To A Happy 2018
This isn’t a follow forever or mutual list, I just wanted to give a little personal shoutout to some of you who make tumblr a place i want to keep coming back to.
There are many more wonderful people I didn’t mention, but I hope in the coming year to step out of my comfort zone a little and try to talk to you all more, even if it is only over anon. To everyone who has sent me an encouraging message or anon in recent days, I was truly touched and I thank you so much. To all of my followers, i love you and you’re doing great and i hope you have a soft 2018 filled with love and good things!!
@bbhsavocado i feel like i learned so much about u pricilla that night of the bbh in panties talk aldkjsgljk how validating to see my kinks shared n sub bbh appreciated like that, but it was also awful n i hated it. i love all ur bisexual bbh-loving content n ur friendship with some mutuals is so adorable i hope u all find great gfs this year <3 i have no idea y i took so long to follow u bc ur everything i want in a blog
@bbhsthighs nicole, u want to be a person who gives happiness like the boy who inspired ur url, and u do, u really really do. ur hilarious and adorable in ur tags and ur interactions with ur other friends on here. i can tell how much you love them and how much they love you back <3 maybe some ppl first liked u for ur humor and light, but love means accepting u when ur hurting and when u dont feel like u can shine anymore. pls dont be afraid to share that side of you with those who deserve ur trust, bc thats what a true friendship is. pls treat urself with the same kindness u give to everyone else. asking for help isnt being selfish and it isnt letting anyone down. u do not have to shine for everyone else while being blind urself. following u has been a wild ride from the day i first found ur blog and ive enjoyed every day since. this year i hope the world becomes a bright and beautiful place for you.
@bobohu elaine, im not sure who you want following you since u changed ur blog...i think u left while i was taking a break from tumblr, but i found you again from a post about the kinds of love you feel for exo, i knew there was only one person who writes like that, so beautifully and so full of love. you were one of the first exo blogs i followed and you have always been someone who radiates good vibes and sunshine. i want u to know i appreciate every one of ur positivity posts, and even in your selfies, your smile, you look exactly how i would expect from the kind of cute content you have. i want to genuinely thank you for being a fan for so long and doing what u can to make others happy. i love seeing your posts and im very happy i found you again
@boxianb ive been following u for so long and like idk how u do it but u reblog every single baekhyun post i have on my blog without fail. always. u r just all baekhyun all the time and u know what i admire that i respect that so much that is dedication and i see u and appreciate that, its exactly what i want and need in my life, thank you !!
@byunchen mel, ive seen your posts lately and how you are lonely and missing friends on here, and ive been following you for like...two years now..and we don’t really talk, im shy and you say ur shy and bad at talking.... but here’s me saying that i see you and i appreciate the time you spend on here blogging and talking. im not really active enough anymore to promise to interact a lot but this year i will try to talk more and i wish you many adorable anons and people to call friends !! thank u for coming this far and being an important part of my dash
@exolgbt around when i first followed u i was questioning a lot if i was actually a lesbian and somehow ur blog just like...comforted me ? made me feel good ? helped me try to understand myself ? seeing someone so proudly a lesbian and also so in love with exo... ive come to terms with being bisexual but i admire you and really love your content and all the exo mlm appreciation !! ur doing good work <3
@imagine-baekhyun i dont know who is running this account but ur literally ruining my life thanks i hate it !!!!!!
@kjonginswife i have to admit ive wanted to talk to u for a while alkjgslkjg its nice to see someone my own age on here, i did see ur universe reaction and i think youre adorable haha i dont follow a lot of non-bbh stans and honestly i think i followed you at first by mistake but i have never regretted it !! idk how to put it into eloquent words but basically u give me such good friendly vibes and i love seeing your posts and your tags and your personality and just know someone on here really appreciates you and would miss you if u left
@kkaeb-my-song one of the holy first baekhyun blogs i followed <3 from the beginning you struck me as a very sweet person so cutely in love with baekhyun and that hasn’t changed, ive only come to appreciate you even more. you’re a constant on here and being in this fandom wouldn’t be the same without you !!
