistency ๐ŸŽŠ๐ŸŽ‰ Libi: I don't need 3 guesses Libi: why is it Libi: is she most like them or what America: ๐Ÿ‘ผ America: blue eyed, blonde haired fucking wonder America: my entire family IS that shallow Libi: Well I can say blue eyes are overrated and you can say blonde hair is America: skipping over the ๐Ÿšฉ of taking German when my family are basically neo-Nazis Libi: will have to get you out of my DMs stealth if that one rings true Libi: no negotiating America: I don't want to do the clichรฉ plea of how different I am but like, in this instance, it holds up Libi: I'll hear it America: how does a girl prove she's not a Nazi around here? ๐Ÿ’ญ Libi: ๐Ÿ˜‚ Can you prove/disprove a negative is a big ๐Ÿ’ญ Libi: too big for before lunch, I think America: Gary's existence proves a negative Libi: ๐Ÿ“ข๐Ÿ”ฅ Libi: He felt that America: ๐Ÿ’–โœ‚ Libi: If that's the order of the day, I'm not mad Libi: have played cupid once here so America: What about you? Libi: What about me? America: There's absolutely no ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ’–? Libi: Oh, nah Libi: not right now ๐Ÿคท America: Then you probably can't answer my kissing questions America: I think that practising on my hand has to be movie propaganda but pretending it'll be perfect & I won't ๐Ÿคค all over anyone has to be too Libi: I could try Libi: I've had some but maybe not recently enough to experience counts? America: this close to picking up a ๐ŸŽธ & opening the floor for them but my sister would KILL me Libi: and Miss would fully be staging an intervention before you could get any decent ones America: even though she's literally a teacher & I'm asking to be taught something Libi: The hypocrisy ๐Ÿ˜ Libi: I think the less you think about it the easier it is Libi: which is such non-advice I know America: ๐Ÿ‘Œ have a drink & just do it Libi: lowkey, yeah Libi: nerves never help a performance, right Libi: sure your teacher would have to agree on that one America: Did I agree to putting on a show for him? ๐Ÿ‘Œ I see how it is Libi: ๐Ÿ˜ฒ Libi: not what I meant America: No? Libi: I mean, do what you wanna Libi: but not sure he warrants that much effort yet America: ๐Ÿคฃ America: I hope he didn't feel that ๐Ÿ’–โœ‚ Libi: It's not shade so it's okay Libi: I covered that he's nice before I went there ๐Ÿ™ƒ America: Did he go out with Michelle? Libi: Our sources say yes Libi: couple of months America: A couple of months seriously or casually? You were there Libi: I think he thought it was more serious than it was Libi: but I don't think he's looking for that America: & they're 100% over, no hang ups Libi: Totally America: cos she seems cool, I'm not trying to start something Libi: She's chill Libi: he's a free agent Libi: and he's interested too, for sure America: the interrogation can stop ๐ŸŽŠ๐ŸŽ‰ it's not making me look very chill Libi: I'll never tell Libi: plus you've distracted me from a boring lesson so it's okay Libi: a favour, really America: I can tell you're an only child America: my sisters would use anything I said or did or almost said or did against me if they can Libi: Damn, should I be keeping these in my backpocket? America: realistically Libi: SO bad at this Libi: I'm a slightly better friend ๐Ÿคž America: Being somewhere in the middle of a total dick & and a good friend, I'm not the right person to help you get better at either America: partying though America: if you ever want Libi: It would be useful Libi: not gonna lie Libi: as you got what you wanted, like America: I'll knock for you Libi: ๐Ÿ‘ Bobby can come too, right? America: yeah, he can join in too America: I won't insist that he kisses me but pitch the idea Libi: I'll ๐Ÿ America: There's always something going on, even with my house being not enough like a morgue but simultaneously too much like a morgue Libi: Halloween isn't the only time for costume parties ๐Ÿ‘ป๐Ÿง›๐Ÿ‘ฝ๐Ÿค– America: I knew I fucked with you Libi: ๐Ÿ˜ Libi: people who think costume parties suck have 0 imagination America: or only wanna look a certain way Libi: that too Libi: heaven forbid you have fun and don't just sit there ๐Ÿ˜˜ America: if Chi didn't feel that, I'll be the one ๐Ÿ’–โœ‚ Libi: you can always say it yourself and take credit Libi: on me America: ghost writer, there's a costume in that America: she doesn't just sit there honestly, but it's not about having fun, she'll do fucking anything but it's to keep everyone looking at her Libi: I guess that accounts for some of it Libi: Middle child syndrome