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#i have no desire for my family to ever know i’m genderqueer bc i don’t need them to know but eventually my aunt is going to need to know the
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#i’m cishet neurotypical for the weekend right and i guess bc i was cishet half of the time just two short years ago i thought this would be#a lot easier than it is? like i underestimated how exhausting this would be#not to sound Like This but hanging with all of these protestants really is so different than the catholics. maybe bc i’ve been largely surro#unded by catholics so im well adapted to dealing with them lol idk.#it’s just. i accepted that the cousins wouldn’t accept me if they ever knew but my beloved beloved great aunt…..#my mom is so sure that she would accept me if she knew but i’ve been telling her i don’t know i don’t know now that she’s a protestant it’s#different…. and lo and behold every other fucking word out of her mouth is virulent shit#and idk what to do with it.#i love her too much to lose her over this (for now) but christ i nearly told her i was a dyke at lunch today just to get her to shut up abou#t trans people.#i have no desire for my family to ever know i’m genderqueer bc i don’t need them to know but eventually my aunt is going to need to know the#homosexuality and this trip has just emphasized how. man it’s gonna be shit isn’t it. no doubt to cling to anymore.#anyways i’m expected to go to baptist church tmrw morning and autism brain i kind of want to go just to see what it’s like but me brain i’m#just. so tired. and even if the transgenders don’t get brought up in the service i don’t think i want to go anyways.
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spikycharlotte · 7 years
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y’all better strap in
four jews in a room bitching / what’s your favorite stereotype for your religion?
haha i don’t really identify with one in particular? so i’m not sure.
a tight-knit family / who do you consider family?
i for sure believe “blood of the covenant is thicker than the water of the womb.” while i do have family members whom i do love and am proud to call family, i don’t think the question is calling for that.
my best friends are like family to me, and i’d do anything for them. i also have a mentor/teacher, and he and his wife are like second parents to me.
love is blind / what makes a healthy relationship?
C O M M U N I C A T I O N ! ! ! you should NEVER be lying to your s/o!! and if your s/o does something you’re not comfortable with/makes you upset, TELL THEM! you shouldn’t be stewing, but also don’t enter the conversation angry and accusatory. and on the flip side, if your s/o comes to you with something you did, LISTEN TO THEM. apologize and explain yourself, even if it was just a misunderstanding! avoid becoming defensive. 
the thrill of first love / what’s something you’d kill for?
answered here!
marvin at the psychiatrist / do you ever feel like no one is listening to you when you talk?
i used to feel this way all the time, but i’ve recently become comfortable with saying, “excuse me, i was speaking” when i’m spoken over. also i find myself in lots of leadership positions in my day-to-day, so i’m pretty good at making myself heard.
my father’s a homo / could you/would you want to be president?
the idea (a loud, genderqueer, butch lesbian with the conscience to do the best for others) sounds great, but i’m not the person that fits that description to be president. i’m infj, so i’ve got the teacher personality, and that’s what i want to do!
everyone tells jason to see a psychiatrist / do people nag you consistently about something? if so, what?
this is such a #relatableteen answer but my room is a goddamn mess and my mom nags me on the daily to clean it (something i never do)
this had better come to a stop / what’s something people do that infuriates you?
i talked about this a little bit, but when people come to me with relationship issues and the issue could resolved so easily if instead of coming to me and telling me, they just went to their s/o. a problem cannot be resolved through outside sources.
i’m breaking down / what makes you crazy/pushes you over the edge?
answered here!
please come to our house / what was the last thing you did to help someone?
ummm to fit with the “therapy” theme of this the other night i helped a friend when she needed to vent about some crappy home things. 
jason’s therapy / what’s the worst advice you’ve ever been given?
i resent this question being with this song!!! i think mendel’s “feel alright” advice (while flawed) at its core is actually kind of pure and good! of course the way he gives it is bad (ignore your problems!)
but worst advice i’ve ever been given was i asked a friend towards the beginning of my last relationship if i should continue it and she said i should, and it ended much later and i was very unhappy throughout most of it. so that was pretty shitty. (i now have a very wonderful girlfriend who is currently having me answer all of these questions :-))
a marriage proposal / how would you want to be proposed to?
actually something very similar to how mendel does it! something private and lowkey, and just having someone word vomit their love for me sounds very cute and endearing.
however i always thought of myself as the one who would propose, so there’s that
a tight-knit family (reprise) / are you satisfied with what you have in life, or do you want more?
well as a student in high school it’s kind of hard to be satisfied, because there’s so much i want to do but i can’t as my student-ness prevents me from doing so.
but considering my place in life, i think i am quite happy!! i have a great gf, great friends, and i’m kind of excited for this school year!
trina’s song / what’s the worst interaction you’ve had with the opposite gender?
every interaction i’ve ever had with a male human being ever in my life. i could go on and on. but one that comes to mind is how one time a dude went on this huge rant during a teacher’s lecture about freud’s psychosexual theories about how homosexuality is an unnatural choice, all while continuing to glance at me to make sure he got his desired reaction
march of the falsettos / who’s the most immature person you know, and why?