@mochibaeks I LOVE YOU i know youre not as active lately jelly but I LOVE YOU youre like the sweetest cutest squishiest most adorable person ive seen on this site i just...love...everything you say and make!! im p sure i first followed u bc u did like the bias audio challenge a while ago...u sounded so friendly and adorable, ur voice is very fitting for you haha you are so warm i hope you stick around for a long time because i love you soooo much
@rosybbh ive been following u sophia for a while and we’re mutuals but we havent talked a lot and im still honestly intimidated by you lol idk how u feel about this view but i see you as a very strong person, just the way u talk seems confident in some way to me, whether u feel like that or not. i dont really have the right words, but i admire that. i LOVE everything u say about bbh...all ur posts for bbh n about u n bbh...damn u always got me daydreaming about him too :( except ok there was this one pic of chanyeol and u said smth like ‘imagine him manspreading’ and id like u to know that that actually ruined my life and i havent forgotten it so thanks. for u especially i hope u have a very bright and healing year
@r-velvets vivian i know u have been gone recently but still lurk, and u have one of my fave blogs content wise and gifs and personality. u r still like THAT way too cool mutual i get so excited to see...especially bc you’re also so kind and during that really hard night after the news of Jonghyun, idk how or why but just those few words u said made me feel a lot better. i miss you online but i hope youre doing well in your real life and finding happiness
@sefuns i dont have a lot to say bc im really shy but u were the FIRST exo blog i ever followed and you have given nothing but great content since i found you two years ago, and when u followed me more recently i could not believe the notification aglksjgljk i have no idea how u found me but knowing we’re mutuals made me very happy and gave me a little blush and i just wanted to let u know that
@thundaelights fey, i dont think this will mean much to you coming from a stranger, but after following you for two years, i feel like i know you some, and i want to say that i hope this year you see many beautiful sights, and your heart feels light, and you are surrounded by things that give happiness. i hope something happens soon that makes the whole world look different, look brighter. its funny how life can change so fast and without warning. i wish you not just strength but also a safe place to fall apart and hope to put yourself back together. may you find countless reasons to smile
@wangeun we talked a lot for a while and then i just kind of disappeared i think as i often do rip but i still love following you and i just want to say real quick that i see you and i notice you and i would miss you if you left and i hope youre finding a lot of success in your life
to new mutuals @cuddlyjd @okaybaekhyun @baekhyuns i still get so shy and happy when anyone follows me back but thank you !! you are all three cute and adorable and funny n kenzie i hadnt followed a great jongdae stan in a while since the old dae-biased blogs i followed became inactive thank u for loving jongdae so well alkgjs
@sebyun @winterbyuns @etherealbbh @progamerbyun @dearbyun @baeksee @byunvoyage @solobaek @queenbyun @baekhyy @baehkhun @ethereal-baek i love all of u bbh stans giving baekhyun the love and adoration he deserves n giving me the positive baekhyun content my heart needs. esp solobaek (kiki, right?) u have the cutest most wonderful tags i love reading them all and seeing so many heart emojis
im sorry i dont have the most to say but im thinking of you all and wishing you the best!!!!
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selected tweets 2016-17
These are tweets from my first @luisneer twitter account. Recently I made a new twitter account with the same username, after having deleted my account and having been without twitter for several months. These tweets are from August 2016 to March 2017, which was most of my first year of college at Shepherd University, in Shepherdstown, West Virginia. I don't go to Shepherd anymore; I transferred to West Virginia University, in Morgantown, WV, after my second semester. My tweets from late March 2017 to [July or August] 2017, when I deleted my twitter, were not archived.
I'm creating this blog post so the world will have access to some of my tweets from the deleted @luisneer, in case they have any merit as literature. I'm still not sure if I will continue to use twitter in 2018/the future. Usually when I use twitter I feel like I'm actually wanting to be doing something else, but I don't know what; or wanting to be using "another app" that doesn't exist. Twitter generally seems bad for me. Questions about my tweets August 2016-March 2017 can be directed at
[email protected]. Thank you
2016
morgantown has ~48 vape shops
**morgantown has ~480 vape shops
siri has werner herzog-like inflections
considering changing outfits when i take several walks in one day (so nobody thinks im a serial killer, stalker, spy, alien)
think i remember ~5% of things i said today
imagined vague connection btwn 'vitamin d' and 'reptar'
felt distinctly that i was a monkey or chimpanzee while crouching in the corner of my dorm room eating peanuts out of a jar
just thought (as a request to my mom) 'fax me my skateboard...'