is a costume too Libi: if a little abstract America: Favourite child too, but she's got too much wear out of that one as is Libi: No repeats America: worse crimes have been committed than tiara recycling Libi: Maybe Libi: but it's close America: you've got jokes America: I don't think you really need me to teach you anything to be fun at ๐Ÿฅณ America: I predict some kind of ๐Ÿ“น prank is about to happen to me Libi: If youtube pranks are still fun and cool, I'm gonna have to โŒ that because yikes Libi: I just, there's a lot of it that everyone else does that I don't see the point to Libi: for me, anyway America: You don't have to do things that everyone else is doing Libi: Technically Libi: I don't think everyone else is the PSA enabler friend/peer pressure pusher or anything Libi: but it does other you if you don't join in, to a degree, with a lot of it America: ๐Ÿ‘Œ so when we get to your limit, stop me Libi: Okay Libi: but don't go easy just because this all makes me sound about 7 America: Miss wouldn't have oppositional defiant disorder on her diagnosis checklist if I went easy on anyone Libi: ๐Ÿ˜‚ Libi: She's really gone through psychology today yeah America: she's clearly so bored America: & wishing she had talent to scout America: I literally can't have that cos I don't see teachers as authority figures in the first place Libi: Delusions of grandeur โœ” for her America: ๐Ÿคฃ America: sorry you can't control me bitch, call Gary & compare notes Libi: Maybe Gary should bring in his CV America: we'd both love to see more of each other Libi: Of course Libi: and he's the ideal candidate for hapless teacher #46 who can't control their class America: if he ended up ๐Ÿคฏ my mam would ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜— the little neck stump America: she's that far gone Libi: Again, I only have experience by-proxy Libi: but that usually ends up ๐Ÿคฏ everything else Libi: so I ๐Ÿ‘‚ America: You heard right in my experience America: my da's got enough left of him to sign a cheque, I picture him like that Adam's family hand Libi: [does the clicks in a boomerang type thing] America: nailed it! Libi: You know Libi: didn't want to be the girl who makes everything about her dead parents Libi: but arguably I'm the proof of everything going ๐Ÿคฏ so I do know a little bit about it America: Shit sorry! I forgot Libi: Don't be Libi: it's good it's not like, forefront of the facts you can recall on me, if anything America: I know what you mean, from a family of attention seeking whores isn't how I like to advertise myself Libi: I'm sure I could make a claim for that title too according to the masses Libi: but neither of us need to ๐Ÿ“ข America: send my apologies to Sean if that's what he was expecting America: I do need attention but it doesn't have to be sexual specifically, as Miss can testify Libi: I should HOPE she can America: She plays hard to get, for all her therapizing Libi: She in the ๐Ÿƒ? America: only in the fantasy land she's created Libi: Bless her Libi: any way to kill the day is this place's motto, I think America: ๐ŸŽผ school song if I do some more harmonising ๐ŸŽน Libi: ๐ŸŒน๐Ÿ‘ America: Due credit to you & your ideas America: I couldn't be happier it's not a ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ’– song Libi: Likewise Libi: so it's worth it and you're welcome Libi: I can give Sean your number, I presume? America: & any screenshots you've taken as mean girl practice Libi: Only the worst bits, obvs Libi: ๐Ÿ˜˜ America: my ugliest sides ๐Ÿ‘บ๐Ÿ‘บ America: Still not a nazi btw, I just realised the ๐Ÿ‘ƒ and brows are a bit anti-Jewish propaganda Libi: ๐Ÿค” What if you realizing that is racist though? Libi: conundrum America: well fuck Libi: Hypothetically though Libi: goes a bit beyond mean girl territory to accuse you of racism/fascism America: slightly yeah Libi: thus I would NEVER Libi: ๐Ÿ˜Ž only America: you've seen Gary so you know my hatred isn't rooted in anything racist there America: ๐ŸŽŠ๐ŸŽ‰ Libi: Can back you up there Libi: nothing but warranted and fair America: Thanks Libi: Has he ๐Ÿ’ฌ yet or is he playing it cool? America: Cool or his teacher is a dick ๐Ÿ“ด America: hopefully he's not in a lesson with my sister, that'll turn him off Libi: Not ideal Libi: She's probably changed all her classes to match Jake's, right? America: ๐Ÿคฎ Libi: Too real America: the upside of Gary's regime is that I don't have to see Jake at my house on the regs Libi: Upside? Libi: That's the WHOLE appeal