um i know plenty, but the worst are some of my younger very intelligent female friends who are more focused on their boyfriends than their academics, which while i love and support them infuriate me to no end.
trina’s song (reprise) / have you ever settled for something better than you’d expected, but not as good as you’d hoped?
while this worked out for trina, as she soon would realize that mendel would be as good as she hoped, settling for less than you hope is never a good thing. 
i’ve always thought this, so i can’t really think of any examples
the chess game / what’s the most petty thing you’ve ever done?
perfect question for this song, op. 
i’ve done a lot of petty things in my life, bc i think everyone does. very recently though a girl was annoying the hell out of me trying to get me to tell her the answers for our summer hw and i gave her the entirely wrong answers.
making a home / how different are you in public than in private?
my personality is very much the same, but i’m obviously more in public. i don’t swear as much. and in private i talk to myself and sing loudly all the time which doesn’t make much sense to do in public
the games i play / do you ever wish you were doing more than you currently are?
constantly. i’m in high school so my options are grossly limited. i’m super excited to go to college and begin my teaching career. i just really want to help people!!
marvin hits trina / have you ever hated someone for being happy?
before i was in a better place like i am now, i really resented my best friend for getting a boyfriend for a while. but now i’m fine and very happy for the both of them.
i never wanted to love you / have you ever liked something you knew was bad? have you stopped?
um in middle school i liked sup/erwhol/ock despite the problematicness of them all (the other two more so than d/octor w/ho), if that’s what this means.
father to son / what is your relationship with your parents?
i love my mom a lot, she’s great. she had me in high school, and my bio dad split when he found out i existed, so i’ve never met him, but i also have no interest in doing so. i love my (step) dad a lot, but our relationship is kind of strained bc i don’t think he fully understands my being gay (even though he’s not rude or anything about it)
falsettoland/about time / do you use labels?
i actually quite like labels ? i like legitimizing my identity by finding out that other people feel the same way, and therefore have worked to put a name to it.
that’s also why i kind of like the femme/butch scale even though it was initially a joke, bc it acknowledges that not every lesbian is lipstick OR stone butch, and idk i kinda like it. but i do hate when nonlesbians ,,,,,, use it ,,,,,,, to describe lesbians,,,,, bc,,, it’s not for them…..
year of the child / when was the last time everything was about you?
idk prob my birthday parties… i don’t like being the perfect center of attention, i feel uncomfortable
miracle of judaism / what’s the last significant decision you had to make?
oh geez idk. i don’t make a lot of those… i can’t think of one right now.
the baseball game / do you play/like sports? which ones?
i do not like them really… i like badminton tho… that’s more of an activity and not a sport though
a day in falsettoland / what’s your daily routine like? 
during the summer, i wake up and fart around on the internet, unless i have somewhere to be. all the while texting maggie all day
everyone hates his parents / what was the last thing your parents did that pissed you off?
my mom is a really bad backseat driver. like swearing and anger is her brand of backseat driving. so it makes me super anxious and angry hearing someone constantly bitch while i’m trying to drive
what more can i say? / are you in love? have you ever been in love? what is it like? 
answered here! 
something bad is happening / do you get frustrated when you don’t know something?
yes i do. its a problem, especially as i’m on academic team
more racquetball / are you a sore loser/winner?
yes yes yes. mariokart comes to mind in particular. if i lose it was lagging or too many items were unfairly sent my way, or if i win everyone else sucks and i’m the best
holding to the ground / how do you react when things don’t go as planned?
i’m not the best. i’m a huge control freak, so when things don’t work out perfectly i freak out
days like this / are you an optimist, a pessimist, or a realist?
i think i’m like an.. optimistic realist? like i’m a realist, but with that i’m more likely to say “the worst case scenario is this, so at least that’s not happening”
canceling the bar mitzvah / how do you react under pressure?
i get stressed, but i also get my work done, so good and bad
unlikely lovers / do you have any friends who are extremely different from you?
yeah, a lot actually! i have one friend who listens to hard core rock stuff and has a bunch of piercings and has never listened to a musical in her life and i also have friends super into gymnastics and cheerleading and stuff. i love my friends!!
another miracle of judaism / if you could have anything right now, what would it be?
maggie, next to me
something bad is happening (reprise) / have you ever had to deliver some really bad news? how did it go? 
i had to explain to someone the oak/great comet drama, which was not fun. but i don’t think i’ve ever had to break super terrible bad news, especially not like what charlotte had to tell her best friend
you gotta die sometime / are you afraid of dying/death?
i don’t know…? the idea of nothingness is for sure daunting
jason’s bar mitzvah / what was the last big event you attended?
the other day i went to the first practice of the year for academic team! theres a lot of us and we had pizza and played and whatnot
falsettoland (reprise) / what do you want your legacy to be?
i just want people to remember me as someone who did their best to help others
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