looked at toilet in bathroom stall with expression of 'utter terror' for what felt like ~15 seconds while it flushed
listening to bright eyes with headphones at house show
feel that the toothpaste i use is advancing decay of my teeth
feel 100% certain that i could train myself to use telepathy to operate my phone during classes
enjoying the sensation of my right leg 'falling asleep' during psychology class (left foot is also 'asleep')
felt 'sociopathic' after eye contact w library worker who watched me pick up & pocket a pair of apple headphones someone had left on a chair
left stolen apple headphones on gray bench across the street from my dorm
repeatedly placed/removed sunglasses while walking in hallway
strong desire to remove all positive patterns from my life and perpetuate/embrace all negative ones
feel that my laptop 'knows' which parts of its screen im looking at
in winchester, VA
thought of my own music as having 'no compelling audible elements'
thought of myself as being legally named 'the fuck up', then couldnt remember my actual name
successfully, i feel, duplicated 'sociopath facial expression' during eye contact with arch-nemesis in stairwell
ive taken 13800mg ibuprofen since i got to college
feel compelled to ask my 9 yr old brother for advice re 'college-level' personal issues
feel smart after sitting on couch in painting studio + reading art magazines for 2 hours
persistent notion that 100% of students at my college personally hate me
psychology professor muttered something like 'scary snake... endocrine system...'
feeling heavily drugged/sedated in psych class
psych professor seems obsessed with/terrified by snakes
imagined kanye smoking crystal meth and tweeting something like 'please help me... cant feel mouth... need help'
saw a moth at open mic, thought about god
experiencing difficulty trying to smile
enjoying using numerous cliches ('the case is closed', 'taking a step back', 'harsh realities') in an essay
intrigued by conversation i had 9 hrs ago w/ 2 boys who countered my tone (calm, eloquent) exactly by being loud and rude in a friendly way
felt simultaneously really cute and really lonely while giggling with my mouth closed in french class
imagined kanye inventing the word 'compactualize' and using it in a sentence during a televised interview
enjoyed 8-sentence john updike bio in norton lit anthology
perceived person standing outside bathroom stall occupied by me could 'sense', via something like echolocation, that i was/am depressed
spoke to french professor in what felt like a distinct persona/alternate luis neer called 'marge simpson voice' luis neer
feel confidently that the public debut of 'marge simpson voice' luis neer was a success
feel that 'marge simpson voice' luis neer is the culmination of an unconscious process that initiated in my mind maybe 3-5 years ago
i want to identify/analyze additional alternate luis neers
i dont like videos
i came to college and got weirder, better at writing, more arrogant, more defeated, more sensible
simultaneously feel that i should run 3 miles and that, at this moment, i would be incapable of running any distance
feel urged to draw new attention to my 'marge simpson voice' tweets
huge power outage at shepherd lol
realized theres no such thing as a 'nation'
remembered ive blown off obligations to several people, not just one person, so my irresponsibility doesnt 'have a focus', felt comforted
feel that my follower count is 'crystallized' / will never increase or decrease ever again
struggled to convert 'stick-and-poke' to past tense during conversation in line at sheetz
feel it would be pleasurable to take a donut + bottle of coca-cola from this sheetz via armed robbery
crossed busy road, felt really surprised i didnt get hit by a car, also i wasnt wearing glasses, was walking to sheetz, bought an icee
laughed alone in my dorm thinking that i should print out a picture of barack obama to put on my wall
drank from separate glasses containing soymilk, coffee, iced coffee, apple juice, cranberry juice, water, sprite for dinner/breakfas
just thought 'from adorno to zizek' sans context while shitting
opened gmail, emailed my father, closed gmail, opened gmail again, viewed email to my father, forwarded it to myself
'camcorder' would be a good band name
i thought arnold palmer had already died
willem dafoe doesnt make me uncomfortable
i want to stop being mean
i hate bfs but i want to be someones bf
wishing i was in a car with friends and no cellular service
tangled up in myself and others
twin peaks is depicted as a small town but its population is greater than that of every city in west virginia including the state capital
eating shark
thought of my own intelligence as 'frightening'
thought while walking to class that ginger ale should be made public domain
had the stitches on my chin removed today, touched the scar tissue for the first time
i miss being in therapy
i love carpet
i love carpet !!