America: ๐Ÿ‘ You're not one of the 'everybody' Chi thinks is obsessed with him ๐ŸŽŠ๐ŸŽ‰ Libi: I don't even know him, in reality Libi: so I probably shouldn't ๐Ÿ’ฌ on him but the only times I've heard him speaking he's been being dismissive or rude so Libi: meh America: Nobody knows him in reality, they live a bubble ๐Ÿฐ๐Ÿ‘‘ America: but when you party, you'll get to know him America: what a fuckwit he happily presents himself as Libi: ๐Ÿ˜ฐ Libi: as long as that's in the bottom 3 of the experience, not top, then it won't put me off the ๐Ÿฅณ as a whole America: don't worry, you're too pretty to have to hear the full ๐Ÿ’ฏ Libi: โ“โ“โ“ America: I just mean, he'll frame it like a compliment for you, so it'll be easier to take or brush off Libi: Compliments don't mean much when they come from an arsehole Libi: ๐Ÿคท America: I know Chi didn't feel that Libi: We've all got our taste, I guess Libi: or lackthereof Libi: I'm making myself sound more and more like a nun by the minute America: Not gonna insist that you prove you're not Libi: ๐Ÿคž it'll become clear Libi: obvious lack of habit aside America: Excellent wordplay Libi: Do my best Libi: though as it's art, not english, probably not appreciated by anyone but you rn America: Graffiti is words a lot of the time & that's art Libi: That's a good point Libi: I'll have to see if he goes for it America: Good luck Libi: Do you like high school so far? America: maybe that's supposed to be a weirder question than if I'm okay, but I lowkey do like it Libi: Me too ๐Ÿ™ƒ Libi: Primary was really boring by the end America: I thought everyone would treat me like a giant baby but I've made so many cool older friends already America: & I refuse to give my sister credit for them ALL Libi: Yeah, I thought the same thing Libi: apart from the usual dickheads being like that to everyone whatever the reason, everyone's been pretty chill Libi: and it's nice that we have SOME say over what we take now, instead of just doing a bit of everything America: My even older sister, from your flashbacks, made this place seem really different America: in a bad way Libi: SAME Libi: not your older sister, that would be random Libi: my aunties and stuff made it sound like literal HELL though America: She is a LOL random type, honestly, I'd believe it Libi: ๐Ÿ˜‚ Libi: No DM slides from either sister, we're ๐Ÿ‘Œ America: that'll happen when she finds out you pimped me to Sean Libi: ๐Ÿ˜ฌ Libi: well when you put it like THAT America: jk she hasn't threatened anyone on my behalf since everyone was over my OUTRAGEOUS lies about who my da was & I got doxxed to prove how ๐Ÿฅฑ he is America: Primary really did get boring by the end Libi: Like I said, no imagination America: what was your favourite lie of mine? Everyone's got one Libi: ๐Ÿค” Libi: Long haul lorry driver Libi: because it seemed the most realistic so everyone thought that one was true America: I tripped myself up when I added he witnessed that ๐Ÿšฝ murder Libi: Right Libi: and then suddenly it was all along route 66 Libi: ๐Ÿ‘Ž America: it was a better naming story than my mam's real reasons, I stand by that Libi: Was she a big traveller or wishes she was? America: this would be the PERFECT time for an elaborate lie Libi: Feel free America: you're expecting it now Libi: Suppose that does take away most of the fun Libi: Everyone thought I made up all the stuff about my parents too America: Why didn't you? Libi: That's the thing, probably would've been more comfortable for everyone if I did, honestly Libi: guess the details made it seem unbelievable enough but it just didn't cross my mind, really Libi: I was just wanting to ๐Ÿ’ฌ about them all the time when I was little America: I remember that! Not saying you inspired me to become a pathological liar with how cool it all sounded though America: I probably wouldn't even if Chi hadn't be so mad you gatecrashed her birthday party Libi: ๐Ÿ˜ See, can't say I couldn't hang America: she'll still try to but she's said worse Libi: To be expected America: like a text from Sean Libi: Let's not get it twisted though Libi: not excited for it America: ๐Ÿ˜ is me Libi: What emoji can I be/ America: ๐Ÿฅณ when I'm done with you, bitch Libi: ๐Ÿ˜‚ I accept America: ask your not boyfriend when he's down & slide into my dms Libi: I will Libi: You can hit up Sean and ask him when he hits you up, finally Libi: I think he's gonna hit you up just after lunch Libi: to show he's casual America: ๐Ÿ๐Ÿˆ America: I'll resist the urge to