just thought about my own tweets and lol'd
mood lately very fragile
this is what i get for staying up til 5 am
all night i've felt a wave of dread swelling up, now it's really hitting me
sound of laughter in public still frightening + unnerving
my instinct for when to unfriend people on facebook has adapted so that i unfriend people over statuses that make me feel no emotions at all
fuck, im feeling so much terror
gucci mane was born 3 days before conor oberst
the other day i mentioned that i was a poet and this vape guy interrupted me to say "and you didnt know it" and i went fucking nuclear
interacted with mailman who was picking up mail as i was trying to mail chapbooks, he didnt notice at first that i was talking to him
what if old people have secrets
my dad is making me root for a football team but im in pain emotionally
i feel guilty in general
thought of my poem "portrait of a nation without any people" as the "lead single" for my full length; it appeared in potluck 14 months ago
im close friends with satan rn
feel like travis scott never intended for people to spell his name with a $
from now on every time i get honey on something ill list the thing in this thread
finger
desk
coffee cup exterior
pajama pants
knee
carpet
chin
phone
shirt
shoe
thought that my elderly geography prof. moves by "shuffling"
feeling shorter, broader
the only part of the new bright eyes box set i want is the booklet
is there a booklet? i know there are nvr b4 sn photos
the song "lime tree" came to conor oberst in a dream
i like citing things in MLA
i write essays by pretending im werner herzog
doesnt seem to be getting later
lit professor gave my project (sequence of 6 sonnets) a C, i wish she would have gotten me expelled, shelley + ginsberg both were expelled
heard someone in another room ask "where's wal-mart?" as if wal-mart were a person whose location could change
i think i just swallowed a filling while eating popcorn, i am very scared, please help
crazy how things get worse
there are people on my floor having tons of fun and im upset
bit my mattress while sitting in the chair next to my bed
weird that chance the rapper only has 2.4 million followers when he's sort of one of the most famous artists in the world rn
also weird that donald trump has made 34,000 tweets, seems like an incredibly large number
the strangeness of yesterday was, for me, augmented by people on the internet talking about a tv show that ive never seen or heard about
the sunlight is obscene
im so upset about the sun being so bright im afraid to go outside
im glad im the only poet who likes trailer park boys
i slept in a blanket fort under my bed and havent left it all day
yr = your ur = you're
my favorite things are pdfs
now that ive adapted my living space to allow me to never leave my blanket fort i feel like my roommate, omar, exists in a parallel universe
i hear him but i never see him
i love latte art, i drink many lattes
thought that twitter "isn't worth it" in an upset tone while drinking mtn dew
felt pleasant considering uniqueness of all parent-offspring relationships
went through my closet + made sure all shirts and jackets were zipped/buttoned
my blanket is generating flashes of light from static electricity
record store guy became visibly sick of me several months ago; feel a little guilty every time i enter his store to spend money
i prefer EPs
felt "out of control" walking downhill listening to dead kennedys with headphones
writing an essay is difficult because idk how much relevant information other people have already considered / moved on from
have been wanting to write at least one poem inside my blanket fort but i don't think it's going to happen, i don't know why
the internet isn't big enough
usually when i think "i dont understand the uproar about [event]" i realize there is no "uproar"
"uproar" is media's way of manipulating the public spotlight and distracting people from important tasks
feeling helpless + melancholy after dying 15 times and killing 2 stormtroopers in star wars battlefront
the only way to attain conor oberst-level emo hair is to lay in bed and sob for hours
i'm sad
my mom was confused when i told her my first book comes out today
was luis neer in odd future
thought "sometimes i just want to end it and start all over" in an exasperated tone re my goodreads account
becoming increasingly convinced it would be best for me personally to take myself extremely seriously/never joke about myself
thinking that my tweets would seem terrible if i were a senator/governor/other politician
imagined doomsday device for future @starwars movies: the "death train," a normal train that exists in space and destroys planets
how does anyone do it
in science fiction movies, spacecraft usually look like shopping malls
everyone in the world is high except me
feel like i want to have poems published immediately
having delusions of grandeur
im sitting on my record player
my most-used word in 2016 was "bleak"
prepared and ate garbanzo beans w a lot of rosemart at 2:00 AM
my brother has a friend over and is being mean to the friend
all i want for christmas is to never cheer up, ever
watching eyes wide shut and hugging duckuc
my nose feels like it's going to bleed
im sad because every bf looks like me
getting better at eating ice cream by punching it with my tongue
the internet is too freaky...