throw myself at him before then America: to show I understand how this all works Libi: Very mature Libi: or actually, not, but we have to get down to boy's levels America: he's about at our level right now, I think that's how the age gap works Libi: That's fair Libi: there's a lot of lads who still think we're diseased or are more interested in whatever game they are rn America: yeah, I don't know how much he knew about me before we met but there's no escaping that we only just got here America: an age based lie isn't happening Libi: No, that's not working Libi: I don't think you need to lie though Libi: he clearly wants to get to know you more too or I'd be awkwardly letting you down right now, right America: unless you're either too nice to do it or mean enough to want to see me make a twat of myself Libi: ๐Ÿง Libi: Have to see, but I am neither, for the record America: catch me on the rebound ๐Ÿ•ท๐Ÿ•ธ Libi: All part of the plan America: I'll partner up with you in PE, give you a chance to make your move America: the seating plan'll fuck you over for the rest America: really would look like a nazi if I force Bekah to give up her seat for me like I'm your new BFFL America: ๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’ฃ Libi: Maybe we don't bring up the 2nd N word around her, like Libi: otherwise she's gonna be cool America: ๐Ÿ‘Œ I'll ๐Ÿคซ America: no casual German dropped into the conversation Libi: You wanna sit next to each other in German though Libi: the boy I sat next to is ๐Ÿฅฑ๐Ÿ˜ด America: The boy I sit next to did fall asleep recently so yeah America: I need to know if I'm ๐Ÿฅฑ or he's ๐Ÿ˜ด & it's not about me Libi: ๐Ÿ‘‹ It's a date Libi: ๐Ÿ˜˜ jk America: they do like it when we roleplay America: ๐Ÿ’๐Ÿ•ฏ๐Ÿท
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It Will Be Alright
My day was going perfectly: I had my favourite lesson โ€“ history- and got a pretty good score on my maths exam. This was before PE though.
"Yes Percy! You can do it! " Annabeth cried from the bleachers waving a massive poster with 'PERCY!' written on it. I was playing my semi-final basketball game of the season and she and Jason had come to cheer me on; Mum and Paul were at a work conference they couldn't miss. I waved back, giving her a small smile before getting back into the game. We had five minutes left and were up 2-0 when it happened.
I was in defence, blocking the other team from the hoop, when a huge guy called Kevin Schmidt wacked the ball over to the other side of the court. Luckily I managed to deflect it, but not without injuring myself. The ball had hit my hand so hard it bent my hand back. I keeled over in excruciating pain, holding my hand as if it were a baby. I got kind of dizzy so I didn't notice the guys had run over to me to check I was okay.
"Percy?! Percy, can you hear me?! " I looked up at Annabeth for a few seconds with a blank look on my face before it registered who it was. "Oh gods," I moaned in pain, feeling a deep throb all down my arm. My right arm as well. Just my luck.ย  "Percy can you stand up? " This time it was my history teacher, Miss Harris who asked the question, putting her hand on my back. " Um, yeah, I just need a, uh, shower. " By this time the game had already ended, regardless of an injured player, so it would've been okay for me to go.
" If you're sure," She looked rather surprised but agreed nonetheless. "Jason, can you help him over?" He nodded quickly, put his arm around my waist and stood me up, walking over to the locker room.
"Hey man, " He said when we got there. "Do you, er, need any... help?" He looked at the mouldy tiles on the floor. "Just my shirt." He relaxed considerably at that. Thank the gods, he whispered to himself. Taking off my shirt was a feat with two people, let alone one, but eventually I wriggled out of it. He then said, " I'm going to talk to Annabeth outside, shout if you need me. " I nodded and quickly slipped off my shorts. I turned the shower on and let it wash over me.
Much to my surprise, the water didn't help. Like at all. Maybe it had but it hurt to much for me to realise. I turned off the shower and wrapped a towel around my waist and walked over to my locker. It was much harder to open left-handed than I thought. After a while, it finally opened so I grabbed my clothes and sat down on a bench, trying to figure out how to put them on. Soon I was fully dressed in my khaki shorts, white t-shirt and my hi-tops. I just tucked the laces into the sides.