i think 2017 will be a year of realizing things
im watching the angry birds movie
the angry birds movie is so shitty... why was it made...
ive never had a new years kiss
2017
im weird
eating medicinal ice cream
im not going to do any drugs in 2017
made a medicinal phone call
i want to drink some blood
i dreamed that roger ebert wrote a negative review of life after ppl and called it "liner notes"
years dont kill people
feel inexplicably/explicably really scared about the future of my poetry career
i've felt stoned since i was a baby
downloading google earth
made eye contact in starbucks with possible luis neer incarnation from ~50 years in future; bon jovi "dead or alive" played through speakers
realised that at some point in the future i will become extremely interested in watching football
i recommend reading poems extremely slowly while touching the text with your middle finger/index finger
experiencing cognitive dissonance
used phonetic clues to correctly predict meaning of & use the word "tandem" while discoursing with myself internally
i miss steel pedal guitar sounds on conor oberst songs
my previous incarnation "college luis neer" has evolved to become "high school luis neer-like luis neer in college setting"
thought "man, i got to stop caring what people think about me" in an emphatic tone that seemed confusing/interesting
mediocore
beyonce is cool i think
i want to re-read "v for vendetta" and to not tweet about it
remembered that i own a pinata
i will be at awp
how could i make twitter a better place
i saw 4 people wearing yeezys in dc this weekend
feeling increasingly self-conscious about how much i use the phrase "in the world" or refer to "the world" in poems
felt robot-like while attaching detachable headphones cord to my headphones while wearing the headphones
watching shepherd univ lacrosse team practice from "safety of" student center
i invented releasing two chapbooks in one day
im dumber than me
reasoned mentally that im more likely to produce accurate drawings of myself because "i basically look like a bird, so i just draw a bird"
i want to have a "fake tweet" (e.g. a simple phrase) to tweet repeatedly every time i feel urged to tweet an uninformed/unimportant opinion
my fake tweet for the foreseeable future will be "i dropped my textbook in the stairwell". when i tweet this it means i have an opinion
i dropped my textbook in the stairwell
does anyone remember the chapter of "the hobbit" where bilbo avoids starvation by ingesting peanut butter, honey, cherry nyquil, and water
sensed that all my college friends just simultaneously shifted from having vague/non-serious negative feelings about me to hating me
resulting from continuous building of irrepressible/inevitable conjecture in the friends' conscious thoughts
eating chicken and squash
i click on 100% of poetry links tweeted by poets i follow
when i was writing Waves i was obsessed with waves (e.g. energy waves, frequencies) and used the word "waves" at least ~10 times every day
i dropped my textbook in the stairwell
white nike swooshes on shoes of boy in library look vibrant/magical
terrified of being cool
walked to library really slowly while listening to noise music through big headphones
i was really, really yung when i started publishing and i'm still really yung
2 chainz always looks like he's walking in an airport
i have 5 twitters
i didnt know what bill paxton looked like, i was thinking RIP gene hackman
why doesnt anyone blog about me
thesis statements arent real
thinking about my book
i deleted both my tumblrs by accident
sad about my tumblr
my name is all over the internet
im a lizard
someday there'll be no more ppl
a lot of conor oberst song titles have parentheses
feeling sad about the actions of my clone, who passed away
idk how to use venmo or what it is
present-day tumblr is like the end of the never ending story where atreyu is talking with the rock biter and the nothing is swirling around
when someone, anyone, is upset with me im afraid im going to be assassinated
the views-era apple music ads that depict drake working hard in the studio have really affected and inspired me
on tumblr i have 4 followers
almost all of my tweets seem unimportant
feel that if someone told me that one of my tweets made them upset i would just apologize and delete it
ground control to commander venus
i like my new tumblr
i would be wearing a cardigan rn but i dont have one
feel that i will continue to generate bright eyes-related content throughout my life
is everything ok
i look like michael moore
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