Emerging from the locker room, I saw Annabeth and Jase talking in the corner of the court. I had started walking over to them when she saw me over Jason's shoulder and ran over to me. "Are you okay Perce? Did the water work? " She asked hurriedly. I shook my head. "Not that I noticed." Crap, she muttered under her breath. "Guess I'll be taking you to the ER then?" Jason asked getting his car keys out. I nodded tiredly. My arm was really hurting now. Whatever the water had done to help, had gone. "It's okay, I'll pick your car up later." He told me, patting my other shoulder. Annabeth had her arm wrapped around me protectively.
She sat in the backseat with me, keeping me company. "How bad is it? " She whispered in my ear. "Bad." I mouthed back. She gave me a sad look and snuggled up closer to me. Before I could snuggle back, Jason announced we were here. "It's gonna be okay." I heard her say quietly. Whether it was to me or herself, I didn't know.
It didn't take long to be seen by a doctor. Thankfully there was hardly anyone there, because I had no idea how much longer I could stand the pain.
"So how did you injure you hand?" The doc asked, feeling the bones in my hand and wrist. "It was during- ah ah- basketball." I said, exclaiming as she hit a painful spot. "The opponent threw it so hard it bent my hand back." "My god!" She looked really concerned. "I'm going to need to take some X-Rays. Where are your parents?" She asked, writing some notes. "Poughkeepsie." I told her wincing slightly. "They're at a conference." She nodded, writing this down.
"Do you have a number for them?" She asked, and I recited the number like mom had taught me to do in an emergency. "Someone from radiography will be down soon, and I'll get a nurse to give you something g for the pain." I gave my thanks and she left the room. Then Annabeth and Jase walked in and kept me company until it was time to go upstairs.
Finally, mom and Paul got here so the doctor could tell them the results. Wise girl and Jason had to wait outside. "It doesn't look very good I'm afraid. Percy has broken the base of his fourth metatarsal and cracked the hamate and lunate bones in his wrist. Do you have any questions?" I gripped mums hand tightly, panic starting to take over. "What about basket ball?" I asked. "It's finals next week." She looked down at my chart nervously. "I'm sorry, but you won't be able to play for the next two and a half to three months. I will come back to do your cast in a few minutes." She swiftly left the room. I dropped my grip on mums hand, letting it fall next to her. "Oh honey, I'm so sorry. " I heard her say in the background. It was like I had cotton wool in my ears. She bent down for a hug, but I stopped her before she could get any closer. "I, er, want to be alone." I choked out, tears brimming. "Don't let them come in." She knew who I meant. She nodded and quickly left the room, Paul tagging along behind. "It'll be okay." He whispered before closing the door. Moments later, the tears started to fall.
A few minutes later like the doc said, there was a knocking on the door, bringing me out of my pity party. "Percy? Can I come in?" I furiously started wiping my eyes before letting her in. "Hey. I've come for your cast." I nodded understanding. "This is going to hurt, just to warn you." And it did. I liked her because she didn't lie to me. Oh and she was hot. But anyways. Fifteen minutes later, she asked me what colour I wanted. I told her green, wincing through the sharp pains. "The colour of your eyes." She said dreamily. Then she looked up with wide eyes. "Excuse me,,I need to check on something." She probably thought she said that in her head. Nevermind. With my left hand, I called mum from my phone.
"Mum?"
"Yes sweetheart?"
"Can you ask them to leave? I don't want them to see me like this."
"Sure," she said sadly. "I'll come in when they've gone."
"Okay."
"What about Paul?"
"Can he go as well?"
"Okay. I'll be there in a few minutes."
"Thanks."
Soon mum came in looking upset. "What's up?" I asked, scrutinizing her expression. "They won't think any differently of you." I took a deep breath. "I just can't deal with them right now. Right now I want my mum." Tears starting to spill from her eyes, she rushed over and hugged me so hard, I thought I was going to suffocate. "It'll be alright baby." She sniffled into my shoulder. We sat like that for a while before driving home.
When we got there I went straight to my room and locked it. I wanted to get properly upset - I couldn't in hospital. I started telling and throwing things, and a couple of minutes later mum came up, knocking on my door. "Honey," she said. "Can I come in?" I didn't answer so she unlocked the door herself. She gasped when she saw me. I could feel the tear stains down my cheeks and my hair must've been a mess. She came over silently and pulled me into another hug.
"They'll be picking for scholarships next week," I cried into her. "I'm not going to have any chance!" I cried for a while, mum occasionally shushing me. "It will be alright. "
AN - I'm British so I don't know if they actually do things like that in PE so don't hate me! Find me on wattpad and fanfiction.net as Sugababe20!
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